A/N: Finally, Chapter 11 Released!
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WARNING: No BETA Version (in-progress), Yuri, OC
"Jealous is one of the way to say 'I love you so much, that it hurts'" -Anonymous
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN K-ON!, K-ON! Belongs to Kakifly/Kyoto Animation©
Ritsu's POV
Today is the next day after Friday, which is Saturday and tonight is weekend. I started to think what to do in Saturday, I can't lie that I'm totally bored and had no idea in my mind. My girlfriend is the one to blame, why? Because after what had happened in Friday, it's still feels awkward for her and not to mention me either. Last night I called her, we kinda talked a lot, but most of it is... unnecessary to be discussed.
There's a few moments when the two of us keep silent and no one start a word. Stupidly, I told her that we'd go somewhere in Saturday night, just to break the damn silence between us! I keep cursing at myself for my stupidity, I mean, those words are just come out of my mouth out of my command! Because the truth is, I really had no idea where to go tonight and I feel dumb if she ask me about it.
So here I am, sitting in my class, staring at nothing but my girlfriend's beautiful-silky-black hair.
I feel so dizzy, "Excuse me, excuse me, Tainaka-san? Are you alright?" I heard someone calling out my name, my last name to be exact. Then everything went blurry in my eyes and I saw a woman above me, she was using glasses. That was when I realize that it's Sawa-chan, so I tried to lift my head a bit. Sadly, everything's went black in a moment.
"I love you, Mio" A voice echoed.
What is this? That's not my voice; it's a boy's voice! But who?
"I love you too, Kaguya" That was a familiar voice said.
Wait, I know that voice! It's Mio's voice, but... No no, it can't be, seriously? What the heck is this? Where am I? Why am I invisible like this?
"Ritsu... Ritsu... Will you please wake up now?"
Someone shook my body lightly, and then when I heard the voice, I knew it was her. Mio, but what was that? That was the worst dream ever! Why did I dream of that? That Matsumoto-guy, what the heck is he doing in my dream?
I slowly opened my eyes, and then I saw Mio with all the worries in her face. "W-where am I?" I asked, as I tried to pull my body into a sitting position.
Mio hold me by her hand, and then pushed me down gently. "We're in the Infirmary room, y-you were collapse back then... Please, just lay down a bit more," She suggested me, and smiling at me afterwards.
I frowned at her, I mean, it's kind of weird for me collapsing while I don't get hit or sick or whatever. "Alright, but... How long did I... unconscious?"
"Not long, about a half until one hour," She sighed, "Did you miss your breakfast today? The nurse said you're not in a good term. That means, you're sick and why didn't you tell me anything about it?"
Wait, I'm sick? "I'm sick? But I feel fine, I feel healthy..." Since when? This morning, I was totally fine! Yesterday too, I feel good and as healthy as I ever am. So why the nurse did said I'm not in a good term? Is it because I think too much? What? I only think about my Saturday night, and then all of a sudden, I collapsed. That's the stupidest reason I've ever heard.
"You should really stop being so careless, be more careful with your own health, Ritsu" She said, diverting her eyes from me. "You're really scared me when you collapse..."
I stared at her with a guilty look. "I'm sorry, if I make you worry about me," I sighed, then again, I pulled my body but I didn't let her push me down this time. "I don't know if I'm sick, because yesterday or this morning, I feel fine and nothing's wrong with me. Maybe I'm just tired, that's why I collapse"
"Really?" She reassured, and shot me with an irritated look. "Just now, before you awake, you were struggling as if you're asking for help. People who just get tired, wouldn't act as scary as that while they're unconscious"
My eyes went wide in shock. "I was, struggling in sleep?" Of course, I am, that was the worst dream ever, and I really want to get rid of that dream. "...must be my dream" I mumbled as I looked away.
"What? Dream? What dream did you have?" Mio asked, totally curious. "But, as what I remember. You're not the kind of person who struggles in sleeps; you're even rare talk in sleeps. So what's wrong and what happened, Ritsu?"
