Chapter 19

„So..." Andy looked at him.

„So..." Sam repeated her, smiling. So much to say, but almost impossible to say the right words. Am I actually nervous? Get hold of yourself. If Oliver could see me, he would laugh his ass off.

„Frank told me you were in America?"

„Yeah, wrong decisions will get you there?"

„Have any family in there?"

„Alive? No." Andy looked uncomfortable talking about this. Normally you would think it's because of the sensitive topic. This time it's because Andy is scared to miss some details of Casey's life.

„I'm sorry" Sam looked reassuring and he placed his hand over hers.

Andy loved his touch, but knew how Casey would react. So she pulled it away quickly. „Not sure if my dead relatives would like you to get in my pants through them." she narrowed her eyes.

Sam laughed. He hadn't laughed like this for a long time.

„I'm not trying to get in your pants" he laughed silently again.

„Why?" she asked quickly.

„Wh..? Well... I am, but.. No not like.." he said nervously, but then he saw her laughing „You are fucking with me aren't you."

„Maybe" she laughed and drank her wine. The restaurant was quite fancy, but not too much. She was more then sure that Sammy wouldn't take Casey to a place like this, but Sam would make it happen for Andy. She smiled at that thought.

„Why are you smiling?"

„This place. Not really Sammy material." Sam got the hint and smiled at her.

„Well I had only one chance, better make it work. Wait. What do you mean by Sammy material?"

„Um.. I was pretty sure we would stay in the same bar"

„You really think that I would do that" he said little too quickly and grabbed his drink.

„Holy shit! You thought about it?" she was shocked.

„No." he answered shortly.

She shook her head but couldn't stop smiling.

„What matters is that we are together" he looked way too deep into her eyes, she blushed.

They both remembered their last date together and both shifted uncomfortably. Andy crossed her legs and finished her drink. Sam finished it at the same time and waved to the waiter, planning to get something stronger. Much, much stronger.

„I have a question, I already asked you this but you didn't answer." he stalled.

„Ask." she hurried him.

„You are going to get pissed"

„Then I'll get pissed. Ask." promising herself not to get pissed

He waited a bit and asked „Is there something between you and Frank?"

„Why you ask? Did Frank say something?" she looked neutral and that made Sam flip out. She didn't say no. SHE DIDN'T SAY NO! Fuck, fuck, FUCK! It's the second time she has deflected the question. Something happened! Something must have happened! Maybe they kissed, it's just a kiss. It happens. She is undercover, it happens. Fuck it does! I will kill him. I will fucking kill him. Maybe he is using her. Or worse, she likes him. I can't... breathe. He held the bridge of his nose and took a deep breath in but he didn't breath out.

„No, he didn't say anything. You just seem close." his words were full of anger and pain.

Fuck! Andy understood „Answer is no. Nothing happened and never will. We never thought about each other like that." Andy hoped that this will make him breathe again. Sam, please... I would never let something like that happen, even if it will mess up the investigation. That's how much I love you! You know this.

Sam nodded „Just wanted to be sure" We...? No! Me and her is we, not that fucking Frank! He breathed out. She loves me. I love her. WE love each other. My Andy! My Casey! He kept repeating that and it made him calm down.

„Are you serious about the offer Frank made, about us working together?" she picked up the conversation again.

„Yeah, why you ask?"

„When I came back, I promised that I would stay clean. But I met Frank and the guys, they reminded me my life back in America..."

„You miss it?"

„No, not really... No, actually I do. I really miss it. The excitement, the money, fancy cars, people around you." she stopped thinking about her real life.

Sam understood immediately. Hating he couldn't say what needed to be said „Let's do it, you are really good at this too, we..."

„How can you say that?"

„Um..."

„You read my file?" she hissed. Andy pulled up Casey's anger problems.

He wasn't sure how to answer, then stuck to Sammy „Baby, don't tell me you didn't read mine"

Andy calmed down then got pissed again „Did Frank gave it to you?"

„Yes, but for what it's worth he didn't want to give it to me" Like I fucking care. Sam muttered in his mind

„Oh, okay. That makes up the fact that he gave it to you." she hissed again.

„Just to be clear, who is in trouble. Me or Frank" he asked raising his hands.

„Frank, I will break his nose" She said pissed, Sam on the other hand couldn't hide his smile.

