Chapter 17

Mixed Emotions

[Italy's POV]

Saturday Morning

"mmmm" I groan as I slowly sat up in my bed. My hand flew to my mouth as I jumped up and ran to the hallway bathroom and as soon as the toilet seat went up everything that I supposedly digested last night came pouring from my mouth.

It seemed to have taken an eternity before my stomach finally settled down. I took a breath as I sat back against the wall near the toilet letting my head rest on the wall with my eyes closed tight.

"So how long has this been going on?"

My eyes flew open at the familiar voice that belonged to the green eyed monster I call mom.

"What do you mean?" I asked confusedly as I sat up.

She crossed her arms as she leaned against the doorway wall. "Don't play dumb with me Italy. Who have you been fucking?"

"Nobody." I stated truthfully until my mind actually processed the question and yes okay….I've been fooling around, but how would she know that!?

What if…gasp! What if Kodak has been going around telling people about us!? Or, or what if I accidently butt dialed her during one of our sex sessions!? Or, or what if Kodak has been secretly recording us having sex and then posts it on porn sites!? Or what if Jade snuck into his house one night and caught us in the making!? Or what if the loch less monster actually does exist!?...okay that has nothing to do with this situation….but really, how would Jade know!?

Jade chuckled. "Italy, you must think I'm some kind of fool."

I nodded. "Yes, I kind of do."

She uncrossed her arms as she gave me one of her death glares.

Sometimes I pretend they scare me, but they really don't….

"Who's the father!?" She yelled as she stomped a foot.

The father of what?

"I don't know….I missed that episode of Maury. It was probably-"

"-No Italy, I'm not playing with you!"

"Well…I don't really have any games to play anyways. I mean I-Spy seems like a nice-"

"-Stop. Shut up." She said as she held her hand up and held the bridge of her nose.

What I do?

I watched as she closed the door softly before walking over to me and sitting on the floor in front of me.

She reached over and put some of my hair behind my ear gently before retrieving her hand and putting it to her lap.

"Just….tell me the truth. I won't be angry with you."

I shook my head. "Tell you what Jade?"

"Are you…pregnant?"

Pregnant! No way!

"NO!" I yelled louder than I intended.

"Lately you've been complaining of cramps, headaches, you've been sleeping more, you're having morning sickness….Italy…."

I kept shaking my head. "I'm not pregnant. It's not even possible."

She crossed her arms. "So you haven't been fucking with anybody?"

I opened my mouth but quickly closed it and shrugged.

"You can tell me." She said sincerely as she reached over and placed one of her cold hands on my arm.

"….Well….yeah but I've always used protection Jade. I swear."

She let out a huge breath as she put her head down and swore under her breath.

She looked back up as she sucked on her teeth before she turned her gaze to me. "You're pregnant."

I shook my head. "No. I'm not. It's not possible."

"Did you have sex?"

I nodded.

"Then it's possible."

"…But we used a con-"

"-Those things don't fucking work!" She outburst before she let out a shaky breath as if to calm herself.

"I'll be right back." She said so low I almost didn't hear her.

I sat back against the wall as I sighed.

There's just…there's just no way I can be pregnant. I mean….condoms do work! They always have! They never broke on us! I think maybe I'm just…sick. Caught a bug from someone. It's just not possible.

Jade returned to the bathroom shortly after and closed the door behind her once again as she held a small white box in her hands.

She stood in front of the sink as she read the back before opening up the small box and it was already clear what she had.

"Is that a pregnancy test?" I asked anyways.

She just nodded.

What does she even have one of those?

"Jade I'm not taking that. I'm not pregnant."

"You're taking it." She stated nonchalantly as she pulled the contents from the box.

"No Jad-"

"-I said you're taking it!" She yelled as she glared me down before continuing with the contents of the box.

I sighed.

She reached into the medicine cabinet before pulling out a small cup that we use to rinse our mouths out with when brushing our teeth.

"Here. Pee in this."

I slowly stood up and grabbed the cup from her before she backed up and crossed her arms.

"Aren't you going to leave?"

"No." She stated as she tilted her head and waited.

I sighed as I pulled my shorts and panties down and sat on the toilet. I held the cup in place and peed directly in it as she watched me the entire time.

I finally finished and handed her the almost full cup in which she gently took from me before placing it on a small rag on the sink as I wiped off.

"Wash your hands."

"I know what to do." I sighed as I walked over beside her and washed my hands before returning to my spot on the floor.

I watched her dip the end of the test in the cup of pee before setting it down and emptying the rest of the contents in the toilet and then washing her hands.

