This chapter will be in Anna's point of view as well. Boy, perhaps the whole story will just end up being in her point of view, eh? If any of you readers out there are tired of me writing in Anna's point of view, please say so, and I will write in third person for a while. Forgive me, but to just start this story, Anna's point of view is very helpful and more useful for me to write in. Because if I try third person, I end up trying too hard to sound like a smart, mature, sophisticated writer. Which I'm not. I'm just a stupid kid waisting her life by writing online fanfictions. No offense, to any of you. It's fun, but I'm waisting my life, here.

Erm...I probably just lost all of my reviewers with that one, didn't I?

I encourage you all to read and tell me what I must improve on, once again. :)

Anyhow...

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Chapter 4: Mein Herz Confrontation

I walked down to the stage area to find Damien sulking backstage. Even though it was threatening to enter my thoughts, I just couldn't feel bad. How was I suppossed to feel bad for somehow "rejecting" him when I had absolutely no idea whatsoever? I had no idea he had any feelings of attraction towards me at all. He didn't even imply it when he was bugging me 24/7. Constantly coming into my room, talking to me for hours on end about the most random topics. It would be enough to literally drive a person criminally insane!

I felt my anger build up as I walked toward him. When he heard my footsteps, he looked up from the bench he was sitting on. He saw my expression, and his eyes widened a bit in surprise. I realized I had probably startled him a bit, and did my best to try to force a pleasant looking smile on my face.

"Hello Damien!" I greeted him cheerfully. He grunted as a response. I realized the necklace that I had been wearing was tucked into my shirt. I pulled it out and just examined it for a bit before I pretended to sigh in delight.

"Look, Damien. I just absolutely adore this necklace. I don't think I can stand looking at it too much longer, though. It's too beautiful compared to someone like me. It practically screams "Take me off!" when it's around my neck." I said, my eyes glistening with fake sadness.

That did it. His eyes lit up immediately as he took my hand in his and lifted my face so that our eyes were looking right into each other.

"Anna, your beauty outshines this petty necklace by 101%! Don't you dare say something like that ever again! I'm so unbelievely beyond sorry that I walked out on you earlier! Please forgive me, (1) mein herz!" he begged.

I had to bite my tongue to stop myself from laughing. He really had no shame. My tongue biting couldn't prevent the wide smile that spread across my face, though. But I masked it with glee instead of laughter.

"I-I...forgive...y-you Damien." I struggled to get my words out in the proper manner. It seemed to be enough for him, though. He smiled a lovely smile before taking my hand and dragging me out to the stage. The lights came on and Werner stepped out to announce the start of the show. I guess it didn't matter how I was dressed for the show, though, since nobody said anything about a dress code.

"Ladies and Gentlemen, please welcome Damien Dawn and Anna Blue!" said Werner. It was then that I realized how many people were there. I nearly fell over in surprise.

"And now...get ready for...So Alone!" Werner said. He then walked back to where he was waiting.

At first I wasn't paying attention, so I didn't know I was supposed to sing, until Damien pushed me to the front of the stage. Then I took a deep breath and began to sing.

"My face against the window pane,

a tear for every drop of rain-

I am so lonely and so sad,

you're the reason I'm feeling bad-

I am so loney and so sad,

Living in a dream I never had.

My face against the window pane,

a tear for every drop of rain,

I'm living like already I have died have died.

Emptiness a present past

A silent scream to shatter glass

I have to go, its time for me to fly-

I am so lonely and so sad

You're the reason that I'm feeling bad

I am so lonely and so sad

Living in a dream I've never had

...

Who will care if I'm not here?

If suddenly, I dissapeared?

No one's gonna notice it at all.

Dying flowers in my hand, I'm vanishing from where I stand.

It isn't yet too late to get the cure-

I am so lonely and so sad

You're the reason that I'm feeling bad

I am so lonely and so sad

Living in a dream I've never had

I am so lonely and so sad

You're the reason that I'm feeling bad

I am so lonely and so sad

Living in a dream I've never had

Wake me with your kiss~" I finished and everyone in the crowd was cheering and even crying. I sighed and rolled my eyes before getting ready to go back to my room. I saw Damien go to the front of the stage, however, and heard more music playing.

"What's going on?" I asked Werner, who simply smiled and nodded his head towards Damien. I turned around and watched what was going to happen from a distance.

