Chapter 34: First Kiss And First Birthday Gift

Third Person's POV

The Boarding House

Damon pulled away from Rose as soon as Jacqueline left the house. It was obvious that his sole purpose was to hurt Jacq badly, really badly. However the reaction Damon got from Jacq was not what he expected from her. Damon expected Jacqueline to run away crying, whipping tears from her face and break down outside of the house. Instead she seemed completely unfazed by his action. Jacq didn't even look bothered by watching him kissing someone else let alone feel hurt about it. She didn't look away when Damon crushed his lips on Rose's. Why? Why Jacqueline was so unaffected by his action. Is she that far gone? Does she feel nothing for Damon now? Did she ever really feel anything for him? Was it all just pretense the whole time? Since they met? All those moments, and arguments and their love for each other. Were all those fake and nothing but lies? Damon didn't know the truth anymore. The Jacqueline he met today, wasn't his Jacqueline any more. The way she behaved and talked, she definitely wasn't his Jacqueline. She seemed like Katherine by nature, how did that happen? Damon couldn't help but wonder. Was Jacq under influence of that psychotic Katherine Pierce? But Jacq wears vervain all the time. She wasn't compelled for sure. Then why was she so changed? Damon wanted answers more than anything else.

Damon was going insane with all the crazy questions his mind started to ask. He didn't just want answers, Damon needed answers. Otherwise he would lose his mind and go completely insane. Rose felt bad for Damon. She knew that Damon kissed her on purpose and the purpose was to hurt Jacq. Damon and Jacqueline's love relation was none of Rose's concern but she couldn't help but feel sorry for the Salvatore. When Stefan had entered the house dragging Jacqueline inside with him earlier, Damon made sure that she would see him making out with someone else. Rose didn't understand it at first and truth to be told she was quite baffled when Damon started kissing her all on a sudden when she was crying for Traver. At that moment Rose really thought that Damon was trying to comfort her and make her forget the pain. It helped her a bit too but when they started to have the conversation Rose realized what was going on. She understood that the girl Jacqueline has hurt Damon somehow and he wanted to hurt her back because he was madly in love with her. It seemed puzzling to Rose to say the least. Why would Damon want to hurt the girl he loves so much? What kind of love is that? But it was love indeed. Rose also couldn't help but wonder, why did Jacq hurt Damon in the first place when it was clear that she loves him just as much? What were they playing at?

Rose also realized later why Damon comforted her when she panicked at the realization that Elijah was still alive. He didn't get any satisfying reaction from Jacq when she saw him making out with another woman and Damon had to take another step to make the girl jealous. There was no other explanation as to why the most insensitive vampire showed kindness to her. Rose didn't mind though even after she understood everything. Honestly Rose hardly knew Damon and there was nothing he could do to hurt her feelings. Even though Rose heard a lot about the Salvatore brothers from Lexi but hearing about someone and knowing about them personally were two different things. Rose didn't know anything about Jacqueline though however she knew this for a matter of fact that even though Jacqueline looked or acted unfazed by Damon comforting her, inwardly the girl was going crazy with jealousy for sure. True, it wasn't visible in her behavior but Rose is a woman and a very old one. She was able to see right through the pretense and knew that Jacq was burning with jealousy at that time.

What Rose didn't understand is that how can Damon Salvatore love this Jacqueline girl who seemed worse than Katherine to her? Maybe she loves Damon but the way she behaved or misbehaved, it was just so bitchy. But Rose wasn't in their lives from the beginning so she didn't have any idea exactly how drastically changed Jacq's behavior was with them that day. When nothing worked for Damon, he made another bold move and kissed Rose right in front of Jacqueline. Unfortunately that didn't work as well. Jacq simply walked out of the door as if nothing happened. She didn't seem bothered at all. However Rose knew better. Jacqueline in reality was seriously hurt by Damon's action. He really shouldn't have taken it so far. Rose didn't hesitate to speak her mind to Damon about his action.

"You shouldn't have done that" said Rose straight away. Damon was growling with anger like a hungry lion at that moment.

"What?" He spat with enraged tone of voice.

"You seriously hurt her this time Damon. I know what game you are playing with her." Rose stated to which Damon scoffed bitterly.

"I am not playing anything. I was feeling angry and I needed to release the anger somehow. Better kissing you than killing someone in my rage. Wouldn't you agree? Besides, I didn't want to bury a body today." Damon said arrogantly. Rose didn't hesitate to roll her eyes at him.

