Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight
A/N: Just wanted to let you guys know that eventually Victoria and the Cullen's will make an appearance… eventually. Knowing that, I also want to let you guys know that I don't like Edward either.
I know that some, probably most, of you guys are upset about Bella still having feelings for Edward. I want this story to be a different, but seamless, path of New Moon, shortly after Bella started hanging out with the pack. At that time, Bella still had feelings for Edward, so I kept it that way, after all she really did (for some unknown reason) love Edward and thought they were soul mates. So Tanya has to get rid of Bella's old feelings and get Bella to love her; which of course she will… in time.
Last thing, I didn't really have time to go over for any mistakes, just a quick spell check, but if I didn't get this out now it would have had to wait for a couple days. So sorry in advance for all the mistakes.
A date? Did she really ask me out on a date? How can she just tell me she loves me, when I've barely known her for a week, well actually more like two weeks, then tells me we're soul mates and then asks me on a date? Does she really think that's okay with me? Did she really think I would say yes? Did she forget I told her that Edward is my soul mate? Didn't I tell her I love Edward?
…
No, no I didn't tell her that. I told her I loved Edward, as in past tense. I know I still have feelings for him, we are soul mates after all, but do I still love him? Am I still in love with him? I don't know; but I need to know though. If he were to come back right now, would I want to get back together with him? I don't honestly know that.
I might though, if he did come back. I'm sure I would, I think. Would I be able to forgive him for leaving me? Would I be able to forgive for taking his family, who claimed to be my family, away from me? If I were to get back together with him, without forgiving him, would we have the normal relationship we did before he left? No, I don't think we would.
Even if he dazzled me into forgiving him, I would always carry the fear in the back of my mind. I would always be afraid of him leaving again, of how easy it was for him to up and leave me and to say all those things to me. Could I trust him to not ever do that again?
Will I ever see him again to be able to give any chance at forgiveness? He did say that I don't belong in his world; did he mean only his world and not just the life of vampires in general? Did he just mean that he never wants me around him again, but he doesn't care if I hang around other vampires?
"Bella."
Would I ever even see the rest of the Cullen's again? Or did they not really mean that I was part of their family? I wonder if they only put up with me because I was dating Edward. Alice was my best friend; would she ever even wonder what happened to me? Or did she already forget all about Edwards' human pet?
"Bella."
After everything that Tanya told me, I'm starting to think that Edward never really had feelings for me. Did he ever love me like he claimed he did? I personally think, contrary to what Tanya thinks, that Edward did love me, or at least like me.
"Bella!" Jake yelled, making me jump in my seat.
"What Jake! Did you have to yell?" I said angrily.
Jake gave me a quick amused look from his spot in the drivers' seat, and then turned his attention back to the road.
"Ya, I did. You were off in your own little world for a while there Bella. To think I ask a simple question and I lose you for almost ten minutes." Jake said with a small chuckle.
He asked me a question? Oh ya, that's right. He asked me exactly what it was Tanya and I talked about that had me so annoyed. After our 'talk' on Friday, I went straight home, without giving a Tanya an answer, and practically yelled at Jake all night. Luckily Charlie was working, so he didn't have to see all the verbal abuse, not really abuse but the yelling, I was doing at Jake.
It took Jake almost half an hour to figure out that I was mad about something Tanya did. Then it took me an hour to calm Jake down and convince him that he doesn't need to go out and hunt down Tanya because she technically hasn't done anything wrong. Since last night, Jake has been bugging me to tell him what it was that Tanya did to make me so mad. So far I've been able to avoid telling him; I personally don't think it's any of his business.
"Sorry about that, I have a lot on my mind right." I said with a sigh.
"If you tell me what's up, I can help you." Jake said with a hopeful voice.
He really does want to help; I know he does. I just don't want to tell him that my female, vampire, older math teacher wants to get in my pants. How do you tell someone that? I know Tanya didn't say that exactly, or really at all, but I can see it in her eyes.
"I know you could Jake, but I want to figure this one out on my own." I said.
"I'm your best friend; it's what I'm here for; to help you." Jake persisted.
