Awake
So keep me awake to memorize you
Give us more time to feel this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today
If I could make these moments endless
If I could stop the winds of change
If we just keep our eyes wide open
Then everything would stay the same
Awake – Josh Groban
Harry's eyes fluttered slowly open as a deep groan left his parched throat.
"Here." A soft female voice said to him, while pressing a glass against his lips. He brought his hands up slowly to hold the glass of chilled water in unsteady hands, "How do you feel?"
"Like I've been run over with the Knight Bus." The Wizard moaned after he had cleared his throat by glugging the water down in one go.
"Not a particularly pleasant experience I've heard." Luna giggled as she took the glass and placed it back on the bedside cabinet.
"Am I still at the Cullen's Lu?"
"Yup. Edward refuses to let you go home until you are better."
"Damn it." Harry murmured as he pulled himself up to rest against the pillows.
"I agree with him Harry. It's better that you stay here, within hearing range of the Cullen's, especially the Doctor."
"You're biased." He waved his hand in a nonchalant expression.
"We all are. We all want you to get better. You're the only one who bloody insists that you train yourself to breaking point and refuses to try to get better."
"Luna! You know why I refuse!"
"Of course I do, and that's the problem. Sometimes I wish I didn't know, so I could stop being so selfish and make you take the treatment."
"You're not being selfish Lu." Harry, with much effort, scooted over to one side of the bed and motioned for Luna to come and lay next to him.
"Yes I am." She lay her head on Harry's shoulder and took comfort in his presence.
"No you're not. If anyone's being selfish it's me. I'm forcing you to watch me slowly die without doing anything about it."
"You're not forcing me to do anything. I could turn around and walk away if I wanted, and leave you to deal with everything. But I won't because I love you."
"I love you too sister." The Wizard replied while pressing a kiss to her blonde hair, "I just want to go home."
"They say home is where your heart is." Luna said with a small smile.
"Home is where he puts my heart." Harry corrected, "It doesn't belong to me anymore."
"Then, if your statement is correct, aren't you already home?" The blonde questioned.
"Smarty pants." Harry nudged her with his elbow, allowing a small smile to spread across his features, "Edward only owns half my heart."
"And the other half?"
"The other half belongs to my work."
"Do you think Edward can soon own all of your heart, when he becomes more important then killing Voldemort?" The blonde girl mused as she stared in fascination at the elaborate ceiling rose.
"I don't know. So far nothing is as important as killing Voldemort."
"Better not let him hear that."
"I doubt it will matter now. Edwards been listening to our conversation from the living room since I woke up." The Witch looked shocked for a moment before looking faintly annoyed.
"That sneaky sod!" She hissed in a low tone.
"It's ok Lu. I don't mind." Harry sighed and closed his eyes, "Sometimes I wish..."
"What?"
"I wish Edward didn't have me as a mate." Harry finished in a whisper as he felt sleep put her arms around him and cradle him in darkness.
"Oh Harry." Luna murmured as her brother fell asleep. She tucked a lock of his hair behind his ear and slid slowly off the bed, so she wouldn't wake the sleeping Wizard.
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For the second time that day Harry woke up to the feeling of someone watching him. Once he turned around he came face to face with the charming Vampire that owned half of his heart.
"Hello." Harry murmured while groaning and pulling the duvet over his head so he could shield his fuzzy eyes from the sunlight.
"Afternoon. How are you feeling?" The Wizard gave an unintelligible grumble from under the covers before once again exposing himself to the sun and it's heat.
"Better. Enough to go home at least." Harry finally replied once he got over the fact that his mate was sparkling. Actually, literally sparkling. Like glitter on a Gryffindor banner or like a diamond turned to reflect the suns rays.
"I need to ask you something."
"What is it?" Harry asked, slightly concerned for his mate considering the long pause he had left.
"Move in."
"What?" Harry was about an inch away from laughing along with the joke until he realised that the older male was deadly serious, no pun intended, "You mean move in here?"
"Yes."
"But-I can't. Esme already has enough to do. I can't burden her like that. Plus, I already have a home."
"You have a house Harry. It isn't a home yet. And you won't be putting a burden on Esme, she'll love it if you came to move in."
"No, I can't"
"Please Harry."
"No. I'm just...not ready for that yet." Edward sighed before nodding slowly and taking Harry's hand in between his own.
"I'm sorry." The Vampire murmured, obviously thinking that he had pushed too far too fast.
"It's ok Edward." Harry ran his thumb across the knuckles that held one of his hands captive.
"I haven't really been in a relationship before." Edward explained in an apologetic tone.
"Neither have I, not a proper one anyway." The brunette confided as his fingers moved upwards from the knuckles to caress the back of Edwards hands, the coolness was almost comforting. They fell into a comfortable silence, with Harry examining Edwards hands and wrists and Edward examining Harry in general.
"There is something I actually wanted to ask you." Edward began in a quiet voice, his mind flew at a mile a second trying to find a decent subject change that would, hopefully, cheer the Wizard up.
"Hmm..."
"Why have you got so many expensive things and yet you have a crappy house?" Edward furrowed his eyebrows as he tried to work out the answer his own question, "Is it because you ran out of money?"
"Oh God no," Harry said in between bouts of laughter at the completely random subject change, "It's just that...When you move you can take everything with you can't you?"
"Yes," Edward replied without quite understanding where it was leading to.
