There Will Be Beauty From Pain Chapter 3, a glee fanfic

I don't own Glee. Sadly.

I don't think this chapter was rushed. Just because they seemed to have made up, does not mean that things will go great.

The fight wasn't huge. Just small. Enough to get a point across. :)

Reviewers!

Rawr413- I'm sorry for almost making you cry. xD It will be better..Or will it? ;3

shweirbones- The fight was disappointing. But this is just the beginning. Bigger fights will come! :(

TheWarblersAreTOTALLYAWESOME- Nice name. :) And I live off angst too! Keeps me going. :3

Well time to get to the story! Hope I didn't disappoint.

Summary: Nick tried to reason with Jeff by saying his feelings. Does it work?

Nick

It had been a month since Jeff walked out of the cafeteria. It was the last time I saw him. I haven't seen him in any of his classes or even in the cafeteria. But Trent told me not to worry. And when he said it, there was hate in his eyes.

Iv been ignoring Jeff since he confessed and even changed rooms.

All because I'm scared. Iv always loved him. Admired him. Thought he was the world.

But I had to run. Run away. Like the coward I am. And now I knew that I had to move back to the dorm. I just had to. I have to make him understand this whole time that Iv just been a coward.

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I had my bags packed began to walk down the hallway to my old room. Happy that I might be able to make Jeff smile.

When I reached the door I found that it was locked. I grabbed the extra key from my bag and unlocked the door. I walked though the door and dropped my bags.

I saw Jeff. Laying on his bed covered in bandages, sound asleep. I walked over to him and slowly ran my fingers over his bandaged arms. I jumped back when he opened his eyes and pulled his arms back.

I think he whispered my name. But I wasn't sure. I wanted to know what happened to him. And I know that I had to use force. I straddled his waist and held his arms down. Ready to find out when was beneath the bandages.

"NICK! NICK!," he screamed. Screamed at me to let him go. But no. He has no luck.

I ripped the bandages off of this arms and felt bile building up in my throat. I saw cuts. So many cuts. Some deeper than others. Some small and some large. I looked down at him. He was crying. Sobbing. And I cried along with him. But before I could even utter a word I was thrown off him. He began to scream at me. I listened. And I couldn't believe it.

"I hate you Nicky! You ruined me! Why did I ever love you? I hate you so much. So so much! Just go! You made me hate myself.."

I opened my mouth to reply when he interrupted me again.

"Don't speak! Your here to insult me and tell me how gross I am! And yes! I cut..because of you. Interested? Ill show you what you'v cause."

And with that he slipped his shirt off and I saw the word.

FAT.

Why? Why would he think that. Hes so thin. I know he hasn't been eating. The ribs. Each showing under this white skin.

I cant believe he would think he was fat. But he soon answered.

"You..I thought I wasn't good enough for you. I thought that maybe Id change the way I look. So I wouldn't be fat. So I wouldnt gross you out.." He began to softly cry and I knew it was my chance to speak.

"Jeff..no. Your beautiful. Your wonderful and your my world. I was a coward. I love you. I always have. I was so scared. I didn't want you to hate me. I had to have time to think. I should have just told you this in the beginning. Then..you wouldn't have started this." I looked at him and saw him looking at his hands. No reply.

I sighed and sat beside him. I hugged him. Help him close as he sobbed into my chest. Letting go everything. He began to punch me. I let him. He was angry with me and I knew that his was his way of getting it all out.

I pet his hair and begin to softly sing to him.

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I can feel him sobbing harder into my chest. I hold him tighter.

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

His crying starts to slowly cease and I lean back against the wall with him on my chest. I sing to him more softly.

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

As I finish the song he grips my shirt and begins to talk again.

"Nick..I'm not forgiving you yet. You made me feel worthless I'm willing to give you a chance. I want to understand all that you'v been feeling. I don't want to rush this. We need to get past this. Understand that what you put me through I just cant easily forget."

I smiled at him. "I understand Jeff. I'm just so s-" He cut my off with his finger.

"Shhh..just shhh. I'm tired. And so are you. Get your bags..and then we can sleep."

I forgot that the door was open when I went to grab my bags. I'm suprissed that nobody heard. Or they did and just didn't care.

I dropped my bags and walked to the bathroom to get changed. Pulling on lose sweats and a tank I walked back out. As I began to crawl into my bed I heard Jeff telling me to sleep by him. And I do. I crawl in right beside him and hold him close. I know our problems are far from being over. But all I can do is hold him for tonight and see what tomorrow brings.

R&R! :)

Amazed by Lonestar. I listened to it when I wrote this. Cried. Q.Q Oh Nick..Stop it!

New chapter will be up tomorrow.