Earlier this morning he got a call from Sam and said something about a nomad passing through their territory. I think they're afraid this nomad is going to cause trouble, so between Jake and Charlie, they managed to get Jake a way home. Jake and I are on our way now to the airport.
Since the call, Jake has been very excited to get home; he wants a chance to get the vampire. He said that if he can't go off on his own to hunt the Cullen's and he can't hurt the Denali's, then he's going to try and get that nomad. Personally, I'm all for him leaving. It really couldn't have been better timing. I need some time alone to really think about everything that Tanya told me, I can't do that with Jake here.
"I know Jake; but I really need to figure this one out by myself. You would be the first person I would call though if I did need help." I said, trying to keep nice and not explode at him.
"Okay Bells, as long as you know you can come to me for anything." Jake said.
I agreed with him quickly to end this particular conversation and started a new one. I asked him how he plans on tracking the nomad when he gets there. That question opened the flood gates and the rest of the ride to the airport was filled with Jake talking about every possible aspect of the hunt for the vampire.
We got him to the airport just in time for him to catch his flight. We said a quick goodbye outside the airport, I didn't want to go in. I think I hurt a little about that, but I'm only a friend dropping off a friend at the airport for a flight that's about to leave, there's no reason at all, for me to go inside.
Once I couldn't see him anymore I left to go home. In my haste to get home so that I can think over everything, I forgot to fill up on gas. You would think after having my truck for all this time already I would know that I need to practically keep the truck full at all times just to be safe.
I realized this stupid error when my truck rolled to a stop on the side of the freeway. I was so lost in my thoughts over everything, that I didn't realize what was happening until I was almost at a stop. I think this is the closest time I've ever gotten to actually hating my truck.
I fished out my new, thanks to Tanya destroying and replacing my old one, phone and dialed Charlie. After ringing five times, it went straight to voicemail. What amazing luck I have; the first time that I actually need to call Charlie and he doesn't answer. I would call Jake but his plane has definitely already left ground. Who else can I call? I don't know anyone well enough to call to get me gas.
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Tanya. Even though, at this particular time I don't really want to, I know that if I call her asking for help, she'll come help me. Is it bad of me to think that Tanya seems more reliable than Edward? If I called Edward, it wasn't always guaranteed he would answer because he had to go hunting so often with being around me. With Tanya, I just know she'll answer. The only problem I have now is that I don't have her phone number. But I do have the store's phone number; someone's bound to be there right?
It's worth a shot, especially since it's the only choice I have at the moment. I rolled through the contacts on my phone, it was a short list, and found the number I needed. The phone was answered before the first ring was up.
"Kate's Bookstore, how can I help you?" A very bored sounding vampire asked.
I don't recognize this voice. This has to be the one sister that I haven't really met yet, Irina.
"Um, hey, this is Bella." I said and paused a little, but quickly continued. "Is Tanya there by any chance?" I asked a little nervously.
"No she isn't. Do you need her for something?" Irina asked, sounding very curious.
"Are you going to tell her yes?" I heard Kate yell from the background followed by Irina telling her to shut up. I couldn't help but giggle a little at Kate getting reprimanded.
"I actually need her help." I said, avoiding answering Kate's question since I don't actually have an answer.
"We're calling her now, what's wrong?" Irina asked, sounding very concerned.
I feel very touched that even though I haven't met her yet, Irina already seems to like me since she seems concerned about the fact that I need help. Though she doesn't really need to worry too much; it's not really that big of problem I have at the moment.
"Well, it's not really that big of a concern; but I just dropped Jake off at the airport and ran out of gas on my way home. I tried calling Charlie, my dad, but he didn't answer. Tanya was the only other person I could think of that might be able to help me." I said.
"Oh, well that isn't that bad." Irina said, sounding relieved. "She heard you from Kate's phone. She'll be there in I'm guessing around half an hour with gas for you." Irina said.
"Thank you so much; sorry to be a bother." I said quickly.
I'm really glad they were able and willing to help. I'm just really embarrassed that I need help with something that could have been avoided all together.
"You're no bother. I'm glad you called us to help. If you want, I can give you Tanya's number so you can call her directly next time instead of playing phone tag." Irina offered. "I'm actually surprised she hasn't already given you her number."