"So, you weren't kissing me to hurt her" asked Rose, knowing that's really not the truth. Damon poured himself a drink first before answering her question with another question.

"Did she look hurt?" He asked taking a sip from his drink. Rose shook her head and said-

"No!" At that Damon shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly.

"Then I didn't do it to hurt her." Damon stated with frank tone of voice. Rose stared at him for a few moments and then said-

"But she was hurt Damon, badly." Damon boldly scoffed at that.

"Why would she be hurt by my kissing you? She is a werewolf lover. Everything she ever said to me or did with me was just a perfect pretense" said Damon with hateful and bitter tone of voice. Rose frowned at him with annoyance.

"Do you really believe that?" She asked boldly. Damon didn't know for sure but he was mad that time so he nodded.

"Of course, she is a bitch. You saw her attitude yourself. Her being nice and sweet in past days was nothing but a fake drama" saying that Damon paused a little to take a sip from his drink again. "And, why the hell are you defending her? She was nothing but a bitch to you and you tried to kill her just a while ago" stated Damon to which Rose only sighed out heavily.

"I am not defending her Damon. And yes she was a bitch to me and she felt worse than Katherine to me but it's also true that she was hurt by your action Damon." Just as Rose said that Damon suddenly pinned her against the wall.

"If she is really hurt then it's a good thing. I wanted to hurt her badly anyway. After all she hurt me first. We are even now." Damon said those words venomously more to himself than to Rose. Jacq was driving him crazy for days and he was hating her for that and wanted to get back at her at any cost. Rose simply nodded her head making Damon pull away from her. He returned back to the parlor to pour more bourbon in his glass. Right then, Caroline entered the boarding house in search for Stefan. She was getting anxious to know what the hell was going on between Stefan and Jacq. She could barely concentrate in her classes at the school. Many questions were running through Caroline's mind. What the hell happened to Stefan? Why did he drag Jacq from school like that? She was worried about Jacq more than anything else. But Stefan wouldn't really harm her in a serious way, would he? No, that was not possible.

That was one of the reasons Caroline didn't run after Stefan and Jacq right away. However she couldn't keep wondering forever therefore after contemplating for a while after classes were over, Caroline decided to check the boarding house and hoped to find out what the hell was going on? When Caroline entered the house the first thing she noticed was a damaged wall. She panicked immediately thinking of the worst. Something must have happened wrong over here. Caroline ran inside and found Damon with another vampire, a female vampire. She guessed that it was Rose. Elena talked about the five hundred years old vampire earlier. Rose looked at Caroline not knowing who she was. Damon didn't bother to acknowledge vampire barbie's presence in the room at all, not even a bit. She must be here for blood bags. That's what Damon thought. That's the only reason Caroline comes over to the boarding house anyway. However he was proved wrong right away.

"Where is Jacq?" Caroline asked Damon directly in a strong tone of voice and with crossed arms over her chest. Vampire barbie didn't like saying more than two words to Damon out of both fear and hatred therefore the older Salvatore brother was quite surprised when Caroline used such firm tone with him. Not to mention she wanted to stay clear of him all the time. Damon knew this for sure that Caroline was still scared of him because last time he checked vampire barbie was a chicken when it comes to him. However at that time Caroline seemed completely unafraid of Damon. What the hell was going on with everyone? Wondered Damon in his mind. Caroline wasn't scared of him anymore, Jacq wasn't in love with him anymore. How the hell are these things happening? and why?

"She just left a while ago" replied Rose on behalf of Damon when he didn't even bother to hear Caroline's voice.

"Did he hurt her?" asked Caroline to Rose with a deadly tone of voice. Rose sighed out heavily before answering that question.

"Physically no but emotionally yes. Damon badly hurt her" said Rose and Damon groaned out with annoyance and rolled his eyes to himself.

"How many times do I have to tell you Rosebud, she was far from being hurt. She is a bitch. Bitches don't get hurt." Damon repeated his opinion one more time. Caroline gasped out loud as soon as those words left Damon's mouth. She never thought Damon would ever talk about Jacqueline in such manner, never, no matter what grade of a dick Damon is. What the hell happened between them? Caroline couldn't not know now. Rose rolled her eyes at Damon for the umpteenth time.