As surprised, as she is, I'm asking to myself, why is she getting so much like Mrs. Want-To-Know-More? Seriously, she keeps asking me, while I try my best to find some excuses to all her questions. But yeah, I know myself too and maybe better than anyone else. I never talk in sleeps, yet, she told me that I'm struggling and that's even worse than talking in sleeps! I feel like laughing now, I mean, I must've hate him so much that I don't even want him to appear in my dream.
"Actually, nothing's wrong, that was just a bad dream... That must be because I have less time to sleep, yeah, that must be it. Ha ha ha..." I laughed nervously, and instinctively scratched the back of my neck. Damn me and my habit when I get nervous.
"What's o'clock did you sleep last night?" There she goes again with another question.
Is she planning to be a reporter in the future? Because she's so good in this. "Uh... Three-thirty?" That was more like a question, because I can't really remember what's o'clock did I drifted myself off to sleep.
"What? What in the world are you doing sleeps so late like that?" I'm pretty sure I was sleeping over-midnight, so that must be the cause I collapse.
I nodded at her, "Weirdly, I can't remember what I did last night..." I said, fading out into a mutter.
She sighed in defeat, "That means, we can't go anywhere tonight. You need to rest," Finally, a suggestion instead of another question.
"Did you regret?" I asked, absentmindedly. "You know, we had to cancel tonight's date because of me. I heard that's the worst thing that a guy ever done to his girlfriend,"
She laughed a bit, and damn, I love it so much. "But you're not a guy, but yes, I am your girlfriend. So... I don't think putting you as the one who cancel the date would be a good statement, you're sick and we both don't have much of choice," Mio said, smiling at me.
I'm lucky or what? She's the best best-friend/girlfriend people could ever get. "Actually, we do have one last choice..."
Mio shot me with a questioning look, but before she could say something, I cut her off. Because I know, it'll be another question from her.
"How about we hang out at my house? Well, we don't have to do anything if you don't want to. Just hang out, like we usually do~" I said, grinning so widely at her. "What d'ya says?"
Sighing, she stood up from the chair. "Looks like you're back to yourself now, let's go back to class," She said, ignoring me, and walks towards the door.
"What?" I whispered to myself as I watched her walking away from me. Then I groaned softly, "Ne Mio, can you help me? I need to hold onto something to walk properly~" I pouted my mouth, maybe I was trying to look as cute as possible so she could help me walking towards the class. But I don't think it's working, Ha ha! I look nothing as cute.
Now I feel like laughing, but surprisingly or not, she helped me and wrapped her arm around my waist. Mio pulled my hand and then wrapped it around her neck, I bet people who knew we're dating and saw us in this kind of position, they'll say "Aww, what a lovey-dovey~" Ha ha!
Mio's POV
After school, Mio's house.
Ritsu collapsed back at the school, I asked her what happened, but she doesn't give me a proper reason. Maybe it's not a reason; it's more like an excuse because she said it while scratching the back of her neck. Yeah, that was her habit, she never could hide her nervous whenever she says something and scratching her neck or the back of her head. I ever saw Satoshi-kun do the same; I guess that was the habit of her family.
Okay, back to the case here. I can't lie that she scared me to death when she collapse, especially when she struggling in her sleep. I can't help but wondering what she was dreaming back then. At the end, I told her to just cancel our appointment tonight. She never said it was a date, but she called it a "date" back then so I just go with the flow.
Ritsu suggested me to just hang out at her house, as the replacement for the date. She also mentions, "Don't have to do anything if you don't want to" there, so I guess nothing's going to happen. I mean, she couldn't have planned something out of the blue, could she? Hope she's not. Now I'm being naive, honestly, I kind of hope something happen, I mean, if nothing's happen then what we're going to do tonight?
I sighed; maybe we'll end up watching movies. Let's hope it's not a horror movie.
" だきよせてほしい、たしかめてほしい, まちがいなどないんだとおもわせて" My phone rang and I knew from the ring-tone it was Ritsu. Yeah, I use that ringtone only for Ritsu. Don't judge me because I do write the lyrics for her. She's just too dense to realize that.
I flipped my cell open, "Hello?" I said, as if I had no idea who's calling.
"Geez~ too formal... It's me Ritsu" She said on the other side of the phone.
