A/N: Gomen for the DELAY!
I was having exams on my school~ XD
Well then, I was really satisfied with your reviews, it's really making me so happy to write more stories about Mitsu! ^^
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I'm so excited knowing that all the chapters BETA work is all in-progress!
I put a lot of efforts to search people who can do the BETA work~
The fact is, I need MORE THAN ONE PERSON to handle the BETA work, because I already reached chapter 8 (even though it doesn't contains a lot of words in each chapter) by the end, I got 4 people working on it. Chapter 2 and 3 is DONE, the others are still in-progress!
I want to say a HUGE THANKS for S.M wane and Zaraenis who working on the BETA work of this chapter!
I corrected both of your BETA and put it into one, and it was really awesome, GREAT!
At last...
~ ENJOY and Keep R&R ~
WARNING: Yuri, BETA Version (by S.M wane & Zaraenis)
Summaries: Love has its own ways to talk, to come and to go. But what if those 'Love' you felt to your own best and childhood friend with the same gender as you? Will you let it flow? Will you tell her?
Disclaimer: I DO NOT own K-ON! Characters or etc.
Just so you know,
My heart is taking control of me
And I can't help it...
Mio's POV
"It was because…" She started, then took a deep breath "It was because I like you… and I had only just realized how I felt about you, Mio"
I was surprised, and, for a lack of better word, stunned. Is that really how she feels about me? How should I reply? How can I reply?
"R-Ri-" I stuttered
"It's okay" she said, cutting me off "I know I shouldn't tell you this, and that you're straight, but it just doesn't feel right if I hide it from you. I just can't keep it in anymore because we've always been so honest with each other. I just wanted to know that. That's all… I know you don't like me in the same way, and I understand that"
Ritsu…
"Thanks… for listening to me" she said, smiling "I don't want to ruin our friendship only because I was selfish, and wanted you as more than a best friend… I'll try to forget my feelings. Please forget everything I just said"
She turned around, and started to unlock the door. I couldn't find the words to say.
"I'm not in the mood for practice today" she said, "I'm going to go home now. Are you coming with me?"
I nodded, unable to find the words to say.
"I'll go tell the others that I'm cancelling practice today," she said, smiling "I'll be right back"
There was a strange atmosphere around us as we walked home in silence. Unlike usual, Ritsu didn't strike up a conversation, or complain about anything. The problem was also that I don't know how to strike a conversation, especially after she confessed to me. I wouldn't even know how to reply too her if she tries to start a conversation.
It's so tense…
"Hey, Mio~" she muttered "Say something, will ya? I'm getting bored"
"I don't have anything interesting to talk about" I replied "Why don't you say something? Anything will do… This feels too awkward"
"Didn't I already tell you to forget about 'that'?"
"About what?"
Of course, I knew exactly what she was talking about. It's impossible for me to pretend that it never happened. The problem was that… I don't know how I feel about this. Do I feel the same way? Am I even straight?
"What I said in the clubroom," she said, tapping her waist "I told you to forget about it, didn't I?"
"Yes, you did… And I did too!"
It was an easily seen through lie. I wanted her to think that I wasn't dwelling on it, yet it was impossible to really show her I wasn't. I couldn't lie to her about it. Not after how she confessed to me.
Ritsu only looked away, her face, troubled. I didn't want her to be sad, or for her to have to worry, but I couldn't help it. It continued that way until late that night. I couldn't get the confession out of my head. It was almost impossible to do what Ritsu wanted me to do. No...
It was more like I didn't want to do it
I was more confused than ever. I couldn't keep it out of my head. It was hard to not think about her feelings about me. What should I do? Should I ask someone about it? I can't exactly talk to Ritsu about this. I don't think Yui would be able to help with this type of thing. Azusa might be able to help, but I shouldn't drag her into things about relationships. It would be too stressful. Would Mugi be able to help me? Mugi would be the best choice, wouldn't she?
I called Mugi, trying to keep myself calm
"Hello?"
"Mugi?"
"Yes? What is it, Mio-chan? It's unusual for you to call me this late in the night"
"I know, but I don't know who else I can talk to about this"
"How about Ricchan?"
"That's the problem, Mugi… I want to talk to you about Ritsu"
"Hm? That's unusual. Did you two have a fight or something?"
"Well… Can you promise to keep this a secret?"
"Of course, I promise. Now please, tell me, what happened?"
"Today… Ri-Ritsu…"
"Yes? What did Ricchan do? Take a deep breath, Mio-chan"
I did as she told me, and continued
"She… confessed to me… She said… she likes me…"
"Ricchan finally said it? I'm not surprised, Mio-chan…"
What…? Not surprised?
"What do you mean?" I asked, after a pause "Did you already know how she felt?"
"Well, she didn't tell me anything, but I noticed that she was acting more gently towards you. And also, the way she always glanced at you was different… affectionate…"
"You've been observing Ritsu?"
"It's just that, I noticed her looking at you when you weren't looking! She glanced at you with such an admiring look that it was fun to watch. That's why I thought she might've had a crush on you. I'm so happy you decided to talk to me about this~"
I can't believe I didn't even notice it! For Mugi to be able to tell me in such detail…
"Mio-chan?"
