Chapter 2 Pain is love

Raven's POV

When I got to my house I had a very unwelcome visitor, groaning I got out of the car and went up the driveway.

"What do you want Phil?"

He held out some lame looking flowers, a small smile on his rat like face. "I wanted to say I'm sorry"

I budged past him and went inside, sadly he followed me and shut the door.

"Sorry for what exactly, sorry for sleeping with John Cena's PA or sorry for punching me in the face, maybe your sorry for sleeping with that whore you found at the club or maybe your sorry for choking me out with a leather belt"

He touched my hand gently "I'm sorry for all of it Raven, you just get me so angry"

"You've used all your chances Phil, I'm not gonna be your fool anymore"

"Don't say that Raven" He pulled me close to him his fragrance rubbing my nostrils. "I need you"

"Let me go you asshole" I struggled out of his grip "I don't wanna see you ever again"

He punched me in the stomach, the air exploded from my lungs and I dropped to my knees. Gently he stroked my hair like a dog, "You were told not to say that" Gasping for breath he pulled me to my feet via my hair "Now are you going to be a good girl?"

Gaining some courage I punched him back, my small fist catching him in the jaw perfectly. He stumbled back in surprise his eyes bulging at my sudden punch. Phil grabbed my throat and gave me a punch of his own, I fell into the wall by my kitchen pain rocketing up my core. Grabbing a knife I waved it at him desperately "Give me a reason Phil, I swear I'll do it"

He smirked at me, not believing that I would do it. "You ain't gonna hurt me Raven"

"If you come near me I swear I will do it" I was so tired of his shit, so tired of him using me like his doormat, it was time I stood up to him and if that meant stabbing him. He ran a hand through his black hair, his hands suddenly up in defence.

"Alright you want me gone Raven, I'm gone." He pushed past me, "Your going to die a lonely woman because no one will have you, no one but me"

He left me with his hurtful words and all I could do was look at his back hoping this was the last time I ever saw him. I shut the door and sank to the floor, I was just glad that I was finally alone and away from him.

When I got up I went straight to the mirror, my face was a deep shade of purple. It was not going to go un-reconized. Sighing annoyed and upset I locked everything up and headed to bed. With any luck, I would wake up and my face would be perfectly fine. Yeah right and maybe my boss would suddenly realise that he was in love with me.

Morning came faster than I liked, turning off the alarm clock I slid out of bed. I didn't think it was possible but my face actually looked worse. Sighing I jumped in the shower and proceeded to get ready for the day. I barely had time to breathe, let alone worry about my face. As always I was the only one awake when I got to work. That gave me time to get things ready and hopefully come up with a believeable excuse as to why my face was a dark shade of black and blue. I decided that I would blame it on my sister, Randy didn't know her personally but he knew that we barely spoke, I guess I could say that last night we got so angry that we decided to lay into each other. I felt bad for blaming this on someone that has spoken to me in about three years but any path to avoid that jerk, I was gonna take.

"Morning Raven"

"Mornin boss" I kept my head down, pretending to be working on some really important files. "There's a coffee on your desk"

"Raven are you alright?"

I should of known that he would click that something wasn't right, sure. The moment I want to be ignored by his peering eyes, he makes it his mission to be Mr Notices everything.

"I'm fine"

"Then why won't you look up and give me that beautiful smile?"

Against my will I did two things, I smiled and I raised my head. His eyes seem to expand, "Raven what happened?"

"Nothin"

"Don't tell me it was nothing" He said tilting my face in his hands so he could get a better look. Was I crazy for thinking that he practically bit that sentence out? Was I insane for thinking that he cared alot more than he should? Yes, I was crazy and insane. He didn't care anymore than just being a friend and employer. "Who did this to you?"

I wanted to say my sister but my brain betrayed me, just because we weren't speakin, didn't mean she deserved to blamed for something she would never do to me. (At least I don't think she would)

"Raven who did this to you?"

I let out a sigh, I wanted to tell him but at the same time I didn't want anyone but especially him knowing. "Its not important now Randy"

He opened his mouth to say something but at the last moment he changed his mind and just walked away from me. Grabbing the faxes that needed to be done I headed to the fax machine, hopefully no one else would say anything about my face. Why did it hurt so much when he walked away? Pushing random buttons I started my job and for a moment my brain was distracted. Beep beep beep! Now other than that bastard Phil, I hated cellphones. I quickly answered my phone hoping that Randy wouldn't come along and go about using cellphones during worktime.

When I get home tonight I want dinner to be cooked and I want you in bed waiting and willing like a true girlfriend and if your not then you are really gonna regret it, the bruises on your face will seem like nothing, YOU EVER DO THAT SHIT AGAIN RAVEN YOU WILL REGRET IT Love Phil xoxox

Are you fuckin kidding me? I thought I made it perfectly clear? Apparently not. Sighing I put my phone away and went back to work. At least for six hours I was pain free and away in paradise. Yes thats right, I'd rather be at work with men and women who stare at me and with a man that I knew I could never have than at home with Phil. Going back to my desk I started doing all the other bits and peices until I had to sit in on another meeting. As I jotted things down I could swear that I felt Randy's eyes on me, staring at me from his office. Ok now I'm just being paranoid, or was it being hopeful that he cared for me more than he should. Maybe I am starting lose it.

"Raven?"

I looked up to the one man I knew I loved, his usual smile back in place. "I was wondering if you could do me a huge favour?"

"That depends on what it is boss"

He handed me some money, usually he didn't trust his employees with money due to stealing and shit, but I guess I was the one person he could trust and he wasn't wrong. I was a lot of things but I ain't no theif. "I need you to go across the street and pick up some school supplies for Ally, I was meant to do it on the way but I guess I forgot"

"Sure. Anything in particular?"

He handed me more paper and I swear electricity zapped through my whole body when his hand brushed mine. "Thank you, I know it ain't part of your job description"

I had to laugh, "Half the shit I do ain't part of my job description"

His blue eyes iced over and quickly I went to damage control "But I honestly don't mind doing them Randy."

His scowl turned to a smile and a small wink before he headed back to his office. That was confusing for a moment, and then I got it. I had finally called him by his name. It had rolled off my tongue so easily, I didn't even notice and usually I was really good at noticing that kind of shit. I looked at my watch, I had to get moving if I wanted to keep my efficiency record.

Once she was gone Randy came out of his office and went to her desk, knowing Raven the way he did he knew he didn't have much time. Randy didn't want to paw through her desk for clues as to what happened but he had to know. Someone had hurt her, hurt her badly. Looking through the drawers all he came across was paper, papers connected to work. The only thing personal that represented her was the stray hair clip sitting ontop of papers. In his rumaging he knocked her clip to the floor, he wanted to leave it but knowing that that would get him snapped he bent down to pick it up. When he pulled out her clip, he also pulled out her phone. It must of fallen from her pocket as she turned to leave. Flipping it open he expected to face a hard lock code but instead her last recieved message blurred at him. He couldn't stop reading it and when his eyes had finished the last of the text, his eyes were back to icy rage. No one was going to get away with hurting her, Randy could't let him get away with hurting Raven. She meant far too much to him.