Only a short one.
"WHAT THE HELL JAC" he said as he took a step back. He put his hand on his mouth and looked at me with disgust. I couldn't believe I had told him. He looked sad. Tears came to my eyes.
"Im sorry, it was only once. Just one night, it didn't mean anything" Jonny looked away not wanting to show me his hurt. "Jonny look at me, say something. Say you hate me, just say anything"
"You want me to say I hate you Jac?" I shrugged my shoulders, I could hear the pain in his voice. "Well I can't. I can't believe you did this Jac. When ever we start to get some stability you wreck everything. And the sad bit about all of this is you don't even know or care"
"Jonny I do care, I care about you and I care abo" he cut me off. I knew he was hurt but I didn't want it to all end. Why did I have to be so stupid.
"Jac, I just wanted a normal life, with kids, a wife, a house and a dog. I want all of that Jac. I wanted it with you but now" he started to shake his head, I could see the disappointment in his eyes,
"You can. I want that to Jonny. I want it with you" I said as tears streamed down my face.
"No Jac, no its to late" he walked away. I couldn't help but feel ashamed.
I got on my bike and drove home. I kept looking at my phone every 10 minutes to see if Jonny had text but he hadn't. I couldn't text his because I knew he would be still angry and I didn't want to make things worse. I got up and went to the fridge, grabbed a bottle of wine and a glass. Thinking about what I had done over the past few days, over the past few years, I poured my 4th cup and then my 5th. I was on my second bottle by this point and I knew it wouldn't get any better than how I was feeling now but I kept pouring glass after glass. I picked up my phone and dialled a number. It rang until I got to a voice message "Hi, this is Jonny's phone sorry I am unable to answer the phone" said the Scottish voice than another voice came up "but im with my awesome best friend in the whole world so I shall call you later" said Mo. I couldn't help but feel butterflies when I heard his voice, once it had gone I let out a burst of tears not realising I didn't hang up. "Jac why are you such an idiot!" I exclaimed, then my phone bleeped. 'Crap I didn't hang up' I though.