"I'm sorry" I apologized quickly "I spaced out there"
"Is there anything else between the two of you?"
"Yesterday… When Ritsu had just come out of the bath, and she wasn't wearing her headband… When I saw her… My heart beat erratically and my face heated up… I don't know how I feel anymore…"
I know that that's the sigh of me, liking her back… Yet it was what she said that made me afraid. She said she was afraid that this would break our relationship. I'm afraid of that too… I don't want that…
"It's alright, Mio-chan" she said, somehow calming me down with just her voice
"Today…" I started, trying to let it all out, "She told me to forget everything she said… But I can't! I can't get it out of my head, no matter what!"
"The two of you need to talk again" she said, her voice was serious "Talk to her in private tomorrow, alright?"
"Alright" I answered, smiling to myself "Thanks a lot, Mugi… I'm so lucky to have a friend like you"
"It's no problem," she answered
"I'm going to sleep now, Mugi" I said "Good night"
"Good night"
Ritsu's POV
The atmosphere that night was weird. Neither of us talked, but Mio smiled at me sometimes. Did something happen, when I was taking a shower? It was a feeling that was hard to describe. Mio seemed to be unfocused.
It felt like a gap between us. I don't want this to happen to us. Even if I told her, I wanted her to forget about it, and that I would try to forget these feelings, it was a lie. I don't want to do that at all. Even the next day, when we went to school, we didn't talk. In class, Mio spaced out, and afterschool, she missed a lot of notes during practice! I don't want my confession to cause her problems like this. I have to talk to her again.
"Oi, Mio…" I said, tugging her sleeve "Come with me for a sec, will ya?"
"Hmm? What is it, Ritsu?" she asked "Can't we talk here? I'm no-"
I dragged her by her hand to the rooftop of the school, ignoring her arguments and resistance.
"Tell me" I demanded
"What?"
"Tell me"
"Tell you what, Ritsu?" she asked, feigning ignorance "You're acting weirdly…"
"Me?" I muttered, exasperated "I'm the one acting weirdly? Really?"
"Y-yeah"
"Mio, you've been unfocused ever since last night… I told you to forget it, didn't I?"
"It's not as easy as you think it is, Ritsu!" she shouted, "I'm still confused! I'm confused about my own feelings for you!"
"What? There's nothing wrong with being straight, Mio" I said, trying to reassure her "I don't want to change you just for myself. Besides, you're the only child of your family, and an ace student! You've got a beautiful voice, you're very talented, and so much more! Even if you feel the same way, you deserve more than me"
"Would you stop for a moment, Ritsu?" she snapped, "Even I don't know if I really like guys, Ritsu. How can you be so sure of that? You've never seen me get close to any men, and you've never even asked how I feel about all this! Have you honestly stopped to consider about my feelings or how I really think of you at all?"
I was speechless. She was correct about everything. I had assumed without asking her, that she was straight. How could I say she's straight, without any proof, without having ever seen her go out with anyone? Without her having any male friends?
"Nothing to say?" she asked, turning away "I'm going home now, Ritsu. It's almost dark, so you should go home too"
I stood there, trying to recover from what she had said. It was all right…
I was wrong…
Mio's POV
I headed back to the clubroom, I knew that it was mean to say that to Ritsu, to act so coldly, but I needed her to think this through, to consider the possibility that I also liked her. I wanted to make sure, so that if I found out I liked her back, then she wouldn't feel the pain she must be going through.
"Hi there, Akiyama-san!"
I looked to that direction to see a young man, around my age, standing in front of me. It was surprising to find a boy in front of me, since this was an all-girls school.
"O-oh, h-hi…" I stuttered, "I'm sorry, but do I know you?"
"Uh… No.." he said, scratching the back of his head "We haven't met formally, but I know everything about you!"
"I suppose you're a part of my fanclub?"
"I am!"
"Is there something you want to talk about?" I asked, wanting to quickly get this over with
"Akiyama-san, I know this is sudden, but…" he said, pulling out a flower and bowing "I love you, Akiyama-san! Will you be my girlfriend?"
What is this guy thinking? I don't even know him! This is just too crazy!
"Umm… I don't even know your name," I quietly said
"Oh yeah!" he exclaimed, "My name is Kaguya Matsumoto!"
"O-okay… Matsumoto-san" I stammered, "Are you sure, Matsumoto-san?"
This is ridiculous…
"I'm dead sure about this!" he exclaimed, "I really love you, and want you to be my girlfriend! If you agree, please accept this flower, and even if you want to reject me, please take it. You can do whatever you want with it!"
What! This is just too crazy! How could I take that flower? Ritsu wouldn't want me to take it…
What could be worse than this?
[1] I can't think of any other or better name! Haha!
Stop it right here~
Sorry for the DELAY! I was having a test and not allowed to touch my PC!
Again, a HUGE THANKS for S.M wane and Zaraenis who working on the BETA work for this chapter!
I'll introduce that OC, Kaguya Matsumoto on the 5th Chapter!