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Jess and I never did continue our conversation about the No Nail Oath. Nearly a week went by and things were still awkward. We've barely said more than a few sentences to each other lately. I don't know what to think. She denied that the kiss meant anything to her but when we talked about it the night we fought over the parking spot, it seemed like it actually DID mean something. Especially when I told her I didn't regret it. Women say men are poor communicators but I beg to differ.
After today, I might as well just move on. Jess and I may have something special but it's obviously not happening now. I'm not stupid…the way she kissed me back proves that she doesn't just consider me a friend. Friends don't kiss each other like that. But she's not interested in me right now. I think she wants to be but for whatever reason, she's choosing not to tell me. I'm not okay with it. Especially since she's wanting to be with Jax. I don't know what she sees in him. I realize he's an amazing football player but Jess couldn't give a crap about sports and that's the only thing I can see in this guy. He seems like a complete loser to me.
She told me Jax is the type of guy that'll express his feelings. What does that even mean anyway? I thought grabbing her in the hall and kissing her was expressive enough but apparently not. I could tell her how I feel but I don't know how to explain it without freaking her out. She must know that I like her. And probably that I have feelings for her. But if I dare tell her I'm in love with her, she'll run away and not want to be with me because there's no way she could possibly feel that way about me. I think she's attracted to me, but I don't think she wants to BE with me. There are so many other guys out there she would be better off with. Seeing her with Jax is painful because even though she can do better than me, she can definitely do better than him!
I teased her about sharing my drink tonight and threw in some stuff about it touching my mouth and she ran away! I don't know what that was about. I think she's just confused about me. This is becoming super difficult to deal with. I haven't slept with anyone since Angie which was nearly two months ago and the last person I kissed was Jess. I have a new boss at work and she's pretty damn hot. She may not be Jess but she might be worth a chance. If anything, I can finally get some because let's face it: I'm a man. The reality is, nothing is happening with Jess. Not now, and possibly not ever.