Chapter Three
(the story will be in these and the rest wont be in anything)
After she handed me her laptop i wanted to make sure she was ok with letting me read it "you sure?"
"if you can try and help me yes. if you dont want to read it then give it back" she said.
"no its ok i can try to help you and if you dont want to tell me. i will read it" i said looking back at the story and setting my eyes on it.
it was november 15 when my father died and not even two months later my mother had found a new husband. i dont like him he looks at me funny, maybe its just cause he isnt who i want to see in my dads place. that was what i thought until he came into my room drunk on febuary 25. he didnt look right, he looked as if he was hunting down a dog or something all i knew is that i didnt want him near me. "marcus go away" i said and back up towards the wall trying to keep space between us. he just kept come closer to me and the closer he got the more i walked toward the wall. it wasnt long before i hit the wall seeing as my room was just big enough for my twin sized bed, bookcase, bureau and desk. once i was there i couldnt really go anywhere without getting closer to him and i didnt want that; except he was still walking towards me. "marcus get out of my room. you shouldnt be in here you should go to bed. your drunk." i said, but he had been standing right in front of me by then. he just stood there looking at me and licking his lips. i didnt know what he had planned and didnt want to know. then he said "i wont be leaving until i get what i want" and he did he pressed himself up against me and started to kiss me. "dont make any noise or i will kill your mother and you before you can count to three" he told me and i just whimpered in reply. he had his hands up my shirt and pulling it off . i started to fight him off but he just slammed my head into the wall behind me leaving me seeing stars for a few minutes and by the time i knew what was going on again he was just in his boxers and i was in my underwear and bra. i didnt want he to touch me again but didnt want a repeat of what had happened a few minutes before. so i just stood there crying siilent tears of fear and humiliation while he did what he wanted. that was until he started to pull me over to my bed. then i started to fight back again because i could let him take the one thing he didnt deserve away from me. "you little bitch. i am going to teach you what happens when little girls fight their daddies" he said kneeing me in the stomach and pushing me to my knees. i looked away from him so i wouldnt have to do what he undoubtably wanted me to do. he stilll grabbed my face and told me that if i bit him i would regret the rest of my life and then pulled my hair making me cry out yet i didnt really get to make any form of noise because he shoved himself in. he tasted of sweat, beer and urine. i gagged and tried to pull away but he just took me himself and once he was done he told me to swallow and not let any of it go to waste he told me that that was my dinner. i did as he told me and he left but not before saying that he would be back tomorrow night.
"i finished the first chapter" i said trying not to let my emotions for this girl show through because she would probably just take off and i couldnt really run at the moment.
"ok. theres two more." she said pulling up the second and third.
the next night he came back with a few friends and told them to grab me. tonight he was sober and by sober i mean clean, showered and not nearly as crazed as the night before, but that also meant he was prepared tonight. his friends grabbed my hands and feet and threw me on the bed but were holding me down faster than i could even attempt to get up. "there is no fight tonight bitch" he whispered in my ear while he tyed my down tot he bed. it wasnt long before he had ripped my clothes off and his friends got the chance to touch me where ever they wanted. i squirmed around as much as i could being stretched as far as my body would let me without breaking bones and tearing muscle. i didnt want them near me but i didnt seem to have a choice in the matter because after an hour of that he climbed ontop of me. the only reason i knew the time was because of the position my alarm clock was in. "its time to become a big girl" he told me before taking off his boxers and positioning himself at my vaginal opening. i begged him to leave me alone but he just turned to his friends and said to one of them take her mouth. i didnt want this guy near me let alone his friends, but i couldnt get away and my mother was to busy with my brother to notice what he was doing to me. so with one guy getting an oral job off of me he slammed in to the dry hole that was my vagina. "damn your tight" he said then he mustve notice that i was a virgin because he said "oh god thats why i love you virgins the best things to take from. god" he breathed out and started to push in and out. by then i was trying to block the world around me out and the only thing i noticed was him ejacutalting inside me and the rotation of his friends that occured afterward. nothing else just faceless men came after
I just clicked over to the next one because she was sitting with her eyes clamped shut trying to block everything else i beleived.
may 17. i had been feeling sick latley so had gone and bought a few pregnancy tests know that my step father never used condoms while his friends did and not want to be pregnant. i took all five of them and put them on the edge of the sink before taking a shower. seeing as i couldnt get enough of them lately. i couldnt wait to be going to my uncle fins for the next four months or so. i would have to tell him whats been going on seeing as you would be able to tell by then that i was pregnant and he would no doubtably help me, but i didnt want to tell him. there will probably be someone around him that can help me out though or i would just not be pregnant right? after my shower i dried off and put clothes on. i noticed my favorite skinny jeans getting a bit snug around my tummy and didnt want any of this to be true. that was until i glanced at the tests... all five of them were positive. i was doomed and would have to tell my uncle fin sometime soon
i finished the stories and decided to link her computer to the printer and printed all the pages with a dont touch one its bensons on the top and bottom of the pile. once i did that i closed her laptop and just hugged her. she stiffened at first then relaxed and started to cry. "shhhh... it ok... i will be the someone that helps you and so wont everyone else here" i said ignoring my own pain for the moment.
"i cant do this" she whispered to me.
"cant do what?"
"have this kid" she whispered back.
"you can get rid of it if your not to far along or you could always put it up for adoption" i said.
"i cant do any of that because no matter how much i do want it. i dont want it to be his."
"if you really want it i can help you through this and all the others can as well" i whispered then looked over her shoulder where i noticed george was standing and i thought of something "hey brooklyn do you know how far along you are?" i said leaning her back to look in her face.
"no" she hiccupped.
"want to go find out?"
"um... i guess so" she said and i pulled out my phone to text melinda.
"i have a friend who can tell you. she is our medical examiner but she is one of my best friends" i said and looked at the reply. "we could go right now and then when we come back we could talk with your uncle fin. hows that sound?"
"it sounds good" she said and then stood up.
"could you help me? i dont quite know how i managed to sit like this, but i cant really stand up now" i said and she grinned before helping me up.
"what happened to you?"
"my old partners second oldest kathleen has a bi-polar mania and she got off her meds again. this happened a few years ago before we knew what she had, but this time she freaked out and held a gun out to him because his marriage was falling apart again. so i was talking her down and while i did that i got to the gun. i ended up in direct contact with it and when she fired over him saying something she hit my vest and ended up bruising and cracking some ribs"
"ouch" she said and we both laughed. then she saw george in the doorway. "oh"
"hey why dont you go grab your stuff and we can be on our way."
"ok" she said and walked off to the squadroom, visibly pulling on a happy face.
i turned to george and said " in the copy machine is her autobiography of sorts as to what happened and whats going on its not good and keep fin away from it for awhile at least until we get back from melinda" i said and he nodded before we both walked out to find brooklyn.