"Alright. This is a song I wrote dedicated to a girl very special to me, and my heart. I hope you all like it." he said, winking for the crowd. I heard a few fangirls cheer as he did so.

I heard more music start up. Damien took a deep breath and began to sing.

"So many nights, I've watched you sleep...(watched you sleep)

Tried to resist, but it got so deep...(got so deep)

And when you're next to me, you're still light in my reach...

But I just lone for you...

My soul is dark, I cease the night...(cease the night)

But you're the angel that showed me the light...(showed me the light)

And I try to be strong, but I still lone for you...

I look into your heart and discover myself...

But I'll never be a part of your world...

I need you, Can't reach you, We're worlds apart...

If you need me, look into your heart...

You tame the beast, I bleed for you...(I bleed for you)

You showed me love, something I never knew...(never knew)

I'll take the blame, my life's a shame, but I just lone for you...

Don't wait for me...(don't wait for me, girl)

I'll never be...(a part of your world)

But I'm in your heart...FOREVER!

I look into your heart and discover myself...

But I'll never be a part of your world...

I need you, Can't reach you, We're worlds apart...

If you need me, look into your heart...

I look into your heart and discover myself...

But I'll never be a part of your world...

I need you, Can't reach you, We're worlds apart...

If you need me, look into your heart..." He finished. The whole crowd, or rather, all of the girls in the whole crowd were screaming at the top of their lungs, and Damien took a bow, thanked everyone, and then looked right at me. He began to walk towards me. I froze.

What...was I suppossed to do?

I wasn't used to having feelings of affection or attraction or sadness or embarrassment anymore, so I had long forgotten how to react properly in a situation like this.

So when he tried to hold me, I pushed him away and ran back to my room and locked the door. I climbed onto my loveseat and curled up into a ball. I began shaking. Then I realized I was crying. I quickly tried to get ahold of myself as I wiped my eyes and held my breath to stop the crying. Once I had calmed down, I had thought about what I did. He tried to hug me...and no man- well, no person at all had ever done that to me in the last 4 years.

The only person who was always there for me to hug, and kiss and hold close to me was...

...him.

I felt tears stinging my eyes again. I knew that this was my true discision. I was going to Plastic Beach, and I was going to confront him...I was.

But then an idea hit me...what if he had forgotten me? I could get there, and it would be possible that after all these years he would have no possible idea of who I was. But I would make a killer guy, if I were male. If I came to this Plastic Beach with my male disguise, I could easily attempt to befriend Murdoc and ask him certain questions that will determine my stay. That was it! The perfect plan!

But I still needed a Goddamn boat...

My plan with confronting Damien didn't exactly work, because even though he's happy, that's not good enough. I need a way to get to Plastic Beach!

And then it hit me.

I looked up a world map online and printed out the first one with clear text. Then I stuffed it in the same bag I put all my Plastic Beach supplies in. I looked up the nearest cruises docking in California. The first one looked particularly promising.

"Regal Rose

Operator: Incendia

Began Operation: 2000

Tonnage: 10,000"

I was a bit surprise when I saw the amount for the tonnage. Must have been a pretty weak ship in terms of strength if it could only carry 10 thousand pounds of cargo. Though, I was doubtful that the ship would run into trouble. So there was probably no need to worry. I looked for tickets on another website. They were good, but they would definatley cost me some money.

Even if I was somewhat famous, 700 dollars was still a lot.

I ordered the tickets on the express stage, so that they would arrive by tomorrow. I packed some clothes and prepared a speed dial for a taxi company for Wednesday. Tomorrow, Tuesday, would be the day I get my tickets. Then I would drive all the way to Long Beach's Carnival Docks to wait for the ship.

How did I suddenly end up having this all planned out?

I suppose, if you really do put your mind to it, anything is possible.

Soon, afterwards, I realized for the first time in several days that I was unbearabley hungry. So I grabbed my coat and left the area, without making any noises.

I ate at a lovely bistro. I had some salad with tuna, cheese, tomato and celery. I also had a deliscious, warm beget with some butter spread inside. I had also ordered some "Ruby Red Chai" tea, and it gave me a nice, tingly feeling. I paid the bill and left, feeling very full and warm. And when I got back, I wrote in my journal explaning my entire complete plan in excruciating detail.

That night...I had finally slept after a week of...well, not sleeping. It was actually one of the best feelings I had had in a long time.

Not too good, eh? Probably what you all would call a "filler" chapter.
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