Woop woop new Chapter done! Really hope you like it. I laughed writing it. Inexperienced Edward is funny.
Chapter 10
BPOV
Oh god why the hell did I invite him over, with each step towards the door that I make my heart is nearly beating out of my chest. I can literally feel it rising up in my throat and Edward can probably hear the pounding through the door.. It is a good thing he is not an empath, cause the emotions flowing through me at the moment would be enough to send anyone over the edge. Screw it, man up Swan, come on you have been through worse.
This feels like a first date, I don't date. Use them and lose them is my motto. Why complicate things with feeling and emotions.
I am a just sex girl. Before John, Angela and I screwed boy's like whores on tiquilla, I haven't been on a date since the disasterous night to the movies with Mike and uncomfortable is the understatement of the year.
I couldn't even put my fucking hands on the armrests due to those two pansy ass mother fuckers wanting me to take their hands.I mean seriously you make out or have sex in a movie theatre not hold hands with your date come on. Especially since there was two guys and one girls that is just awkward. Two girls and one guy however, that is a party I would really enjoy that as long as no emotions are involved.
Things get too messy and I am not talking about the fun kind of messy with whipped cream and strawberries. I am talking the shit has hit the fan messy, adding each others feelings for one another into the mix just ends up with alot of messy crap that you have to sift through.
What the hell...I am rambling when all I was supposed to do was open the fucking door...well story of my life. I have never been so grareful that Edward can not read my mind than I am right now.
He does not need to find out about my whorish tendancies through my inner monologue.
Squaring my shoulders and swinging the door open I notice he is the picture of perfection with a pair of dark blue washed out Jeans and a button down white shirt. His messy bronze hair sitting up casually in disarray, his hair always looked like he just had a glorious round of incredible brains fucked out kinda sex.
I am gonna have my hands through his hair tonight! I swear to god could he look any sexier.
"Hi." In that solitary one word greeting he answered my question with a YES! If possible his voice had made me go week at the knees with that one little word the smooth velvety tone he has to it send pure sex and lust floating through every crevice of my body. OH MY FUCKING GOD! I AM SO SCREWED. My heart fluttered and stomach tightened. Panties wet...the shit has definately hit the fan.
"Hi." I said biting lightly on my bottom lip, trying to calm myself down a little and praying that my body is not going to betray me.
"I saw these on the way and thought they would look great in here." Wow roses...a girl could get used to this. As long as he doesn't tell me the price of them. Lord knows he likes to splash the cash but if he spent like a one hundred dollars on these I am going to kill him.
"Wow...Edward they're beautiful thank you." This was like some sort of cheesy romantic comedy next thing I know he will be asking me to go steady and pinning me.
"Come on in." I stepped aside and he glided past me like a Calvin Klein model on a runway. I was so grateful that Angela had spring cleaned so everything looked tidy and in place.
"I was just about to make food. Did you want anything, water, wine or maybe we have some o-negative sitting around somewhere." At that he laughed. It was then I spotted his ring, all of the Cullen's had one on today it looked very old and very valuable.
"Nice ring it kind of looks like John's." He smiled. He is really looking to push me over the edge with that cute smile. He really did look like some bronze haired god like Hercules or Ares or something. Ares is more fitting due to him being the Goddess of War, Bloodlust, Courage and Civil Order. Suits Edward I think.
"Thank you it's umm...a long story." He looked so kind and gentle standing in my apartment you would never guess that underneath that handsome exterior was a deadly creature ready to erupt.
"How about I make you food. If you let me try some?" What...seriously...is he high? He can not eat human food. Vampire...duh...isn't he forgeting the whole blood sucking thing.
"What? Edward anything short of a grizzly bear laying around I can't help you." He laughed. Great now he is mocking me. "Why are you laughing at me?Walking to the kitchen and putting the flowers in a vase.
"I find it so funny that you are so at ease with vampires. That's part of the long story. The Volturi created these rings they had them blessed by a priest of high order, I am not really sure who that is but apparently they have some sort of mystical energy embeded in them by a Vampire on their guard who is the same breed as Angela's Mate his mother was some sort of a wican and well Aro didn't want the rings to be made public knowledge so he waited like 100 years to give them to Carlisle. When the Volturi heard of a new addition to our Coven they made another one and John, Angela's mate..." I made a face.
"Please don't say mate ok you make them sound like animals in the wild or something." Looking in my eyes I could see the perfect golden honey colour staring back at me.
"Sorry...but they have something in them called Vervain." Wait I know this thank god I paid attention in class.
"Vervain is a herb. It was used in folk medicine, for some sort of tea." He nodded his head a loode a little shocked. "In NYU we have a Unit of Work based on alternative medicine and it dates back to folk medicine and how treatment has changed over the years, it was said that it was used as a hallucinogenic back then." Wow I never thought Proffessor Tynes class would be useful.
"Wow...yeah...umm...but along with the...priest's blessing it allows us to go into the sunlight and not shimmer." Wait what? Pushing myself up onto the bench.
"Wait so your telling me that you can go in the middle of the day, sun shining and not expose yourself." Wrong choice of words. I admit totally wrong choice of words.
"Oh god you make me sound like some of sexual offender. Expose myself." He laughed. " Umm Yeah that's the way it works. Apparently the Volturi have had them for years, and out of respect for Carlisle he gave them to us. He knows that we are first and foremost a family and live a peaceful life among humans. So he allowed us to have one that will do us for all eternity." OK if he is looking for a response he will be waiting for a while.
"Bella...say something." He looked a little nervous at my silence.
"Sorry...I am still realing over the whole non-shimmering sunlight thing."
