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I woke up to loud growling from a distance and from right next to me. I couldn't help but tense up as I heard the threatening sounds coming from around the house. As soon as I tensed up, the arms around me held me tighter to the body behind me. I felt cold lips gently kiss my check. The closeness allowed my senses to awaken slightly from the sleepy haze I was in and I could smell Tanya. Her scent and simply knowing she is with me helped calm me immediately.
"What's happening?" I asked as the growling continued.
"That stupid boy seems to think that if he talks to you, you'll change your mind about being with me. He doesn't seem to understand that you're mine and he no longer has any chance in hell of ever getting you back." Tanya growled out.
He wants to talk to me? Does he really think that just simply talking to me will get to forget all the pain he put me through? If I had never met the Denali's, then I could see myself going back to him. But now that I have met them, especially Tanya, I can never see myself going back to Edward. I'm almost disgusted with myself that once upon a time I would have willingly gone back to him. I was always destined for Tanya, one way or another, we would have gotten together. No matter what he says, he won't change my mind.
I will admit though, I'm a little curious as to what he has to say. I want to know how he'll try to get me back. I don't want to string him along and make him think he has a chance at getting me back; because he doesn't. He doesn't even have a little hope.
"He can't change my mind." I said without a second thought.
"That's what everyone is saying; but he still wants to talk. The only reason I haven't gone down there is because all they're doing is talking and so far it's harmless." Tanya said.
I turned around in Tanya's arms and gave her chaste kiss. I could honestly get used to this; not necessarily waking up in her arms, though that is nice; but just simply laying in her arms. It's very comforting and relaxing. It's almost like the problem with Edward, though I don't really see it as that big of a problem, doesn't exist.
"I want to talk to him." I said, barley noticing that I could no longer hear any growling.
Tanya's eyes darkened a little; clearly she did not like this idea. I could practically see her mind working out reasons as to why I should not talk to him. I could also see a bit of insecurity in her eyes. Is she afraid that I'll leave her for him? Does she really think I'll go back to him?
Before she could say anything that she was thinking, I decided to explain myself first and hopefully ease any worries she has.
"I just want to hear what he has to say. I want to know why he left me and took what I thought was my family with him. He hurt me a lot Tanya; you know that, I want to know what his reasoning was. Are you worried that him talking to me will change my mind about us?" I asked the question hesitantly, I don't want to be wrong in my assumption because that would be embarrassing. If I'm right, then I want reassure her.
Tanya smiled at my question, and I'm sure she almost laughed before she answered me.
"I'm far from worried about you changing your mind and going to him honey. What I'm worried about is that you might not like what you hear. I don't know his reasons, but they have to be pretty stupid because I can't think of any good reason to leave you. I find it hard to believe that he truly thought you were his mate and was able to leave you." Tanya said.
My face went a little red in embarrassment for me thinking that Tanya would second guess my feelings. I know I haven't really vocalized what I feel towards her; but clearly she is far from insecure about our relationship. Even though my face is red, I couldn't help but smile slightly at the fact that Tanya is so positive about our relationship; it's so nice to know she has no fear of losing me that she trusts me to stay with her.
"Edward wants to talk to you alone, that I don't want. If you really want to talk to him, can I at least stay with you? We can send the others away, but I would really like to stay with you incase Edward decides to do something stupid." Tanya said.
Unlike Edward, who always told me what I was doing and demanded things of me, Tanya is asking. She's afraid of my safety, even if just a little, but she still asks instead of making demands. I'm sure if I said no she already has a back-up plan for if Edward does something stupid; but I would like to have Tanya there with me.
I know that whatever Edward tells me isn't going to be something I'll like to hear, but I want to. I'm sure it'll hurt to hear his reasoning's; I know I'll want Tanya there to give me added strength to not break down. I haven't broken down since they have gotten here and I don't want to.
"That would be nice. I don't really mind the others being here, since I'm sure they'll all find out somehow, but I really do want you here." I said.
Tanya gave me a huge smile and pulled me into a heated kiss.
"The others will be gone to give us privacy for what I'm sure will be a difficult conversation for you. Why don't you get up and ready for the day and I'll just wait here and enjoy the view?" Tanya asked when we broke away from the kiss.
I gave her a quick kiss and quickly climbed off the bed. I grabbed cloths from the closet and made my way to my bathroom. I know for a fact Tanya had meant for me to leave the door open for my shower and the only reason I didn't blush is because I knew what I was going to do. When I got into the bathroom I started taking off my shirt and before the shirt was even half way up, I closed the door with my foot, making sure it was completely closed. I heard Tanya groan; probably much louder that necessary and I heard both Kate and Emmett laughing. I smirked to myself and continued on with getting ready.
