Hey, sorry it has been so long. My life has been so crazy lately and i had some writer's block so i hope you like it.
-3 months later-
Clare's POV
It's been two months since my parents have gotten a divorce. I live with my mom, since I refuse to see my dad. Life has gotten a little better, but not much. If it weren't for Eli, Adam, and Alli, I don't know what I would've done. For example, last month I was in my room feeling real sad. I kept looking over at this one picture I have on my desk of my dad, mom, Darcy, and me on a ski trip. 'What happened?' I kept thinking. Then I looked on the other side and saw my scissors and well, you could probably imagine what I was going to do with them. If not, I was going to cut myself. Right before I was about to make the first cut, someone knocked and walked into my room. I heard a gasp and looked up from my still untouched wrist. I saw Eli. Just standing there. His jaw was practically on the floor. He rushed over to my side and took the scissors. I couldn't help but start to ball. I fell to the ground and he grabbed and held me in his arms. I was crying so hard, words could not form.
After a while, he sat me on my bed. He sat his knees in front of me on the floor. He stared at me with concerned eyes, waiting for me to speak. "I don't know," I said, knowing that's what he was probably asking in his head.
That's when he did something that made me tear up again. He took both of my wrists and kissed them both. When he looked up at me, he, Eli Goldsworthy, had tears in his eyes. I never tried to hurt myself again after that. We never told anyone because we didn't want anyone to think I was suicidal or anything. Even though I promised him I wouldn't try again, he still checks every once and a while, but I don't mind. I'm just happy he didn't leave.
Eli's POV
I had the worst nightmare last night. I had walked to Clare's house to hang out with her. I walked up to her room, knocked and opened the door. I figured she had been asleep so I crept in, planning to sneak up on her and wake her up, but that's not what I found. I saw her sitting on the floor, wrist exposed, blood everywhere. I tried calling her name, but she didn't answer. I grabbed her shoulders and gently shook her. Nothing. She had bled to death.
I woke up screaming that night. I can't stop thinking about what would've happened if I hadn't gone to Clare's that day, if I had gone over later, if she had made that first slit. The next day was a Saturday. So I decided to be a good boyfriend and bring Clare a few of her favorite things. I brought her some colorful daisies, some books I had that she would like and a few movies.
When I finally got to her house, I knocked on the door and held the flowers in front of my face. The door opened. "I wonder who that could be," she said sarcastically with a giggle. "Psh, I don't know," I responded. I lowered the flowers and she quickly leaned in and kissed me. "Well, hello there," I surprised. "Hi." "Can I come in?" "Hm…I don't know. You may be a creeper trying to take advantage of me and that just wouldn't be cool," she joked. "What if I said I wasn't?" she thought for a moment then gestured for me to come in. I came in and she looked at my bag of stuff. "What's all this?" "Just some stuff for you." I smiled and gave her the flowers. She immediately smelled them. Then I started taking everything out of the bag. "I figured we could have a movie day." I looked up at her and she smiled.
Clare's POV
I had talked Eli into letting me watch Twilight, but I had a hard time focusing on it. I kept catching Eli staring at my wrists. Finally, I just turned to him and asked, "Are you okay?" "Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" "I don't know. You just keep staring at my wrists." "I just worry about you. That's all." I looked down at my wrists and sighed. I held them out to him. He looked down at them. "I'm sorry if it bugs you that I check up on you. I just….I…I don't know." "It's ok. I get it. You care. I just wish I wasn't so gloomy and need you to check." He put his arms around me and held me close. "I just feel like I'm losing everything." "Not me you're not. Not me."
-Next day-
To be honest, it is sometimes annoying when Eli checks up, but u know he's just concerned and wants me to get better. But today, oh today, he went a little too far. I was at lunch cutting something out for a project, when he approached me. I looked up, said 'hi' and went back to cutting. Suddenly, he rushed to my side and slowly took the scissors from me and said, "Let me cut that for you." I looked at him confused and reached for the scissors, "No, I got it." "I just think it's better if I cut it." At this point, we were playing tug-o-war with the scissors. "Why?" "I just don't want you to get hurt." "They're scissors…" "Yeah, definition: two sharp pieces of metal used to cut." Then it struck me. "Is that what this is about?" I took my hand off of the scissors and slowly moved my hands back to me. He just sat there and looked down as if he were a puppy that was hiding something. "Well? Is it?" He stayed quiet for a while, sighed and then spoke, "Clare, I'm just trying to do my job of protecting you." "I never asked you to do that." "Well, maybe I just felt obligated. I am" I cut him off before he could finish, "What now I'm an obligation?" "That's not what I meant." "Just….Forget it." I grabbed my stuff, got up and left.
Eli's POV
As Clare left, Adam showed up. "Woe, what's up with her?" "Long story." "Video game intervention?" I nodded.
-Later at my house-
"So, what'd you do to Clare to make her storm off like that?" "I…I can't tell you." Adam paused the game and looked at me, "What do you mean, you can't tell me?" "It's a secret. More importantly, it's Clare's secret and if I tell you, that would be going against her trust and I can't do that to her." "Are you sure you don't want to talk about it? You both seemed pretty upset." "No, I shouldn't." "Ok, suit yourself." He then continued the game. I really wanted to tell Adam. I just wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do, but maybe he can help. "Well, maybe you can help." He paused the game and gave me his attention. I proceeded to tell him everything. "Wow. I had no idea she was that depressed." "Yeah." "So, then why did you freak out at lunch?" "You know why." He looked at me confused for a while and then realization painted itself across his face. "Does she know?" I looked away. "Eli!" "You need to tell her." "I will." "Good." "Eventually." Adam glared at me, "If you don't tell her, you're gonna scare her off and then what will she do?" He's right. I know he's right. I just don't know how to tell her…