Yay Klaine moments! I just went to the Glee Live concert yesterday so I was inspired for some Klaineness. Here`s the next chapter. I hope you like.
Oh and as always...I own nothing
(BPOV)
"So how do I look?' I waltzed out of the hallway and into the living room looking for the final approval from Jess. I had my dark crimson dress shirt on with my black fitted jeans and I finished it with my Armani jacket. I had decided to not gel my hair down remembering those years back when Kurt said he liked it free of product confines.
Jess looked me up and down and smiled, "Absolutely edible sweetie. He's gonna die when he sees you."
I smiled but I was totally unconvinced. I was really nervous about this for some reason. I mean it was just Kurt. Yeah just Kurt....the one person who I could always confide in. The same man who I would willingly spend every waking moment with just to hear him talk, laugh, sing or just share a quiet moment with. The one's who's eyes were so blue and clear that I found myself lost in them whenever I gazed into them. Kurt really was the one boy who I fell for long ago and whom I may now finally have a chance with. Oh yeah...sure...just Kurt my ass!
I started to feel nauseated and I think I turned slightly pale as I tried to find a place to sit down.
"B...honey...relax ok. Just breathe you'll be fine. Its Kurt so he already cares about you; so just be yourself." She forced me off the floor and into her arms and it never ceased to amaze me that she was so strong physically.
She released me quickly and fixed the lapels on my jacket and turned me around towards the door and shoved me gently in that direction.
"Blaine...get your butt going. You'll be fine I promise. You don't wanna be late. I'm going out for a drink or two with Jake and Terri in a few hours so if you want the apartment tonight it'll be vacant."
She grabbed the front door and gave me a very cheesy eyebrow wiggle which I couldn't help roll my eyes at.
"Not likely Jess. I'm just hoping that he won't yell in my face and leave me stranded on the street corner." She leaned in and pecked me on the lips and gave me a playful pat on the butt and shoved me out the door.
"Go get'em gorgeous. I want details later." I laughed nervously as I walked out into the hallway; the butterflies in my stomach reaching a new velocity.
(KPOV)
Showered, shaved, moisturized and primed. I was pacing furiously having gotten ready quicker than I had imagined since my girls had already found what I could call one of my favourite outfits and I was dressed and ready for Blaine.
I was wearing my overly tight pin stripped dress pants, with a black silk dress shirt and a metallic charcoal vest. I had added the music note pin that Blaine had given me 2 Christmas' ago as an added touch. I had to say I looked good but I was terrified I was over doing it.
I couldn't shake the feeling that I was about to repeat previous mistakes. That I was going to fall head over heels for Blaine again and nothing would ever come of it. He would eventually fade from my existence and I would be back where I started; looking for a relationship with someone else...someone like Will.
I shuddered at the memory of my ex, and I placed my thumb and forefinger on the bridge of my nose as I felt the little imperfection from where it broke those few months ago now.
I couldn't let myself fall for him again; not until I was sure that he felt the same. I wasn't going to repeat the same mistakes; take the same path. I don't think my heart could take it. Blaine broke my heart without me ever giving it to him fully so I couldn't expose myself again; I needed to trust him first. He couldn't know the weak person I became in our time apart; he couldn't know yet that I was scarred deeply and that I didn't trust anyone anymore...but I would have to tell him eventually if I gained that trust. Just then something stirred me from my thoughts.
Knock, Knock, Knock
I jumped a little and considering Mercedes and Rachael had gone out for dinner I had to relax a little and open the door.
Blaine.
How could I not love this boy? He looked absolutely divine head to toe and was wearing the tiniest shy grin that I had ever seen on him.
"Hey" It was almost a whisper as my voice apparently betrayed me when I tried to speak.
"Hi Kurt, wow...you look fantastic."
There I go. I blushed yet again. "So do you...um yeah wow kinda sums it up."
We both took each other in until we giggled a little uncomfortably.
"So um...are you ready to go?"
His voice sounded a little unsteady so I decided to lessen the tension.
"Yeah I am but did you wanna come in and talk for a sec before we go; ya know relax?"
"Um sure? Is it ok with the girls?"
