Chapter 21

Sam opened his eyes and saw a naked Andy sleeping on him. Words couldn't describe the happiness that he felt. This was all he wanted. Andy next to him, safe and okay, maybe naked. He noticed that the curtains were closed and the sun isn't shining on her back. He was determined to fix that. He shifted looking if Andy would wake up. She didn't so he moved gently away from her. He removed the curtains and decided to make some coffee before going back to bed.

Andy opened her eyes feeling the sun on her back and a warm body under her. She looked up. He was sleeping. She was so in love on him, she even doubted the whole going undercover thing. But seeing him here between her arms, she couldn't care less. She was with him – she was more then happy. Andy knew he likes to have pancakes in the morning she tried to move without waking him. When she reached the kitchen she saw that he already made some coffee. She smiled and quickly made the pancake dough. Then she returned to bed.

He woke again feeling soft kisses on his chest. "Mmm..."

She moved her kisses to his neck and finally his lips. "Good morning"

"It's more then a good morning" he answered meeting her kiss and turning so she was under him.

"You are gorgeous! I forgot how beautiful you are." he murmured.

"Really? I just noticed a few days back that I..." she was looking at her arms and Sam shifted next to her. "I mean I'm too skinny and you could almost see my ribcage and .." she was talking faster and he stopped him.

"You have lost some weight, but it's part of the undercover job and..." he kissed her softly "I still think you are beautiful, Andy" he smiled.

"Thank you... are you sure we can talk freely?"

"Yes, Jerry checked everything"

"Jerry?" her eyes light up

"Yes, I don't trust Boyd anymore so Jerry is our handler now." he said matter of factly.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm happy that he is gone but what happened..?" she was curious.

He just held his breath for a second and sighed.

"The fight?" she guessed.

"Yeah the fight" he said it through his teeth.

She turned so she could see him better.

"I'm going to say this once so listen up. I. Am. Fine." she took pauses between words "I'm not fucking with you. Yes it was painful and scary but I'm a cop Sam, I have learned how to handle situations like that. You told me how to do this. Please... I.." she knew that this wasn't getting through to him. "Sam when I won the fight... I felt alive again. I felt this sudden burst of energy and hope and confidence. I am actually glad it happened, in a way..." she stared at him.

"I get it, but this doesn't change the fact that you got hurt." he said it again suppressing anger.

"If you could've seen me you..." she started.

"I did." he muttered.

"What?"

"When I found out where you were I came to you as fast as I could. Actually I yelled at Boyd, broke his nose and then came to you."

They smiled recognizing their joke.

"Did you see me smack the shit out of him?" she asked hopefully.

"What I saw was the love of my life getting beaten by a monster. And I couldn't do anything about it."

She touched his cheek "You can't be the hero in every story, Sam"

"It's not what I ..." he stopped understanding her. His need to make her safe, keep her out of harm.

"I fucking love that you broke Boyds nose" she laughed.

"He didn't" he snickered and paused for a long time.

Andy new that he has something to say so she waited "I... I get what you mean about the feeling alive thing. I saw it in your eyes. Just the blood... and bruises." he placed his hand on her right side.

"Is it healed?"

"Yeah, mostly." she looked at her ribs.

Sam closed his eyes "Andy, why didn't you say anything? I grabbed you like crazy last night." he opened his eyes looking at her. "Did I hurt ..."

"No!" she laughed "I would of liked you to hold me tighter" she bit her lip and moved closer.

"Really Officer McNally?" he half smiled.

Andy started to giggle and Sam moved closer until their lips met. Andy wrapped her hands around him and Sam deepened the kiss.

"I made coffee" he said while moving to her neck.

"I made pancake dough." she smiled when he raised his head to look at her.

"You are amazing"

"So are you" she planted a little kiss "Let's go eat." and she got out of the bed.

"I think I missed this the most." he finished his pancakes.

"My cooking?" she laughed.

"That too. But what I meant was spending the mornings with you."