i was going insane she had been missing for a good hour now and no sign of her. then she walked into the squadroom and i nearly tackled her. "brook you alright? your not hurt? where were you?" i asked not giving her a chance to answer.
"im fine uncle i was just sitting in one of the old squadrooms. olivia found me and we started to talk" she told me and looked around for olivia who walked in with george.
"brook you ready to go?" liv asked her.
"where are you guys going?"

"no where fin. just going to have a little girl time"
"take rollins with you then dont leave her out" cragen said out loud and brook looked at me.
"why?" she asked.
"brook rollins is a good person just have fun" fin said and he pushed her over to rollins.
"brook its alright she wont say anything about our secret girl time yet" i said and walked her out of the squadroom rollins following.

i didnt want her to know i didnt want anyone to really know but olivia says shes a good person and wont tell so i guess she has to come with us. "where are we going benson?" rollins asked.
"melindas"
"why?"
"because im pregnant with my step-fathers kid and she said we could find out how far along" i said before glaring out the window.
"well then its a good thing i got to come along"
"whys that?"
"because i can help you out. you know what i was sexually assaulted at my old precinct down in georgia and ran to here. olivia here has been good help to me"
"oh im sorry i didnt mean"
"i know dont worry we are all family around here"
"oh ok then" i said and then yawned.

brook was tired and i can tell why today has been stressful i could go for a nap myself, but i was driving so i told her to take a nap and i would wake her up when we got there. she put her head down on rollins shoulder and passed out. "shes exausted liv" amanda said to me.
"i know she is"