"Yeah they're out getting dinner. I just wanted to talk for a bit in private before hand." He nodded and I gestured him inside and towards the couch. It's funny I would have been more nervous had I realized I all but gestured him towards my bed. Ah the irony. We sat down and he unbuttoned his blazer to attempt to make himself more comfortable.
"Blaine I wanted to ask you something before we went out ok. Now don't freak out or anything I just want an honest answer from you ok?"
"O..k? Did I do something wrong Kurt? I mean was this a bad idea?"
"Blaine...shut up ok. You didn't do anything wrong." He was wide eyed at my authoritativeness but remained silent and just awaited my question.
"Blaine is this supposed to be a date?" I was about to regret my question as soon as it left my mouth but I began to see the formulation of a smile hinting on Blaine's face. I couldn't tell if it was mischievous or not or maybe it was just to try and relax me but his answer still surprised me.
"I was hoping i-it c-could be... maybe. Yeah know...if you wanted it t-to be." I grabbed his hand rather forcefully surprising myself at my own will to get a definitive answer out of him.
"Blaine...do you want to go on a date with me?" Holy shit did I really just ask him that? Where they hell was this resolve a year ago? Oh god what if he says no; am I ready to make that big of a fool out of myse...
"Yes. I would love to." His voice was calm, steady and his eyes never left mine as if he was trying to will his belief into my soul.
"Are...are you sure?" He never broke eye contact but just firmly gripped the hand I was already holding and agreed with the simplest of nods.
"Then why now? You've know me for years...why now?"
This seemed to be the right question to ask because his gaze faltered and he looked at his lap instead.
"Remember this afternoon in the cab, I said that I would do my best for as long as you'll have me around to try and fix us, and that I never wanted to say goodbye to you." I just looked at him silently because for the life of me I couldn't change my expression for fear of losing my resolve and bursting into tears.
"Well Kurt I, I want you to be able to trust me again. I want to keep you safe from anyone or anything. I would love to take you out on dates and enjoy being your friend and hopefully one day maybe more. I care about you Kurt and I let you get away once. Never again. It was now because you have given me a second chance to say what I should have in the first place." He gripped my other hand in his as I traced patterns with my thumbs on his knuckles.
"What did you want to say to me Blaine...tell me now what you said you should have earlier." I knew I was pushing it but he was opening up and I needed to know more if he would let me.
He looked at me again and before I knew what was happening he was closing the small space between us so that his mouth was merely an inch from mine.
"That you're beautiful, amazing and that you move me with everything you are. I care about you."
"I lo-care about you too Blaine...I just need to know you're not m-messing with me here."
That was the moment my questioning stopped and so did my heart for a few seconds. He closed the gap between our lips slowly as I felt the warmth of his mouth blend with that of my own. It was soft and sweet and everything that I needed to hear and feel right at that moment. He broke away briefly as if waiting for a reaction from me and all I could do was re-close my eyes and reconnect our lips; tilting my head ever so slightly so I could apply more pressure into the kiss. We both sighed into it and before I could get carried away I pulled back gently with a little moan.
"You know how long I've waited for you to do that?" I whispered not really knowing how I could form a declarative sentence at this point.
"Probably as long as I've waited to try that."
We rested our foreheads together then and levelled our breathing and slight giggling before deciding to finally make eye contact again. Almost immediately I got lost in those hazel orbs I had come to love so much but my fear returned almost immediately there after.
"Blaine...promise me this is real and that I'm not making this up in my head again."
"No babe. This is real and I can't wait to find out where this goes. I've been looking for this forever; I just didn't know that you felt the same."
I sat up almost dumbstruck as he said this and I slapped him playfully and slightly diva-like with a cocked eyebrow.
"Blaine Anderson how could I not fall for someone like you." He just shook his head and stood up grabbing my hand back as he did.
"I could say the same babe. Now...would you still like to go on a date with me Mr. Hummel?" I wrapped my arms around his waist and brought my lips to his again not knowing why we never spent our whole friendship doing it before. I pulled away grudgingly again because I didn't want to take this too far. I wasn't 100 % sure of myself yet.
"Hmmmm I would love to. Ready?"
