4.14 At Firts Blush
You look at her, and you wonder. This woman is everything you shouldn't want, not right now, at least. Your family wouldn't want a former call-girl as a girlfriend. It's not good for you, and it's not good for you as a cop. A cop shouldn't date a former prostitute- as much as she claims she isn't, wasn't.
Yet, you are attracted to her. it' not her body- she is fascinating, and… nice, but her body isn't strictly to die for – but there's something that captivates you. Maybe it's because she is a bit like Jane, reading people, and telling them what they need, what they want.
You shouldn't want her, she means only trouble, and you know it, like you know there's no way in hell she remembers how many men she has been with in her whole life. But yet…
Yet you want her… you need her. And maybe it's because it's against the rules and against whoever you've always been, whoever you're supposed to be…
Maybe they are right, at the CBI. Deep down, you are still the gang member you used to be as a teenager, the rebel, the anti-conformist.
You're not so stoic after all. Only, you are not so sure it's a good thing.