This took waaaaaay too long to post and I am sorry but between work, my stupid computer and The Odd Couple I have been more or less preoccupied. My apologies lovely ones! Anywho, I know this story hasn't got that big of a following but I still want to continue with your blessings and reviews. So let r rip! Enjoy ;)
Chapter 4 – I have so much to tell you
(KPOV)
I never wanted to let Blaine go. This had to be a dream. He couldn't be here with me, in New York, holding me tightly as strangers walked by in a very crowded airport.
"Pinch me." I must have blurted that out without thinking because Blaine started to laugh in our embrace. He pulled away and before I could stop myself and I whimpered slightly at the loss.
"Why do you need me to pinch you Kurt?" He raised his eyebrows slightly and I noticed that he had tamed them a little and it helped soften his features. I smiled but looked at the ground.
"I just don't want this to be a dream Blaine. I mean we haven't seen each other in well, a year and I haven't talked to you much and I don't want to loose this again and I...ouch Blaaaine what was that for?"
"You asked me to pinch you, ...and you were rambling" He started laughing again and even though I was rubbing my wrist from being pinched I laughed along with him.
"You're still such a dork Anderson." His laugh changed into a chuckle then it slowed to a smile as he looked at me intently.
"Look Kurt...I wanted to be here today to surprise you and I have to admit that I basically couldn't wait to see you again. So let me assure you I am real, this isn't a dream and I really have missed you." He leaned in closer again and grasped the hand he was holding even tighter, "Ok? Let's get out of here and get that coffee you promised me." He winked and my legs literally turned to jelly again.
"Ok." I blushed furiously yet again in front of Blaine. How did he always do that to me? No one can make me turn this shade of red this quickly.
He whisked me off to the taxi stand, and of course he was carrying my suitcase but holding my hand still, always the gentleman Anderson, and flagged down a cab for us. We packed my luggage in the back and hopped in. Blaine started to give an address when I stopped him.
"Wait! I have to go by the house first and say hi to Mercedes and Rach. I also have to drop my stuff off unless you wouldn't mind dragging this around for the afternoon."
He shrugged so I gave the driver the address for my apartment on Canal St and off we went.
"You're living near the university too then huh?"
I raised a questioning eyebrow, "Yeah? I told you we weren't going to be living too far off campus with all of us going there that is. Walking will save money on transit". I said matter-of-factly.
"Yeah I know but I didn't realize how close you'd be. I live on Crosby St which is like a 10 minute walk from your apartment." He was smiling so big at this last statement that I chuckled at his excitement.
"Well I guess that's just another reason to not ignore me Blaine." I winked and I could see him blush as he looked at the floor of the cab which suddenly became very interesting for him. He then exhaled a deep breath which I figured he must have been holding a while and said, "Kurt I will never ignore you. Personally I think you're going to get very tired of me soon because I'll be around so much."
"Blaine I..."
"No wait Kurt." He held up his other hand to enforce the pause in my response and grasped my other hand even tighter and looking straight into my eyes before continuing.
"I was going to wait until we had coffee to say all this but considering the timing and where this conversation is leading I need to get this off my chest. Kurt I never should have left Ohio when I did. Yes I have made a few good friends here but I forgot my best friend at home. Why we ever stopped talking when I was there still baffles me. I can't understand what happened or why we drifted apart. I wanted to be there for you and share everything best friends should share with each other , but life somehow got in the way Kurt...", it was my turn to stop him. I shuffled in my seat as I let go of his hand and looked at the pained expression on his face and the tears now forming in them.
"Blaine stop. Just stop. I have cried too much over you and what we lost. It took me a long time to come to terms with you leaving, leaving me." Blaine let his tears fall as he scrunched his eyes closed, trying hard not to look at me but I placed my hand under that familiar chin and made him face me.
"Blaine I want you around, I always have and I don't think I could bear you leaving again. I went through so much when you were gone but I don't think I can tell you about all of that yet but I will. I want to get to know you again and be a apart of your life but you need to just promise me that you won't leave me again."
I started shaking a little then and up until now I hadn't come to terms with how much I needed to tell him this.
"Kurt, I never wanted to screw this up..." he was gesturing between the two of us, "but somehow I did. And I will do my best for as long as you'll have me around to try and fix us. B-because I-I never want to say good-bye to you Kurt...never again."
I pulled him into a hug again and I knew this was at least a starting point into fixing us. We had finally apologized in person.
