Hi people! There's one song that's going to be in this chapter...wow if I keep this up, then this will turn into a musical story and I will have to hit my head on something. LOL. Anyways, the song that's going to be here is very depressing. Anna Blues' song So Lonely. What? It's the only song I can think of that is so depressing! Also, I'm only using songs that are in my ipod that fits the story... Ha, I'm a music lover! Well, that's my FF name of course! lol! Well, have fun!

Logan's POV

I hate my school life. Jett is making me miserable! Well, yesterday, Jett is not the leader of the school anymore. Wonder why. Oh right, Kendall told on him since he had a pocket knife and he's not the king anymore. Kendall has his title back! Well, Jett's arrested and I've been told he should going to be in Juvenal Detention Center starting today.

"Morning Logie."My mom greet after I walk downstairs.

"Morning mom." I sat down on the table. There's a plate of pancakes and toast. My mom put a plate of bacon and eggs in front of me and back to the kitchen.

After about five minutes, I was done with everything on my plate.

"Logan, it's been almost a month."

"Yeah, so?" I ask drinking my orange juice.

" Your father's going home tomorrow."

After I heard that, I spit my juice out. "WHAT?"

"I know honey."

I don't feel so well anymore. I had lost my appetite "Mom, I gotta go." I stand up and swing my bag over my shoulder

I run out of the house all ready, I wanted to ride my bike again. Yesterday, there is something else bothering me. And it's the fact that my dad will come home someday, but I never new it's tomorrow! When I got out, I saw Kendall sitting on the pouch swing.

"I'm waiting for you again."

"I know... how long were you waiting for me?"

" About three minutes."

"Oh..." This is a very awkward conversation.

"Got my bike."

"Yeah, lets go to school before I explode."

"Why are you going to explode?" He chuckles.

"Well... it's almost... I mean, he's uh... you know, I'll tell you later." Man, this is harder then I thought.

When we got to school, we went in. James walk pass Mrs. Dixon.

"James, no hats in the building."

"Why not?"

"Because it's the rule."

"Why is it a rule? Wearing hats doesn't make you look like a criminal or anything."

Kendall started chuckling some more and walk to James side. I follow.

"Yes it does. Now take it off."

"Fine." James groan and take his cap off. "Happy?"

"No." Mrs. Dixon cross her arms.

"Why? What now?"

"You're wearing a bandanna."

"So?"

"It's against the rule."

"No it's not, why it is a rule."

" Because it makes you look like a criminal." I told him

"Oh... why don't you just told me that instead you tell me a hat makes me look..."

Kendall joins in "All head wears are..."

"I know, but some girls wear bows and head bands on their head."

"Yeah but... you know, just forget it. Just go to class." Mrs. Dixon told James and walk away.

We just watch her walk away and our little ball of energy friend came over to her. "Hi Mrs. Dixon."

"Go to class." She hisses.

"Okay then." Carlos walk up to us. "What's up with her?"

"I piss her off. I knew pissing her off will get me off the hook." James told us.

"You know, it's not going to work all the time."

" Yeah, but it did." The pretty boy wink.

Skip to PE

Going outside for PE today. Kendall and Carlos' class and my and James' class are combine again.

"Diamond, Knight, stand here." The teacher instruct. They stand near a tree.

Carlos started snickering. I turn to him."Ha, Diamond Knight. Get it Logan?"

"Yes, yes I do." I smile. He is so childish but I love him like a brother for that.

"Pick your team."

"Okay..." Kendall started. "Logan."

"Of course." The class mumble. I walk to my boyfriend's side.

"Okay uh... Jacob." James picks. He's in my class

"Dak." From Kendall's class

"Carlos"

"Camille."

"Stephanie."

"Jo" From my class

"Lucy" Also my class

After picking everybody, we start a game of soccer.

After the little game, we had a break. Kendall and I sit on the bench.

"You said there's something bothering you. Can you tell me now?"

That sentence made the smile disappear from my face. I look down?"

"It's a month already."

"Yeah, so? Oh..." He say realizing. I nod my head slowly. He knows me too much. He lean over and kiss my forehead. "You're staying home tomorrow right?"

"Yeah, it doesn't heart to be prepared before he comes in the afternoon."

"Don't worry baby, I will stay by your side."

"That's the worse thing to say to a worry person." I mumble.

Kendall's POV

" LOGAN!" Mr. Mitchell screams after knocking Logan's front door down. Oh no...

"Don't get close to me! I got a phone and I'm not afraid to dial it." Logan sounds terrified, not-confidential and an idiot, at least, that's what he think he sounds like. He always think he sound like an idiot when his dad is here.