"Yeah keep saying that" said Rose under her breath. Caroline started panicked by then. Jacqueline was hurt emotionally. It was not a good thing at all. Actually it was a terrible thing. Caroline knew this for a fact. She needed to find Jacq before its too late and she ends up dead.

"Where did she go?" asked Caroline with worried tone of voice. Anxiousness evident in her voice. Rose was quite surprised to see that the blonde girl cared so much about Jacqueline. And she didn't seem bitchy like Jacq at all.

"How the hell we are supposed to know that Blondie? Go look around. She must be bitching around somewhere else." Was Damon's arrogant and rude reply. Immediately, Caroline narrowed her eyes at him dangerously.

"What the hell is wrong with you Damon? Why do you hate her so much all on a sudden? You didn't hate her even when she vervained you. Of course you were furious but you didn't hate her like now. What the hell happened?" asked Caroline without any fear or hesitation. However Damon viciously glared at her which made Caroline take a step back instinctively but she remained in the room. And that was a big deal.

"You should get out of here right now Blondie." Damon said dangerously. Usually Caroline would run away before Damon could speak but this time she didn't even move a muscle.

"I am not going anywhere until I get an answer" said Caroline with determination. In a blink of an eye Damon held her up against the wall and threatened to break her neck. It wouldn't kill Caroline of course but it would still hurt her.

"You know how easy it would be for me to drive a stake through your heart and kill you right now. I can also snap your pretty little neck in a way that you will never come back to life again" threatened Damon with his most deadly tone of voice. Caroline didn't start whining though which Damon had expected. Instead she ripped Damon's hand away from her throat and broke his arm in a second. After that Caroline sent him flying across the room. Damon groaned in pain a little.

"I hope this helps you figure out that I am not that girly girly Caroline any more Damon. If you can kill me, I can rip you apart too. Now tell me what did Jacq do to make you hate her so much?" asked Caroline with strong tone of voice. Damon was shocked to say the least by the sudden change of situation between him and Caroline. He had forgotten how dangerous vampire barbie can be at times. Rose was shocked as well and she had no wish to interfere between Damon and Caroline. Not that she was suddenly scared of Caroline. Rose simply didn't want to mind in their business. Damon stood up and yanked his arm in place before looking back at Caroline and surprisingly not with a glare but with confused eyes.

"Why are you still so concerned about Jacq Blondie? Didn't she show you her true color yet? She is a werewolf lover and a complete psychotic selfish bitch just like Katherine" said Damon with bitter but calm tone of voice. Caroline closed her eyes shut for a moment and took in a deep breath to control herself. She looked back at Damon with complete determination this time.

"Okay, I don't know why you are saying these absurd things about Jacq but let me make one thing clear to you about the werewolf lover part. You think she is a werewolf lover just because she saved Mason from you, well breaking news Damon, if she hadn't done that we all would be lying dead on next full moon." Caroline blurted out. Damon frowned at her with confusion, clearly not understanding what she was saying. How come killing Mason would have caused such a disaster?

"What the hell is that suppose to mean?" asked Damon angrily thinking she was making something up. Caroline took in a deep breath once again. She wasn't suppose to say this to Damon or anyone else for the matter of fact but Caroline had enough of Damon accusing Jacqueline of being a werewolf lover.

"Back in Florida, Mason didn't live alone before coming to Mystic Falls. He lived with a pack of werewolves there. A pack of sixteen werewolves. And before you ask, no, werewolves are not that extinct like we thought they were" said Caroline and she answered Damon's unasked question.

"If Mason had never returned back to Florida or if the pack members had realized that something bad has happened to him, they would have arrived in Mystic Falls by next full moon. Sixteen werewolves would be roaming around the town. And if you had really killed Mason those werewolves would have found out about it quite easily. A vampire torturing their pack mate to death. They wouldn't have taken it well now, would they? And in their revenge feast, not only you but everyone of us would have ended up dead, Damon. Do you understand what your reckless action could have got us into?" Damon was dumbstruck that moment but Caroline wasn't done with him yet.

