I know, I know, it's been way too long since I've updated this! But to be honest, I got writers block for it :( See, I know what I want to happen but I just have a problem getting there lol. So hopefully I can work that out and get updating on this alot faster! So, I hope you enjoy this chapter! :)
Chapter Three
Jeff was shocked. "You want to photograph...me? Why?"
"Because um...y-you fit the description of the project," Nick stammered as he picked on a loose thread of his comforter.
"Y-You think I'm b-beautiful?" Jeff asks and Nick was sure the blonde was blushing now. Nick nods.
"Y-Yes...very," Nick answered shyly. Jeff smiles and tries to catch Nick's eye. Nick finally looks up at Jeff and smiles when he sees him smiling.
"That really means a lot to me, Nick. No one's ever told me that before," Jeff admitted. Nick's eyes went wide. What? How could no one have ever told him how beautiful he was?
"What? I don't believe that," Nick responded with a shake of his head. Jeff blushed some more.
"It's true. I've always wanted a boy to call me beautiful," Jeff says, looking down to his hands. So he was gay. Nick could breathe a sigh of relief.
"Oh, so you're gay too?" Nick asked. Jeff nodded.
"Yeah. And I'm guessing you are too by the way you called me beautiful," Jeff answered with a smile. Nick smiled and nodded. "It's too bad we didn't meet, you know, before... Because I think you're beautiful too..." Jeff said with a shy smile. Nick felt his heart ache for the spirit in front of him.
"I feel the same way, Jeff. I really wish I got the chance to know you sooner," Nick admits to him. Jeff frowns.
"C-Can I hug you? I-Is that possible?" he finally asks. Nick thought for a moment.
"I'm not sure. I've never tried it before. We could try I suppose?" Nick answered the blonde. Jeff nodded and scooted closer to Nick on the bed. He leaned forward and went to wrap his arms around Nick. Nick waited, holding his breath. As Jeff leaned forward he fell right through Nick and on to the bed behind him. They both sighed. They just really wanted to be able to touch each other.
"I guess we can't," Jeff said sadly.
"Guess not..." Nick responded with a frown. Nick turned so he was facing Jeff on his new spot on the bed.
"If I can't even hug you, how can I show up in a picture?" Jeff asks.
"Sometimes spirits appear in my pictures. I think it depends on how much energy is around," Nick informs him.
"So, if I focus?" Jeff asks.
"Yeah, I guess. To be honest, I'm not entirely sure how it works," Nick admits. Jeff chuckles.
"Me neither," he says. "So when would you like to take this picture?"
"Well…how about sunset? That's my favorite time of the day," Nick says with a smile.
"That sounds perfect. So what should we do until then? Or do you have some other plans?" Jeff asks bashfully, hoping that Nick would stay here with him.
"No, I have no other place to be. No other place I'd want to be," Nick tells Jeff honestly. Jeff can't help the smile that spreads across his face.
"I'm glad. Maybe we can just talk?" Jeff asks.
"Yeah, I'd like that," Nick admits and smiles himself.
"What would you like to talk about?" Jeff asks with a smile on his face.
"What about your family? You seemed to really love your sister," Nick offers.
"Y-Yeah, we can talk about that. But can you go first?" Jeff asks shyly, looking down.
"Of course. Hmm, let's see where should I start? Well, I have my parents and my older brother Eric. My parents still live back in Ohio and Eric moved to Texas with his wife Amanda," Nick says.
"How much older is he?" Jeff asks.
"He's five years older than me. We used to be best friends before he moved. We're still close but it's not the same," Nick tells Jeff.
"Aw, I'm sorry," Jeff says, frowning.
"No, don't apologize. I just miss him sometimes, that's all," Nick says with a shrug.
"I miss my sister too. I had her and my parents. She is my favorite person in the world. Her name is Megan and she's four years younger than me. Everyone says she looks just like me but neither of us sees it," Jeff says with a smile on his face. Nick can't help but smile adoringly at Jeff. He gets so happy when he talks about his sister. It's evident that he loved her more than anything.
"Maybe I can help you talk to her," Nick says, "I'm sure she'd love to hear from you."
"I-I don't know about that. I remember my family being mad at me before I blacked out, I don't know if she was mad at me too or not…" Jeff said timidly.
"In any case I'm sure she would love to know you're here and can communicate with her," Nick says, trying to convince Jeff to talk to her.
"C-Can we not talk about this anymore? I mean, it's almost sun set anyway…" Jeff says, desperately trying to change the subject.
"Of course, Jeff. Whatever you'd like," Nick says, nodding. "So should we go out to the balcony to take the pictures now?"
