we walked down the pavement as people crowded walking past us. I felt stupid being in public with them. they locked there hands together, as raven rested her head on phil's shoulder while I walked behind wishing she would just let go, and it could all end. we made It to the shop, and they finally released. "dan, do you mind carring the cake we chose it ealier, and I don't want phil getting hurt before our wedding" said raven; stupidly clinging onto phil's arm again. "sure!" I said; frustrated. I just wanted to grab a cake from the window stand, and slam it into her face. the way she looked, and talked to phil was like an insane fangirl that was obsessed, and could not keep away. phil deserved better then her whether it was me or not, I just wanted him to be himself again, but like people say... people change.
I walked to the counter, and let out a deep sigh. the man slammed the cake down onto the counter. he looked over to raven, and phil. "which one do you love?!" he asked. he must have noticed me looking a little down, and assumed I was in love with one of them, and didn't know what to do...well. . . he was correct. did I really look that disappointed?!. I let out another sigh. "I . . . I don't know what to do" I said wearly, "it's the girl isn't it?! . . . just tell her how you feel if she doesn't feel the same. . . at least you got it of your chest" said the man. "actually. . . its not the girl I love. . ." I said, teansing up waiting for shouts of disgust, and disappointment. "dan, hurry up" I heard raven whine. I pulled the cake off the counter, and before I could turn around , the man spoke again. . . "that goes for the boy too" he said; smiling. I was relived he didn't judge me, and tell me it was one off those stupid phases like many people did. I walked up to them with the cake curled in my hand's, and we walked out.
as we walked home I could not help, but consider the warming advice the man had givin' me, but I was worried about what phil was going to think. as we walked into elevator heading up to our flat. I noticed raven carrying of alcohol. I knew what was going to happen they were going to drink then force me too drink, and make a complete idiot out of me, but I was not going to let that happen this time. I ringed peej, and invited him to come over. luckily he excepted the invite. "ugh, dan you're not going to drink with us?!" raven asked. a glimpse of false sympathyin her stupid voice. "no I promised my best friend pj to come hang out with me for a while" I said. I said 'best friend' as loud as I could glaring into phil's ocean blue eye's. I them remembered a few years ago the comment I left on phil's picture; you could go swimming in those eye's. . .', but I tried to ignore it coz I knew if I thought about how close we used to be, I would tear up, and I did not want to start bursting into tear's right infront of them.
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we finally reached the floor of our flat. . . correction. . .min, and phil's flat. they both stumbled into the flat giggling, and mumbling about stupid meaningless thing's to each other, while I stood slumping my shoulder's in disappointment of me being the third wheel. the least they can do us talk to me. I had a feeling raven knew about my secret feelings for phil, and taunted me with every little romantic thing she had done with phil. phil popped open the bottle of alcohol, and handed a cup ful to rave, as he poured him self the same amount. they started getting a bit touchy, so I left to my room waiting desperartly for peej to arrive. I could not take hearing there little laughs, and romantic momments I heard due to the paper thin walls, after what seemed about an hour I heard a knock on the door. I rushed out of the room. only to see phil kissing raven, she opened her eye's, and frowned at me, deeping the kiss. I could not help, but flip my middle finger up. I walked to the door, and opened to see peej. peej was the only one I was close to since phil transformed into someone I did not know anymore. he was the only on beside me through this situation, but I felt like he was being irritaded by this stupid deformed love triangle. peej glanced over to the sloppy kiss, and dragged me into my room, and locked the door behind him. he pulled a chair out from under my computer desktop, and gingerly sat down. "what's up?!" peej asked. I plunged my self on the bed thinking of how I could explain everything without sounding like a whiney bitch who could not take care of himself. "I love phil he's getting married in a few day's, and I don't know what to do" I said not stopping to take a breath.
peej let out a deep sigh of frustration, and looked into my eye's. great job dan know you're going to make it seem like you're using him for your problems, and not for friend ship like phil used you I told my self. "dan, just tell him . . ." said peej. his words were not helping no madder how humble they sounded. it was harder to do then listen. "it's hard pj i can't just tell him like that!" i yelled, in frustration. "Well how else do you expect this problem to be solved?!", dan , know i'm starting to think you want this to happen like one of those stupid 'phanfiction's'" uttered peej. maybe. . . i did want it to happen like that. i wanted it to be sorted out clean, and not messed with, but i knew that was not going to happen. "maybe. . ." peej began, sitting back in his chair thinking of a solution. "they're drinking quit a lot i'm pretty sure raven will leave to the bathroom in a while, and phil will probably be asleep" said peej. i didn't see where he was going with this, but all i knew was it has nothing to do with me telling phil how i felt about him. " when she heads of to the bathroom switch your phone with he's, she wont notice it's been replaced with how heavy she's drinking" peej explained. i knew peej scensed she was hiding something so i hadn't asked questions, and waited passiontly fro her to enter the restroom. i wondered what she was hiding, but i knew it was not going to be forgiveable. something about her just irks me, she seemed nothing more to me than an obsessed fangirl that was playing game's with me, and hiding something while she pretended to love phil.