"If Jacq hadn't interfered to save Mason this town would have turned into a battle field in the upcoming full moon. Werewolves are stronger than vampires in their wolf form and you know this. You could have never survived them. And as the wolves have no control when they are turned they could have killed any vampire and humans as well. I could have died, Stefan could have died. Everyone's life would be in grave danger. You think Jacq saved Mason. Yes she did but she saved us as well. She risked getting killed by you to save our lives. Selfish is the last thing I will think of Jacq. And this is not the first time she did something to help us. You know this. After everything she did for you and Stefan, I am really disappointed that you above all people would think something nasty about her. If Jacq is being really bitchy right now then I am sure she has very good reasons to be like that and it's probably to do us good and not for some selfish gain." Caroline finished her lecture with that. After that no one talked for god knows how long. Caroline was still glowering at Damon and he was still processing everything in his mind. Damon was picturing himself surrounded by very pissed off werewolves. And it was not a good picture at all. Rose decided to break the silence as it was getting on her nerves.

"She is right Damon" spoke up Rose. "From what I've heard about werewolves, they don't take it kindly if their pack brother is hurt or killed and worse things happen when the death deliver is a vampire. I think Jacq really did save you from inevitable death Damon." With that said from Rose, Damon couldn't help but feel guilty this time. He looked at Caroline feeling quite ashamed of himself.

"Why she didn't say anything to me?" Damon asked more to himself than to Caroline. Vampire barbie only shrugged her shoulders at him.

"Maybe because you never tried to understand her properly. You never listen to her too. Jacq asked you to leave Mason alone god knows how many times but did you? You didn't even stop to think for a second why she wants him alive. After you tried to kill Mason, Jacq didn't want to take any risk anymore." Caroline stated the truth straight away and she had more to add.

"If I were you Damon I would have gone to her right now. She may have hurt you but it was to save your life but you hurt her to inflict pain upon her. You should apologize to her right away before it's too late" said Caroline and Rose nodded her head to that. Damon didn't need to hear anything else. He dashed out of the house hoping to find Jacqueline as soon as possible.

Jacqueline's POV

When we get hurt, physically, it's not important to cry. The pain goes away sooner or later as the wounds heal. But when we get hurt emotionally, it's really important that we cry it out, otherwise it won't go away so easily. Emotional pain flows out of the mind in the form of tears, so it's really important that we cry when we are mentally crushed and broken. Because if we don't do that and turn ourselves into zombies then the pain will slowly kill you from inside like a slow poison, a deadly slow poison. I needed to let go of the pain I was feeling at the moment. I couldn't die, not yet. I still have a lot of things to do. And I am never a fan of slow death. I definitely don't want my pain to eat me alive from inside. So, I needed to let out the pain from my mind and body. It was essential for me. Yes I said I would be a better villain and the best bitch not long ago. And bitches don't care about anything or feel anything but at the moment all I knew was that I was crushing down from inside. Someone was crushing my heart, stomping over it rapidly and making it bleed from inside. The pain I was feeling was nothing like any pain I have ever felt before. It was life threatening therefore I needed to ease it off, let it out.

But would shredding mere tears do the work for me? No, the pain I was feeling wouldn't go away just by crying. It wouldn't go away even if I scream out loud and sob continuously. I needed to do something more effective to take my pain away from me. That's why I started shredding blood and let the pain flow out with it. Tears weren't needed anymore as blood dripped out of my wrist in a rhythmic flow. No, I wasn't being suicidal and I was definitely not trying to bleed myself to death. I said it before that I couldn't afford to die, not right now anyway. I have a lot of work to do before I take my last breath in this world. However bleeding myself at the moment was the easiest and fastest way to make my pain go away. My mind was clouded up with Damon and the thoughts of him kissing someone else. Someone I saved myself. I tried hard for a while to make the images go away and not care about it, just not to think about it but I couldn't do that. I failed miserably. Those images kept flashing through my mind and every time my heart would give me a horrible ache in my chest. As a last resort, I took a sharp blade and cut through my skin without a second thought. The pain coursed through my body and suddenly all those images disappeared from my mind. The relief I felt was amazing. Unfortunately it only hurt me when the sharp blade cut through my skin. It didn't caused me any pain when I was bleeding only. So every time the pain would start to go away and the horrible images would start to come back in my mind again with full force, I would make another cut on my wrist. In the same spot so that it would inflect me more pain. I had run the blade over my wrist four times already and I was willing to keep doing it until my mind would stop remembering Damon and his make out sessions with another woman.