"I know," I sighed, but then smiling. "So why are you calling me?"
"You asked me why? Gosh, how dare you forgot it, Mio~" I was totally sure she's fake up a pout with her mouth.
Instinctively, I frowned. "What? Forgot wha-" I stopped when I remember that I supposed to go to her house tonight. I feel so stupid now. "Oh yeah, I remember. S-sorry, Ritsu!"
"Now you remember!" I heard a sigh from the other line. "So, when are you gonna come here?"
"Uhm... I'll be on my way, okay? See you there!" Then I hang up the phone before she could reply me.
Sighing, as I stood up and prepare myself to go to Ritsu's house.
Ritsu's POV
"Gee~ What kind of show is this, Satoshi?" I groaned, then grabbed the remote from my brother and switched the channel.
"Wha-!" Satoshi pouted her mouth, and plopped himself back on the couch. "You're so cruel, Neechan~ It's weekend, Saturday night, I thought you're going somewhere with Mio-neechan"
I sighed, "Actually, I asked her out yesterday, but then something happened and we're end up spending the whole Sat-Night at my house~" Chuckled, "Sad, huh?"
"I wonder how Mio-neechan keeps up with you, and believe it or not, I still can't believe she's agree to date you" What the heck? My own brother doubt Mio's decision to date me.
Somehow, I thought that Satoshi might have a crush on Mio. I smirked, "Do I smell some jealousy here?" I said, with a teasing tone.
"What? W-why would I be jealous? S-she's your girlfriend though~" There, I just saw him stuttered and scratching the back of his neck, nervously.
That's a natural sight of Tainaka family. "Ne, if Mio said she likes you instead of me..." I exhaled, "What would you say to her?"
He stared down onto her lap, "I... don't know..." Then he seems to snapped out of his thought. "Wait, why are you asking me that question?" He said in protest.
"Just ask~" Then the bell of my house rang all of a sudden. I knew it was Mio, so I ran to the front door and opened it. I grinned as I watched her catching her breath.
She groaned in protest, "Will you gonna let me in or what, Ritsu?" Mio asked, impatiently.
I chuckled at her exhausted expression, then I moved myself to the side a bit and let her in. "C'mon, get inside. I'll make some drink for ya," I laughed, then walked straight to the kitchen.
"Konbanwa, Satoshi-kun" She greeted my brother as warmly as ever. Then she sat on the couch.
Satoshi smiled at her, "Konbanwa to you too, Mio-neechan..." Then I didn't hear any more of it because I'm making a drink for Mio now.
I don't know what to make, I mean, what kind of drink. So I just grabbed some soda in the fridge, and walked back to the living room. "Okay, here's your drink, Akiyama-san" I teased, as I put the glass on the table.
Then plopping myself, next to my girlfriend. "Thanks," She said, but then turned to Satoshi again. "So, when are they going to perform?"
"Next month, actually it was next week but they said they needed time to prepare themselves," While the two are talking, I keep myself watching the TV.
A few next moments, I found myself getting bored and I felt like I'm not here with the two of them. They enjoy themselves talking with each other. I mean, this supposed to be my Sat-Night with Mio. But why suddenly it turns out to be Satoshi and Mio's Sat-Night then becomes my Sad-Night.
I. Am. Jealous. Of what? Of My own brother and girlfriend who seems to have a really good times together. I know, they're just talking, but HELLOOOO! I'm here people! Why am I feeling like I'm missing? Like I'm invisible? Like I'm nothing? I puffed in annoyance, then sighing, pouting, even groaning but still, none of them notice how annoyed I am with this sight.
In the end, I stood up and walked up to my room. Surprisingly, they're still doesn't mind with me going back to my room and leave them alone.
I get inside my room, and then bang the door as loud as I can. I don't care if the door broke, I'm just sick of being ignored like that. "Damn! Stupid! Idiot!" I groaned and blame myself for not letting me gets some attention, but then again, I just don't want to disturb it. They seem so... happy with whatever they were talking about.