"Who are you gonna call?" His aggressive voice makes him shrink.

I roll my eyes and scoff "Who do you think?"

"Look, if you call them, I will and literally gonna kill you!"

"Go ahead, that's what they want to see you do, Logan's not scared of you."

"Kendall!" He whisper/shout

"Oh really?" Mr. Mitchell started to take one step towards my boyfriend. He hides behind me. He took another step.

"Logan, run." He shook his head. "Logan, give me your phone and run." He listens. He give me his cell phone. I keep staring at Mr. Mitchell with angry eyes. He started to run after his son. I started calling the police.

After a few minutes, the police came and arrest him and my boyfriend is unharmed.

Nothing much is going on here.

Having history again, boring, but at least it's something interesting. What's interesting about it? I bet you know. I love my Logiebear. But today, he's not there in the morning, he's in the office doing the morning announcement in a private room.

"Uh... um... Good morning Minnesota High." This is his first time doing this and he's being a nervous wreck.I gotta help him. I shoot up of my seat and run to the office. I got there and saw him sitting on an office chair holding the handle of the intercom firmly that his knuckles turn white. I clear my throat to get his attention. He turn his head.

"Help me" He mouthed, fear written all over his face.

"Where did you stop at?"

"My name."

I laugh and run to where he's at.

"Good morning Minnesota High! My name is Kendall Knight and this is your morning announcement!" I heard everyone cheering from the outside of the office. After announcing the lunch and other stuff, I turn to Logan. He has his head down. He's upset again, what's wrong? "Okay, now here's a little announcement from Mrs. Dixon." I grab his arm and run out the door while the principle takes the intercom. I got him to the hallway alone.

"Logie, now what's wrong? You're dad's arrested for life, there's no need to worry about."

"It's not that, one problem is finally pushed away for good, but there's another one that's still blocking my way."

"Well, what's your other problem?"

" People like me because of you, if it weren't for you, I'll still be a loner. A wannabe."

"Logie, that's not true!" People like him for him. After he started to hang out and dated me, he became popular.

"It is! You know, I just want people to like me for who I am, not who I hang out with." He shouldn't be, people like him because he's with me! Wait... people only like him... because of me... Oh, no.

"Okay... maybe you are right. Now let's go to class!"

This is bad. Maybe we wants me off his back.

Logan's POV

This is horrible. I want to be seen. Yes, I am noticeable now, but only because of Kendall. I want people to love me for me.

Well, its Friday and it's after school. I was about to go to my locker until...

"Hey pacifist lesbian ."

I turn my head. Seeing Kyle right in front of me. I thought he has OSS.

"I'm not a pacifist."

"Oh really? I never seen you fight back anybody." I ignore him and get my stuff out of my locker then swing my bag over my shoulder. I turn to him.

"Get out" I hisses looking up at him with my eyes only.

He cross his arms and smile at me " No."

" Get out of my way."

"Nope."

"Get out of my way before..."

"You gonna tell Kendall to protect you again? Huh you little baby? You little pacifistic retard? Huh wussy?"

I grab his arm and flip him to the floor. "Am I a pacifst retard now?" I ask and walk away. Yes, one little flip is stupid, but it's a little warning for him.

Now where is Kendall? I haven't seen him since lunch. I mean, he didn't talk to me today.

"Logan!"

"Kendall."

"Hey, I have hockey practice until six so can you please take care of Katie today?"

"Sure, but she can take care of herself. She's 11."

"I'm a little too overprotective." He admits "Well, see you." And he left.

Now at home, taking care of Katie, she doesn't do anything. I just help her with her homework, and she watch TV that's it. Now it's 6 and she went home.

Nothing to do. Laying on my bed. Kendall barely talks to me now this past week.

My face against the window pane. A tear for every drop of rain.

I am so lonely and so sad.You're the reason that I'm feeling bad. I am so lonely and so sad. Living in a dream I've never had.

I'm afraid I'm right. I am a useless piece of shit. People don't want me. I'm at the end of the line. The one who's against the wall. The one who's sensitive. I hate myself.

My face against the window pane.A tear for every drop of rain.I'm living like already I have died. Have died.

Emptiness a present past. A silent scream to shatter glass. I have to go; it's time for me to fly.

I am so lonely and so sad. You're the reason that I'm feeling bad. I am so lonely and so sad. Living in a dream I've never had.

Maybe that's why Kendall doesn't want me anymore. James and Carlos doesn't hang out with me anymore. Why? Is it because they hate me now? Is it once I told them to back off?

Who will care if I'm not here? If suddenly I disappeared?

