Chapter 34

I'm Leaving. And I'm Leaving For Good.

[Cat's POV]

I woke up to the sound of soft humming and a throbbing head with a hand running through my hair gently. I slowly opened my eyes to see under Jade's chin as she looked straight ahead and I knew my head had to be laying in her lap.

"…You came with wide eyed wonder into all this great unknown, ooh ohh…"

"Jade?" I said softly as I tried to reach up and touch where I felt my head throbbing with pain, but she softly grabbed my hand in hers as she looked down at me and kept singing softly.

"Hush now don't you be afraid, I promise you I'll always stay, I'll never be that far away, I'm right here with you, you're so amazing, you shine like the stars, you're so amazing, the beauty you are…"

"..Jade….what happened?"

"…to my heart, you're so amazing, you are, you are, You came from heaven shining breath of God still fresh in you…"

"Jade." I said more firmly trying so desperately to get her attention, but I felt so weak. I felt maybe she can't hear me even though she's looking straight into my half open eyes. I know she can hear me. She even stopped my hand from moving. "Jadeeee."

"…No matter where or how far you wonder, for a thousand years or longer, I will always be there for you, right here with you, you're so amazing…"

"Pleasee…" I said as I reached up with my other hand but she grabbed that one also but she brought it to her mouth and kissed it as she started to hum the song now.

"Jade, Jade what happened? My head hurts so bad."

"What's the last thing you remember?" She said in a soft gentle voice. The one she uses after hurting me and then asking me if I want cookies or icecream.

I closed my eyes as I tried to think, but my pounding head was distracting me, and for now last thing I remember is Jade giving me cotton candy and bubble gum.

"Cotton candy." Was all I said as I closed my heavy eyes. "What happened? What time is it?" I said in a low voice hoping she still heard me because it wasn't easy to talk. It took a lot of energy I didn't have.

"12:31am Sunday Morning."

"What…what happened?"

"You fell forward." She said simply as she looked at me with furrowed brows. "You hit your head pretty hard. You've been out for almost 12 hours."

"What!?" I said with as much energy as I could. "Why didn't you take me to the doctor!?"

"Because I knew you would be okay." She smiled as she rubbed my forehead. "I love you."

Something isn't right.

"How did I fall?"

"You came in mad about something, and you tripped and fell, hitting your head on your night stand." She said as she kept rubbing my forehead.

I shook my head slightly not remembering that the least bit before I tried to sit up but pain instantly shot through my entire head and I laid back down.

"Don't move too much babe. I think you should sit still."

"What was I mad about?"

She shrugged as she turned from me and looked back straight at the television.

I just shook my head as I closed my eyes to try and remember more but I couldn't, my brain wouldn't let me.

KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK

"Who is it!?" Jade yelled as she muted the TV.

"Italy."

"What do you want!?"

"I'm bleeding." She said in a shaky voice.

"What? Come in." Jade said as I forced myself to sit up and I yelped at the great pain and small black out I had as I did.

I watched as Italy walked in with teary eyes.

"What's going on? What do you mean you're bleeding?"

"I went to use the bathroom and when I wiped off there was a bunch of blood on the toilet paper." She cried.

"Does anything hurt?" I asked as I brought my hand to my head and jumped as I felt a huge knot.

She shook her head. "No, nothing hurts."

"I think you're fine. Sometimes pregnant women bleed, and it doesn't mean anything." Jade said with a shrug. "I use to bleed when I was pregnant with Isis. The doctor always told me everything was fine, it just happens sometimes."

"….Can you please take me to the hospital?"

"No, you're okay, go back to bed." Jade stated as she sat back.

"Jade…we should take her to make sure."

Jade glared at me before looking at the time. "It's about to be 1 in the morning. We'll take you to your doctor first thing when you wake up."

"We are going to take her now." I stated firmly as I scooted off of the bed to my feet. My head spun as I stood up making me lose my balance to the dizziness and fall to the floor.

"Mom!" I heard Italy yell as she ran over to me and helped me up. "Are you okay?"

"She's fine! Leave her alone! Go put some clothes on so we can go!" Jade yelled at her.

Italy ignored every word Jade was saying to her as she helped me to my feet. "What happened to your head!?" She said as she reached up and gently touched the knot on my head that throbbed at her touch.

"Ahh, please don't touch it Italy. I fell."

"Fell on what!?"

"Italy! If you want to go to the fucking hospital, go get ready!" Jade screamed at her as she walked up to her from behind.

"Jade! Stop yelling at her! Ugh!" I turned back to Italy. "Babe, I'm fine. Thank you. Get ready, hurry."

She nodded with furrowed brows before she turned to Jade and mugged her as she continued to walk but Jade grabbed her arm. "You better straighten out that face." She said as she let her go shoving her toward the door.

"Jade what the hell?" I said as I held my head.

She just rolled her eyes as she walked into our bathroom and slammed the door.

What has gotten into her tonight? I mean I know Jade can be a gank but she's never rude to our kids. She usually always treats them like angels.