"Ready." With that he took my hands and I grabbed my wallet and keys and we headed out the door looking at each other the entire time; giggling internally about the change in today's events since I got to New York. I was going on a date with Blaine Anderson. AND I kissed him. Ahhhhhh! I kept my face cool and collected and I hope he didn't notice the internal jumping jacks that my mind was doing.
(BPOV)
All my worrying and second guessing had been futile. The date went perfectly. We held hands, a little tentatively at first as we walked in the warm summer evening air towards the restaurant. Jess had really called in a big favour for me that evening and had gotten us a private booth near the back of the restaurant, complete with a complementary bottle of champagne; courtesy of Jessie might I add. Kurt was glowing. I hadn't seen him like this in a very long time and I was so glad that I was the one that got to see him like this and share it with him.
We talked and talked about everything that we were planning for the rest of the summer and the upcoming new semester at school for him. He was gloating on and on about the courses he was going to take and the new city he was wanting to embrace ever since he was little. I just stared and listened to him talk about it all as the dimming candlelight danced across his features.
We had a pleasant meal; of course Kurt ate way too healthy for my liking so I decided to order a creme brulee for dessert for us to share. He protested at first but the thrill of french food overtook him and we playfully fed each other small bites.
It was literally perfect; and I so owed Jess for this. After I payed the bill which still displeased Kurt slightly, we decided to go for a walk instead of going right home. This time Kurt's hand found mine of its own accord and he glanced at me fondly.
"Blaine, this was nice. We haven't spent time together like this in a very long time. I...don't want this to stop." But stop we did; right there in the middle of the sidewalk as I turned our linked hands into my chest basically spinning him so our bodies were flush.
"I don't want that either. If you want it; I'll make it happen for you."
"I want this..." He closed the distance between us and kissed me. Much rougher than before as if his need to be close to me was seeping out of his pours. I melted into it. Yep I really was head over heals for this boy.
I was shocked from my bliss when his tongue grazed my bottom lip begging for entrance which I happily allowed by parting my lips slightly with a small moan.
He dove his tongue into my mouth carefully but with no hesitation. He wanted this as much as I did and that was all the encouragement I needed as I tangled my tongue with his own. We explored one another's mouths, grazing teeth with tongue and our breathing was becoming ragged as we tried to control it through our noses. HIs hands flew to my hair as I steadied my hands on his waist. Eventually the need for air became to much and Kurt pulled away groaning before I did.
The sudden shock and realization of where we were hit us both at approximately the same moment. We both looked around at the fairly busy sidewalk we were partially blocking and started giggling a little uncontrollably.
"Ok that was a little unexpected, sorry I just kinda tackled you like that." Kurt's laugh was music to my ears.
"Kurt, I liked it if you didn't notice." I said as I playfully nudged him, "so since its late did you want to just forgo coffee and go home? Or did you have something else you want to do?" I wrapped my arms around his hips again and hummed as the ideas seemed to form in his head.
"I think..."
"Yeeesss Mr Hummel?"
"Alright Anderson." Ah there's that bitchy undertone I'd forgotten and loved, "I think I would like to go back to your place and continue spending time with you; maybe watch a movie or something...and maybe meet that 'goofy roomie' of yours that I've heard soooo much about."
"Hmm I like how your mind works sir. My place it is." He just smirked at me with a glint in his eye that gave me a small involuntary shiver which made me turn him on his heel along side me as we walked a little faster to my house than we had from his.
We walked in silence but it was anything but comfortable, it was anxious. As we neared the last block before my apartment the skies opened and it began to pour.
Kurt squealed as I gasped and I couldn't help but think that was the cutest little noise I had ever heard. We ran to my front door, me pulling Kurt along because he had no idea where we were headed. As I pulled him under the awning I brought his lips and face to my own. Both of us drenched from the run in the rain but I couldn't wait to kiss him again.
It was electric but short lived as Kurt started to shiver and shake despite our closeness so I pulled away.
"B-Blaine...in-inside.." I put my arm around that beautiful boy and directed him through the doors and up the stairs to my apartment without more than a curt nod in his direction.
Once inside the building and as we climbed the steps his shivering seemed to dissipate a little but his lips still looked a little blue as I closed the door to the apartment behind us.