"Well I figured there was no point me spending tons of money on house that I'm only going to live in for a few months and then just leave."
"Oh, yeah. That does make sense."
"All the stuff that I've bought can just be re-located to where ever they go next. Probably to Luna." Harry didn't notice the sudden stillness from the beautiful Vampire.
"Don't speak like that." Edward chastised.
"Edward...Eddie. I have to go back to England, relatively soon. Chances are, I'm going to die there." Harry's voice was low and loving, he wanted to move his fingers from the tight embrace his mate had on them so he could run his hands through that beautiful hair.
"No! You're not going to die at all." Edward removed one of his hands from around Harry's and used it so smooth over Harry's forehead, "We're going to test all of our venom until one of us matches you and we're going to change you."
"So, Luna told you about that then did she?"
"Yes."
"Edward, the chances of me having the chromosome are very very slim." Harry sighed and trailed his thumb across Edwards pained face, "I just don't want you to get your hopes up over something that might not happen."
"It will happen. I know that it will."
"You're far too optimistic for a hundred year old." Harry said with a slight tone to his voice that pleaded a subject change once again.
"Over a hundred actually." Edward answered, giving the Wizard an adorable half smile.
"Does it really matter, either way you're still a cradle snatcher."
"Does that count when my body is a seventeen year olds?"
"I don't know actually. Maybe it would make you less of a cradle snatcher and more of a pervert."
"I am not a pervert!" The Vampire exclaimed with an indignant facial expression.
"Really? I mean, you can read everybodys fantasy from their minds, you must enjoy some of it?"
"I am not answering that question." Edward moaned and pulled a pillow over his face as he relaxed against the pillows. Harry's laughter rang through his ears and he didn't seem to mind that his mate had just laid down and made himself comfortable on the bed he was occupying..
"Don't worry sweetheart, your secret is safe with me." Harry murmured as he pulled the pillow away and rested his head on Edwards shoulder.
Edward didn't give the statement an answer because he was too busy watching his hands run through Harry's thick dark locks. The room was silent for a while as the two mates just basked in each others calming and loving presence.
"Eddie," Harry mumbled.
"Yes?"
"I think I'm falling in love with you." The brunette whispered softly, "Do you think I'm going too fast?"
"No." Edward admitted and just closed his eyes at the wonderful feeling that now made its way throughout his cold body.
"Hermione always said that it was how I loved. She said when I found someone to love, whether it be a friend, a parental figure or...a lover. She said I fell hard and I fell fast, but I would keep that love forever."
"You loved her." The Vampire observed, staring up at the ceiling from his position on the bed.
"She was my best friend. She stood by me."
"Who was Ronald Weasley?" Edward asked. Harry's body stiffened in surprise at the totally unexpected question.
"How did you hear that name?" Harry asked as he leaned over Edwards face.
"It passed through Sirius' mind a few times when he visited." Edward paused for a second before adding, "If you don't want to talk about it then you don't have to."
"I think I need to." Harry took a deep breath before continuing, "Ron Weasley is a distant hope, I suppose I should say. He was my best friend, I met him on the train ride to Hogwarts in my first year and we were friends until my last train ride home in my sixth year."
"What happened?"
"That's the problem, I just don't know. He was always rather jealous of me, it sounds so horrible when I say it but it's true, we've had a few fallings out because of his pride but nothing to this extent. I think that after Hermione died he gave up living."
"He's dead?"
"Sometimes I wish that were true. Days after Hermione died he was captured by the Death Eaters, three weeks later I knocked the mask of a Death Eater in the middle of a battle and found that it was Ron."
"He betrayed you?"
"I don't know. I don't know if they persuaded him to join them, if he joined them straight away, if they threatened him."
"Hell." Edward breathed out.
"He told them everything about the Order and about me. He told them all the plans we had made and all our escape routes but he also told them all my fears and my hopes. He even told them where I lived."
"That's why you came to America?"
"It was one of the reasons. I never told anybody."
"But surely? If their plans were being interrupted-"
"I told them there was a spy but I never said it was Ron. It would destroy the whole Weasley family."
"They were, some of them still are, very close friends of mine. I couldn't do that to them."
"But surely...they wonder where he is."
"I...I told them he was dead. Rather them mourn a hero, then despise a traitor." Harry paused for a minute. He couldn't decipher Edwards thoughts, his face was a stone cold mask and no emotions flitted though his eyes, "Was that an evil thing to do?"
"I don't know." and to be truly honest, he didn't. It's not a situation he had ever heard about nor was it a situation he had ever found himself in. If he had known the person or the family involved maybe he would have been able to make a judgement...but for now...he'd just show support for his love, "I'm sure you've done what's best."
Edward ran his hands through Harry's mop of hair, loving the way the soft strands played over his skin. The minutes passed between them in silence. Soon it had passed five minutes. Then ten minutes. Then fifteen. Edward smiled softly to himself as he heard Harry's breath even out and deepen as the human fell asleep. And only then did Edward slide out from the grip and pull the covers up to Harry's chin, keeping him warm throughout his deep sleep.
A/N – I'VE GOT MICROSOFT OFFICE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lol. Yey. Erm so here is the next chapter. I just wanted some dialogue beteen Luna and Harry as well as Harry and Edward. Just trying to draw out the plot a bit... don't worry there is a plot. It just doesn't start yet lol.
Happy reading, sorry for the wait
-E.V.S.