I sighed as I changed clothes and walked over to our dresser mirror to inspect my head. Even though it was covered my by hair I still could see the large hard knot on my head that hurt so bad to the touch. I also found a smaller knot in the back of my head as I ran my fingers through my hair to untangle it.

How do I have a knot in the back if I fell forward?

I just sighed again as I left our room to check on Ikenzie and Isis who were both fast asleep. I highly doubt either one of them will wake while we're gone.

I walked over to Italy's room to see her sitting on the edge of her bed crying.

"What's wrong?" I asked as I sat down beside her.

"I'm scared. What if there's something wrong with Kemistry? What if….I'm having a miscarriage or something?"

"Kemistry? Is that her name?" I asked as I reached out to hold her hand as she just nodded. "Kodak named her."

"That's beautiful. And babe, she's going to be fine. I bled when I was pregnant with you and Ikenzie too. It's usually nothing. You're not having a miscarriage, that would hurt, it wouldn't feel right. Do you feel any different? Like something isn't right?"

She shook her head as she wiped some tears.

"Then don't worry about anything. We'll get you check out and I'm sure everything's fine."

And everything was fine. We got Italy to the hospital and back within the matter of 2 hours. The doctor check her over and said everything is fine with the baby and there's nothing to worry about, that pregnant women sometimes "spot". It's normal.

I changed back into my Pj's before crawling into my side of the bed and facing away from Jade. Tonight with her had been annoying. She's acting so…ugh! At the hospital she was acting all ganky and cranky. She keep digging her nails into my arm to hurt me and doing little things to annoy me on purpose. And I swear I was so close to punching her right in her face, but I held myself.

I felt the bed sink in where Jade got into her side before the light went out and I felt her body scoot close to mine and her arm go around my waist.

I just gave an annoyed sigh that she seem to not notice or ignore before just closing my eyes and trying to get some sleep.

"Give it back Jade!"

"NO! You're never talking to her again! Do you hear me!?"

"I'll do what I want! She's my friend Jade!"

"SHE JUST WANTS TO TAKE YOU FROM ME! She's not your fucking friend!"

"We've always been friends Jade! Always! I'm tired of you telling me who I can and cannot talk to! If you have a problem with me being Tori's friend then leave!" I said as I snatched my phone from her and started to dial Tori's number once again.

My eyes flew open as I ribbed from her grip and stood to my feet before grabbing my pillow and smacking her in the face with it.

"What the hell?" She said as she sat up and reached behind her to turn on her light. "Babe what are you doing? It's too late for pillow fights, go back to sleep."

I felt my eyes fill with tears. "You did it Jade! You did this!" I said pointing to my head.

I watched as a smirk took over her lips as she rolled her eyes. "I barely touched you and you fell forward and hit your head on the nightstand. I had nothing to do with that."

I felt my insides start to boil with anger.

I'm sick of this. I'm done.

"I'm done." I said simply as I got to my knees, reached under the bed, and pulled out my big pink suitcase.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Jade asked as she scooted off the bed to her feet.

"I can't take this anymore Jade! I can't! I'm leaving!"

"And where do you think you're going?"

"Anywhere away from you!" I screamed as tears fell from my eyes as I walked over to my dresser and started stuffing my suitcase with clothes.

"You're not going anywhere!" She said as she backhand slapped me hard across my face making me fall onto my back with my face stinging with pain.

I held onto my face as I laid on my side with my eyes closed. My breathing started to turn into panting as I felt my insides start to boil with heat.

I can't take this anymore!

I opened my eyes and slowly got back to my feet with my fist in balls and my breathing like a dog chasing a bus.

Jade didn't notice me as she was face towards the mirror fixing her hair as if she didn't just smack me to the ground.

I walked up behind her and saw that my eyes and face were blood shot and she chuckled as she looked at me in the mirror.

"Well that's not a pretty face." She stated before turning her gaze back to herself and that's when I went into over load. Everything I've been holding inside from her beatings for years is about to explode. And it's going to explode on her.

I grabbed her arm digging my nails into her turning her around hard and slamming her into the dresser before taking my fist and punching her as hard as I could in her face followed by two more making her fall to the floor with a scream of pain and a "What the fuck?"

I looked over and saw the old curtain rod we were about to throw out soon and didn't think twice about grabbing it. I brought it up to my head before smashing it down on Jade's body as she let out a piercing scream and I did it again and again before dropping it and sitting on top of her.

"Cat!" She yelled as she punched me hard in my face but I didn't let it weakened me. So pumped on adrenaline I brought my own fist back and started to punch her in her face over and over again as I screamed and cried. "You, stupid, fucked, up, bitch! I'm, so, sick, of, your, shit!" I screamed and with every word came a super punch.

I managed to get a hold of her belt that hung from one of her dresser drawers before I stood up and kicked her in her stomach as I beat her back with her own belt as she screamed for me to stop.

"How do you like the tables turned you bastard!?" I screamed as I smacked her with the belt again.

"Mom! M,mom stop!" I heard Ikenzie yell before she screamed for Isis but still that didn't slow me down.