"I'll never say good-bye to you Blaine." We stayed like that for a few minutes and then pulled apart and gave each other embarrassed looks as we moved ourselves to a more comfortable distance. We enjoyed a relaxing silence for a bit as we looked outside and then back at each other until once again Blaine whispered in my direction.
"I'm guessing that we're gonna be ok right?" Blaine was looking at me shyly and I couldn't help but smile. Even after all we'd been through he still got embarrassed around me and vice versa. Even though his blush was never as obviously noticeable as mine.
"I think so. Eventually." I gave him my biggest smile as I felt the cab come to a stop.
"Oh! Are we here already?" I asked feeling a little dumb that I hadn't even noticed how far we'd come and it had been almost a half hour cab ride. I always did get lost in his eyes, his face, his smile....ok kurt snap out of it and pay the man.
Blaine seemed a little shocked too at how long we'd been in the car but nodded and tried to pay for the cab for me but I shooed him away much to his dislike. He even pouted at me.
"Oh stop it Blaine. Save your money. Besides you can carry my bags upstairs if you're still feeling chivalrous." He laughed and pulled my bags out of the trunk for me and set it on the curb as we both looked up at the building that was going to be my home for the next few weeks.
"So this is home huh?" He turned to face me, "so do you think it would be ok if I helped you up with this stuff? Or is Mercedes gonna try and kick my ass or something if she sees me?"
"Noooo, she won't and besides her and Rachael know we're talking again so they shouldn't be too surprised to see you."
"Ok but I'm not staying, I'm going to come back in a few hours and we're going for dinner and then coffee. My treat no argument Kurt."
I sighed and rolled my eyes, "Alright Anderson, dinner it is but still come up and say hi to my girls. They probably miss you too, they were you're friends too. I mean you did make out with at least one of them." I laughed as I saw the familiar eye roll and irritation on my friend's face.
"Kuuuuurt, really you're going to bring up my one "I think I'm bi cuz I'm drunk' moment?"
"You bet your sweet ass I am, its eternal blackmail Blaine, I get to lock it up and use it on special occasions."
We had walked into the building and hit the buzzer even though I couldn't stop giggling at his annoyance.
"Wait Kurt...did you just call my ass sweet?" If I could have turned the colour of this horrendous cherry carpeting in the lobby I think I would have. "Uuhhhh, you know what I mean Blaine..."
Saved by the Buzzer
"Hello"
"Cedes I'm here!"
"Boo, come in honey" We pulled the door open at the beep and I could vaguely hear Rach and Mercy squealing over the receiver that they hadn't hung up yet.
Blaine was laughing along with me as we got into the very tiny elevator with all my luggage.
"Oh Gaga this is the one time when I think I may have brought too much. Why is this elevator so small?"
"You'll find a lot of buildings in New York are old Kurt and they were never really meant to accommodate more than one or two people in the elevator at once; never mind your entire Mark Jacobs line!"
I opened my mouth in protest as he started laughing at me but I surrendered in order to be polite as the elevator opened on 4. "I'll have you know that my Mark Jacobs line was shipped over thank you very much." I stuck my tongue out him to show my 'mature' side as I walked out the door and taking a lucky guess which way 401 was.
He just kept snickering as I found the door and knocked. It opened with a flourish to find my two favourite girls staring at me briefly before simultaneously wrapping their arms around me in a huge hug,
"Kurt! We missed you!"
"Mercedes and I have been so anxious for you to get here and now that you are its just...wait Blaine? Blaine Warbler what on earth on you dong here?" Rachael still used that stupid pet name for him. Mercedes turned to see Blaine standing there with his hand nervously rubbing his neck. "Um hi girls. Long time no see. I was just helping Kurt with his bags so...um I'll just go..."
"Wait Blaine" It was Mercedes who stopped him before I did, as Rachael gave her and me a suspicious look before Mercedes continued, "Its good to see you Blaine, how did you find Kurt already?"
"He met me at the airport Cedes, it was a complete surprise, he never told me he was going to just show up."
"Awww that's sweet Blaine, like something out a classic movie or something." Rachael did always have a way of sapping things up. In this case though I did tend on agreeing with her but I'd never tell her that.
"Yeah I just wanted to see him as soon as I could.". The girls made a bunch of little noises that sounded like awww's as I walked past them into the apartment with the bag I was carrying, trying to avoid their gaze because I was getting embarrassed again.
