Title: Unwritten
Category: Glee
Pairing: Kurt/Blaine
Genre: Romance & Hurt/Comfort
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I do not own copyrights to Glee, the characters or any other references made to the show. I also do not own the copyrights to Barnes and Noble, Book Soup, Skylight Books, Vogue or anything else that I mention in here that's not mine.
A/N: Hey folks! Check it out! I'm updating and it's only been like a week. Woot! Woot! This chapter is kind of filler, but I hope you guys enjoy regardless. Happy reading!
Kurt paced nervously around his room, eyeing the pile of clothes he had strewn across the bed with an almost panicked look. He realized he had no idea what to wear to dinner with the employees of one of the biggest record labels in the country. These were the times that Kurt wished that he had a good girl friend that he could call up (Rachel didn't count because her outfits were usually atrocious) and get advice for about clothing.
He continued to search through the clothes on his bed before he decided on a black dress shirt with a white tie, a grey vest and black dress pants and shoes. He expertly styled his hair into its (now usual) coif and sprayed it into place.
Kurt checked his watch and realized that he still had another half hour before Blaine was coming to pick him up. He logged onto his email on his computer to check if anyone from the publishers had tried to contact him recently. He noticed one from Artie from a few hours earlier and decided to quickly check it out before heading downstairs to meet Blaine.
Upon opening the email, Kurt read "Hey Kurt! I hope everything is going well in LA. Based on the interviews I've seen you do so far I would like to congratulate you on your courage with doing this and tell you how well you are doing. You should be proud of yourself and I know you're inspiring a lot of people all over the country with your words. I also wanted to send you a revised edition of your itinerary and point out that next week you have virtually the entire week off without any interviews until Saturday night. It will be good to give you a much-deserved break. Also, just a reminder that you are scheduled to appear at Barnes and Noble in the morning on Thursday for a book signing on the day that your book is actually coming out and in the afternoon you are to go to Skylight Books and Book Soup to sign your book there. The times and addresses are outlined in the itinerary. If you have any questions, don't hesitate to email me back. Good luck, Kurt!
Sincerely,
Artie Abrams
Junior Manager, ND Publishers"
Kurt clicked on the attached file and saw his life for the next month and a half laid out clearly in front of him. He scrolled through and made sure to insert all of the events for the coming week into the calendar on his phone. He was also glad that he did have a whole week off the following week. He liked the idea of having no interviews or public appearances and he wasn't too worried about finding something to do.
Checking his watch again, Kurt saw he had ten minutes until Blaine was supposed to come get him so he decided to head down to lobby to wait for him there. Grabbing his satchel, Kurt left his hotel room and swiftly made his way to the lobby.
Kurt noticed a cluster of soft, black chairs near the doors to go outside and he decided to sit there to wait for Blaine to arrive. Kurt was just checking his phone for the time again when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
Kurt jumped, nearly dropping his phone; even though he was getting used to being around people again, he was not used to being touched still. Looking up, Kurt found himself staring into the warm hazel eyes of Blaine Anderson.
"Oh, wow! You scared me!" Kurt squeaked out, still trying to calm his racing heart.
"Sorry about that, I didn't mean to startle you," Blaine replied, a nervous smile on his face.
Kurt smiled back. "No worries," he said. "Umm, Blaine, why are you wearing a fedora?"
"I didn't want to be bombarded coming in here so I'm incognito."
Kurt laughed and remembered again why he loved spending time with Blaine. "That's a good idea, we'd probably be stuck here for hours if that group of girls over there knew that you were standing right here."
Blaine laughed too, and then grabbed Kurt's hand pulling him to his feet. "Now, sir, would you allow me to escort you to our awaiting carriage?"
Kurt felt giddy at Blaine's cheesiness. He was not used to guys acting like this around him. He realized that he didn't even know if Blaine was gay, but he figured that Blaine knew that he was, obviously because everyone else in the world who had read his books knew.
"You don't actually have a carriage, do you?" Kurt asked semi-nervously.
"Haha, no, but it wouldn't have sounded as good if I said 'to our awaiting limo' now would it?" Blaine asked with a smirk.
Kurt could not remember a time when he had felt this comfortable around another person who wasn't related to him. "Yeah, I guess not," Kurt smiled.
