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Sorry I took so long in updating this, I kinda forgot about it… (oopes :P)

Anyway, this is a prequel to the epilogue of the last ch, hope u like!

"I Never Meant it More"

Midnight.

I looked back at the clock once again, yep it was midnight.

I glanced around at the room that would be soon occupied by my future child.

To any other random person it would have looked just fine but to me, it didn't.

Well, it was pretty close…

It was just missing something….

"Riven!"

I turned around and saw Musa there, leaning against the doorway of the room.

"Dude, it's like midnight! Go to sleep!" she said.

She then walked into the room and stood next to me.

"Says the woman who's still awake," I chuckle.

Musa raises her eyes at me.

"Do you think I would if I could?" she snaps.

"Whoa, whoa, there babe," I reply hugging her "I was just kidding, calm down. Look I'm sorry."

"You should be."

"What's keeping you awake?"

She points down to her swollen stomach where our baby is.

I touch it.

"Wow," was all I could say.

Musa was right; that baby was kicking up a ruckus in there.

"You try sleepin' with that going on and see how it turns out," Musa yawned.

I knelt down and whispered to our baby:

"Kid, you gotta go to sleep. You're keeping Mommy up."

I gently pressed my cheek toward Musa's stomach.

I felt a soft push and then nothing at all.

"There, got him to stop," I smiled and stood up.

Musa touched her stomach.

"She really seems to like you doesn't she?" she smiles and says.

"Whoa, whoa, who said it was a girl?" I questioned.

"Uh, I did!" Musa cried.

"We're gonna have a boy, not a girl."

I sure hoped so; I really wanted a son.

"No, it's gonna be a girl!" Musa shook her head.

"We really should find out…" I sighed.

"But I want it to be a surprise!"

I shake my head.

This woman is crazy but she's my crazy woman.

I hugged Musa again.

She giggles and kisses my cheek.

I then looked around again at the baby's room.

"We did very good on it," Musa said.

"I know… but something's just missing."

But what?

I looked around the room.

The upper walls were white, painted with measures of music notes.

Under the blue trim that ran across the room, the wall was black with all these different music symbols.

There was a crib, rocking chair, table and an empty toy box all of which were white except for the toy box which was a dark red.

It was pretty bare, but I knew it would get full over time.

"Maybe a person to live in it," Musa rubbed her stomach.

I smiled.

"That wasn't what I was looking for, but sure."

Musa yawned.

"I'm tired, carry me back to our room," she said.

"You have legs," I replied.

She glares at me.

"Ok, ok once again I was just kidding! When did I become the fun one in this relationship?"

I picked Musa up and carried her toward our room.

I woke up a couple hours later to Musa shaking me.

"Riven get up!" I heard her say.

"Just five more minutes," I grumbled pushing her away.

"No! Get up now!"

She then pushed me off the bed.

I bolted up.

"WHAT THE HECK! WHAT WAS THAT FOR?" I was officially ticked off with her.

I then calmed down once I saw Musa.

Her face was of pure terror and she never got that way unless she was truly scared.

"Riven, take me to the hospital please."

So many things went through my head as I helped Musa into the car.

I was so tired, I couldn't remember half the stuff I was thinking.

But I could remember that I was feeling beyond terrified and that I was mainly thinking this:

"I hope I don't screw this up. I'm not going to screw this up!"

I'm so glad that we're home now; the hospital was horrible.

The nurses kept trying to hit on me and they told the paparazzi that we were there.

I knew cause they had to call the police to escort us out.

But whatever, we're home now and that's all that matters.

"Welcome home Akari," Musa cooed to the little bundle she was holding.

I smiled and came over to where she was and looked down at the bundle she was holding, our daughter.

Yes, we had a girl.

I'll admit, when I found out that our child was a girl, I was kinda upset.

It wasn't cause I hated girls or anything, I just didn't think I could handle it.

Girls are just so fragile and they have such high expectations.

I was so scared when I found out that we had a girl, so scared when I saw her for the first time.

She was so precious and I'm scared that I won't be good enough for her.

But I couldn't let Musa know that, she'd see that I'm getting soft, and tell all other guys.

So as I stood by her, I wondered:

"Why me?"

Out of all the people in this world, why was I was chosen to be Akari's father?

Why? Why? Why?

That stupid three letter word was going through my head as I followed Musa who was showing Akari around the house.

"Riven," I suddenly heard Musa's voice.

"Wha…" I turned toward her.

I found myself in the baby's room.

"Put her to sleep," Musa placed Akari in my arms, kissed her forehead, and walked out.

I stared down at her.

She had the darkest eyes and hair that was like the night sky but she gave me the brightest, warmest smile and I just broke down.

You know what, there's a reason for everything.

Maybe Akari was given to me for a reason.

"I'm glad you have confidence in me cause I'm not going to let you down," I found myself whispering what I was thinking to her "I'm gonna try to be the best dad for you. I'm gonna be there for you always and I'm always gonna make time for you. I swear I'm gonna try."

If I had a dollar for all the things I said I'd swear to do, I'd be rich.

But I had never meant it more than I did now.

The end

Hope u liked it!

How do u think I did on playing Riven? Do u think he sounds like Helia? I believe that people like Riven can b really deep, they just don't show it cause they're afraid of being made fun of.

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