Jade now just screamed out as she sat in a fetal position trying to cover as much her body as she could.

I reached down and grabbed a handful of her hair yanking her neck back hard before leaning down and biting her neck hard and that's when she got a hold of me.

She grabbed me around and flipped my whole body over hers as she punched me hard in my stomach before I lifted my knee and kneed her in her jaw.

"Fuck!" She yelled out as she sat back from me to hold her jaw. I sat up and threw another punch before charging on her and making her fall to her back.

I quickly wrapped my hands around her neck and held tightly a she struggled and kicked under me to get me off of her. She finally was able to get one of my hands free from her neck and grabbed onto my wrist and twisted it hard causing it to make a loud popping sound.

"Jade! Cat STOP IT!" Isis screamed as she pulled me from Jade and dragged me all the way to the hallway as I cried in pain.

"What the heck is going on!?" Italy said as she ran over to me.

"Watch her I'm getting Jade." Isis said before she ran back into our room and I couldn't do anything but cry.

"Cat." I heard Jade say as she ran into the hallways with Isis hung onto her after a few seconds.

I looked up at her as I just cried. Even though my vision was blurred I could see her face was bloody and swollen.

She ran her hands through her hair as she yanked herself from Isis. "All of you go to fucking bed!" She screamed at our kids as they all stood around us, Ikenzie and Italy in tears and Isis in a heated shock.

But none of them moved and that's when Jade swore out loud and ran down the stairs, and out of the door.

"Your wrist." Ikenzie pointed as she cried and that's when I remembered my wrist. I looked down at it and it was nothing put a swollen mess now. I knew it was broken.

"C'mon." Isis said as she stood me up.

She drove me straight to the hospital where they put a cast on it and fixed it up quickly before sending me back home.

By the time we all got back in the car my kids were flooding me with question after question and I just couldn't answer any of them.

"You guys shut the hell up." Isis stated as she drove. She was the only one not asking questions as she held her hand tight in mine the whole way home and I was grateful because I needed it.

Once home she made Italy and Ikenzie go back to bed before walking with me to my room.

"Are you okay?" said asked once I was seated on my bed.

I just looked over at her as tears filled my eyes. She pulled me into a hug as I cried into her shoulder.

I can't believe what just happened. What have I done? Oh god what have I done!? Jade didn't deserve that! Or did she? No! Yes! Ugh! I'm so sick of her hitting me but I know it's not her fault! She can't help that! I had no business to go off on her like that! And now she's gone! Oh my god where is she!? I probably hurt her so much mentally more than physically. She probably thinks I don't love her anymore! Ohhhhh noo!

But…

I just…I love Jade, I do, I know I do, and I'm so sorry for what I've done, but I….I can't do this anymore. I can't. I can't stay. I can't. She won't get help, she won't talk to me, she won't let it out and she continues to hurt me and I can't do this anymore. I can't live the rest of my life like this. I'm tired. I'm tired of her. I'm tired of this.

I'm leaving. And I'm leaving for good.

I pulled out of Isis hug before kissing her on the head. "Go back to sleep okay. I'll be fine now. Thank you Isis."

"What made you two fight like that?" She asked as she held onto my hand and I just shook my head.

"I don't want to talk about any of it."

She nodded in understanding. "I love you Cat."

"I love you too. Now get back to bed." She nodded before she kissed me on my head and left my room slowly.

I sighed as I found my phone and texted my mother telling her I need her to keep my kids for a few days while I figure some things out. I kept debating on staying over there too but I just never got along with my father and for me to go over there would just be another nightmare for me and I needed somewhere to stay so I called Tori.

RING, RING, RING, RING

"Hello?" A sleepy Tori answered the phone.

"Tori." I said as tears came to my eyes and my voice cracking.

"Cat? Cat! What's wrong are you okay?" She said as her voice turned more awake.

"No Tor. Can I stay for a couple days please, just for a couple?"

"Of course you can. What happened? Are you alright?"

"No."

"I'm coming over there right now."

"Tori don't." I said scared for her if Jade comes back.

"Where's Jade? Did she hurt you?"

"I..I don't know, she's not here."

"I'm coming over there."

"Tori no. I'll see you later okay? Just stay home."

"Are you sure Cat?"

"Yes."

"Do you need me to pick you up?"

"No. I'll drive. I'm okay."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Call me when you're on your way okay?"

"Okay."

"…Cat, I'm so sorry." Tori said as her own voice cracked.

"Tori don't cry." I said as I started to cry.

"I'm sorry I just….I can't let you stay with her anymore Cat. I'm-"

"-I'm leaving Tori. I'm leaving. I can't take it anymore. You don't have to worry anymore."

"Oh Cat." Tori cried with a sigh of relief. "Be here as soon as you can and we'll figure things out for you."

I just nodded. "Okay."

"I love you so much Cat, I'm sorry this happened to you and I'm sorry I couldn't have stopped it sooner."

"I'm sorry too. And it's not your fault, there would have been nothing you could do about it."

She sighed. "I'll see you soon."

"See you Tor and thank you…"

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