Hatchi, I'm afraid.
I felt that someone I knew was around, I almost left London because I was afraid I was caught. I was right, although part of me wants to run away I look at Satsuki and I'm not sure if I can.
I have never forgot about my past, my time with BLAST, or my time with you. I had hoped that my leaving would become a chance for you to lead a less complicated life. Because of what Takumi had said while you were in labor it seemed like the only option. But now I see that we are bound together, and both of us have been hurting because I ran away.
I can't return to Japan though, not yet, that's part of the reason I haven't come back.
Before you moved into the dormitory every second of my life I kept hearing Ren ask me over and over if I would die with him... and every second I remembered that by living I broke a promise to him. You soothed the pain, although the guys in BLAST helped as well, I always felt that having you to myself was the only thing that had an impact.
I can't go back, I feel like going back will only burden you. In the time I've been gone you've surely moved on, even if only a little. I can't force you to belong to me. I can't see you with Takumi and smile like I used to, I can only come back if we can pretend like nothing ever happened. I want to return to when we lived in the apartment, I want to drink out of those cheap strawberry glasses, I want the only trace of Takumi to be Satsuki. I'm so selfish.
Tell Yasu, Nobu, and Shin that I'm doing fine. After work I picked up a cheap bracelet, I want you to give it to Satsuki. I want her to know that although we've never met I still adore her as much as she does me.
I'm staying in London for the time being, I don't know if I'll tell anyone if I leave.
Hatchi, I don't know if I will write again.
This seems to be on a fast forward right now, I plan to do some flashback chapters for awhile before returning to the present. The next one will probably be more thought out, these two were just basic skeletons so they're short and lack so much detail. =(
Sorry for the long wait for such short things. Hope to get on a new role of a chapter/week and have nice long-esque chapters.
Please review, even negatively, it reminds me that I have stuff to do.
The next time I go to my friend's place I'll bring my lunker of a laptop and work on the story instead of blindly staring off into space as she does homework.