The two men slid in the back of the limo still chatting and laughing away.
Once they got settled, Blaine took off his fedora and Kurt actually noticed what he was wearing. He smiled appreciatively at the smoke-grey suit, white dress shirt and black tie that Blaine was wearing. Blaine's hair was its usual mass of curls upon his head and Kurt was happy that he had kept them like that instead of gelling them as he had seen many other guys do when they got dressed up.
"Nice outfit," Kurt said, smiling at Blaine.
"Thanks, I was going to say the same about you, you look quite handsome," Blaine replied, a playful smirk dancing across his face.
Kurt blushed and looked down, he hadn't been complimented about his looks in quite some time.
"But," Blaine continued. "I think I know a way to make you look even better."
Kurt looked at him questioningly, and his old self from the beginning of high school probably would have been offended that his current outfit wasn't 'good enough'. Now, he didn't really care, and since Blaine was so kind, he felt no offense whatsoever at his words.
Blaine leaned over to pick up a flat, square box from under his seat in the car. He handed it to Kurt and smiled hopefully at him, motioning for Kurt to open it.
Kurt pulled back the lid to find a soft, cashmere scarf with black and grey swirled throughout it in the box. He didn't even know what to say and he could feel the prick of tears in the back of his eyes. No one, other than his family, had gotten him a gift in so many years.
"Blaine," Kurt breathed. "It's beautiful." He carefully picked up the scarf and held it up to his face.
"Do you want some help putting it on?" Blaine asked.
Kurt blushed and smiled shyly at him before nodding. He shivered at the feel of Blaine's hands ghosting over his neck and watched Blaine expertly tie the scarf around his neck.
"Perfect," Blaine said, tweaking the end of the scarf.
Kurt could not help himself anymore, he reached over and threw his arms around Blaine. "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" he exclaimed. "I love it."
"I hoped you would," Blaine replied, returning the hug.
When the two men were back in their original seats, they started talking again.
"So I should probably give you a heads up about my friends," Blaine stated a few minutes later.
Kurt looked at him nervously. "Ok," he said.
"Ok, so my friends that are going to be there tonight are Wes, David, Nick and Jeff. Wes is my best friend, he's my roommate and he's the one that helped me get started in music. He owns and is the CEO of Montgomery Enterprises, I'm sure you've heard of it."
Kurt grinned and nodded enthusiastically.
"Great! Next, David is the manager and producer at Warbler Records, he's also one of my best friends. Nick is the head talent scout, he's the one that originally found me singing at one of the restaurants on Hollywood Blvd. He'll be there with his wife, Sadie. Finally, Jeff is my agent but we're also really close as friends outside of work. He will likely bring his wife, Annika."
Kurt tried not to flinch at all the new names that he had to remember and at the thought of all the people he was going to have to meet. Blaine noticed his nervous expression and reached over to squeeze his hand.
"Hey, Kurt. Don't worry, they are all the nicest guys you will ever meet, I promise. And if you're still uncomfortable later, I promise I can bring you back to your hotel, no worries."
Kurt sighed, he didn't know what he had done to deserve such kindness from Blaine but he knew he wouldn't allow Blaine to leave early and ruin his night with his friends so Kurt decided that for the first time in a while, he was going to suck it up and face his fears head on.
"No, no, it will be ok," Kurt replied. "I'm looking forward to meeting your friends." Kurt attempted a shaky smile and Blaine squeezed his hand again.
Blaine had no idea what might have happened to Kurt but he knew it must have been big to make him like this. He hadn't even known the boy for long but he was already so shocked by the bravery and courage he showed everyday facing his fears. "You're so brave, Kurt."
Kurt blushed again and looked down, as his heart leapt at the longing in Blaine's voice. He knew that Blaine was hiding something too, but since he had his own secrets he decided not to pry.
Changing the subject, Blaine asked Kurt about his plans for the upcoming week, and the two men continued a light conversation until they reached the restaurant. When they pulled into the parking lot, Kurt started shaking slightly and Blaine squeezed his hand. "Courage Kurt," he said softly and Kurt somewhat relaxed.
Kurt knew he could do this, as long as Blaine stayed by his side so with a slightly nervous glint in his eye he grabbed Blaine's outstretched hand and exited the limo.