She tried to. Before I left yesterday, she wanted to give me her number, not to give her an answer to her taking me on a date, but in case I ever needed her… like now. In retrospect if a vampire ever offers you a way to contact them when you need help, take the offer.
After she gave me Tanya's number, we said our goodbyes and hung up. Kate was surprisingly quiet after Irina told her to shut up, I'm actually a little worried what she'll do next time I see her. I bet anything she'll tease me about this.
If Edward was my soul mate, why would he leave me? Tanya said that as my soul mate, she could never leave me, even if it was for my own good. He was so adamant about us being meant for each other, being soul mates, that he had even started mentioning getting married. He never really went into a full conversation about it, more like just mentioning it in random conversation. Why would he leave someone that he loved enough to plan on marrying one day?
Edward also never talked to me. Well, he talked to me, but it seemed like he never really in depth with any given topic. He always seemed like he was holding information back, like he didn't want me to know everything. Tanya doesn't do that. If anything she tells me too much about anything. She never has any problem answering any of my questions. I bet if I were to ask her about what being a vampire means and how the change works, she would answer without hesitation. In fact, I think she might even be happy about talking about it.
Tanya asked me out on a date; Edward never did. Edward and I never really went on any dates; we just kind of hung out all the time. I don't think we even really asked the other to be the other's girlfriend/boyfriend, it just kind of happened. Tanya wants to actually date me.
I can feel myself smiling at that thought. I'm still really reserved about doing anything with her relationship wise, but I think I do want to take her up on that date offer. Once I came to that decision, I heard a tapping on the window. Just like when Jake got my attention earlier this morning, I got scared half to death and jumped out of my seat; almost hitting my head on the roof.
Turning to look outside, I said Tanya trying really hard not to laugh at me. I sent her a glare and opened my door to climb out. Before I could actually start to get out, Tanya stopped me.
"No need to get out, I already filled up the tank for you while you were deep in thought." Tanya said with a smile.
"Thank you, I didn't even think to fill up before I left for home. How much do I owe you?" I asked, fully willing to pay Tanya back for whatever she spent for the gas.
"How about a ride home and then we're even?" Tanya asked, sounding hopeful.
It was easy to agree to. I was about to move over to sit in the passenger seat, but when I turned to move, Tanya was already standing outside the passenger door, waiting for me to unlock it. I'm so used to having the vampire's drive for me, that I honestly wasn't expecting Tanya to let me drive. I unlocked the door for her and she was in the seat in no time.
"Thank you for the ride Bella." Tanya said as we closed our doors.
"No problem." I answered with smile in her direction, to which she responded with her own smile.
The rest of the ride home was filled with mindless chatter. We talked about anything from the times Kate really pissed her family off with her pranks to comparing Tanya's math class to other math classes I've had in the past.
I didn't think that much time had passed, but in no time I was already pulling up to my house. I found myself not really wanting to get out of Tanya's presence, I feel really relaxed with her here. But I know I have to let her go and I have to go inside, because I still want to think over things.
Maybe there's a way to guarantee when I can see her next.
"Um, Tanya?" I nervously asked as I pulled my keys out of the ignition.
"Yes Bella?" Tanya asked, turning in her seat to face me and give me her full undivided attention.
I looked at the clock on the dashboard for a couple seconds out of pure nervousness. I shouldn't be nervous though, Tanya was the one that asked, I'm just repeating the question to her. There shouldn't be anything hard about this. I already know Tanya's answer.
"Yes." I finally said, also finding the strength to look her in the eyes.
"I'm sorry Bella, I don't understand. Yes what?" Tanya said sounding really confused.
I immediately blushed. Of course Tanya wouldn't know what I meant by just 'yes'. I opened my mouth to clarify, but then I saw realization run across Tanya's face. Instead of me talking, Tanya did.
"If it's alright, I'll pick you up at six thirty. Don't eat and wear whatever you want." Tanya said with a huge grin.
"Okay." I said.
Tanya gave me a quick kiss on the corner of my mouth then left before I could respond. My hand immediately when to the spot she had just kissed and my face went a bright red.
Oh. My. God. Tanya just kissed me and I liked it!
A/N: Next chapter: A real date between Tanya and Bella.