She gave a huge sigh as she sat down on the floor against the wall in front of me.

I couldn't even dare look at her. I just brought my knees to my chest and put my head down as I hugged myself.

"Italy."

I felt tears start to well up in my eyes and it's not until now that like…real real reality has hit me.

Like….I can be pregnant! But….I can't…..oh my god what am I going to do if I am!? I just made the cheer team! Or at least I think I did….do we even have a cheer team?

"Italy."

I looked up to meet Jade's eyes. "Jade I'm sorry."

She looked down before looking back up and nodding. In her eyes I could tell so many things. I see a ball of anger and fire at the same time a sincerely loving caring look. It's like she doesn't know whether to be mad or sad or happy. She looks like mixed emotions.

She stood up slowly before walking over to the sink and glancing down at the test as she gave a huge sigh and threw it away along with the rag.

I put my head down again as tears that dried up formed again and this time slid down my face.

"Baby look at me."

I shook my head as I started to sob. "I don't want to know."

"I said look at me." She said more sternly and I looked at her this time.

"Italy….you're test is positive."

I let out a harder sob as I put my head back down. My heart sunk. My head stated to pound. My body started to shake.

Oh God what have I gotten myself into!? This can't be!

"Hey, hey calm down." I felt her hands rub my back. "Who's the dad?"

I sniffed as I looked up at her and wiped my eyes. "Kodak."

…Or at least I hope it is….

"Ko..." She looked away from me as she gritted her teeth before she turned back to me. "Kodak Harris!?"

I nodded as more tears fell from my eyes. "I'm…I'm sorry Jade."

She immediately softened herself as she scooted over to me and grabbed me into a tight hug. She kissed the top of my head as she rocked me back and forth as reality hits me hard like a softball to the face….ha, ha softball…get it? Anyways, I'm not happy with this. And how this even happened I don't know!

"Are you mad at me?"

I felt her grasp on me get tighter and then loosen again. "..N, no. No. I'm not mad at you Italy."

"What do I do now?"

She sighed. "We'll figure things out from here okay?"

I just nodded.

"I'll never do anything to hurt you or your baby Italy. I'm not mad okay? I understand. It's okay." She said as her voice cracked and I knew she was crying even though I couldn't see her face.

I know she wouldn't hurt my baby…why say such a thing!?

"Jade I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry."

She kissed me again. "You didn't, its not you okay? Everything will be okay. Don't worry. I'll take care of you."

I nodded.

This is the beginning of the end….

[Jade's POV]

"What!?" Cat screamed as she looked at me with wide eyes.

"What Cat? It was bound to happen. She's a teenage girl. Whatever." I said as I shrugged and sat down on our bed.

Cat ran over and stood in front of me with her arms out in shock. "Bound to happen Jade!? She's 15 years old!"

"She about to be 16."

"Who gives a damn! She's still too young!"

I lifted a brow at Cat's use of language. "Cat…it's okay." I chuckled.

I think pissed off Cat is quite amusing.

"It's not okay! Why are you acting like it's nothing!?"

"Because it's not that big a deal babe.."

"Are you out of your mind!?" She stomped a foot as her face battled in color with her hair.

"Umm…babe calm down. Take a breath."

"Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god!" She said as she paced back and forth in front of me. "Jade." She looked at me with tears in her eyes. "How could we have let this happen!?"

"Cat! Calm the hell down! She's going to have a baby. That's a…a good thing."

"Baby it's not a good thing! God are you crazy right now! Are you insane!?"

"Yeah, just a little." I say absentmindedly as I pick my nails.

She walked over to me and hit my hands apart. "Jade you are a fucking mother! Your 15 year old daughter is pregnant and you are acting like it's no big deal!"

I sighed as I looked up at her red tear filled face. "Cat. Take a breath. Calm the hell down. I do care. I care a fucking lot okay."

"You sure aren't acting like it!"

I stood up as I pushed her away from me. "I care way fucking more than you ever will Cat! What do you want me to do!? Go in there and yell at her over and over again to make her situation worse!? Huh! You want me to get into her face and tell her how wrong she was and that she should never do it again in her life!? Do you want me to make her cry and believe she has no one in this world she can go to!? Do you want me to make her feel like this was the worst decision she's ever made in her life!? I'm trying to stay the hell calm Cat! Me yelling at her isn't going to take the baby away! It isn't going to change anything! It's just going to hurt her more! I have nothing to say to her! She knows she's wrong! But Cat…I did the same thing! Remember!? How can I yell at her when I got fucking pregnant at the same exact age she has!? Huh!? What does that make me!? I know what she's going through okay! You don't! I'm not going to go in there and yell at her because I know what that fucking feels like! It hurts! I'm not going to hurt my daughter and make her suffer anymore than I have to! If you want to, you go ahead! You be the life fucker parent! I'm not! Ever!" I said as I pushed her again harder making her fall to the floor.