In what seemed like no time at all, I was walking downstairs with Tanya right in front of me. Tanya had already told me that the others had left and only Edward was in the house. We found him waiting patiently in the living room, sitting on the couch. Tanya led me to the loveseat that was sitting opposite the couch.
As we sat down, Tanya made sure that she kept me tightly against her. She held one hand around my waist as far as it could go and the other hand held my hand in her lap. It almost felt like Tanya was getting ready to pull me into a hug; but I believe this was not so subtly letting Edward know I was taken by her.
"Good morning Bella, I trust you slept well?" Edward asked in his normal voice that I had once loved to hear.
His eyes were slightly darkened and he would definitely need to hunt after this talk. I'm actually a little surprised he didn't hunt before-hand. Though, he might have actually and his eyes darkened with how Tanya and I are acting like the couple we are.
"Yes I did, thank you Edward. So, I hear you want to talk?" I asked, getting straight to the point.
"I do yes; but I would prefer to do so in privacy since this concerns just the two of us." Edward said.
There's no way I'm going to let him get Tanya to go; plus I doubt he would be able to anyways. I half expected to hear Tanya start talking to dispute what he just said, but she is allowing me to take control of the conversation for us. I actually like this, being able to talk for myself, that is definitely not something Edward allowed.
"Yes it does. Anything that has to do with me automatically has to do with her and vice-versa. We are mates Edward; we all involved completely in each-others' lives. That includes past relationships." I said.
His eyes darkened a little more and he took a second to regain his composure before he started talking again.
"Fine; if that's what you want. I just want to tell you why I left Bella; I want you to know that I had no intentions of hurting you, but only to protect you." Edward said with a slight pleading tone in his voice.
"How did leaving me protect me? You have no idea what I went through while you were gone. You all leaving me, devastated me Edward. I honestly didn't think I would ever get over it." I said.
"I know it hurt in the beginning, but like you said, you did eventually get over it. That's what I wanted for you Bella; a nice normal human life. That's what you were meant for. I was doing nothing but putting you in danger and I just couldn't handle that. I didn't want to be the reason for you getting hurt. So I left, even though it hurt me tremendously, I did so for you; so you could have a normal life." Edward said.
The look he gave me after his little speech made me think that he believed what he just told was supposed to change my mind and I was supposed to instantly forgive him. The look I gave him though, was one of complete anger. Even his reasoning for leaving was completely selfish. He didn't care about what happened to me, he cared about his conscious.
"Didn't you once think of what I wanted? You may not have noticed, but I was perfectly happy with the life I had with you guys. Yes, there was some danger involved, but in case you didn't notice, I was saved every single time. I was happy with that Edward; that was what I wanted." I said.
"Also Edward, she had another vampire after her. You leaving only left her wide open for that nomad to attack her. Bella got extremely lucky that the time from you leaving her and the time she came here that she wasn't attacked. I know from talking with Jacob that she is a hunted woman. Now tell me, if Victoria had chosen to attack her, how could she have defended herself? You basically left her to die; you all left her." Tanya added.
I gave her a confused look as soon as she mentioned Jacob. When did she talk to him? When did she find out about Victoria? Clearly I'm missing something. The look Tanya gave me in return said that she'll tell me later.
"She would have been fine. The pack would have protected her." Edward said quickly; even I can tell that he hadn't actually thought of that.
"So you left what you thought was your mate, to the protection of our enemies? That's not a smart move Edward." Tanya said with a smug smile, she knows we're winning this.
"The pack never came into Forks, except for Jake and even he wasn't over that much. Edward you don't understand, I was basically a zombie; I did nothing but go to school and work. When you left, you took my life with you." I said.
"You would have gotten better; you just needed more time." Edward insisted.
I couldn't but let out a frustrated sigh. I know Edward is stubborn, but this is ridiculous. I want him to understand his mistake and I want him to get over this so that I don't have to worry about Edward trying to get me back with him. I do want a relationship with the Cullen's eventually, but if he acts like this, I don't know if I could.
"I wouldn't have gotten better Edward; I would have barely passed through life. I had already decided that no one else could take your place; how could they? How could a human possible compare to a vampire, it's not possible Edward. I was actually already thinking of living my life alone and dyeing alone." I said.
I know it's a bit dramatic, but it's true. How can a human with all our imperfections compare to a vampire and their perfection. I realize that the imperfections we have as humans are what make us, us; but when you've had perfection, how can you go to imperfection? It just can't happen.
"We are meant to be Bella." Edward said, sounding a little desperate.
His posture and tone make me think that he's about to give up his stance; I really hope he does. I don't want to keep fighting him on something that he will never win.
