Thank you klainestberryfan and vairetwilight for the story alert and Soul-Kit524 for the story alert AND author alert add
Temarifan9622- Thank you! I promise Kurt will be alright...eventually.
Soul-Kit524- I promise I won't go back, now that I've seen how people have responded to what I've written
c- I promise you'll see more Kurt- as soon as he's conscious
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Blaine doesn't know how long he's been sitting there before his dad forces him to go to the cafeteria to get coffee. Blaine knows that the last thing either of them needs was caffeine on top of all the nerves they were feeling. Blaine dragged his feet as he blindly followed his father. They reached the cafeteria and Burt filled up two cups of coffee and paid. Blaine started to head back toward the doors but Burt grabbed his arm and forced him to sit at one of the tables.
"But dad, what if something happens during the surgery and they need to find us?" Blaine exclaimed. He didn't want to be sitting there waiting but he REALLY didn't want to be sitting in the cafeteria.
"We'll only be here for a few minutes. I think the both of us needed a break from staring at those walls." Burt answered in that tone of voice that told Blaine that was the end of it.
The two Andersons sat in silence and sipped their coffee. Neither really knew what to say to the other so they said nothing. Blaine finished his coffee rather quickly and then impatiently watched his father drink his.
"Something you want to say?" Burt asked.
"Please finish your coffee faster." Blaine asked, begging a little.
Burt was taken aback but decided that he wasn't getting anywhere so he grabbed his coffee and walked back to the waiting room. Burt watched Blaine settle down into the same chair, in the same position and stare at the door. Burt sent up a silent prayer hoping that Kurt was going to pull through this- as much the boy's sake as Blaine's
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After the second hour passed, Blaine began to pace.
It had to be a bad sign. They were supposed to be done three minutes ago. That's bad. Maybe the bleed was too big, maybe the swelling was too bad- oh god what if his heart stopped? What if he never wakes up? What if-
But at that moment, Dr. Rogers came through the door. Burt jumped to his feet but Blaine froze in his spot.
"What's the news?" Burt asked once he realized that Blaine wasn't going to say anything.
"The surgery was a success." Dr. Rogers said with a smile.
Blaine felt himself breathe- he hadn't even realized he had been holding his breath- and he ran to give his father a hug.
"Mr. Anderson-" Dr. Rogers said and both Burt and Blaine told him to call them by their first names. "-Burt, Blaine, please let me finish."
Blaine deflated and felt his heart fill with dread again. That didn't sounds like a set up for good news.
"The surgery was a success- we drained the bleed and the swelling has started to decrease and should continue to do so now that we have him on medications."
"I'm sensing a 'but' coming-" Burt said taking a seat, Blaine collapsed into the one next to him.
"But he still hasn't regained consciousness and we don't know...when he will." Dr. Rogers said sounding grave again.
Blaine stared at the doctor. He didn't need to be a genius to fill in the 'if' left hanging in the air from the doctor's hesitation.
"When can I see him?" Blaine found himself asking before he knew what he was saying.
"Soon. The nurses are getting him settled in. I'll let them know that you're waiting to see him."
"Thank you." Blaine said and the doctor left. "Should I even bother calling his parents?"
Burt was taken aback. He knew that Kurt'd parents had been unresponsive so far but he never imagined that Blaine would give up.
"Do you think we should?" Burt asked and looked expectantly at his son. I know that he feels its useless and that he's angry Kurt's parents didn't rush here but that doesn't mean they should be cut out of the loop...right?
Blaine stared at him clearly debating what to say. He knew that he should call Kurt's parents but the anger at Kurt's father's lack of concern and his mother's unresponsiveness made him feel like they didn't deserve to know.
However, the look his father was giving him made him know that he had to call them- Kurt was still their son.
"Fine." Blaine said taking out the cell phone but before he got the chance a nurse walked in.
"Kurt's all settled in if you want to see him." The nurse said, holding the door open.
Blaine handed his father the phone and then followed the nurse without a word. The two walked in silence and Blaine couldn't help but glance into the rooms. What he saw there made him regret looking: in every room there were more machines than he could count. It was so quiet on this floor- memories of his mother's last months came unbidden, it almost made Blaine turn and run.
It was only a few moments before they were in front of the room.
"You can go in. He's...it looks scarier than it is." The nurse said standing outside the door.
Blaine walked in hesitantly and as soon as he saw Kurt, he felt his breath leave him and tears spring to his eyes.
Kurt looked...broken. He had a tube breathing for him, a couple of IV tubes running to one arm, a tube of what Blaine identified as blood with a queasy stomach, gauze obscured the top of his head.
But what bothered Blaine the most was how lifeless he looked. He was pale- well paler-and completely still.
Blaine was at Kurt's beside before he even realized he had started moving again. He reached a shaking hand toward Kurt but stopped short of touching him.
"You can touch him." The nurse said from the doorway, startling Blaine. He hadn't realized she was still there.
"T-thank you." Blaine stammered. He was trying hard to hold back the tears, he didn't know how much longer he would last.
"Ring the bell in you need anything."
And then he was left alone with Kurt and the machines. He finally let the tears fall.
"Oh K-Kurt. I-I'm so s-sorry. I sh-should have n-never gotten y-you invol-ved." Blaine sobbed clutching Kurt's hand. "I d-don't even k-know how t-t-to begin t-to apologize."
Blaine cried for a while, struggling to find the words. He didn't known when he made the choice but before he knew it he was resting his head on Kurt's chest and singing softly.
I'm sorry, so sorry
That I was such a fool
I didn't know
Love could be so cruel
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Uh, oh
Oh, yes
You tell me mistakes
Are part of being young
But that don't right
The wrong that's been done
(I'm sorry) I'm sorry
(So sorry) So sorry
Please accept my apology
But love is blind
And I was to blind to see
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Uh, oh
Oh, yes
You tell me mistakes
Are part of being young
But that don't right
The wrong that's been done
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Uh, oh
Oh, yes
I'm sorry, so sorry
Please accept my apology
But love was blind
And I was too blind to see
(Sorry)
Blaine strangled out the last line. He paused he looked up, hoping that somehow- as unlikely as it was- his voice would have woken Kurt up. However, he remained as silent and unconscious, and Blaine remained with his head on Kurt's chest before exhaustion from crying more times than he cared to count, pulled his eyes shut and he feel asleep, his breathing in sync with Kurt's.
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Song: I'm Sorry by Brenda Lee