A/N: Typically I do not write in the first person because it is not a strong point of view for me. I always feel like I miss something when I write first person POV, but I felt when I was planning this chapter out, that it would work better as first person. I could be wrong, but I will leave that up you to decide for me. Tell me what you think. Thank you to my reviewers, you have been awesome! To the people that have favored, followed, and read the story, thank you. Here is the next chapter, enjoy!

Chapter 7 – Alice Mourns

I sat in a strange city in my room looking at the walls that surrounded me. They were tall and led to high ceilings, although not as the walls and ceilings at the house in Forks, or some of the other houses we have lived in all over the world. Some houses people would consider mansions while others were just large houses, large enough for a big family to be able to fit themselves, all of their stuff, and still have enough space to "breathe". This hotel room I found myself in now did not compare. I would eventually have to find something more suitable, but this would do for now.

I missed them, my family. I wanted to see them again, to feel their presence around me, but that was not meant to be. The vision was clear and that is what I had to follow right now. I knew in my heart that I was doing what was best and what was right. I just wish it hurt less.

I don't remember my time before I awoke a vampire, but the visions have been there since I opened my eyes to my new life. I have never really cared that I was a vampire. I was able to live amongst humans and live a somewhat normal life. Yes, I drink blood from animals as food, but a girl's got to eat.

I smiled when I thought back to my life. Living with the Cullen's allowed me the opportunity to attend school, immerse myself in pop culture and fashion, to live a life I don't remember ever having. It gave me something that I was missing. Many vampires don't come into this life as a completely blank slate, I did. I was missing memories and a life before waking up a newborn vamp. My life started then and with my family, I got to experience what life was and is. All aspects of it: love, loss, friendship, hope, dreams, jealousy, and hurt. I don't know if I experience it more because of what I am, but I know that the emotions were felt deep within me and seemed to tunnel their way into the deepest recesses of my very being.

I thought about my best friend Bella. She was clumsy and full of life, but so confused about so many things. Finally she was making some decisions about her life. She needed to. Her decision to leave Edward triggered the vision that caused me to leave. It was such a happy vision and I smiled as it played across my mind again, so bittersweet.

I thought about her courage to be with my brother Edward regardless of what or who he was. She made him happy and for a time he made her happy to. Everyone thought that they belonged together, and who is to say that if things did not happen differently, if they would still not be together. Not any more though, no the vision was very clear on that. Their time was over and done. They would be good friends, eventually maybe reach sibling status, but they would never be lovers or romantic again.

She was a human that fit so well into a vampire world. She made friends with the wolves while we were gone. She is not a typical human. Hunting, shape shifting, gifts, etc. are all just an afterthought to her. I remember Edward told me that Bella thought she was odd when he could not hear her thoughts. She didn't think it was strange that he could hear thoughts; no she thought it was strange that he could not hear her thoughts. That is Bella for you. She made me laugh.

The family would protect her until it was her time. She would be turned into a vampire. I know Edward didn't want that, but it was never his choice. It was always her choice and she wanted it when she was with him. I know she wants it still. If her destiny and choice had changed, the vision would have changed and it hasn't. She will become one of us. Edward may fight it, but he won't be able to fight it forever. I just wish I knew when and how so that I could have given them a heads up, but I don't. Would I tell them now if I knew? Yes, I would. I am not sure how I would get the information to them, but I would get them the knowledge they needed so that they could be prepared. I always would.

Until then, she would be there for Jasper. I smile a little, my Jazz, a good ole southern boy from Texas. I waited for him in that diner and it was one of the best days of my life when he finally showed up. I think I was a sucker for his accent. We went to the Cullen's and became part of the family. I know he struggled more than I did, but he did so well and we were happy.

After the accident at Bella's birthday party, he hurt. It killed him that he tried to attack her. I know it did. He wanted to take off but he wouldn't leave me. When we said that we would leave and go off on our own, the family wouldn't hear of it. Edward decided everyone needed to leave. I don't know if it was the right decision or not, but that was the decision that was made.

For the first few weeks after we left Jazz despaired about what almost happened. I had to keep reminding him that it was almost and it was fine. He kept talking about his sisters and his mother. Bella was family and he tried to kill her. He was having a hard time dealing with it. I didn't know how to help him except to be there for him and to talk to him. Eventually he came out of it and life moved on until Bella jumped.

Bella jumping, that is another can of worms. I thought she died. She hadn't, but it set off a chain reaction that led to a trip to Italy and a meeting with the Volturi. Yah, that was not pleasant. I really hope they change Bella soon because I do not want anyone to be in trouble if she is still human when they decide to check on her.

Jazz wasn't happy when I left him that time either, but he got over it and forgave me. He understood. He will eventually understand this also. They can help each other and take care of each other. I know that Bella is safe around him, he may be tempted, but he won't hurt her. It would kill him to hurt her, at least that is what I believe. I wouldn't have said that before the party, I mean look at what happened at the party, but now I can say that. Time can change a man.

Jasper Whitlock is a good man. He is a gentleman and he loves whole heartedly. It is honest and true. He takes care of what is his and that includes his family. He was the first love of my life and because fate decided to step in, what I thought would be the one and only, has now become one of I don't know how many. It all came crashing down today and I could make myself move off of the chair I was seated on. I was left alone to my thoughts and that seemed especially cruel to me right now.

I knew that what I had done would probably not be forgiven by him and I had to accept that. I wanted to avoid what I had to do and if I could I would have put it off indefinitely, but I couldn't. Today Jazz would be served with divorce papers. My heart broke at the idea of hurting him more than I had. I knew he was already broken because I had left him behind, and now I was putting salt on an open wound. Today was the end for us, but it would be the beginning of something new for him and in the end he would be happier for it.