"We can eat aswell." What well throw me through a loop and cover me in chocolate. Oh chocolate is not a bad idea. Chocolate covered Edward...with Strawberries and Champers...stop it Bella. Stop thinking Porny thoughts about your ex-vampiric boyfriend.
"Have you tried it out yet? The whole eating thing?" He looked at me and shook his head.
"No we have used it to drink and things but not food." Ok he is going to try food for the first time in...well I am not exactly sure how long but he is going to love it.
"Alright for your first meal in... one hundred and something years what do you want?" He looked contemplative.
"Pancakes." The serious expression is adorable. "I have never tried them before. In Forks you used to eat them it fascinated me how you did not fall into a diabetic coma with all of the stuff you put on it." This felt kind of domesic for me. I was not used to it.
"Any particular kind?" He looked like a little boy in a candy store, as his face lit up.
"Chocolate chip and Banana." I gave him a wide smile. "What I am a growing vampire, I need to keep up my strength." I laughed. We were never like this in Forks, he was always very serious and now I like him like this.
"What is with that grin you have on your face Bella?" Shit was I smiling? Crap.
"Sorry I just umm...I like us being like this you know...it's but also kinda familiar.
"Yeah me too." He pulled me in for a hug and he even smelled amazing close up, placing my head in the crook of his neck I didn't realise how much I missed him like this. I felt safe, happy and content.
Getting out all the things I needed I could feel him breathing in my scent, I jumped at the feeling of his cold hands on my now exposed hips.
"Sorry...what's the saying cold hands, warm heart?" Tracing my scar with his hand he was sad.
"I'm so sorry for everything Bella. I f I could go back and change it I would." He was not going to do this whole guilt trip, feeling sorry for himself thing.
"Shut up! Edward this is not your fault ok." He pulled me towards him clinging on to me like I was about to leave him once and for all.
"I will never, ever leave you Bella. Never again. How did you even...why are you...your giving me a second chance Bella, after I left you the way I did. After all of the things I said to you. Why do I deserve it?" How do I respond? Pulling him back and looking at him I had forgotton how beautiful he was.
"Edward there is no point crying over spilt milk ok. All of the shoulda, coulda, woulda's are not going to change what happened. Besides you're here now. That's all that matters.
Before I could stop myself I pressed my lips softly to his as he responded my hands lay on his shoulders gripping onto him. The feel of his hands on my hips feel unbelieveable. Like I was dreaming. If that is the case I never want to wake up. Wrapping my legs around his waist I can feel how much he wants me pressing into my thigh. OH MY GOD! Who would have thought little virginal Edward would be fully equipted to meet all of my knees. Why is he pulling away from me god? I diot.
"Bella we should stop." Why in god's name should we do that? We are just getting to the good part.
"Why exactly should we stop?" I stated still wrapped around his waist. "I want this and from what I can tell, you want this to." He groaned in a completely unEdward like way and the sound went straight to my nether regions. "You can not seriously sit there and tell me you don't want this, because I have some pretty hard evidence that tells me otherwise." Grinding in his erection just to prove my point. "No pun intended." There was a flicker of a smile before his expression turned back to serious again.
"Bella you don't realise but I can hurt you ok, I am very strong and if I lose control with you..." He made space between us in the kitchen. Interrupting his before he makes up one hundred excuses.
"You won't lose control with me Edward. I trust you ok. Think of it as an alcoholics ten steps ok. Only we will have five steps ok?" Pulling his face towards me I pressed feather light kisses to his jaw and neck.
"Step One:Kissing" Kissing his softly on the lips feeling his respond back to me I felt Gleeful at my success.
"Step Two:Touching." I placed my arms around his neck and pulled myself up to wrap my legs around him again. His hand on my ass to stop me from falling allowed me another success.
"Step Three..." He cut me off with his lips on mine, pressing forcefully, it is a good thing I like it really rough.
"Bella..." Dragging my hands through his hair like I have wanted to all night, yes score Bella three, Edward zero. Will begging be enough to push through that unbreakable barrier?
"Please Edward...please." His resolve was breaking I am winning this fight. "Please I love you. I want you" He kissed me back without the need for anymore pleading.
"Bella we are not" kiss "doing this here" kiss "ok I can't..." kiss "...do this..." kiss "...in the..." kiss "...kitchen...ok." I nodded and he walked me towards my bedroom and softly placed me down on my bed.
"I love you Bella I never stopped." He said whilst kissing me.
"I know...I love you too." He is the only person I have said this to. I don't even kiss the people I bring home...this is different I do love him I never stopped.
If we were going to do this I wanted his first experience to be amazing, he is tender and loving and I can already tell that is what kind of lover he is going to be. It is going to be slow, methodical and absolutely amazing.
Bringing his hands to the hem of my shirt he gently pulled it up and over my head. I couldn't take my eyes of him and before I knew it I was lying in only my underwear and he was still fully clothed. What can I say the boy works fast.
Undoing the buttons of his shirt looked easier said than done, after much poking he was rid of the horendous item, along with his jeans and shoes, which fortunately for me had no laces.
"Bella are you sure?" Why is he asking me that, I am not the one about to lose my virginity.
"Shouldn't I be asking you that question. What's wrong you look scared?" He looked like a fucking deer caught in the headlights.
"I...it's just...you have...I want to be good for you. Compared to me you know what you are doing and have been with people who know what they are doing. .." Aww he is so cute. I smiled at him.
"The only thing I need is you and it will be perfect. OK?" He nodded his head. At that he unhooked my bra and threw it somewhere to exhilarated from having his hand on my body I don't really care.
The only barrier between us is a pair of black panties and his boxers. The feel of his hard ice cold skin flush against my over heated soft skin felt like a dream, a dream that I never wanted to wake up from.
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