A/N I read my entire story yesterday, like what I have written and I realized that I have done a crappy job on editing. Sorry about that:| I obviously need to work on that. Thanks again for the reviews! You guys rock! This chapter is more of Clare realizing that she's not dream and that her family is falling apart and of Eli coming to her rescue and being an awesome boyfriend. Enjoy Chapter 11!
Clare's POV
I had my eyes closed for a long while, but remained awake. When I finally opened my eyes, it was 5:45. I got up and headed for the shower. I planned on taking a 10 minute shower, but ended up taking a 20 minute one because I kept getting distracted with thoughts. I kept telling myself that this is a nightmare and that I am going to wake up any minute and everything will be the way it used to be, but sadly, I was just trying to fool myself. I got dressed and did my usual routine of getting ready in the morning. I slipped Eli's headphones into my bag. Once I was done, I headed down stairs and put my bag by the front door. I headed to the kitchen to have some breakfast, but ran into my parents. Great! Just the people I wanted to see! My dad was reading the paper and drinking some coffee and my mom was making a grocery list. Maybe if I just ignore them, they won't notice me. That is how bad I don't want to talk to them right now. I walked to the pantry and grabbed an apple. I headed over to the sink and started to rinse it off when my mom said, "Oh Clare, make sure to get home straight away after school." "Why?" "Your father and I want to talk to you about something." That's when I reached my boiling point. I threw my apple into the sink and turned around to face both of them. "Why? What is the freaking point? I already know what you're going to tell me anyway! You are getting a divorce; Congratulations! Well, guess what? I am done. You two have no idea how this affects me. Do you? No, I don't feel a little sad or a little depressed. I feel extremely sad and extremely pissed off! You two have no idea what it is like to go through life with your parents telling you what not to do and then one day they decide to do one of those 'what not to do's. ""Clare Diana Edwards! You do not use that tone with us, young lady! We are doing this for you! So you don't have to worry or suffer anymore. We are very sorry that this is what is happening, but some things just don't work out the way you think. Now, get in the car and I'll give you a ride," My dad says to me. "Oh, so you do care about my feeling? Well, you did a horrible job at showing me that when you guys were fighting 24/7. And I don't want a ride, especially from you. Sorry, but I'd rather walk." I finished fighting back and then turned and walked towards the front door. I grabbed my stuff and my parents yelled for me to come back, but frankly, I didn't give a crap about them right now. I always walked to school whenever I wanted or needed to think about something. I remembered that I had put Eli's headphones in my bag. I pulled them out and plugged them into my phone. I put them over my ears and blasted my music. I continued to walk to school with my head down. I concentrated on the music and closed out the world, but I still paid attention to where I was going, of course.
How long will this take? How much can I go through?
My heart, my soul aches. I don't know what to do.
I bend, but don't break and somehow get through because I have you….
I start to realize that this is exactly how I am feeling and was tearing up, so I changed the song.
She never slows down.
She doesn't know why, but she just that when she's all alone, it feels like it's all coming down.
She won't turn around. The shadows are long.
And she feels if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down.
So, stand in the rain, stand your ground. Stand up when it's all crashing down.
You stand through the pain, you won't drown and one day what's lost can be found.
You stand in the rain.
I couldn't help it. I started to burst into tears. I wasn't completely balling, but I was getting there. As I was starting to get closer to school, I pulled myself together and used some cover up that I found in my bag that Alli had given to me. I quickly dabbed it on my semi puffy eyes and continued on to school. Luckily, the puffiness in my eyes had gone down in my eyes by the time I got to school. I hated crying in public. So, I was doing everything in my power to make sure no one knew I was crying on the way here. I moved the headphones off of my head and slid them around my neck. I unplugged them from my phone and put my phone back in my bag. I was happy that the headphones were wireless because now I didn't have to worry about an awkward wire hanging down from them. The walk to school from my house is about a twenty minute walk. They were probably the quietest twenty minutes that I have had to myself in a long time; I'm counting my music as silence right now. I finally reached school and walked down the halls to my locker. I opened it and grabbed what I needed for my first class. I literally felt no happiness in my body, I couldn't even fake it. I did not feel like looking for anybody so I sat on the cold hallway floor and leaned against my locker. I pulled out the book I was going to loan to Eli and started to read. I got pretty far into the book when someone lightly bumped my foot. I looked up to see who it was. Eli. He smiled down at me and I tried my best, but I could only smirk. "Good morning," He said as he moved over and sat on the left side next to me. "Hey." "How are you doing?" "Eh." "Do you want to talk about it?" "Not right now, but basically, the last thing I want to do right now is go home after school." I feel the tears start to come back for an encore just at the mention of it. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I open them and close my book and set it on the other side of me with the rest of my stuff. I rest my head on Eli's shoulder. "I don't know what to do," I say still fight with the tears. "Something major must have happened." "Why do you say that?" "Well, for starters, I gave you those headphones this morning and you already found a reason to use them." "You caught me." I removed the headphones from my neck and set them in my bag. "Look, if you don't want to talk about it, you don't have to." "I appreciate that, but can you do something else for me?" "Yeah, what do you need?" "Can you hold me when I cry?" Tears started to roll down my cheeks. "That's it. Come on." Eli started to get up and make me stand up too. "Where?" "Do you really want to stay here and suffer through the day?" "No." "Wanna ditch?" "And where would we go?" "Anywhere. Anywhere, but here and your house." "Ok, but help me up?" Eli grabbed my hands and pulled me up then he bent over and grabbed my stuff for me. I took his hand in my and wiped my tears with my other hand. We walked out the front doors and into the parking lot. We got into his hearse and drove off. I scooted next to him and laid my legs next to me. I rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. I had not realized how tired I really was until I drifted into a deep sleep. "Clare? Blue eyes?" I open my eyes and look out the window to try and figure out where we are. "Where are we," I ask as I yawned and stretched. "My secret hideout," Eli says with a smile. "Your secret what?" Eli got out and ran to the other side of the hearse and opened the door for me. "Well if you come out here, you can see what I am talking about." I get out of Morty and look around me. We were in the middle of the forest and we were next to an abandoned fort or building of some sort that was very decade. It only had a wall and a half still standing and no trace of a roof. "What is this place?" "I told you; my secret hideout. Whenever something is going on in my life or whenever I just need to get away, I come here." I walked over to the remains of the building and looked around. "How did you find this place?" "I was ditching school and super pissed off about something, so I started walking around the forest and just kind of stumbled upon it." I ran over to Eli and gave him a huge hug around his neck. He wrapped his arms around my waist and spun me around. "Thank you so much," I whispered in his ear. He set me down, "No problem." "It is extremely beautiful out here, but can we sit in Morty?" Eli just smiled and chuckled. "What?" I asked. "You are the first girl I have ever met that actually calls him Morty. I like it." "So I take that as a yes?" I start heading towards Morty when Eli bridal style picks me up and sets me in Morty. I giggle. He gets in the driver side and we close the doors. I turn so that I'm leaning on Eli and my feet are on the passenger seat. Eli turns his body as much as he can with his feet still on the floor. I had my head rested on his chest with my body turned sideways and he was playing with my hair when I decided to come clean, "My dad cheated on my mom." I was whispering. Eli stopped playing with my hair for a moment. "What? How did you find that out?" "After you left, I got up to walk to the bathroom and on my way I was passing my parents room and they were quietly fighting and my mom just said it. So I ran back to my room and tried to sleep, but couldn't so I finally got ready and went down stairs and my parents ambushed me and told me to come home as soon as possible after school because they need to talk to me and well, I snapped and started screaming at them about how this was so stupid and that they had no idea how this was effecting me and a bunch of other stuff. Then I grabbed my stuff and ran out of the house and cried on the way to school." I hadn't realized how hard that was to say until I finally said it. Eli continued to play with my hair and kissed me on the top of the head. I started to cry, again and turned my face into his chest. He sat up and pulled me closer to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he around my waist. I moved my head into his neck. He held me tight and didn't let go. I cried, cried and cried until finally I could not cry anymore. Eli whispered in my ear, "I swear I'll never let you go. I promise I'll always be there for you." I leaned back with my hands on the back of his neck, "Promise you won't leave me?" "Promise." I leaned in and kissed him and then went back in for a hug. He had one hand supporting my back and another in my hair. "I guess you're stuck with me," I whispered in his ear. "You make that sound like a bad thing." I half smiled and then thought about my parents again. "What if they divorce and things just get worse. " "Don't think like that." "Why not? I'll probably mainly stay with my mom, but after what I heard about my dad; I don't even want to stay with him." "I can't promise you that there won't be hard times, but I can tell you that when you do, you can here and I'm always here if you want to escape." I leaned back again and looked into the beautiful jades on his face. He continued to speak, "But I can also tell you that everything is going to work out in the end. It always does. You're going to be ok." I leaned in and started to kiss him. He licked my bottom lip and I slit my mouth open. His tongue greeted mine and I pulled him closer. Sweet, sweet serenity always comes to me when I am with Eli. We had only been together for a few days and he was already up for dealing with my problems. I finally feel like no matter what I can still be happy because of a mysterious boy named Eli Goldsworthy.
A/N So? How did you like it? Poor Clare and Yay Eli is a caring boyfriend. I definitely felt kind of emotional writing this one. Ok, so the first song is Crawling by Superchick and the second song is Stand in the Rain by Superchick. I hope you enjoyed :D Please review!