I walked up behind him as he stared at the layout of my home and I snaked my arms around his torso. He sighed happily but he still seemed cold.
"Blaine as much as I am loving this I-I was w-wondering if you had a change in cloths that I could borrow. I'm f-freezing and I need to dry off."
Before I could say anything he turned around and planted a soft lingering kiss to my jawline.
"Of course...mmmm...that feels nice...but clothes CLOTHES!...yeah gimme a minute."
I half skipped down the hallway to my room to fetch him some track pants (he would kill me for suggesting these but it was all I had) and a t-shirt that I was sure was never big enough for me. I also had to grab a towel and try and cool off for a second. Kurt may have been freezing but my blood was boiling from just being around Kurt. I couldn't understand how I never jumped the boy before considering I was having a very hard time right now not sodomizing the man.
Calm down Blaine. Let him take the next step whatever it is. He needs to tell you all that he wants to keep secret for now. Trust Anderson; keep your thoughts under control.
I came back into the living room having talked myself down as it were and handed the boy the towels and clothes who was still standing in the middle of the living room shaking.
"Thanks Blaine. I'll be back in a sec. Uh...bathroom?"
"Second door on the right babe."
He left and I took this as a good opportunity to discard my attire as well in favour of something less fashionable but dry and warm.
When I came back into the living room in my dark grey Dalton track pants and my favourite black wife beater I noticed that Kurt was still in the bathroom. So I decided to make him and me the coffee we wanted earlier today.
I obviously wasn't paying attention to anything but the coffee I was prepping because when I turned around there was Kurt looking way too sexy for his own good. My black track pants were too short for him so he had them sitting lower on his waist than he should have exposing the slightest bit of his hip bones. The t shirt was tight on his arms but was still a little big everywhere else and he was gently ruffling his damp hair with a towel.
"Smells good Blaine, mocha?" My jaw was open slightly and I couldn't make out what he said so I just continued to stare at him in awe.
"Hello Earth calling Anderson!" He snapped his fingers in front of me which brought me out of my haze.
"Oh hey sorry. I zoned out for a sec there, what did you say?" I just wanted to graze my thumbs over the dip in his hip bones but Kurt was talking again.
"I asked if that was mocha and why are you staring at me? I can't help if this outfit looks terrible on me. It does nothing for my frame or complexion."
I laughed loud and I think for a split second Kurt was hurt by my outburst, I could see it in his eyes.
"No, no, no Kurt look..I think you look sexy as hell in my clothes..." He cocked his head at me as if unsure but I rectified that as I brought him past the island in the kitchen and into my arms.
"You look very Very sexy like this, " he sighed aloud as I continued, "and yes it is mocha by the way. I still remember your coffee order; unfortunately its not non fat."
"Hmmm what did I ever do without you Anderson.", he chuckled at this as I pulled away to grab both of our drinks and handed one to him.
"So now what did you want to do? Considering my 'goofy roomie' is out with our co-workers for the night, we have the house to ourselves."
"Ooooh, very sly Blaine. Getting the roommate to vacate for the evening. Did you have this planned? Ha ha"
I must have turned pink because for once he was laughing at my embarrassment.
"No..."
"Ok how about that movie huh?" This gave me an idea.
"How bout we curl on the bed and watch a musical or something in my room. My tv is more awesome than this one anyway. It's Jess' and she made me keep my tv in there because she was tired of my incessant musical and romantic comedies. She likes hockey and there's only so much of that I can take."
Kurt laughed at me with that one. "Wow I guess I should have known that some stereotypes are true."
I couldn't help but agree with him on that one but I guess it had just never occurred to me; I thought I really did watch too many musicals.
As we made our way into the room I half jumped/half plopped myself onto my bed and patted the sitting space beside me for him. He seemed very hesitant.
"It's ok Kurt its just me. It'll be like in the good old days at Dalton when you and I had movie nights in my dorm. Only this time we don't have curfews or Wes and David to intrude on us." He seemed to relax at this and gracefully sat down next to me sipping his coffee before putting it on the bed side table side him.