At the moment I was watching the famous and mysterious water fall of the town while sitting under a tree, leaning against the stem of it. The sun was setting slowly and soon the darkness would engulf the world. All the white flowers spread on the ground were turning crimson red as I let my blood drop on them continuously. At that time no one could tell that not long ago those flowers were pure white. The sight was rather beautiful. White petals with red blood strains on them in a creative way. The flowers looked amazing like that. I couldn't admire the beauty of it for long because suddenly I was yanked up on my feet. I looked up and my eyes met with Damon's amazing blue ones. However they were currently filled with guilt, hurt, fear and a bit of anger as well and as usual. What the hell is he doing here? I wanted to ask him but I couldn't because suddenly he bit onto his wrist and made it bleed then he pressed his hand onto my mouth. Damon forced his blood into my body. Why was he doing this? I tried to struggle against his hold as best as I could. Can't he see that I don't want to be healed? Why was Damon healing me anyway. Last time we meet, which wasn't long ago, Damon seemed to hate me more than anyone else in this world. What got into him suddenly? I couldn't help but wonder. Damon held my hand and checked the wrist which was healing fast on it's own. All the cuts were closing up magically. I saw pure pain in his eyes as he looked at the mess on my hand. Damon glanced at the flowers and flinched a little. There was a moment when I couldn't detect his emotions anymore. And then suddenly his eyes clouded with anger. It happened so fast and so suddenly that it was hard to see the changes for a human but as I was standing very close to Damon and looking right into his eyes only, I saw all those emotions come and go perfectly. His hold on me was so strong at that time that I couldn't even move a single muscle. After my wrist was completely healed Damon removed his hand from my mouth. I whipped out the blood quickly from my lips using the back of my hand.

After that we just stared at each other for a while, in complete silence. Neither of us said a word. No one made a single sound. We just stared at each other. The moment was so mute that I felt like the world around us just disappeared and it was just me and Damon standing in front of each other. Suddenly the sound of flapping wings pulled me out of the trance that I was in. I looked at the direction of the noise and found the familiar looking crow, Damon's pet bird. It was gawking at us in it's weird way. Damon was still looking at me though. I started feeling quite awkward under his gaze. It was soul penetrating. After a while I couldn't take it any more so I snapped at him angrily.

"What?" My outburst didn't surprise Damon. He only sighed out heavily and crossed his arms over his chest.

"In my 164 years of life I have never met anyone so crazy and reckless like you" said Damon with relatively calm tone of voice. The nerve of him. He came here to lecture me about my personality when it was completely his fault that I had to shred so much blood from my fragile body.

"Well congratulations, you met me. Now leave, you are disturbing my peaceful moments." I said to Damon at once, making him narrow his eyes at me.

"So, this is how you get peace, by bleeding yourself to death" stated Damon again using his calm tone of voice. I glared at him dangerously. Who was he to talk about anything I do?

"Yes!" I snapped at him angrily and tried to walk away from there as Damon clearly wasn't gonna leave me alone. But I could only take two steps when he grabbed on my forearm and pulled me back in front of him again. We were standing more closer this time. He leaned in dangerously and looked at me with furious eyes.

"You would never dare to hurt yourself again." Damon said in a commanding way. It angered me to no limit. I yanked my arm out of his grip. Then lowering my voice I said to him dangerously.

"I will do whatever I want Damon. You don't own me" saying that we stared hard at each other. Neither of the two willing to look away first. No one blinked. It was like an unannounced staring challenge between the two of us. I was so lost in his eyes that I didn't even realize when Damon snaked one arm around my waist so that I won't be able to get away from him even if I wanted to. I shivered when his other hand ran over the back of my neck slowly. Then suddenly Damon grabbed fistful of my hair and pulled my head back. His face was hovering over mine. The moment was anything but romantic. It was angsty to say the least.

"Yes, I do." Damon said with strong tone of voice and then captured my lips with his. I gasped out loud in shock as his lips moved against mine. I tried to push him away first but Damon didn't even move and kept kissing me hungrily. I refused to kiss him back and struggled against him as best as I could. Just a while ago Damon was kissing someone else, how can I kiss him back forgetting everything that he put me through? However Damon wasn't about to give up anytime soon. His hand on my waist started to roam over my sides and ribs, making me shake terribly as waves of unwanted pleasure ran through my body. I had moaned against my wish and will. At one point my determination of resisting Damon broke into pieces and I gave into the kiss while feeling defeated. I started to kiss him back however angrily, wildly and roughly. I was mad that Damon was doing this to me. How dare he claim me like that? I am not his piece of property. He didn't even apologize to me for hurting me by kissing someone else so boldly. And then all on a sudden Damon is claiming me. Am I a person or not? As I was unable to speak or scream at Damon, I showed my anger in the kiss.