"What?" she asked mockingly "I thought you missed this!" she pointed to her body, moving around, laughing. She then moved between his arms.

"I love you so much"

"And I you" she kissed him put pulled away remembering "You got shot! Where?"

He showed his arm "I didn't got really shot, it just ..." he stopped seeing Andy glaring at him. "Okay. I got shot." Sam lowered his eyes knowing what was going to come out of her mouth. Easier if she could get it out her system.

"Let's make a deal." she surprised him.

"What kind of a deal?" he was confused.

"You will forget the fact that I was in a fight and I will forget the bullet wound. We need our minds clear, so I think this would be the best thing to do..."

"You amaze me sometimes Andy McNally" he looked at her smiling.

"Do we have a deal?" not letting him change the subject.

He waited for a second "Yes."

"Good!"

"But..." he started.

"Oh god..." she rolled her eyes.

"What if I get shot again or you... have to fight again" he had a hard time saying these words out loud.

"If you get shot, I will hit Frank and fix you up. Okay?"

"Okay..."

"And if I have to fight again, You will try to persuade Frank. If it doesn't work you'll cheer on the sidelines with Frank."

"Fuck no!" he shook his head.

"Sam we are undercover... We can't really make our own rules. You know this." she kept her voice loving and calm.

"I know, but..."

"Plus, I'm pretty sure you can be very very persuasive." she added but he still wasn't convinced. "If you don't agree to this I'll have to do it behind your back." she saw his anger in his eyes. "Sam the chances that I would have to fight again are next to nothing."

"Okay." he finally agreed.

"Really?" she tried to let him know that it she understood him.

"Yes." he sounded more sure the next time.

"We'll have to let Frank know that we are taking over the bar then." she changed the subject.

"I think he got the point" he laughed "But yes, we should"

"How long will it be until we can get to Duncan?"

"I hope sooner than we planned."

"Why?"

"I think Frank is using, he is really all over the place. We will have to work really hard on the bar so we will get noticed sooner."

"What do we have to to exactly?" she took a sip of her coffee.

"Run the place, make it a happy place for dealers, sell a lot of drugs and make it all seem effortless."

"I'm not sure if I know enough about running a bar"

"Don't worry we are just over seeing everything, Jerry will help with the details."

"And all the information we get on the way?"

"If we think it's necessary, take some evidence. In any other case, no. We have bigger things to worry about." he looked into her eyes "I'm serious Andy. We can't touch anything else."

"I get it."

"This will get harder, so I need you to understand that."

"I get it." she started to think if she will change her mind at some point.

"What have you learned so far?"

"That I hate bartending" she sighed "all the girls at work are prostitutes or were them, they kill their enemies pretty sloppy, they use the same gun store – I think they have some family or friends there."

"Did you tell that to Boyd?"

"Yes. Also the drugs in the bar never touches Frank and the guys. Only the security and some of the girls."

"Really?

"Mhm. Only reason why I didn't have to sell was because I bartendered Frank."

"Good to know, we can work with that." he stood up taking their dishes.

"I can do those"

"No. It's okay. Sit and drink your coffee" he said starting to wash the dishes.

She watched her Sam. He was only wearing his jeans and the sight of him made Andy anxious. Stop staring Andy! Actually... Why should I stop? He is my Sam. I am supposed to do this. That made her smile.

Sam washed the dishes feeling a pair of eyes on him. He loved the feeling, so he kept washing not to distract her staring. He smiled.

When he finished she was looking out of the window. He noticed something on her he hasn't before. Sadness? She is upset? But why? Impossible that it just appeared. It had to be there earlier. How the fuck did I missed this?

"Andy, are you okay?" he said silently

She turned around, confused "Yes! Why wouldn't I be?" she moved closer to him, smiling "We are together. Things can't be any better."

He wasn't sure what was going on. Is she getting better at lying or am I making things up? I know she is lying but why can't I see it now? Why can't I read her face like I did before? He suddenly felt like a door was closed between them. She was in her arms but in some part far away. I should tell her. No, I will just create a problem that wasn't there. No. The only reason why us being together took so long was because I didn't say enough. I have to say something... He sighed. Why is it so hard?