The restaurant they were at was one of the fanciest ones in LA. Kurt was glad that he had chosen the outfit he had, realizing he would fit right in with all the high class people that were dining there that evening.
When they walked through the door, Kurt was pleasantly surprised by the warm but sophisticated atmosphere that enveloped them. The walls were a dark mahogany with gold trim and one wall had a mirror that covered the entire wall, making the room look even larger. The room was dimly lit, and candles were lit on every table. Kurt immediately decided that he liked it there.
They reached the maitre d' stand and waited patiently for the smartly dressed man to find their reservation. When the man looked up to see Blaine and Kurt he visibly did a double take. "Oh my goodness," he said under his breath before speaking to Blaine and Kurt. "Good evening sirs, it is an honour for us to serve you tonight. Let me just find your table."
Kurt smiled at the man and started twisting his fingers nervously, realizing that in a few short minutes he would be meeting six new people. Blaine sensed Kurt's uneasiness again and patted him on the shoulder encouragingly. "You can do this, Kurt," he whispered.
Soon the man looked back up at them. "Right this way sirs. Anderson reservation for 8," the man said with a flourish indicating their table.
"Thank you," Kurt said before Blaine pulled out a chair for him. The others hadn't arrived yet so Blaine and Kurt chose seats next to each other and sat down to wait for them.
It wasn't long before Kurt saw an Asian male and a black male heading in their direction with bright smiles on their faces. Blaine had an identical smile on his face as well when he stood up to greet his friends. "Wes, David, I'd like you to meet Kurt Hummel. Kurt, this is Wes and David." Blaine pointed at each of his friends as he introduced him and Kurt reached out his hand to shake.
"It's very nice to meet you," Kurt said politely.
"Same," Wes replied. "I've been wanting to meet the man that Blaine cannot stop talking about." Wes winked at Kurt.
"Wes!" Blaine exclaimed, blushing and Kurt laughed. He decided that he was definitely going to like Blaine's friends, or at least Wes.
The two additions to their party quickly found seats in time for Kurt to see a dark haired male and a blond haired male heading their direction with two women following closely behind. Blaine stood up again and welcomed his friends with a hug.
"Nick, Jeff, this is Kurt Hummel. Kurt, Nick and Jeff." Blaine once again motioned towards the two men and Kurt smiled shyly at them.
"Hi Kurt, I'm Nick Duval! This is my wife Sadie. It's so great to meet you." Nick shook Kurt's hand enthusiastically and Kurt smiled more comfortably at him.
"And I'm Jeff Sterling, and this is my wife Annika," Jeff added, grabbing Kurt's hand in a tight shake before pulling out a chair for his wife.
Kurt decided that Blaine was definitely correct when he said that his friends were nice. Kurt was already starting to feel comfortable around them. Kurt worried about how easily he was starting to trust people. He knew that the moment he made himself too vulnerable would be when he would get hurt. Based on his past experience, he most definitely would not survive if he was hurt again. Kurt decided that he would be friendly with Blaine's friends and decide for himself if they were going to be like his supposed 'friends' back in high school or not.
Blaine immediately struck up a conversation with Nick and Jeff about the most recent LA Kings hockey game and their predictions for future games and Kurt found himself surprised at how normal all the celebrities he was meeting really were. Kurt didn't really know much about hockey so he contented himself with his thoughts.
Kurt soon found himself conversing with Annika and Sadie as they complimented his new scarf and then they started discussing the newest issue of Vogue. He quickly found himself liking Blaine's friends and he started feeling more comfortable around these new people.
Before the food arrived, Kurt excused himself to go to the bathroom and on the way back he ran into yet another familiar face.
"Kurt!" a voice called behind him and he flinched not recognizing it. When he turned around though he was pleasantly surprised by who he saw in front of him.
"Hi Mercedes!" he exclaimed, in a somewhat higher pitched voice because he was still coming down from his surprise.
She laughed. "Long time no see," she quipped. Kurt already felt comfortable with Mercedes and he gave her a hug before noticing the cute blond guy standing behind her. "Oh! Where are my manners?" she exclaimed when she noticed Kurt's glance. "Kurt this is my fiancé Sam, Sam this is Kurt Hummel."