Damon growled in pleasure because my kissing him back even though angrily and with rage satisfied his hunger just fine. The kiss started getting passionate and furious at the same time with every passing second. Damon pulled away to look into my eyes and also to let me breath. I started panting heavily as I was completely out of air that moment. In a blink of an eye I found myself against a tree. I looked deeply into his eyes and Damon looked into mine. His dazzling blue eyes threatened to make me lose myself in them. This time when he leaned in again, I met with his lips on my own. He was like fire and I suddenly felt this insane desire to get burnt by him. Our lips moved against each other in sync. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and pulled him closer to me. Damon had his body completely pressed against mine this time. His hands mercilessly roamed over my body.

Damon Salvatore wasn't a sensitive person, he was wild and dangerous. He was dominating as well. And he loved to be in control and demanded submission fast. The kiss spoke all of those things and by kissing Damon back I was challenging him in a way that made him more wild and not only him but his vampire side responded to that kiss as well. I watched his eyes turning red while kissing me. He had intentionally bit on my lips. Not hard enough to make me bleed though but it was so obvious that he wanted more, he wanted to taste more of me but I wasn't giving it to him easily. I refused to open my lips to him, give him access that he craved for. It was driving Damon crazy. He pulled his lips back after a while but didn't stepped away from me. I leaned my head back and rested against the tree stem. I was absolutely breathless and my chest was rising and falling rapidly. I was taking in deep breaths to calm myself down. Damon was panting too however for different reason. His eyes were back to normal again.

"You are never gonna make it easy for me, are you?" asked Damon after a while. I spoke up after catching my breath properly.

"Why are you doing this to me Damon? Is it how it's going to be now? Your kissing someone else didn't work so well, now you are going to show me your hatred like this?" Damon widened his eyes at me in frustration and anger as I said that.

"I don't hate you" stated Damon at once and I couldn't stop myself from scoffing at that darkly.

"Sure you do Damon. After all I betrayed you. I saved your eternal enemy from you, tricked you by pretense. It's not possible that you don't hate me. And you've made it clear a few hours ago just how much you hate me. Isn't that why you were kissing Rose? To hurt me and that's because you hate me. I wonder why you haven't killed me yet." Damon let out a heavy sigh of pain and frustration as I kept talking. He looked guilty and sorry as well but I wasn't going to fall for that.

"I know what I did hurt you badly. I wanted to hurt you. But that's because I was angry at you. I was hurt by what you did and you know I don't do good with emotions. I didn't know that you were actually saving me by saving Mason Lockwood. I am sorry for what I did to you. But I never hated you, I can never hate you" said Damon and I frowned at him with confusion/

"Who told you that I was trying to save you by keeping Mason alive?" I questioned immediately. Damon hesitated a bit before answering but answered anyway.

"Caroline. She told me about the pack" said Damon and I rolled my eyes in my mind. Of course she did. I should have known this would happen sooner or later.

"What if I was lying to her? You above all people know how qualified liar I am Damon." I said like a smart ass making Damon sigh out heavily once again.

"You weren't lying to her." He stated firmly. How could he be so sure about it? I wondered to myself.

"Okay maybe I wasn't lying to her. Maybe that's what I was doing, saving your life. But it doesn't change the fact that if Caroline hadn't told you about this, you would still be hating me right now and making out with Rose or someone else. That's the point you see, you never understand me Damon or listen to me for that matter. I told you more than once not to harm Mason but you never listened. You left me with no choice but to betray you like that cause saving Mason and sending him back to Florida was essential for everyone's survival here. You forced me to betray you. You forced me to run off with Mason. And you hated me for doing what I had to do to keep everyone I love safe and alive" saying that I inhaled a deep breath to calm myself down. I decided that moment that I was done talking to Damon for the day.

"Anyway, I think we are done Damon. It's better that we stay away from each other. I don't want to get hurt again and all we ever do is hurt each other. I guess we were never meant to be" saying that I waited for Damon to release me but he didn't do it instead he stared at me with this hurt expression on his face that made my heart cry. But what I said was true, we shouldn't be together anymore. Not just because we hurt each other every time we are together but because I have to do a lot of dangerous things from now on and the last thing I want is for Damon to jeopardize my plans.