"No you're not Edward. She is meant to be a delicious snack for you; she is your singer and nothing else. You will find your mate eventually. I realize that you've been alone for a while; but I have centuries on you of not having my mate; so don't even use that against me. Kate and Irina haven't found their mate either and they're just as old as me. You have only lived for a hundred years; you have time, plenty of it, to find your mate." Tanya said in more caring tone than I ever thought she would use with Edward.
She's right though. Tanya is insanely old, as are Kate and Irina. Tanya just now found me and Kate and Irina have yet to find their other halves. Edwards measly hundred years alone compared to the three Denali sisters is nothing. The other Cullen's seemed to have gotten extremely lucky in finding their mates so quickly; Edward is just going to have to wait.
"I- I need time to think. I understand what you're saying, but I just… I can't accept this." Edward said.
He then slowly stood, nodded once at Tanya and then left without a word.
"So, what happened?" I asked Tanya.
"We got through to him. The singers call is very similar to a mate's call, like Jasper said. What Edward has to realize though is that it's only your blood that calls him where as it's your very existence that calls to me. I'm sure he'll be away for a few days to think things over and then he'll come back." Tanya said as she relaxed into the loveseat a little.
I doubt Edward will just get over it within a couple days, but maybe he'll not say anything stupid about mine and Tanya's relationship anymore. I'm a little surprised he didn't say anything about us being girls since from his time it was frowned upon. Maybe the talking they did earlier was getting him to get over at least that one thing. I'm not really sure though and I'm not going to ask since it's all been dealt with.
"You talked with Jake?" I asked as I curled into Tanya to get more comfortable; she makes a really good pillow.
"I did; the first time he came here. He gave me a warning about Victoria along with several other warnings." Tanya said.
Well that raised a couple questions for me.
"Several warnings?" I asked, wanting a further explanation.
"Yes, something along the lines of if I hurt you either physically or emotionally he would hunt me down and slowly burn me. I wasn't really paying attention to be honest since I know I would never hurt you." Tanya said.
"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked, referring to both Jake's stupid warning and about Victoria.
"Well, the Jake thing was stupid and doesn't matter since it won't ever happen. The Victoria thing is only because I don't know where she is or even for how long she'll be a threat." Tanya said.
"What do you mean how long?" I asked.
"Well, if you want to be changed in a month, then you'll be a newborn relatively shortly and if she attacks while you're a newborn; well, that will definitely be a fight I'll want to see because I'm sure it will be amusing. Victoria won't stand a chance against a newborn. If you chose to wait longer, then I'll just have to get into the mind set of keeping an eye on you; though I personally never planned on letting you out of my sight for long anyways." Tanya explained.
"You plan on stalking me?" I asked, sounding slightly amused by her not wanting me out of her sight.
"No, I'll be by your side the whole time I'm with you. I need to keep you in my sights so that I can wear down the part of you that seems to not want to sleep in my room or really just sleep with me in general." Tanya said.
For a small moment I was really proud of myself that I didn't blush at her insinuation of us having sex. I even allowed myself to briefly think that I'm finally starting to get immune to the teasing I seem to constantly receive. The feeling only last a couple seconds though; it ended when Kate came into the room.
"She means that she wants in your pants sooner rather than later. I'm personally thinking you'll both break down in sexual frustration and just have wild sex someplace random" Kate said, then she struck a pose as if she was actually thinking about where we would have sex for the first time.
"Maybe their first time will be in the kitchen." Emmett supplied.
"I'll save the kitchen for a later date Emmett. Our first time will be in my room and I'll make sure the whole house knows to vacate it." Tanya said with an evil smirk.
By now everyone, except Edward and Jasper (who I'm assuming is with Edward) were all in the living room, either sitting on furniture or standing. Also by this time, my face looks like the perfect tomato.
"That means she's going to make you a screamer." Kate said with a smirk.
"Okay, so I'm going to make myself some breakfast now." I said and quickly stood up to escape the teasing.
I bolted to the kitchen and I'm sure the only reason I didn't trip was because I held Tanya's hand me the whole time. When I got to the kitchen, Esme was already in there cooking, she gave me a small smile and I just decided to let her cook since clearly she wants to. Maybe this is her way of trying to get my forgiveness, if it is I definitely have no objections to it.
I get the feeling that for the next couple days I'm going to have the Cullen's all trying their best to get back into my good graces. Except for Rosalie, I doubt she cares one way or the other. The next few days will be interesting.
A/N: For those that have seen the other story I've posted, I just want to say that that story has nothing to do with the poll I have up. I only posted it because the idea was in my head and I wanted to get it out; it will be short. The story for the poll won't start until after this one is done, or at least when I know it's really close to being done.