A/N: Yay! This chapter already BETA-ed by S.M wane/Zaraenis! Thanks a lot for made it in time~! The first chapter still in-progress, same with the other chapters!
Just FYI, I'll upload the newest chapter, after I finish the BETA work of all chapters!
WARNING: Yuri, BETA (by S.M wane/Zaraenis)
Summaries:Love has its own ways to talk, to come and to go. But what if those 'Love' you felt to your own best and childhood friend with the same gender as you? Will you let it flow? Will you tell her?
Disclaimer: I DO NOT own K-ON! Characters or etc.
Ritsu's POV
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide these feelings?
And look the other way
Even though she was clinging tightly to my arm, she slowly drifted off to sleep. I didn't have the heart to push her away, or rather, leave her alone, so I let her sleep on my shoulder, resisting with all my might. Yet, with her head lying on my neck, it was very hard to resist such temptation. Being in a position like this made me surer of my feelings for her.
Mio… Why do you have to make it so hard for me to be around you? I can't everything that you throw at me you know.
"…R-Rit…su" groaned Mio, shifting slightly, and holding my arm even more tightly
My imagination went wild. What was Mio dreaming about? I'm sure that she wasn't having the same type of dreams as I've been having. If only it was, huh?
I yawned loudly, but not too loudly as it could wake Mio up. Thinking through what happened today, I realized that we had school. I guess I should go to sleep then, huh?
Laying my head onto hers, I closed my eyes and allowed myself to drift off to dream world, where my forbidden dreams lay.
I heard someone whispering my name softly. It was a voice that I recognized. It was Mio, I think.
"Mio? You're already awake?" I asked, opening my eyes slowly
I gazed into her eyes, only for a moment, before turning away. I couldn't meet her eyes. I just couldn't.
"Yeah… Uh… Ritsu…?" she said, uncertainly, pulling away from me
"Uh-huh?" I muttered, taking a deep breath and stretching my arms "What's up?"
"About last night… I'm sorry," she said, looking away "I ended up sleeping on your shoulder. It must've felt uncomfortable… but I was really scared! That's why I didn't let go!"
"Heh, Mio, how long have we known each other?" I asked, grinning "It's not a big deal"
Even if I say that, I do, have a dead arm. In case you didn't know what a dead arm is, it's when you wake up, your arm feels heavy as hell, and it's almost impossible to move for a while. This is usually, caused by sleeping on your arm, and I am going to stop going off topic now.
"You should go take a shower now" she suggested, "I'll go prepare breakfast"
"O~kay" I said, walking towards the bathroom
I did the same thing as I did yesterday, quickly going in, and coming out after around ten minutes. That is when I realized.
I had misplaced my hairband
I sighed, deciding that I could search for it later. I quickly pulled on my school clothes, and walked downstairs.
"Oi, Mio" I muttered, "I've finished taking a shower. It's your turn"
"Okay then…" she said, then turned to me for a moment, before glancing away.
Was she… blushing?
"Don't eat until I'm finished taking a shower, alright?" she asked, and from how she said it, I knew that it was more like an order than a request
"Yesh, yesh, 'darling'~" I teased
As she went to the bathroom, I lay my head down on the breakfast table, relaxing. This feels a little awkward, huh? I mean, we're alone in the house, and she's prepared breakfast. I'm even waiting to eat with her. We're like a newly wedded coup-
I shook my head, throwing those thoughts away. I can't think like that. I shouldn't…
"Oi! Ritsu!" said a familiar voice "Wake up, will you?"
"Five more minutes, mom…" I muttered
Wait… My parents are not at home, so who could it be? Wait…
"Ritsu!" she said, making me jump in surprise
"Mio?" I asked, rubbing my eyes "I'm sorry, Mio-ch~an"
"You're really careless, Ritsu" she said, sitting down on the table "You can't sleep on the breakfast table, you know"
"I know, I know," I muttered, grinning "Can we eat now?"
Of course, she agreed, and we ate. However, the situation felt rather weird. I kept on looking away from Mio, glancing at her everytime she looked away. After a while, Mio noticed my weird glances, and realized that I had been glancing at her from time to time.
"Ritsu, why do you avoid my eyes nowadays?" she asked, lifting one of her eyebrows
"Eh? I-I don't avoid your eyes" I lied, looking away "Seriously…"
"See? You don't look at me while you're talking to me!" she said "Why, Ritsu? Why are you avoiding my eyes, Ritsu? It… It hurts… being treated this way…"
Her voice grew weaker, and she looked very sad. I couldn't bring myself to look at her directly. My guilt was eating me from inside. It was painful…
"D-don't worry about it, Mio" I said, faking a smile "I'm just thinking about something so I space out rather a lot"
"Stupid Ritsu" she said, looking away
The rest of breakfast was painfully slow, We didn't speak at all. After we finished, we walked to school silently. There was a strange atmosphere around us, and it stayed that way until after school. That was when I couldn't take it anymore…
After the incident, there was a rift between us. I hated to see us so far away from each other, so distant! It was so painful, seeing her look so pained, and upset. In the clubroom, the others were late so I decided to approach her there and then.
"Mio…" I muttered, getting her attention "A-are you mad at me?"
"What do you expect, Ritsu?" she asked, angry at me for avoiding her eyes "My best friend's been avoiding any eye contact while talking with me! Should I be happy? Or angry?"
"I'm sorry, Mio" I said, looking away
"Why, Ritsu?" she asked, "Please tell me you had a good reason for avoiding my eyes"
I couldn't do it. Couldn't lie anymore. Even if this will create distance between us, I have to tell her!
"I… I was avoiding you becau-" I spoke, but stopped as soon as I heard footsteps
I dashed to the door, quickly locking it then turning to Mio
"Shh…! Don't let them get in yet…" I whispered to her
"What's the meaning of this, Ritsu?" she asked in a whisper
"I have to tell you something important…" I said, looking into her eyes "Something private"
-From the outside-
"The door's locked…?" muttered Azusa, as she found the door locked "I guess the senpais have classroom duty today"
She sighed, before starting to turn around.
"Azuny~an!" squealed Yui, glomping Azusa tightly
"Y-Yui-senpai!" muttered Azusa, trying to push Yui off of her "Please stop doing that!"
Much to her dismay, Yui started rubbing her cheeks against Azusa's.
"Yui-senpai!" snapped Azusa, stopping Yui temporarily "Please don't do it here!"
"Fine~" muttered Yui, becoming almost chibified
"Why is Azusa-chan not going into the clubroom?" asked Mugi, from behind Yui
"Umm… The room seems to still be locked" said Azusa
"Ehhh~?" pouted Yui "I wanted to eat some of Mugi-chan's cake…"
"Well, I have some leftover lunch" said Mugi, smiling
"Yay~!" squealed Yui, hugging Mugi "You're a lifesaver, Mugi-chan!"
Dragging Azusa along with her, Yui dashed towards food with the two of them, being dragged along with her. While Mugi was more willing, Azusa more or less didn't have a choice
-Back to the clubroom-
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to stop feeling this way
"They're gone," I muttered, sighing
"Why did you lock the door, Ritsu? I want a good explanation for this," she said, her hands on her waist
"The reason I avoided your eyes…" I started, then took a deep breath "It was because… It was because I like you… and I had only just realized how I felt about you, Mio"
A/N: Gomen ne! The 2nd Chapter is not as much as the 1st chapter! *bows*
- Thanks to S.M wane/Zaraenis, for working on the BETA of this chapter -
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