"No, I won't stay away from you Jacq, I can't" said Damon with strong tone of voice.

"Please forgive me for hurting you. We can start over. Come on, we always do that." But it was not going to happen this time. Therefore I shook my head at him.

"Not this time Damon." He looked pleadingly at me that threatened to melt my heart right away.

"Just give me one more chance. I promise I will never hurt you again" said Damon and I laughed at that darkly.

"How many times you are gonna make that promise to me Damon? I can't give you another chance. I don't have it in me anymore." I stated strongly with determination and tried to get out of his hold but couldn't do it.

"At least forgive me for hurting you." Damon looked so broken while saying that, I just wanted to pull him into an embrace and never let him go but he is better off without me. After all sooner or later I am going to leave him anyway. He better move on sooner rather than later. God, I am sounding like a cancer patient. I looked at Damon with strong stare this time.

"Fine if you want my forgiveness then you are gonna stay away from me for as long as I want. And your 'I own you' thing, it stops right now. If you behave, I might forgive you for hurting me this time, eventually. But you must behave Damon." I said and to my utmost surprise Damon simply nodded his head and let go of his hold on me. I took in a deep breath and started to walk away from him.

"Let me drive you home." Damon asked hopefully.

"I am going to the Grill Damon." I said and his face fell at my rude voice. I bit my bottom lip. I realized that Damon was so not gonna make it easy for me either.

"But you can give me a ride there." The entire ride Damon and I didn't speak or said a single word to each other. We were completely silent. Damon dropped me off to the Grill like he said he would and no funny business. I noticed Stefan there. Judging the time, I realized that Elena must have already found out everything about the ritual from Katherine. Stefan immediately wanted to talk to Damon about it. After I saw them leave, I entered the Grill and found Caroline and Tyler sitting together at a table. She was relieved to see me okay but Tyler perhaps didn't know what has happened or what was going on because he only waved at me. I walked up to them.

"Caroline, can you do me a favor please?" I asked and she nodded immediately. I asked her to use compulsion and get me a bottle of bourbon, and two glasses from the bar. Caroline was confused and probably wanted to ask me hundreds of questions but she helped me anyway minus asking anything. I took the stuff and went straight to the tomb. Thankfully no one closed the door of the tomb after Elena left. I was hoping for that. I found Katherine standing at the door.

"I know my sister already fed you blood. That's why I brought this" saying that I showed Katherine the bottle of Bourbon. She smirked at that. I walked up straight to the door and stood very close to her.

"Aren't you gonna invite me inside today?" I asked Katherine and she looked quizzically at me. Shaking my head to myself, I walked past Katherine and entered her mansion. If I am not wrong I heard Katherine gasp out a little as I gracefully entered the tomb where she could easily tear me apart.

"You do realize that I can kill you now" said Katherine trying to scare me but it only made me smile at her.

"Trust me killing me would be doing me a favor right now." I said to Katherine as I poured drinks in two glasses and handed her one.

"Cheers to my birthday today!" I took a big gulp from my glass and so did Katherine.

"It's your birthday today?" asked Katherine and I nodded my head.

"Then why are you here? You should have been partying with your friends right now" stated Katherine and I sighed out heavily.

"I don't really do birthdays. There is no party out there. But we can do a little party in here." I said and Katherine laughed.

"I don't understand. How come you are so unafraid of me? You should have seen how your sister fed me blood today." This time I laughed when Katherine said that. I remembered vividly how Elena gave Katherine blood.

"You remember Rose?" I asked Katherine. She nodded her head of course because she did remember her. "She asked today if I were Elena's sister or Katherine's?" At that Katherine frowned with a smile though.

"Why would she ask that?" Katherine wondered. I shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly.

"Maybe because I was completely acting like you with her." I answered the question which made Katherine more confused.

"You were being a bitch to her, why?" asked Katherine right away. This was one good thing about Katherine, she knew exactly what she was. I liked it about her. I sighed out loudly before answering her question.

"Because she kissed Damon, well Damon was kissing her and she was kissing him back, they were making out." I blurted at once and gulped down the entire liquid substance in my glass at once.

"Easy baby Gilbert. You can't sleep over here at night" said Katherine to which I grumbled loudly. It was no surprise that I was feeling depressed at the moment. I ended everything between me and Damon once more. It hurt and it definitely sucked. I hated it, I hate it. All this good for him crap. It's nonsense. But I still have to do it and be selfless. But I wished I could be selfish like old times.