"Hi!" said Sam, cheerfully. "It's a pleasure to meet you."
"Same," Kurt replied shaking the man's outstretched hand.
"Well, we'll hopefully see you around Kurt," Mercedes said, slipping her hand back into Sam's.
"Sounds good," Kurt replied, waving as he made his way back to the table where Blaine and his friends were sitting.
When he arrived back at the table, the food was there. Kurt had ordered beef bourguignon and he admired the way it was presented on his plate. Blaine smiled at him as he sat down and made a motion indicating how good his meal tasted.
"Everything ok?" Blaine asked quietly after finishing his bite, having noticed how long Kurt had been gone.
"Yeah," Kurt whispered back. "I just ran into Mercedes Jones and her fiancé, Sam so I stopped to say hi before coming back."
"Great," Blaine replied. "Dig in, the food here is delicious."
Kurt picked up his fork and delicately speared a piece of beef before placing it in his mouth. He quickly decided that it was the best beef bourguignon that he had ever tasted (even better than Carole's, which was really saying something). Blaine looked at him hopefully and Kurt shot him a thumbs up. The look of pure glee that crossed Blaine's face made Kurt's heart swell and he squeezed Blaine's hand under the table to show his happiness too.
The conversation had stopped briefly while everyone had started eating their meals but suddenly Jeff cleared his throat and said, "So Kurt, while you were gone we were discussing Blaine's new music video that will be shot in Disneyland California. We all were wondering if you would like to join us when we go the shoot it. We're leaving next Sunday, a week from today and we'll be back on Wednesday. Blaine said that you don't have any interviews that week, and we thought it might be fun to have you tag along?"
Kurt's eyes widened at the invitation. He had not expected to be welcomed into Blaine's group of friends so quickly or that they would invite him on such a trip. Kurt had always loved amusement parks, and since he had free time anyway, he figured he might as well take them up on the offer.
"That sounds like a lot of fun," Kurt said with a smile.
Blaine's face lit up at the thought that he would get to spend 4 straight days with Kurt. He knew he hadn't known the man for long but he felt like he was starting to fall for him and he wanted to spend as much time with him as possible. He was still scared of coming out to the press so he'd have to keep his feelings quiet for a bit longer, but for now he just wanted to spend as much time as possible with Kurt.
"I wouldn't want to intrude on you guys working though..." Kurt began hesitantly.
"Oh, you wouldn't be," David said quickly, shooting a glance at Blaine. "Jeff and Nick are bringing their kids, it's going to be work and a vacation rolled into one."
Kurt visibly relaxed and smiled at the hopeful faces around the table. "That sounds fun to me, I would love to come." He admitted to himself that the thought of 4 straight days with Blaine excited him and even though he knew Blaine was probably straight, having him as a friend to spend time with was proving to be quite fun. Even though Kurt was still wary of new people, he told himself that this trip would be fun, and that he could trust Blaine and his friends.
Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand excitedly and started rambling about all the fun rides that there were that Kurt would have to try out, and the rest of the people surrounding the table chuckled at Blaine's childlike enthusiasm.
Soon everyone was finished their meals and they were just waiting for the dessert, crème brûlée, to arrive. Jeff and Wes started discussing the specifics of the Disney trip; hotel bookings, flights, times, parks, etc.
As the discussion continued, Kurt started to realize what he had gotten himself into and started to panic at his stupidity for being so trusting again, the same thing that had nearly gotten him killed so many years ago. Trust.
Blaine looked over at Kurt with the excitement dancing in his eyes and frowned when he saw how pale Kurt had become. He was worried that Kurt was going to have a panic attack so he quickly jumped up from the table, excusing himself and Kurt and pulled Kurt outside.
Once they got out the doors, Blaine grabbed Kurt's shoulders and held him while staring into his eyes and pleaded with him. "Breathe, Kurt, c'mon, you can do it. Breathe. Calm down. Everything is ok."
Soon the colour started coming back into Kurt face and his eyes focused on Blaine again just in time for them to well up in tears as he started to cry. "I'm sorry Blaine, I want to go to Disney with you but I'm so scared of everything. I know I haven't told you much about what happened back in high school, and I really can't right now, but they scarred me, Blaine. I thought I had healed but I don't know if I can do this. You are amazing, so strong and kind to me, but I just don't know what to do."