"Yeah, that sounds good," Jeff says, standing up from the bed. They both walk out to the little balcony outside of Nick's bedroom. Nick stands with his back against the wall as Jeff stands near the railing of the balcony. To anyone this would just look like Nick was taking a picture of the sunset. But Nick knew he wasn't. He was taking a picture of the most beautiful man he had ever seen. Nick put his camera up to his eye and begins to snap pictures. Jeff smiled for the camera, doing his best to focus so he could show up in the pictures. Once Nick started snapping pictures, he couldn't stop. This man was just so beautiful; he wanted as many pictures as he could get of him. Jeff kept smiling for the camera and occasionally a light blush would play on his cheeks. Nick would give anything to know what was going on his Jeff's mind to make him blush. Nick snapped a few more pictures before he figured it was verging on awkward for the amount of pictures he was taking. He lowered the camera from his eyes and smiled at Jeff.
"I think I got some pretty good ones in there," Nick told him with a smile, opening the door to go back into the bedroom.
"Do you think I showed up? Did I do good?" Jeff asks, going back into the bedroom with Nick.
"You did great, Jeff. And let's go see if you showed up or not," Nick told him with a smile. Jeff smiled and followed Nick over to his laptop on top of his desk.
"So have you remembered anything yet? About what may have happened to you?" Nick asks as he fishes the wire out of a drawer. Jeff sighs and sits down on the edge of Nick's desk.
"I actually did. I-I remember that I was d-driving… R-Really fast... Cause I was mad…" Jeff mutters out. Nick frowns.
"Do you remember what you were mad about?" Nick asks him.
"N-Not really. All I remember is I was at my cousin's house then I left because I got mad a-and then I guess I crashed…" Jeff said sadly, looking down to the ground. Suddenly, Nick gets an idea.
"Hey Jeff?" he asks.
"Yeah, Nick?" Jeff replies.
"Well, you know how whenever there's an accident, there's an article about it online somewhere?" Nick says, pulling Google up on his computer.
"Yeah…" Jeff answers, getting up to look over Nick's shoulder.
"Well, maybe we can find an article on what happened to you," Nick says, looking up and Jeff with a smile. Jeff smiles in return and looks back towards the computer screen when Nick starts typing. He types in '19 year old death by car accident' and hit search. Nick scrolled through 8 pages before he started getting discouraged.
"I don't see anything, Jeff…" Nick said with a frown.
"Yeah, me neither. M-Maybe that's not how I died?" Jeff said and then he had the saddest expression in his eyes that Nick had ever seen. "Or maybe they haven't found my body yet… M-Maybe they don't know I'm even dead…"
"I-I don't know Jeff…" Nick says with a frown of his own.
"C-Can we l-look at the pictures now?" Jeff says, looking down to his feet.
"Of course we can," Nick tells him. Nick can see that Jeff doesn't like to talk about himself much. Not about his family or about what happened to him. And Nick could never force him to do that. But Nick is really curious about this man. He wants to know everything about him and just wishes Jeff would open up. Maybe one day he will. And it'll make it easier to find out what happened to him when he does. Nick plugs the cable into the camera and then into his computer. He pulls up the pictures on the computer. Both Nick and Jeff smile wide when they see that Jeff actually did show up in the pictures. And he looked amazing. The sun made it look like Jeff was shining. It was the best set of photographs that Nick had ever taken. Jeff smiled down at Nick and Nick smiled right back up at him.
"You look so beautiful, Jeff," Nick told him.
"Because of you. Your photos make me look that way," Jeff says with a shy smile. Nick shakes his head.
"No, you're just naturally beautiful," Nick says with a smile. Jeff blushes and looks away from Nick's eyes shyly.
"Now you can look at these and remember me once I've moved on," Jeff says with a sad smile. Nick smiles sadly as well. He really wants to frown though. He doesn't want Jeff to move on. He wants him to stay right there with him forever. He wants to kiss him. Just once. To hold him in his arms. Just for one night. But he can't because Jeff needs to move on. And he knows that but that doesn't mean he likes it.
"Y-Yeah, I guess I can," Nick says, avoiding Jeff's gaze. Jeff frowns when he sees Nick's reaction, knowing what he's thinking. He's thinking the same thing. So maybe he can stay with Nick for a while. What's the harm in that? Jeff leans in and presses his lips to Nick's cheek. Nick's eyes widen when he can feel it.
"I-I felt that…"Nick says, shocked.
"Y-Yeah, so did I…" Jeff said, confused as well. They smile wide at each other, loving that in that moment they were able to feel each other.
"I want to stay with you, Nick," Jeff says before he even realizes he's saying it. Nick is somewhat shocked at his words. He wants that too, more than anything. But he knows it's wrong.
"Y-You can't Jeff. You're meant to move on," Nick tells him.
"I know what I'm supposed to do. But I've never been one to follow rules," Jeff says with a smirk that makes Nick smile. "But I haven't even seen the light yet, Nick."
Nick thinks for a moment. "Okay, you can stay with me. Because honestly, I really want you to. I like having you here. But if you see the light, you have to tell me, okay? Deal?"
"Deal," Jeff says with a smile.
"Okay, great," Nick says with a smile as well.
Nick and Jeff just look into each other's eyes and smile. And in that moment they both know that they're in trouble. Because Nick and Jeff are falling in love with each other.
Niff is too adorable for their own good. Did you guys like it? I hope so! Let me know what you think? :)