Chapter 20

Ughhhhhhh!

[Italy's POV]

I laid flat on my bed with music soft in my ears and my shirt lifted up. "So um….hi baby. They say that a baby can hear you when you talk. I know you're still a little peanut but…I'm sure you can still hear me right?" I let my hands rub up and down my flat stomach as I smiled. "I love you."

KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK

I instantly yank out one side of my head phones as I listened quietly.

KNOCK, KNOCK

Yeah that was a knock…

"Who is it?" I yelled out.

"Me."

"Who is me?" I lifted a brow to play around with her. I knew her voice I just wanted her to say her name. No reason though.

"Ikenzie."

"Come in."

I watched as my room door opened and Ikenzie walked in before closing it gently back.

"What's up?" I asked as I turned my music player off and sat up.

She shyly walked over to bed and took a seat on the far end away from me. "….I don't think I'm doing it right."

I looked around before looking back at her. "Doing what right?"

"Remember when y,you talked to me about m, m,asturbating. I don't think I'm doing it right."

Oh god here we go.

"There's no right or wrong way 'Kenzie. You just do what feels good to you."

"T, that's where I'm messing up. N,n, nothing feels good."

I crossed my legs as I rested my elbows on them. "You just have to keep experimenting on yourself. You'll figure it out."

"H, how did you find out?"

Borderline question!

"Experimenting." I stated quickly. She doesn't need details.

She looked down for a moment before she looked around as if she had something to say but didn't want to say it.

"What's on your mind?" I asked breaking the silence between us.

"…W,well...can you show me?"

OKAY LINE CROSSED!

"Ummmm." I scratched the back of my head before I continued. "…Ikenzie I love you and all but…that's not a job for me."

"Then w, whose job is it?"

"Yours babe." I said pointing to her. "You have to do it yourself. That's what masturbating is."

She sighed as she looked down. "I, I just read up on it and p, p, people seem to really enjoy t, themselves. I've tried many times but I seem to be d, doing it wrong. Maybe I'm m, m, messed up down there."

I chuckled. "You're not messed up Ikenzie." I sighed. I can't believe I'm going to ask her for details… "What exactly have you been doing?"

She climbed more onto my bed as she turned to lay on her back. "Well first-"

"-NO!"

She jumped at my outburst as she sat up. "What?"

"Don't….god don't show me! Just explain to me."

"Oh. Well I laid o,on my back and just…p,p,played around."

KNOCK, KNOCK

"Come in!"

The door swung open as my giggly mother skipped in. "Hey Italy are you busy tonight!?"

"No why?"

"Jade said if you want your hair dyed like mine to be ready in our room in an hour!"

"Oh yay!" I clapped my hands together as my mother did the same.

"Oh gosh." Ikenzie said as she faced palmed herself.

"You should get yours dyed red too Ikenzie!" Cat suggested as she stepped more into my room.

"I'll pass. I, it wouldn't go with my skin tone."

Cat shrugged. "Oh. Well what are you guys doing in here anyways?" She asked as she ran and hopped on my bed. She rolled onto her stomach as she used her arms to keep her sitting up.

…..Opportunity!

"Well…." I looked over at Ikenzie who was silently shaking her head at me but immediately stopped when Cat turned to her.

"It's fine Ikenzie, everyone does it." I turned to our mom before I spoke again. "Ikenzie came to me with a question."

"Oh yay I love questions." Cat squealed as she turned to Ikenzie. "What is it?"

I watched as Ikenzie put her head down.

"She's curious about masturbation." I blurted out to our mom who didn't seem the least bit phased as she kept the huge giggly smile on her face.

"Ooooh. Just do what makes you feel good."

"Caterina!" Jade screamed from across the hall.

Cat lifted herself off the bed and too her feet. "I have to go."

Great, she was some help!

"I first masturbated by humping pillows. Try that." She said as she walked out of my room and closed the door.

It wasn't until she left that I noticed the awkwardness of that whole conversation.

I scratched the back of my head. "Yeah well Ikenzie….try that."

She roughly got off my bed with a mad face. "You b,bastard."

My eyes shot wide. "Uh…excuse me?"

"I came to you. I asked you for a reason Italy, not her. If I w,w,wanted her to know, and if I wanted her a,advice I would have went to her, not you." She shook her head as she exited my room with a harsh close of my door.

"Why the hell is it such a big deal?" I asked myself as I laid down.

Damn I didn't mean to hurt her feelings. I just needed help with the subject.

I'm sorry babygirl…..

[Cat's POV]

"What the hell is this?" Jade said as she held up my phone.

"My phone." I smiled and crossed my hands.

"I know that you idiot. Who the hell is this?"

I walked up to my phone to see a text that read "Hey Cat, what's up?" from an unsaved number, but I know the number. It's Tori's number. I made sure to delete our conversation from last night and to not save her number so Jade wouldn't be suspicious. I failed to however, tell Tori never to text me first.

"I…I don't know."

