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Chapter 7

Let's get one thing straight, I never want to leave this bathroom. How long can I stay in here without them noticing and sending a search party... I don't think I have ever seen Alice like that, I mean she looked...unhappy. Deciding to face the music I placed the towel back on the rack, as I stepped out of the bathroom I couldn't help but feel a little nervous. Have I done anything out of the ordinary? Did she see something?

"Bella..." I didn't even realise I had come to a standstill in the middle of the hall, frigging vampire hearing. "Bella...are you ok?" True concern so at least she is not angry.

"Yeah I'm sorry, I got a little distracted." How is it that all of the Cullens have a way of lighting up the room with a broad white smile?

"Bella.." she began apprehensively "can we talk? I havn't had a chance to talk since we came back into your lives." What could it hurt to talk to her? I mean she was my best friend at one point. It seems as if I didn't have a choice, as she was already walking to her bedroom, judging by the confederate flag on the wall and the huge closet on the other wall.

"Alice before you say anything I just wanted you to know...I really missed you." She is practically beeming at me. At that I was enveloped in a hug.

"Oh Bella I missed you too! And I want you to know when we left.." I decided to cut her off right there. The whole point of this evening was to leave the past in the past. This is like a clean slate

"Listen it doesn't matter about when you left ok and I hope you are here to stay." If it was possible that broad, white smile got even bigger. As we left her room and made out way down the stairs I truly felt like I belong again. A chorus of "Hey" was thrown at us when we walked back into the living room and sat down.

"Bella, are you hungry? I can rustle you up something if you would like?" Esme asked. was feeling a little bit peckish after she mentioned it.

"Umm...sure I suppose so, I could give you a hand if you like?" She immediately declined as her and Carlisle made their way into the kitchen and before I could even realise what was happening, I was lifted up and ran at vampire speed and placed me on a chair in the kitchen. Did I mention how much I missed that. I mean it is such an adrenaline rush.

"Do you like carrying me or something...because this first this morning and now this, I mean I suppose I am grateful it was not over your shoulder caveman style. At least this table is clean." As I said this that damn gorgeous smile of his was gonna be my undoing.

"Bella...I was wondering if I could speak to you alone?" This is not good...me and him alone together. The last time that happened I kissed him, I mean can I control myself? I don't know if I can. I mean it was me who wanted to talk this morning...so why exactly am I chickening out?

"Sure...I will be back soon ok." I said to the rest of them. "Esme are you sure I can't give you a hand?" I asked her before leaving them.

"No Bella really it is fine. I will call you when it is finished ok? You have a lot to talk about." Why do I get the feeling that this is not going to be a pleasant coversation? When we were walking up the stairs his hand was placed on the small of my back. It wasn't pressed enough for me to feel uncomfortable, but it was enough to feel his cool temperature cause shivers.

"Are you ok?" He asked guiding me into his room. It looked similar only this time he had a bed. A beautiful four poster bed with white curtains around it and sheets which probably cost more than what I make in a month.

"You got a bed?" I asked smiling at him. For all I know he could be entertaining women in it. I have no say in that matter because I have been the biggest slut since he left so no judgement here.

"Alice got it for me when we moved in, I was wallowing a little." How could he be wallowing? I want to rant, that doens't mean I am angry ok so I am a little angry, but it does mean that I can say all the things I have wanted to say for a while? This is gonna turn into a rant. I can just tell.

"I don't get it. You leave me saying that you don't want me, that I am not good enough and I spend 4 months being catatonic. I didn't eat or sleep properly, didn't do anything I was a zombie. I loved you. The kind of love I had for you was a kind of love that I didn't even know existed and you left me." I was crying proper tears, he moved towards me and wrapped me in a hug.

"Bella I didn't mean for that to happen. I loved you, in a way that I wasn't sure existed. When we left you were getting hurt..." I cut him off with my hand and decided this is now or never unzipping the jacket I had on I placed in on his bed.

"I ended up getting hurt when you wern't there." I lifted my shirt up over my head, his expression grew from sadness to anger to fury. "You being there was not endangering me...it was protecting me." His hand traced the scar that ran from my hip bone to my chest.

"Bella..." he only managed to choke out my name before hugging me again, holding onto me for dear life, he just kept muttering "sorry" in my ear. I stood back and looked at him, he was broken just like I was. Now or never Swan.

As I pressed my lips to his I could tell he was surprised, his hand trailed from my hip to my neck and he kissed me as if I was going to dissapear. I still love him, I love him with every fibre of my being. "Bella...I love you...I have always loved you, I am so sorry..." I shushed him with my lips and he responded as eagerly as I. Moving backwards towards the bed still kissing him I lay down with him pressed against me. I was back we are back. He trailed his hand along my scar gently, he had so many questions and emotions swirling through his eyes. "Who did this to you?" he asked seriously.

"You don't need to worry Edward, really." He had a crazed looking expression on his face.

"Bella who did this?" Why does he always have to...push things?

"It was Victoria. You don't have to worry. She's dead." He looked confused.

"How?" I do not want to bore him "Edward.." he cut me off with his lips and hands all over my body. Bed+Edward+Kissing=a very happy Bella. he just stopped.

"Edward come on I am not that fragile little girl anymore." I stated as he went to stand up I pulled him down on top of me again.

"Bella we can't...I am getting calls from downstairs that your food is ready." Oh my god..."food schmood Edward have not been able to touch each other for years, you have no idea how much I want you right now." I said gently nipping at his lips. At this moment we are frenzied, I am like a horse with blinkers on all I see is him, all I want is him. "Bella..." Oh come on...

"Edward what is stopping you right now...I want you...I need you...I am not fragile anymore..." I forced his eyes to look at me "Edward...I love you...please..." I am a pathetic begger...I know that but the only thing I can think of right now is him being pressed against me like this.

"Bella...I don't...I never..." He's nervous...Oh my god...he's a virgin. "I don't know...I..." for a 110 year old vampire he sure is lost for words. Wow he is a 110 year old virgin, that is kinda funny. "Why are you laughing at me?" Was I laughing out loud.

"Edward are you...are you a virgin?" I think he wants the ground to open up and swallow him whole right now.

"I am glad this is so amusing to you Bella...you seem experienced with this sort of thing, and I havn't had the opportunity, I will have been too busy trying not to kill my partner ok." Wow he definately wants the ground to open up and swallow him.

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