IMPORTANT A.N. ! First: for those who wanted some SasuNaru action – here ya go, yaoi pervs XD. BUT! Please do take a note that this will be a FAMILY fic, as in they (Naruto, Sakura and Sasuke) will eventually end up together, the three of them. Ok?, so don't ask that I leave Naruto with Sasuke only. Sakura has her role here too and for once in a SasuNaru story will NOT be the bitch! Deal with it.

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Chapter 3 – But I love you too

People were avoiding him. Women and men and even small children. He couldn't really blame them. He guessed even the kids were told stories about his betrayal.

Sasuke sat on the pier by the lake he used to go to as a child when he wanted to be left alone by the crowds, by the hysterical girls, by all the expectations people had on him as the last Uchiha. He went there to drown in his sorrow and anger, to wish his parents were alive and Itachi was dead…

How much things had changed…

Now he stood there, wishing he had known then what he knew now. Wishing Itachi was alive and hating himself that he was the cause that his brother had sacrificed himself for. He felt unworthy and hated by all, including himself. Why had he come back again?

Ah, right. The dobe.

He remembered sitting on the same pier as a child, again. He remembered turning around and seeing the blonde menace staring at him. Not with some high expectations, or adoration, or even hatred. He had stared with understanding. And then he had grinned widely, friendly, and he wasn't "the blond menace" anymore, but Naruto…

Sasuke felt like being watched again. In some mock retrospection of what had taken place right here on this place all those years ago, of what he had just remembered, he turned around. And saw him.

He wasn't that naïve boy anymore. His eyes were guarded, hinting about all he had suffered through to be there in that moment. Kami, he was gorgeous. Sasuke was well aware of his sexuality, perfectly well knowing he was attracted to both men and women. But the dobe didn't fit any category. He was something else. Something, that didn't belong there. Something ethereal.

Sasuke was once again reminded how unworthy and tainted he was. He was not allowed to taint the future Hokage. But damn, he wanted to… again proving how lowly he was…

Naruto came down the small hill and sat next to him on the pier, staring into the water. He said nothing, but his emotions were there, on that so very emotional face. Confused, lost…

"What…", Sasuke began but was interrupted by a quiet voice.

"I slept with Sakura."

Sasuke felt like someone hit him. Some wild, possessive beast inside him roared. Someone had taken his Naruto before him!

"You and half the town, I suppose…", he snorted bitterly, trying to hide his hurt.

The air around them heated, charged with chakra. Sasuke's eyes widened – what could only be a fox tail was waving threateningly behind Naruto, whose body was shaking with barely contained anger. For a second Sasuke wondered why wasn't he drowning in the lake by now, or in a puddle of blood on this very pier. And then it hit him.

Control.

The dobe had really changed.

The tail dissipated and Naruto gritted "She was pure."

"Unlike you", was left behind.

Feeling even more like a fool, Sasuke kept quiet, because, really, what was there to say?

"I didn't know. I hurt her", the self-hatred in Naruto's voice made Sasuke feel even more inadequate.

"I love her", Naruto whispered.

Sasuke closed his eyes for a second and fought with himself to stay emotionless and cool. He gained his self-control back and asked "Why are you telling me that?"

Pause.

"I don't know", Naruto said quietly and stood up, turning to walk away.

Sasuke didn't really know what he was doing as he stood up as well, grabbed the blonde's arm, turned him around and… and kissed him.

It wasn't like one would imagine a real romantic kiss, but it was probably a normal first kiss. No tongues, and not even all that much movement of lips. Just the locked lips of two confused boys.

Finally, Sasuke pulled back and stared at the huge blue eyes, looking even more lost. Sasuke cursed at himself, because he knew what he was going to do. Confused as he was as well, he knew what he generally wanted. And if that was the way to achieve it, he'd do it, tainted as he was.

He'd take advantage of Naruto's confusion.

Sasuke took Naruto's hand and slowly led the way up the small hill and through the city. Now, holding that hand, he didn't give a fuck about all the stares, the whispers… He didn't care.

They stopped in front of a simple door made of dark wood and Sasuke undid the wards. If Naruto was surprised that Sasuke hadn't led him to the Uchiha mansion, he didn't show it. Sasuke's flat was small, tidy but not cozy, just a place to sleep at night, eventually eat at, but not really live in. Not letting Naruto's hand, Sasuke led the way to his small bedroom. Naruto didn't stop, didn't hesitate – too shocked from kiss still, too confused or simply in a state of a stupor, Sasuke didn't know.

He stopped in front of the bed and took a look at the blonde. Reassured when his stare was met by the blue eyes, Sasuke gently laid the blonde down. He didn't ask for permission – he didn't want to spoil the moment and if the dobe didn't really want that, Sasuke was more than sure that the future Hokage could stop him...

*Censored part about Naruto and Sasuke making love. Full story - at AFF. More info - in my profile here.*

Sasuke collapsed on top of Naruto, not giving a damn about the mess between them – he was tainted as it was already. It took him some time however to notice that the body beneath him was shaking with silent sobs.

Startled, Sasuke pulled back and pulled out from Naruto before asking hoarsely "Naruto…?"

"I love her…", the blonde whispered, not meeting his eyes.

Feeling the same harsh stab in his heart, Sasuke accepted the blow. He knew that. He expected it. He had known this would be the only night…

"…but I love you too…", Naruto added quietly, curled on his side and facing away.

Dumbfounded and confused, Sasuke didn't know how to respond to that and couldn't allow himself to hope…

Naruto stood up, gathered his clothes and disappeared in a puff of smoke.

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