Kurt's sobs hurt Blaine's heart so, acting on instinct, he pulled Kurt into his arms and whispered soothingly to him, "It's ok, let it out. I won't judge you, I know you're hurting, everything is going to be ok."
Kurt looked up at Blaine with watery eyes and a shaky smile. "Thank you, Blaine. I know we haven't known each other very long, but you're my best friend."
Blaine's heart swelled at the honesty and vulnerability that Kurt was displaying to him and he squeezed him again before grabbing his hand and pulling him back into the restaurant.
As they reached the table, everyone looked towards them with concerned expressions. "Sorry about that guys, Kurt decided that he actually..." Blaine began.
"...Will go to Disney with you guys next week," Kurt cut in. Blaine looked at him shocked before pulling him into a bone-crushing hug.
The others smiled to each other and continued to plan the trip to Disney. As the two friends took their seats at the table again, Kurt even added a little bit to the discussion. Blaine just watched Kurt and marvelled at the bravery his friend put forth in attempting to overcome his inner demons and lead an honest and mostly normal life. Blaine only wished that he could be as brave as Kurt and reveal his innermost secret to the world.
Soon the night ended and everyone said their goodbyes, before Kurt and Blaine headed back towards their waiting limo. After settling into the backseat, Kurt looked over at Blaine somewhat shyly and opened his mouth to speak.
"Umm, Blaine, there's something I've been wanting to ask you, and I hope you don't get angry at me for asking, and you don't have to answer if you don't want to. Actually, never mind, I shouldn't have brought it up."
Blaine was curious now though so he replied, "Kurt, you can ask me anything. Don't worry."
Kurt nodded and continued speaking softly. "Umm, well, I was wondering. Are you... are you gay?"
Blaine's head snapped up at that question and he looked searchingly into Kurt's eyes. He knew he would have to tell him eventually so he decided that he might as well now. "Yes," he said. "But my friends that you just met are the only ones that know. I'm not as brave as you are to be completely open about my sexuality to the media like you are. Now I'm scared that I'm going to lose all my fans if I am honest and yeah, I want to tell the media, but I'm just scared."
Kurt looked understandingly in Blaine's direction and grabbed his hand. "Hey, hey, I guarantee that I am not the brave one here. I hid from the media for years, I still hide behind my writing and my characters. You're the brave one Blaine, starting from nothing to become the amazing pop star you are now. You have nothing to be ashamed of."
Blaine grasped at Kurt's hand and pulled it to his chest. "Trust me, you are brave too Kurt. You've put aside all of your fears from your past to come into the media just because you thought you owed it to your fans. If that's not courage, I don't know what is."
Kurt threw his arms around Blaine's neck and pulled him close. Blaine leant over and gave Kurt a chaste kiss on the cheek. "You're amazing, Blaine," Kurt said.
"So are you, Kurt," Blaine replied.
With that, the two men went back to lighter topics for the rest of the trip back to the hotel. As they waved goodbye to each other, Kurt realized he was falling hard for Blaine, and he just hoped that the elder man would be there to catch him and love him back.
A/N: Sooo, cheesy? Boring? Either way I hope you liked it! I honestly don't know when the next chapter will be up. It could be tomorrow, or it could be Friday or it could be in 2 weeks, I do not know. If you're wondering why I randomly put Sam and Mercedes in there, it has a lot to do with them being my favourite Glee couple and me missing them together on the show :P also, if half this stuff doesn't make sense, I'm sorry. I've never witnessed a panic attack so that's why it's kind of rushed. Also, if Kurt seems to have a fluctuating personality it just is to show that he's starting to go back to his old self but then his memories come back to crush the progress, hence the fluctuations. Soo, I hope y'all had a great Christmas, or Hanukkah, or Kwanzaa, or Festivus, or whatever other holidays there are at this time of year. Thanks to my cousin, EragonArya for her scarf suggestion, and you guys should go check out her stories. She just wrote a really cute Christmas one called Christmas Cookies and Candy Canes. Please, please, please review! It makes my day when you do! Next chapter will have what happened to Kurt to make him the way he is in it. So, thanks for reading and I will be waiting patiently for hopefully some reviews ;)