Not long, I heard foot-steps towards my room. I recognized that foot-steps, it was Mio's. Maybe she's finally noticed that I was mad or something and walks up to my room without excusing myself. "Comin'" I muttered.
Mio opened the door slowly and took the first step. "Ritsu…?" She called me out as she walked inside my room.
I, on the other side, am buried my face on my pillow. I know, it's stupid but seriously, I just can't let her know that I'm actually jealous. "What…?" I replied her lazily.
"Why did you leave me in the living room with Satoshi-kun?"
"I just don't want to disturb you," I said, still not turning away. Well, I said I don't want to disturb her, that's true but it's just some part of it.
She went silent a bit, and then spoke up again. "You're lying," Mio sighed, and then I felt her sitting behind me on the bed. "You're mad, aren't you?"
Yeah, "No, why would I?" I feel like hitting myself for keep lying to myself.
"Face me, will you?" She sounded angry, so I turned my body around, and then sat behind her on the bed.
None of us started anything for like ten seconds or maybe more, who care anyway? I sighed, "Damn, why didn't you say something? This is gettin' on my nerve already,"
"Well, I don't know what to say. Besides, it's you who invited me here, remember?" I stunned, feel dumb and seriously, I can't talk back to that. I should've planned something up to do tonight, but here we are, sitting on the bed and not facing each other.
Just what is wrong with me? Or is it us?
As I drowned myself in my silly and unnecessary thoughts, unnoticed, I was spacing out again. Mio snapped me back to the reality with her angelic-voice. Gee, I'm so cliché, that lines were so cliché for someone like me. Okay, I should've stop breaking the fourth wall, back to the case.
"So, did you feel better now?" Mio asked, with a lot of worries in her face and tone.
I felt guilty to make her so worried over me like that. "Yeah, of course, though you're here with me. It really helped me to recover faster~" I laughed at my words. I mean, c'mon, I only let Mio hear me saying such words.
She looked away, and I'm so sure she was blushing so madly. "T-that's good..." Geez, she's still shy about that? Even there are only us here, so why is she getting so stiff?
Brush that off, I smiled at her. "So uh, what do you want to do?" I asked, it's stupid to ask her that, but I'm totally had no idea what to do. Usually, I would ask her to watch movies, but I don't think that'll be good enough.
"Let's watch a movie then?" She suggested, and I more like shocked a bit. Well, she knew that I don't have movies other than horror, and the reason of that was because I love horror movies than any other movies and the other reason was because I really love teasing her with scary movies.
I shook my head, "Uh... You sure? You do know that I-"
"Yeah, I know," Mio said, cutting off my words. "But I'm so bored now and we had no other choices, are we?"
"Uh..." I trailed off, and scratching the back of my neck. Usual act, force of habit. "A-alright then, I'll grab some movie then"
I was replied by a form of a smile on her face. Then I stood up from my bed, walking towards my collections of movies.
"Let's see," I whispered to myself as I search for a good movie to watch. "My Bloody Valentine...? Nope. Saw...? Nope, too sadist. Scream...? Nah, too obvious. Idle Hand...? Nope, too comedic. W-wait, wait," I stopped at one movie, scary enough and I'm sure Mio's gonna freakin' out. Yeah, call me a sadist girlfriend, but you'll never know how fun it'll be. "Resident Evil, perfect"
I walk towards my TV, then turning the DVD on along with the TV though. I inserted the movie, and walks back towards Mio, and then sat right next to her. It's just the beginning, but Mio already shakin' and moved her own body closer to me.
Obviously, I give in and put an arm around her waist. It's a side-hug actually, unless I didn't put my other arm around her body. Not long, Mio shrugged and pushed herself from me. I frowned at her, "Something wrong?"
"N-no, I just need to go to the bathroom," Mio said, smiling a bit at me, then stood up and walks towards the bathroom.
The next five or ten seconds, Mio's cell rang. I can't help but grabbed Mio's cell then flipped it open. It was a message, and what makes me shock is the sender or the owner of the message. Written there, "Matsumoto Kaguya..." Whispering to myself, then instinctively opened the message.