Mercedes grabbed Blaine's hand and pulled him inside with Rach and my other suitcase as I took in my surroundings. I saw the couch which was to be my bed and I looked around frantically for the other suitcase and garment bags that Carol said she had shipped. It wasn't like I didn't trust her I was just worried about my clothes.
"Everything's there Kurt. I checked the list you sent me twice, and your more expensive stuff is in my wardrobe hung with care so relax. You want anything to drink Blaine?"
Oh crap Blaine I forgot he was standing there as I was obsessing over my wardrobe. He was standing near the door with his arms crossed looking a little lost but watching me with the smallest of amused smiles.
"No thanks Mercedes, I really should be going anyway, but thanks or the offer. I'll let you guys talk."
He made to grab the doorknob but turned to look at me, "See you at 7 Kurt?"
I walked over to see him out and nodded, "Yeah 7 sounds good where am I meeting you?"
"Here of course, I'm coming to pick you up, and before you ask dress semi formal ok?" He always did know that that would be the first thing I would ask.
"Ok see you at seven then.". Before I had time to register what he was doing he pulled me into another strong hug and lightly kissed my cheek before pulling away. He turned a delightful pink colour before turning his heel and walking out the door rather quickly waving at the girls and muttering 'goodbye'. Nothing was said until I closed and locked the door and waited with my head firmly against it for a few seconds.
"Oh My God white boy! What happened that your not telling me?" I turned but I just shook my head trying to will the words out of my mouth.
"I dunno girls but it appears I may have a date with Blaine tonight, at least I think its a date."
Rach ran across the room and mauled me in one of her famous 'oh my god oh my god that's so exciting Rachael Berry' hugs.
"I'm sooo happy for you Kurt! I can't wait to call my dad's and tell them!"
"Oh how I miss you're insanity Rachael" I hugged her back but my eyes were focused on Mercedes who was walking over to me with a skeptic look on her face
"Woah whoa whoa Berry hold up, Kurt are you sure its a date, and that you really want to have Blaine back in your life like this ? I mean if you're happy Boo I'm happy but I just gotta make sure y'know?"
I pulled her into the hug with me and Rach, "Thanks girls, I do appreciate the concern but we both came to understand that our lives just weren't the same without one another; no matter what capacity. We just need one another. Its just gonna take me a while to trust him again"
We embraced and looked around the apartment and it was as if a lightbulb went off in the room as we started to scream like little girls because we had finally all made it. New York. Three very different awkward teens from Ohio had made it here alive from high school and it just sunk in. As if sensing the need Mercedes went over the entertainment wall and started up the music in celebration. We danced around the room and sang along for about 20 minutes when I stopped dead in my tracks.
"Oh my Gaga girls! What am I going to wear tonight?|"
They both laughed at me despite the very serious bitch-face I was wearing. I only had two and a half hours until he was picking me up. That was barely enough time. Sensing my nerves they dragged me into Mercedes' room where some of my cloths were hanging.
"Kurt, Blaine said semi formal right...how bout this?". I smiled
(BPOV)
I was so excited that I literally ran home to tell Jess. I couldn't even tell if my feet were hitting the ground and the irritated looks I was getting from other New Yorkers as I pushed by them weren't even registering.
I finally did it. I have Kurt back.
My internal monologue was going insane. After 16 months and 15 days, yeah I've been counting, since the day where I literally chickened out, today I had grown a pair as Jess would say. How I was ever that stupid I will never get over but here I was finally having washed away my fear and feeling better than I had in months.
My thoughts were running amok and as I approached home I noticed that my feet were burning. As I ascended the steps to the apartment door, I came to realize that loafers were not good for running a few city blocks in at full speed; and I was out of breath.
I all but burst through the door and I think I scared the shit out of Jess who was in the kitchen prepping something because she dropped whatever she was holding with a small yelp.
"Fuck Blaine you scared the shit out of me!". She stopped to look at my slightly disheveled appearance and continued, "B? What the hell happened to you honey?"
I looked down at myself and now I could see her concern, not only was I limping slightly from running on concrete with loafers but my shirt was wrinkled and I was all sweaty and my hair was...well it was my hair but much wilder than it had been. All I could do was smile at her as I tried to control my breathing after my run.
"B? You're scaring me, you look like a nut job. You're sweaty and you have this crazy gleam in your eye that I don't think I've ever seen before."
I laughed and ran over and hugged her trying to ignore her squirming and obvious 'eww's' from my sweaty shirt.
"I did it Jess. I did it."