„Talking about breaking noses, I heard you were in one of the fights" he knew he had to ask this because it was in both of their history. It would be weird if they wouldn't talk about this on their first date.

She looked et him her eyes wary now. Why does he want to talk about this? Maybe he wants to break Franks nose because of the fact that he made me fight. Knowing Sam, probably more than that.

„Yeah, I did. I wasn't in the game, to this day. Just one of his fighters disappeared and... he remembered how I handled myself at the bar plenty of times." she saw the pain in his eyes and decided to make this as quick as possible. „It wasn't that bad, the feeling of victory really made me feel alive again." she smiled remembering the feeling.

Sam felt his muscles tensing up. I will fucking kill Frank! I wonder if she still has some bruises or scars. What if she has to do it again? I can't really stop Frank for doing it, only if we are a couple. But even then it's a maybe. He didn't notice that he hasn't responded to Andy.

„I'm not messing with you, the moment I knocked that asshole out and my name was called out.." she smiled „I couldn't remember the last time I felt so alive." Please believe me, Sam!

„No, I get it! I had a couple of fighters, but you already know that." he smiled a small smile „One of the reasons why they came back was the thrill of winning."

„Did you fight?"

„A bit, at the start."

„Were you any good?" she smirked hoping to get off the her-fighting-subject.

„Excuse me?" he acted shocked „I was more than good! These babies smacked every fighter to the ground" he showed his biceps and even kissed them.

Andy laughed „Oh please, get over yourself! I could take you down any time"

Sams eyes were wide and he said mockingly. „Really little Miss Casey"

„Did you just call me Little and Missy in one fucking sentence?" her eyes were flaming in anger and excitement. Nobody messes with Casey's anger.

„Oh I'm so scared, I better take it back." he mocked her again.

She shook her head and called for the waiter.

„We'll take the check please. He will pay." her eyes never leaving Sam.

Sam laughed and nodded at the waiter.

„What are you planning now?"

„You'll see Little Miss Sammy." she mocked him back.

„And Sexy Sammy is on the ground! The audience cheers for the undefeated champion Miss Casey!" she shouted to the gym while Sam was on the ground laughing.

„Really? Your fighter name is Miss Casey?"

„Yes, I think it has a ring to it." she laughed a little out of breath „Come on Sammy, on your feet. Round 4 is waiting" she jumped around ready to fight again.

Sam was mesmerized at this creature jumping in front of her. She looked so free and happy.

„I could use a hand" he said laying on the ground.

„Should we change Sexy Sammy to Old and Tired Sammy" she laughed, at the same time offering a helping hand.

Sam took it and pulled her down next to him. Their faces were inches apart. At this moment she realized how much she needed him next to her. His scent, his hands gripping tightly, his protective bubble, his eyes, his lips...

„I think Sexy Sammy has a better ring to it" he broke the silence but increasing tension „Don't you?" he grinned.

She laughed and stood up quickly, before she will have sex with him right there. „Will see." and helped him up.

„What is this place anyway?"

„It's Frank's old gym. He trained all the fighters in here, back in the day. Now he just owns it and some of his friends, including me, uses it."

„You work out often?"

„Only when I can't sleep or when I'm really angry. This seems to help." she knew she was telling him too much. He will worry now. Please don't I'm fine.

Sam nodded „I do that too. Work out when I can't sleep or when I'm angry." Andy frowned. Shit, now I'm worried.

This was getting serious and sad too fast so she sat on the edge of the boxing ring. Ready to ask all the serious questions she knew Casey would ask..

„Can I ask you some questions, before we continue this thing we are doing?"

„Sure" he sat next to her confused.

„Have you killed anyone?"

„Yes" Sam understood that Casey needed to ask these questions.

„Because you had to or because you wanted to?"

„Because I had to, I don't believe in killing lightly."

„Have you tortured anybody?"

He sighed „Yes" Sam didn't want to answer anymore. It was Sammy who answered, but it was really close to Sam.

„If you have to choose between your past and future, w.."

He stopped her „Future, I thought you are familiar to this life? Why are you asking me these questions?"

„I have seen what this life does to men. I just want to be sure you don't end up like them."

„You mean dead?"

„Something like that. Just some people don't know their place in this world. Running around with guns and shit, getting killed over pride. I fucking hate it."

