This is long overdue and I'm sorry about that! I've been out of town and just got home yesterday and I just thought I would give you guys an update. :) Yayy! Haha hope you enjoy!
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Tori's POV
I woke up the next morning at about 9:30. I yawned and then looked around the room. I saw my mom with her hands on a cart and she was smiling down at something. I set up and realized she was smiling and talking to the baby. I groaned; why was that baby in the room?
My mom looked at me and smiled. "Oh, hey Tori. How'd you sleep?"
"Fine," I said and crossed my arms. "Why is that baby in here?"
She shook her head and smiled and then looked back down at the baby. "Oh, I'm just talking to her." She leaned down and gently kissed her forehead. "She is so precious, Tori."
"Great," I said sarcastically.
"Tori, you have to hold her." she said and picked her up and then headed towards me. "This baby wants her mama."
"No, Mom, stop," I argued. "I don't wanna hold her."
"Yeah, you do, Tori." she told me. "She's your baby and you're gonna hold her." She practically shoved the baby in my arms and I had to hold her or else I would have dropped her.
I looked at my mom in anger at first, but then I slowly looked down at the baby's face. She was looking up at me while batting her eyelids. She let out a yawn and stretched her arms out. She pulled her arms back in and then she closed her eyes. Her eyes were moving under her eyelids.
I moved my right hand and gently ran my first two fingers across her left cheek and then over her nose. Her skin was soft as silk and it had a beautiful olive complexion. I blinked a few times as tears rolled down my cheeks. She opened her eyes and she started to bat them again; she had long beautiful eyelashes. In that moment, she stole my heart. I loved her with everything I had.
"Well…" said my mom and I looked up at her. "What do you think?"
I cleared my throat. "I think…I think that…" I looked down at my baby and gently ran my hand over her head full of dark brown hair. "I love my baby girl…more than anything else in this world." I leaned down and gave her a gentle kiss on the forehead. "I can't believe I didn't want her. She…already means the world to me."
"I know, sweetie." she said quietly. "Would you like some privacy?"
I immediately nodded. "Yes, please. Thank you,"
"You're welcome. I'm gonna run home and get some rest, but if you need anything, just press the call button and a nurse will help you with whatever you need or you could just call us at the house if you want. I'll be back later, okay?"
I slowly nodded. I couldn't take my eyes off my daughter's face.
She walked up to me and kissed the top of my head and then she was out the door.
I spent the next hour crying and talking to my baby. I held her against my chest and rubbed my hands on her back. I hated myself for not wanting her all this time. I had this little miracle inside of me for nine months and all I cared about was myself. I can't believe I was so stupid and selfish. One of the things I said to her in that hour was, "I'm so sorry, baby, I love you so much. I'm so sorry I said I hated you…I could never hate you; you are my whole world." I said stuff like that for that whole hour and not a single word was a lie.
After that hour, a nurse came in and had to take her away from me. As soon as she was out of the room, I started bawling. I wanted my baby with me again. I didn't wanna be away from her for even a few minutes.
While I was bawling, I heard the door open and close, but I didn't look up to see who was here. Then I heard running footsteps. "Oh, my gosh, Tori, are you alright?" It was Andre.
"No, I'm not alright." I answered as he sat on the edge of my bed. "I want my baby with me right now."
He raised his eyebrows. "Your baby?"
"Yes, Andre, my baby; she's my baby!" I exclaimed. "I want to be holding her in my arms right now. I love her so much." I let out a few shaky sighs and then shook my head. "I'm so sorry, Andre. I didn't mean to yell at you, it's just…I want to see her."
He nodded. "I know, it's okay." He leaned down and kissed my forehead. When he rose up, he said, "How long before you get to see her again?" Andre was amazing. Besides the "your baby?" comment, he didn't even question the fact that I did want my baby now. He probably knew all along that I would want her. In fact, everyone probably knew that. Everyone but me.
"I don't know." I said. "The nurse took her away a little bit ago, but I don't know when she'll bring her back. I hope it's soon, because I wanna see her so badly."
"I'm sure she'll bring her back before long." he told me. "So quick question…do you have any idea what you wanna name her?"
I sighed shakily and shook my head. "I have no idea. What I do know is that…I want it to be something special. Something…something that means a lot. And it can't come to me because of looking through a stupid baby name book; it needs to just come to me. I wanna be able to look at my baby's face and have a name hit me."
"I'm sure you'll come up with something." he told me.
Thirty minutes later, the nurse finally brought my baby back in the room. The nurse said hi to Andre and he said hi back. Then she looked at me and said, "Would you like your baby?"
I nodded with a smile. "I'd love her actually."
"Okay then," she said and gently picked her up from the little cart and then handed her over to me. "Is there anything you need?"
"No," I said staring down at my daughter's beautiful face. "I'm perfect."
"Okay," she said. "I'll check back later." She left the cart in the room and then walked out.
"Oh, my God, Tori…she's gorgeous. I know I saw her beforehand when she was in the baby ward, but seeing her up close…oh, my gosh, words can't even describe how beautiful she is." said Andre and smiled. "And she looks just like you."
I giggled and ran my finger across her little eyebrow. "I'm so glad. I don't know what I'd do if she looked like him." I leaned down and kissed her forehead. "But you know what? I'd still love her even if she did."
We both remained silent and just stared at her peaceful face. It was fifteen minutes later that I finally thought of a name. I looked up at the wall and smiled. "Perfect," I whispered and looked down at my daughter. "I just thought of the perfect name for you."
"What name?" asked Andre quietly.
"I'm naming her after someone…really special." I looked up at him. "It may sound stupid to everyone in the world, but it's not stupid to me. My whole life changed because of this person." I sighed heavily. "How's the name…Jadelynne?"
He raised his eyebrows. "Jadelynne?" I nodded. "Isn't that Jade's full name?"
"Yep," I said and looked down at my daughter. "Jade saved my life and, in my opinion, the least I could do is name my daughter after her. And besides…it is a really beautiful name."
"That sounds fantastic, Tori." he said. "But would you call her Jadelynne or Jade?"
"Probably Jadelynne, just so no one gets confused." I hesitated for a moment. "But it's been decided. My daughter's name is Jadelynne Audrey Vega." I looked up at Andre. "You know where the Audrey comes from?"
"Where?" he asked with a smile.
"It sounds like Andre," I said. "I mean, let's face it…Jade saved my life, but you saved Jadelynne's life and probably mine as a matter of fact. Both of you helped me out in ways neither one of you can understand."
"Wow, I'm already happy that you're gonna call your baby Jadelynne instead of Jade." he told me. "Because if not, that last statement would have been very confusing."
I laughed, completely agreeing with him.
Never in a million years would I have imagined naming my daughter after Jade West. I couldn't wait to see how Jade would react to this.
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So what do you think of the baby's name? Clever huh? ;)