"What did you do? Wait...Kurt?" I nodded furiously. "What happened with Kurt?" She pulled away from me to see me grinning like a certifiable idiot. "I did it Jess. I apologized. I've got him b-back."
"Eeeeeeeeeee". She jumped at me and wrapped her tiny frame around me.
"That's awesome sweetie! Oh my god what happened tell me everything!". We rocked in that spot for a second before she dragged me into the living room, barely allowing me to shed my jacket, before plopping down on the couch to regale her in my afternoon reunion with Kurt.
She just sat there and listened as I told her about the hugs, the tears and confessions that had occurred over the last few hours. I never knew I was rambling until she rested her hand on my forearm to get me to stop.
"Ok let me get this straight. You surprised him at the airport and you shared a very intimate moment, kudos on the flower by the way, but you didn't kiss him?"
"Well no, I didn't want to scare him. I mean I just got him back in my life and I didn't want him to freak out or anything."
She seemed to mull this over for a second.
"Ok, that's fair I guess but you want that from your relationship right?" I must have turned a bright shade of red because she didn't let me respond but just squeezed my leg.
"Ok, ok B I think we both know you love this boy more than I originally thought but let's get back to the point. So he said that you guys were going to be ok but that he doesn't trust you fully yet, and isn't quite ready to open up about things yet?" I nodded not sure where she was going with this.
"Well yeah but..."
"No buts Anderson. He has to control this relationship. If you want him to eventually be your boyfriend I assume, you have to let him be completely comfortable with you again. Be attentive. Listen, just be there for him and I'm sure you'll know when the time is right to move forward."
"I can only hope I'm good enough for him Jess."
"Oh my god B. Listen to yourself. The man just flew from another state and was elated when he saw you; even though he hasn't seen you in over a year AND you hadn't spoken much since! He agreed to have dinner with you tonight too! He obviously wants you around and I wouldn't be too surprised if his feelings were mutual."
She gave me a wink and another comforting squeeze on the leg and I offered her another small smile.
"I guess Jessie, I just don't wanna mess this up."
"Then don't. Whisk him off his feet dammit! Be that sappy romantic that I know you are. The one who watches musicals more than the average person should! Be prince charming, you've got the smile and the looks. Use them."
"Thanks honey.." We hugged and I finally tensed when I came to realize that I had 2 hours left until I had to meet Kurt again for a dinner that I haven't even planned yet.
"Oh shit! Oh shit! What am i going to wear? Where am I going to take him? I haven't planned anything!" I got up and started pacing and I think I saw Jess keel over from laughing at me so hard.
"B, you're such a girl sometimes! Look I have a friend at the Bistro across the street from work. I'll call in a favour and get you a private table ok? You did say you wanted a semi formal dinner right?"
"Well yeah, that would be awesome Jess but isn't that Leia's place, the girl you've had a crush on for the past 6 months?" I poked her in the ribs and she turned around and smacked me relatively hard.
"Shut it Blaine! I'm doing you a favour here; this is not the time to be making fun of my lack of initiative ok!"
"Ok, ok sorry, I was just checking honey." I raised my hands in mock defence.
"Yeah it is her place and yes it will give me the opportunity to talk to her since all I do is drool when she's around." At her eye roll I grabbed her into another hug and laughed.
"Aren't we just a bunch of hopeless romantics without a clue?"
"Yeah, we kinda suck at this." she released me then with renewed enthusiasm, "But this is gonna be you're night B! We're gonna break the dry run here and get you the boy of your dreams. Go shower, you smell like a locker room, I'll go call Laura and see what I can do, 8 o'clock reservations sound good?"
I smiled fondly at Jess as I retreated to the entryway to the hallway and I was never so humbled that this strong little woman was in my life.
"That would be awesome Jess. Thank you. I owe you one." She had picked up her phone to obviously call Leia.
"Yeah you do...Oh hi Leia? It's Jess, from next door...umm hi." I shook my head as she turned into a babbling mess while talking to this girl. We were really similar and with her help I might just pull off this date with Kurt.
Oh shit. I have a date with Kurt Hummel. I only hope he wants it to be a date too.
I ran off to the shower with a slight skip but a nervous twitch in my stomach. I've been waiting for a long time for this.
Ok so that took far too long to write. I was having a serious writer's block because I wanted to get so much out in this chapter in a short period of time without it seeming rushed. Each chapter will become more episodic now. Review and let me know how I should proceed. I have ideas ;D many many ideas. Love as always 3