"You have a nice apartment here Blaine. I mean it could definitely use a bit of colour and texture but maybe that's just me."How could any one person make me laugh this much and make me feel this way. How did I ever not have him around?
"If and when I have the money Kurt you can help me redecorate if you like." His grin was unmistakeably huge at this comment.
"That would be fantastic Blaine. You'd really let me?"
I sarcastically made a mocking gesture that I was thinking about it as he shoved me.
"Ok babe; which musical did you want to watch?" He had gotten up and wandered over to my blu-ray collection. He was bending over slightly and all I could do was sigh as I tried to control the urge to get up right this second and grope him.
He called me babe?
"mmrph" was all I could get out. Kurt turned around with Victor/Victoria in his hand.
"Mmrph Blaine really? Is that even an answer?" He strutted a little over to the tv and entertainment unit and bent over excruciatingly slowly as he put in the disc. My breathing was not behaving and it took a lot to try and suppress another moan as Kurt turned around and sauntered back to the bed.
After plopping the remote beside me and easing himself into a lying position on his side to my right I finally decided to make eye contact with him.
"Kurt do you have any idea how sexy you are?" I was still breathing irregularly and try as I might I wasn't having much success at taming that.
"Well no I don't think I am terribly Blaine. I-I...I dunno."
I placed a hand under his chin and forced him to look at me again.
"Very." With that I kissed him gently and released him again before I lost control considering the obvious arousal I already had.
We settled against the headboard with hands intertwined and settled in to watch the movie and enjoy our coffee. It was dark in the room aside from the television screen and the light flickered across his face as he sang softly along with me to Julie Andrews and Robert Preston.
"You know Blaine, I performed Le Jazz Hot in junior year around the time I met you. It was pretty awesome I should say. I wish you could have seen it. My costume was perfect.
"I think I would have like to see that too. Did you actually sing it in her key?" I was truly intrigued with what his answer was going to be.
"Actually yes, I probably could've even gone up a third but I was supposed to be a woman pretending to be a man pretending to be a woman so I kept the key."
I smiled at his matter of factness, "You really do amaze me even to this day ."
He laughed a little and that's when I decided to put my coffee down and reach over and put his down for him as well as pull him to snuggle in my chest to watch the remainder of the movie.
I'm not sure when he dozed off in my arms but I thought it was only appropriate to wake him up and tell him it was over now.
"Kurt, babe, Kurt wake up, its over." He only gripped my torso tighter and mumbled something mixed with words no and comfy. I giggled a little as I shifted him again, this time he opened his eyes sleepily and looked up at me.
"Hey beautiful, the movie's over, time to wake up."
"Mmmm, I don't wanna get up. Can I just stay here?" He was closing his eyes again as if sleep was winning its battle with him. I thought about protesting because was it really right to have Kurt stay here when it was only our first date and the girls might be worried about him but my selfishness won out.
"Of course you can stay. Just let me get up for a sec and I'll be right back."
"Nooo you're so warm; don't leave me." My heart broke a little with the undertone of this statement.
"I will never leave you permanently, I will be back in a couple minutes." I leaned down and kissed the half sleeping boy on the lips with as much emotion as I could. He sighed as I pulled away and got out of bed.
I went into the bathroom and found Kurt's vest in there and retrieved his phone to send Mercedes a message saying that Kurt was fine and just tired so he would be crashing with me tonight and I would be sending him home tomorrow.
After that I placed the phone on the island in my kitchen beside mine and left a note for Jess.
Jess,
Kurt's staying over and NO there's nothing funny going on in there so don't fret. Hope your night was good. See you in the morning
-B
Feeling better about letting everyone know, I crawled back into bed after closing and locking my bedroom door. Even if nothing happened I still didn't want Jess popping her head in.
I watched the boy who was fast asleep in my bed for a few minutes. His hair was dishevelled, the pants were riding up both of his legs and the shirt was now half way up his torso. In one word the boy was gorgeous. So I just laid down and snuggled into him and allowed him to wrap his arms subconsciously around me as I smiled falling asleep for the first time in so many months.
Ok so what did you think? I know there isn't a specific fashion design program at NYU but I made up one :) I will be writing more of this sooner rather than later because the juices are flowin. LOL
Love always; Klainebows forever