The fact that Casey was opening up to Sammy was making Sam more than just happy. He knows it's not real, but at the same time it is. It's Andy communicating to him with sincere eyes and loving tone. This made him feel like this is the place he should be. Next to her, whatever the circumstances.

„I act like an asshole, but once I have something real in my life I hold it very dearly. And I'm not fucking with you, I this business you can't afford to. I have the same thing with this business – don't fuck around or you get killed." he stared at her.

„I'm glad." she smiled, then jumped down and pouted mockingly „So Sexy Sammy is now a Sensitive Sammy?"

„Casey, If you tell anybody about this... I will more than just deny it, I will have to kill you."

She was serious now, walking closer to him „I know, same goes to you too. Can't have my rep ruined by Mysterious Sammy here." she smiled now.

„Mysterious Sammy? I kind of like it." he smiled and jumped down from the boxing ring.

„Let's go. I want to show you something." he started to walk towards the door when Casey stopped him.

„Wait." he turned to her „I have one more question"

„Okay" he said silently, not really happy about it.

„You said you would choose future. Are you staying with Frank or do you have any other plans?"

„I'm already regretting on what I'm gonna say." he shook his head.

„Why?" she asked.

He looked down touching the back of his neck „Because I'm being monitored by Frank and this is going to sound corny as hell." he looked up at her „From the moment I met you I knew, that my future is with you, Casey."

Andy started to laugh to hide his real emotions „You're right it's corny as hell"

„Great, even you are laughing" he started to walk to the door again, but Andy grabbed his hand and pulled him back, placing a simple kiss on his cheek. „Thank you!" she said and walked to the door. Sam followed her grinning.

„Where are we going?" she looked outside the window, having no clue where they were going.

„Some place special" he smiled.

„Do you really go through so much trouble with your dates?" she sounded surprised, because she was. Knowing the Sammy character, this was really not him. She hoped this will not get them in trouble later.

„Actually, I usually just charm the ladies in the bar and head to the bedroom." he said truthfully.

„Why am I so different then?" she was asking Sam not Sammy.

„You tell me, baby. I just can't keep away from you." From the moment I met you Andy.

She looked at him while he drove. „You really mean it." she almost whispered. He really truly loves me. From the moment we met.

He wanted to respond, but his phone rang.

„Who is it?" she asked

„Frank." he picked up „Sammy. Yes... Good. Okay, see you in ten." he put his phone back to his pocket. „FUCK!" he yelled and hit the wheel.

He scared the crap out of Andy. „Holy shit! Calm down... I thought I had anger issues."

He sighed „Sorry. Frank wants to see me. I'm taking you home."

„What? Why?"

„Work thing."

„Fucking Frank!" she muttered.

„So..." Andy looked at him playing with her apartment keys.

„So..." Sam repeated her, smiling. So much to say, but almost impossible to say the right words. Just like the evening started.

„I'm really surprised how this date went." she smiled.

„Yeah me too." he smiled back.

„Just so you know, tomorrow at the bar. Don't assume I'm...like I was tonight..."

„I know. You shouldn't either, Jerk Sammy will appear."

„Good, I was really turned on by him." Are you fucking kidding me Andy. He touched the back of his neck.

„Casey, are you trying to drive me crazy."

„Maybe. And it's Miss Casey to you." she laughed, leaning closer.

„Really? I thought you hated it, Miss Casey." he said softly leaning closer.

„Not when you say it.." she whispered touching her lips with his.

His body responded before his mind could – his hands wrapping around her, deepening the kiss. Andy grabbed his chest and placed every inch of her body on to his. He slightly touched her lips with his tongue and that was enough to arouse Andy beyond everything. She pushed him on to the door, looked at his eyes briefly before mashing her tongue with his, kissing with all the passion that had built up to this moment. Sam couldn't help but to move his hands all over her, resisting the need to pick her up and put her against the door. He stopped to get some air, placing his hand on her cheek, looking into her eyes. Saying more with that one look, then he had all night. Once their lips crashed together again his phone rang. They parted from each other.

„Fuck" he yelled again. This time she didn't even startle, she just held on to him.

„I have to go" he whispered. His mind was saying to release her from his hands, but his body didn't listen.

„Go." she whispered and pushed herself away from him.

They shared one more look before he left.