"Sam?" she was worried

"You are lying. I know that you are. Somehow I can't see it now, but you are not okay." he talked quickly, hiding his eyes.

"You can't read my face?" she understood partly.

He didn't answer. How does she know me so well?

"Is the problem that I'm not okay and not talking or the fact you can't read me?"

"Both" he tightened his arms around her.

"What is my face telling you?" she waited for him to look into her eyes.

"That you are fine, happy even. Worried about work, how well will you do it. And then nothing..." he sighed.

"There is supposed to be something?"

"Yeah, I saw it for a second but it's long gone?" he was regretting talking about it, but she laughed suddenly.

"This is not funny Andy." he said seriously.

"No but you are" she smiled sweetly "You are really trying. I know that Officer Swarek doesn't do the talking about problems and feelings around them."

"For you I would do anything. You know that." he made it sound more like a promise or a fact.

"I know, but seeing you correcting yourself... is amusing." she smiled sweetly.

He rolled his eyes and let go of her "Well I'm glad I'm amusing you"

"Sam you are making me love you more, not sure if it's possible, but you are."

Sam just looked at her, knowing she isn't telling him what was that thing that made her look sad.

"Just a second ago I was thinking about you..."

"You looked sad..." he was surprised.

"I was thinking about the time we were alone. When I missed you like crazy. Sometimes I start to miss home and remember how alone I felt when you were so far from me. It just makes me want to cry for a second, but the moment passes and I'm okay."

"You cried?" his heart almost broke.

She placed her hands on his cheek and kissed him softly. He kissed him back.

She pulled off "You can still read my face. All you said was true. Only reason you couldn't see me sad about homesickness is because I don't have it anymore. You fixed it." That made him feel a lot better. "You and your sexy body" she traced his muscles on his naked upper body. Then kissing him softly moving to his neck and finally his mouth. Sam felt that he was connected to her again, glad about his decision to talk to her. He deepened the kiss pulling her closer, harder as he remembered her request.

Few minutes later they were back in the bedroom.

"I love the way you smell" he said into her hair.

"I smell like beer and liqueur" she snorted.

"I know" he snickered.

And she laughed hitting him gently "Smartass"

"Maybe, but you." he moved his hands on her ass "What an ass, I mean really..." he continued mockingly.

She giggled "Stop!"

"Why should I?" he turned so he was on top of her.

"Because I say so?"

"That's not good enough, and we both know it" he said still mocking her.

She wanted to make a comeback but his lips were already on hers.

"We are going to stay here all day if we don't stop soon" she muttered between kisses.

"I'm not complaining. Are you?" he kissed her neck.

"No, but..." she moaned silently as he kissed lower. Suddenly he pulled away.

"Fine I'll stop if you want it so bad" he teased her.

She begged "No, no I changed my mind. Please do what you were doing."

He looked confused "What was I doing?"

She rolled her eyes "You are impossible!" she pushed him so she could be on top.

"Officer Swarek, I'm gonna make love to you in every way possible. Then we are going to use the shower and go to work. Are you ready for this?"

He raised his hand "One question Officer McNally" he played along "Can we have sex in the shower?"

"Good question, Officer Swarek." she acted like she was seriously thinking about it "I think there is only one way to find out." she said and their lips met again.

They have been drinking for a few hours in the bar until Frank got a phone call. So they stood up to go do some actual work. Andy kissed Sam for goodbye and took the next tables orders. Sam could see instantly that the guys on that table were trouble so the moment one guy made a sexist comment about Andy he stepped in front of him.

"Back the fuck off from her or I will break your face!" Sam snarled and the guy backed up, apologizing. Sam turned to Andy and kissed her on the lips but their heads stayed together.

"Who do I love?" he whispered

"Me" he whispered back

"That's right, baby. See you tonight." and with that he walked out of the door with others.

Leaving Andy smiling the rest of the evening.