"So, you and Damon, huh? I guess you are the one who made him get over me" stated Katherine confidently. I scoffed at that immediately.

"Me and Damon! There will never be me and Damon. It will never happen" saying that I told Katherine what happened today since this morning and till the kiss.

"So, he kissed you for the first time and you told him to fuck off" stated Katherine blatantly.

"Sort of." I agreed with my drunken voice. "But the worst thing is, he was hurt. I hate to see him hurt."

"Then don't hurt him" said Katherine and she made it sound so easy. "It's a world of killed or be killed. Don't waste your time of having fun." I thought for a moment about what she said. I guess Katherine was right. I have very little time to myself. I shouldn't waste it in teen dramas and be a little selfish too. I got up from the stone bench.

"I should head back home now." I announced and stretched my legs and body. I was about to leave but then stopped because I had something important to say to Katherine.

"Oh I almost forgot, Damon and Stefan are gonna come for the moonstone. Elijah is looking for it. So they want to destroy it before Elijah could have it. You know what to do, don't you?" Katherine nodded with a smirk.

"I am gonna negotiate with my freedom." She stated and I nodded my head.

"See you soon" saying that I left and came back home. I was tired and a little drunk when I entered my room. I turned on the lights and found Damon in the room, sitting on my bed.

"I thought I told you to stay away from me." I said while walking inside my room and closing the door behind me so that no one else would hear us. Damon stood up and came close to me.

"I know, but I had to come" said Damon and he held a beautiful looking heart shaped locket in front of me hanging by a white gold chain. I looked at him with confusing eyes.

"I want you to have this. Don't worry it got vervain in it. This will protect you from compulsion too" said Damon and I got more confused.

"Why are you suddenly giving me this?" I asked but Damon didn't answer me and just removed the locket I was wearing and put his locket on me.

"Happy Birthday!" wished Damon, surprising me to no limit.

"How did you know?" I asked. I was actually really surprised that he knew today is my birthday. Damon obviously noticed how surprised I was.

"I told you I will surprise you one day" said Damon proudly. I couldn't help but smile at that. I walked up to the mirror to look at the first birthday gift of my life. It looked really beautiful on me. As if it was meant for me and belonged with me.

"It's beautiful." I whispered out the truth. Damon was standing right behind me, looking at me with a pleased look on his face.

"It was my mother's. She wore it when she was alive" said Damon and suddenly the world stopped spinning for me. I felt my heartbeat increasing twice much faster. My breathing become heavy and I felt this strange feeling inside me that I have never felt before. My emotions were threatening to burst out any moment. Damon gave me his mother's locket. How priceless it must be for him, how valuable, and he is giving it to me! He thinks I am worth it. He wants me to have it. He wants me to have something of his mother's that no one but him held before. Am I that important to him?

"Good night Jacq" saying that Damon started walking away from me and I felt my world crashing down on me at his departure.

"Damon!" I called him back with fear in my voice. Fear of him leaving me alone. Damon stopped and looked back at me. I took in a few deep breaths and then I walked up to him and crushed my lips on his. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me. Damon gathered me in his arms immediately and kissed me back with all the love he has for me. I kissed him with everything I had in me too, love, passion, care. I kissed him ferociously with over whelming emotions. I opened my lips and felt his tongue touching mine. I gasped a little at that because bolts of passionate pleasure went through my body at that moment. Damon deepened the kiss more as I was too caught up with my feelings. The kiss was anything but innocent and I loved it that way. It was so full of passion. Damon put his love, longing and passion for me in the kiss for me to feel them. We had to pull away because I was a human and needed to breathe. I suddenly felt so shy to look at Damon and blushed as he made me look at him into his eyes.

"I love you."

Damon said with so much feelings that I couldn't keep the tears away from my eyes anymore. Damon haven't said those three magical words to me before in such an emotional way. He meant it so strongly this time, I hadn't confessed my feelings like that when I said those words to him. Damon brushed away the tears from my face and kissed me again one last time.

"I have to go" said Damon. I nodded to that knowing why he had to leave. Stefan must need him at the moment. And as much as I wanted Damon to stay with me, I let him go to his brother. At that time it was safe to say that today was the best day of my life. If I die tomorrow, I won't regret it because I have already lived eternity with Damon in that one single moment.

AN: Next update at 350 Lol. love you guys.