So Ive been really busy lately and had no time to update so I thought seeing as it is half term and I have English coursework to be doing I would update with a quick chapter for now but I shall update again tomorrow or well before the end of the week. Thank you for the comments, keep them coming. If you have any ideas please share I have a slight writters block. Its all in my head but when I come to write it, it doesnt come out right and I dont want Jac to be to much out of character. Please comment.
"I..I..I..I..I don't know... where to start" I stuttered he looked at me with disappointment, he knew I didn't want to tell him. I couldn't believe how vulnerable I was, I always had an answer for everything.
"C'mon Jac tell me about anything, just something. I need to know why you did it?" tears came to his eyes. I knew he only wanted to know why I cheated.
"I can't Jonny, you know I don't-"Jonny cut me off.
"Jac, please. I want to understand, I want to understand you" He gripped me tighter and placed a kiss on my head, I wanted to stay like this forever I felt safe but I promised myself I would never become like this with a man again.
"Jonny why?" I sat up pulling myself away from him. I walked over to my suitcase and grabbed my oversize t-shirt out and placed it on with a pair of short. Jonny was staring at me with a slight grin on his face. "What?" I said to his rather confused.
"I was looking for that shirt" I looked down realising it was Jonny's, I had completely forgot, it had been my comfort blanket every night that I wasn't with him. I snuggled it once I got onto the bed. It smelt like him still.
"Oh yeah, um I'm sorry" I pulled my legs up to my chest trying to comfort myself. I wasn't alone but I had never felt so alone. I had always pushed people away for once I just wanted Jonny to stay close, to hold me, to kiss me, it was all I wanted. "I was 12 when my mum left me" He looked at me in shock, I wasn't sure if he was shocked I was opening up to him or just because my mum left. "I had no one" I started to go into my own little world like I was imagining it all over again. Like it was happening to me right now. I didn't know how long I was in my daze but I felt a hand on mine. I quickly jumped up thinking it was him but it wasn't it was only Jonny."I'm sorry I though you were... I was in a daze" I was shaken up by the touch of Jonny.
"I'm sorry Jac, c'mon sit back down"
"No.. No... No I can't. I've umm I've got to go" I was startled, I couldn't think straight and especially not around Jonny. He wanted to know things and I couldn't do it, I couldn't open up. I was pacing around the room untill I went towards the door but suddenly felt arms around me. His grip tighten around my back "its okay Jac, I'm here"