Royai 100 Themes

Theme 18 – 'I Don't Want to Realize'

A/N: Much love to everyone who reviewed the last chapter. You all (Haha, I'm so funny! There were only two. But I love you two mostest.) are awesome and I love you and everyone who reads these. Let's have a hugging party, guys! :'D And I've noticed that a lot of people write these long, flowery things for their themes, but mine are these two sentence midgets. Thoughts on this? Because I can write long, flowery themes if you guys want.

Disclaimer: FANfiction, guys. If I were the author, it'd be AUTHORfiction. Which would also be known as canon/the real story.

'I Don't Want to Realize'

He didn't want to realize that by dating all of these nameless women, by attempting to lose himself in them, that he was hurting her, that he was causing her pain. Because admitting that would mean admitting that he noticed, that he cared. That he loved her.

And most of all, it would mean realizing that he was the one pushing her away. As long as he didn't think about it, he could pretend that everything was perfect as it could get, that nothing was wrong. And he wouldn't have to face the lie in that.

She didn't want to realize that the only reason he left the office early was to date another one of those women, to lose himself in them. Admitting it would mean facing the truth and realizing that he didn't love her, not the way she loved him.

If she ignored it, she could tell herself that he wasn't feeling well, that he was going to visit Maes, that he was getting a drink with some old friends. But you could only tell yourself the same stories so many times.

So they sat there, pretending, attempting not to realize what was going on. Acting like nothing was wrong, trying to ignore the fact that the only thing keeping them apart was themselves.

A/N: Reviews will be put in a shoebox under my bed because I'm selfish and want to keep them all to myself because I love them so much. Oh, and if any of you would take the time to look me up on FictionPress, I'm Secretly Lovely over there. Haven't posted much yet, but I have a vignette and a poem going up tonight.

~Mangagirl135 out.