Cat looked up at me with tears still falling down her eyes as she covered her face. "She's just….Jade you…you won't understand anything!" She screamed to me as she cried. "You keep trying to compare things to how they were with you and your parents and how you grew up, but this is not that! It's not that Jade! Open your fucking eyes! She has parents that love her! She's not going through anything you went through when you were younger so you can not compare her to you! You have a 15 year old daughter going to give birth to a new life when she can't even remember to turn off the light when she goes to bed at night! SHE IS NOT YOU! She is not ready for this! This is not your life Jade! You can't say you're not going to yell at her and teach her a lesson! That's what she needs! You yelling at her isn't going to make her feel like she had no one that loves her! You are making it seem that way. She's not….you Jade. So stop treating our kids like they are. Everything doesn't evolve around you." She got to her feet as she walked closer to me.

"You have got to let go of the past Jade because it's killing you now! Just shut the hell up about everything you went through. Stop bringing it up! I know what happened! You are acting like a bitch and you always do!" She yelled before I reached my hand back and smacked her hard making her fall back to the floor.

"Caterina you still don't know half of the shit I've been through okay! I can barely close my eyes for two seconds without seeing that shit every minute! I'm a bitch!? No you're a bitch! I can't let go of the past! It's hard okay! I can't do it by myself!"

"Then let me help you!" She cried as she held her face.

"No! Because "I'm a bitch"!" I mocked.

"I…I do care! You're not a bitch. I said it out of anger but I just…Jade you have to let it go! Let me help you please!"

"Whatever. Since you care so much about your daughter's pregnancy, you go talk to her." I said as I turned for the door.

"I will! Because I do care and I love her!"

I turned back around slowly. "Oh so what? Now you're trying to say I don't love my daughter Cat?" I crossed my arms as I tilted my head to the side.

"No, I didn't mean it like-"

"You know what? Whatever! Go talk to her daughter and fill her with things that will hurt her feelings and make her feel bad because I'm not! I don't have the heart to do that! I will never hurt my kids!"

"That's not what I'm going to do! See Jade you are doing it again! Trying to compare to what happened to you as a child!"

"Whatever Cat! Bye!" I yelled as I stormed out of our room.

Fuck this…I need a fucking drink.

[Monica's & Isis's Phone Convo]

Monica: "Goooodddd Morninggggggg!"

Isis: "God Oliver, do you know what time it is?"

Monica: "Yess! It's 9:00am!"

Isis: "Did you forget it's Saturday?"

Monica: "Did you forget you're dating an early bird?"

Isis: "I'm going back to bed."

Monica: "No! I miss you…."

Isis: "You do huh?"

Monica: "Yes…"

Isis: "How much?"

Monica: "Mmmm A whole bunch?"

Isis: "Show me how much."

Monica: (laughing) "How do I do that!?"

Isis: "…Moan for me."

Monica: "Isis come on now…"

Isis: "….Please?"

Monica: "Are you horny or something?"

Isis: "Well thinking about you….it's making me…"

Monica: "And what's in it for me if I do?"

Isis: "mmm Dinner, a movie and icecream later all on me."

Monica: "Mmm sounds like a perfect offer."

Isis: "….so?"

Monica: "So how am I supposed to do this?"

Isis: (face palm) "Are you laying down?"

Monica: "Yes."

Isis: "Just…do it."

Monica: "Well umm….like this…mmmmahhhh Isisssss yessss baby right thereeeeee uhhhhhhh baby fuckkk don't Stoppppp ahhhhh goodddd fuck I'm gonna cummm babyyyy ahhhhhhhh Fuckkk I'm cumminggggg Isisssssss, Iissss fuckkkkkkkk yesss! AHHHHHH?"

Isis: "Fuck hot damnit!"

Monica: (Laughing) "You like that?"

Isis: "…..I really almost came to that. You can do this but you can't kiss me!?"

Monica: "I'm just not ready to kiss…plus this is nothing."

Isis: "You must be a freak or something?"

Monica: "I'm a virgin!"

Isis: "Virgins can still be freaks!"

Monica: "Well I have to go. I'll see you around 6 my babes. You owe me a dinner movie and icecream."

Isis: "Yeah, yeah whatever. I'll see you. Sweetlove."

Monica: (laughing) Bye.

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