No one's gonna notice it at all. Dying flowers in my hand
I'm vanishing from where I stand. It isn't yet too late to get the truth!

I am so lonely and so sad. You're the reason that I'm feeling bad. I am so lonely and so sad. Living in a dream I've never had.

I am tired of living like this. I'm going to do it, again. There's no reason to live if no one cares.

So lonely and so sad. You're the reason that I'm feeling bad. I am so lonely and so sad. Living in a dream I've never had.

Am I right? No one cares if I just disappear from the face of the Earth. I'm I right? Tell me I am! No one cares!

I am so lonely and so sad. You're the reason that I'm feeling bad. I am so lonely and so sad. Living in a dream I've never had.

So lonely and so sad. You're the reason that I'm feeling bad. I am so lonely and so sad. Living in a dream I've never had.

I got out of my bed. I look at the time. 7pm. I should tell my mom goodbye before I go, but she's not gonna be home until midnight. I don't want to wait that long though. I then walk down to the kitchen. I heard the doorbell ringing. I don't want anyone to come in. I want to be alone so I can kill myself.

Kendall's POV

"I feel bad." James sigh

"Me too. We haven't hang out with Logan for the past week."

"Yeah, we were too busy with hockey practice, clubs, and detention."

"And babysitting."

"You babysit?"

"For Katie, I have to since Kendall is too overprotective. Am I right?" I ignore Carlos' question."Anyways, he also told us to back off."

"He was pissed that time."

I really miss Logan. Yes, one reason why I didn't hang out with him for a while is because I'm busy, but also... I have a feeling he want me to back off because he think I'm just his bodyguard. He thinks people likes him because of me.

I'm in verge of going to his house to apologies for not being with him for a while. Even though I don't feel like going.

"Hey, let's go to Logan's house guys!" Thank you Carlos!

We all run to his house. Carlos started to hastily pressing the doorbell.

"Carlos, stop." James instruct

"Okay!"

We wait for a while. No answer.

"Maybe no one's home." Well duh James!

"Then why is the light on?" I ask then walk to the window to see what's going on.

There I see Logan in the kitchen holding something and taking something out. He put it on the counter and search some more. I look closer. I see pills. He takes pills? Wait, this isn't any ordinary pills, are those drug pills? And is that a knife next to it? What is he doing with that? Then Logan came back with a gun and put the knife and pills in his arms.

"No... no, no, no, no, no, no, NO!"

"What's going on in there Kendall?" Carlos ask

"We gotta get inside before it's too late!"

"The window!"

We run to the back of the house and climb in through the window. We saw Logan running in his room and we run after. Then he slam the door and lock it.

"This can't be good." James whisper.

All three of us started banging at the door forcefully and boisterously screaming his name and tell him to open the door.

"LOGAN! Open this door!" Carlos yells

"Open the freakin' door Logan!" James hollers.

"Logan, please let us in! We know what you're doing and it won't help!" I pleads.

"LOGAN!"

This can't happen! Why is Logan want to kill himself again? Is he tired of living? Does he want to be with me anymore? he keep on banging and banging until our hands bleed.

"Logan, please open the door if you don't; Kendall's gonna cry!" James yells

"No I'm not gonna, James!" I scream at him.

"Really?"

"Does anyone see my helmet?" Carlos ask digging in his bag.

"CARLOS! NOT NOW!" James and I yell at him.

"I'm gonna do something!

No Logan, please don't kill yourself, don't die. Tears slid down my cheek.

"See, Kendall, you are crying."

"SHUT UP JAMES!"

"Logie makes Kenny a happy boy." He tease

"SHUT THE HELL UP JAMES!"

"Oh, found it." Carlos put his helmet on his head. "Now best friends, back away." We back up and he head-butted the door down! Great! We run in and we heard a gunshot.

I saw that the gunshot had hit Logan left side of his body! I fell on my knees and sob.

"Someone call 911!" Carlos scream.

"Got it!" James pick of his phone and call

After a while, the paramedics carry Logan on a stretcher.

"Logan!" I got to his side. He close his eyes hard, groaning in pain, holding his left side over the gunshot wound."Logan! LOGAN! TALK TO ME! PLEASE!"I cry.

"He'll be okay son" One of the paramedics put his hands on my shoulder.

"Let's go to the hospital." James says and we all go in his car and try to beat the ambulance to the hospital. Logan come on! Why did you try to commit suicide again? Did you care about me? Do you love me at all? Why did you do it Logan? Why?

Done, so what do you think? Well, the little ending was the beginning part if you know what I mean. I can't wait until March 10! BIG TIME MOVIE! Well, see ya!