What a bad timing, when I was about to read the message, Mio walked in and I instinctively put the cell back on the bed. I exhaled, hoping that she didn't notice my cold-sweat on my face. She shot me with a puzzled look, "Did I take long?" She asked.
I gulped in nervous, "U-uh, No! You're not..." I exhaled again and tried to calm myself down.
Sadly, Mio glanced at her cell on the bed and noticed that there's a message from someone. She grabbed the cell and flipped it open. Mio gasped a bit, "..." I thought she'll asked me something about the message, but not, she put the cell back and act like she had no message in her cell.
I, on the other side, confused and feel like an idiot. I feel hurt in one side, but I also feel glad that she didn't blame me to open her message without permission. However, this hurt feeling keeps reminding me of that horrible dream of Mio and that guy. I mean, how could he texted Mio like that? Was Mio giving her cell number to him? Is he stalking on Mio all this time? This is really got on my nerve.
This is bad; I just had to break the silence because I noticed Mio's getting stiff after looked up to her cell. I let out a sigh, "Ne Mio, can I ask you something?" I asked, not turning my eyes off of the TV.
"What?" Was all she said, simple but there's a bit of hesitation with her tone.
"Did you ever... give your number to anyone?" Again, I asked, but with a lot of determination. When I glanced at Mio, she shot me with a questioning look. "...like giving it to Matsumoto Kaguya?" I don't know why, but those words just came out of my mouth without any command. The weird thing is I didn't feel any regret when I asked that.
Mio gasped, "Y-you knew...?" What? She asked me back? Does this mean she's really give her number to that guy? This supposed to be call as cheating but I still need some explanation before I jump into my conclusion.
"Know what? That he just text you? Asking you out next Sat-Night? That you never tell me that he's been texting you all this time? Why didn't you tell me?"
"Actually, I'm planning to tell you but," She looked away, avoiding my eyes. "I'm afraid you'll be mad... so... I just let him text me or call me, but I never reply his message... And I never give my number to him!" Mio shouted a bit loud at the last part, well, I guess she's really didn't give her number to that jerk.
"Wait a minute, so it's true that he's been texting you? Since when? You could've told me, Mio!"
"See? You're mad..." She whispered. Damn, I lost control of myself.
I lowered my head in apology, "I... I'm sorry..." Groaning then turned at Mio as I wrapped my arms around her.
She buried her face on my chest, no words were spoken for a few moments.
"Hey, I think we forgot the movie, aren't we?" I joked, and laughed a little. Well, I just want to lighten' up the mood here, because it's gettin' weird.
A moment after, I got no response from Mio. Then I took a glance at her, I chuckled when I saw she's fast-asleep in my embrace.
Letting out a sigh, "Geez~ Is she really that tired?" I asked at myself, and it made her shrugged a bit.
"Hm... Sure... I feel tired today," She whispered, as she shifted her position into a more comfortable position in my embrace.
Chuckled, "Was this means that you'll staying over?"
"No," Mio shook her head lightly, "...But just let me sleep for some minutes"
No more words, I tightened my embrace and let out an unconscious smile on my face. Well, I trust her with all my might, so I guess she wouldn't do something such as cheating on me. Mio didn't tell me about that, because she's afraid that I'll be mad at her and thinking that she's cheating with that jerk. She knew I had a problem with controlling my emotion, especially when I get mad, but she never see me jealous (Or is it just me?).
One thing, that's been invading my mind. It's "How did he get Mio's number?" I whispered to myself. If Mio said she's never give her number to him, then that means that jerk got that from someone. But who? One of my band-mates? That's totally impossible. Classmates? I don't think so. Maybe some outsiders? But Mio's not often going out, so people barely know about her. Then he must be stalking on her all this time! Yeah, that must be it.
It's stupid, but I admit that I'm a person who very easily gets jealous. I just figured it out today though, after how I act whenever Mio get close with another guy or girl or anyone else and seems to enjoy it much better than with me, I feel angry and that's called Jealous.
I chuckled to myself, and then drifted off to sleep. Whatever happens in the future, I'll just leave it up.
A/N: *sigh* This is quite a hard-work. I wrote this while I'm on vacation out of my country. Thank God, I can finish it before my vacation over.