Jade reached over and grabbed a hand full of my hair yanking me to her. "Who the hell is this Cat!" She yelled shoving the phone in my face.

The pain of my roots started to burn as I felt strands being pulled. "Jade please let go."

"Jade please let go." She mocked. "Shut the hell up and tell me who the hell this is!"

"I don't know!"

She let go of my hair and growled as she smacked me with my phone. "Tell me!" She said with tears in her eyes.

"I-"

"-Say you don't know one more time Cat I fucking dare you!"

I swallowed hard as I held my hand to my face softly while my head stayed down to the floor. "It….it's Tori."

She dropped my phone to the floor and I could literally feel the heat coming from her as It filled the room but I didn't look up. I can't look up.

I felt a surprisingly soft hand of hers go to my face and rub down it gently as she counted under her breath. It's something they taught her in anger management. They said counting helps calm a person.

She removed her hand from my face as she turned away from me. "Cat. Walk away."

"J…Jade."

"I'm telling you you better fucking leave now, right now before I hurt you!"

I took a few steps back not exactly sure what she means.

All of a sudden my phone went off with a new text before she spun around to me.

"Is that Tori too!?"

I shook my head as she grabbed both my shoulders and shook me. "Why don't you fucking listen! I told you to leave!" She said as she through me to the floor and sat on top of me.

"Why Cat!? Do you like Tori now!? Do you want to leave me for her now!?"

I just shook my head as tears fell from my eyes.

"You bitch!" She smacked me across my face. "If I ever, and I mean ever find out you and Tori are doing shit behind my back, it will be the worst night of your fucking life! Block her fucking number! Never talk that bitch again! You don't need her! You have me!" She yelled as she removed herself from me. "And crying is for bitches! What have I told you about crying!"

Her face softened as her whole demeanor changed. She sat beside me and rubbed my face. "I love you Cat. I want to give you everything. I wish I could give you the world. You mean so much to me. So much more than you think." She leaned down and kissed my face before standing to her feet.

"Do you want some icecream? I'll go get you some icecream okay? I love you." She bent down and helped me to my feet before brushing invisible dirt off of me. "Are you okay?"

I let tear after tear fall from my eye as I just stared at her and nodded.

"I'm so sorry." She said as she kissed ever tear that fell from my eyes. "I love you. Stay here, I'll get you icecream. What kind do you want? Just forget it, I'll get you every kind the store has okay? I'll bring you cookies too." She kissed me again as she gently rubbed where she striked me. "I'll get you ice? Do you need ice?"

I shook my head. "No…I..I'm fine."

She just nodded. "I love you Cat. Do you love me?"

I just stood there unresponsive as my brain tried to process the question and give a truthful answer.

"Cat?" Her voice cracked as a tear fell from her own eye.

"I….I love you too Jade. I do."

She kissed me once again before she exited our room.

Ughhhhhhhhh!

~ Jade's Flashback~

"You never let anybody take what's yours Jadelyn. You fight for what's yours. Always fight."

"What do you mean?" I asked my mother as she roughly braided my hair one morning.

"Don't be a fucking punk. If you love something, you fight for it. If somebody tries to ever take something from you, you fight for it. Nobody can ever have what is yours unless they are dead first."

"I don't understand."

"Cause you're a fucking retard. You'll understand someday."

[Tori's, Kaylee's & Beck's Phone Convo]

Late Sunday Night

Tori: "Beck!"

Beck: "Hey what's up babe? Is everything okay?"

Tori: "How about you ask your daughter?"

Kaylee: (guilty voice) "Hello?"

Beck: "Kaylee what happened?"

Kaylee: "Nothing happened daddy."

Beck: "Kaylee."

Kaylee: (sigh) "I broke the mirror in your guys' room. So what?"

Beck: (big sigh) "Now why would you do that?"

Kaylee: "Because maybe I wanted to."

Beck: "Punished. 2 weeks."

Kaylee: "Anything better? All you guys are good for is for punishing me."

Beck: "Also no T.V. and no snacks."

Kaylee: (bored voice) "Yippy. Now since I have all this time on my hands maybe you guys will spend a little more time with me?"

Beck: "Kaylee don't even start that right now. We spend time with you all the time. Stop with that sob story."

Kaylee: "You know…whatever."

Tori: "She's outrageous."

Beck: "You wanted another one."

Tori: (laughing) "I wanted a boy."

(Kaylee yelling in background): "What!? Really!? Am I not still in the room! Ugh!"

(Tori talking to Kaylee): "It was a joke Kaylee. Go to your room."

Tori: "I don't know what to do with her anymore."

Beck: "Who does? Hey I'll be home a little later alright?"

Tori: "But…you said that earlier. You were supposed to be back 4 hours ago. How long does it take to drop off some scripts and run to the store?"

Beck: "I'm sorry babe. I got caught up at the library. I started to add some things."

Tori: "…..okay."

Beck: "Okay babe. I love you. See you soon."

Tori: "I love you too. Bye."

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