Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
The last several days have been annoying. The Cullen's have done all they could to get me to forgive them. As much as I want to forgive them, I just can't right now. I can tell they are very sorry for what they did and they truly wish they didn't; but that still doesn't make up for the fact that they did leave me. If they had paid close enough attention to how Edward and I acted as a couple they would have known we weren't really mates and they wouldn't have left.
All of them had their own ways of trying to get me to forgive them. Emmett took it upon himself to buy a new gaming system for the Denali house and bought all sorts of games for it. When I told him that I still don't play, both he and Kate took it upon themselves to teach me. I can see myself forgiving Emmett very easily. He's like my big brother and yes he did make a mistake, but he's trying to make up for it and I know the mistake will never happen again because Tanya won't let it.
Esme cooked every single meal for me. Before I could even get up when I felt just slightly hungry, she already had a plate of something for me ready. I think Alice may have gotten in on that with her, but I never asked. Sometimes while I ate, she would replace Tanya's spot and talk with me. She offered to help re-model and decorate my room. At first I didn't want to accept the help; but she is an interior designer, so I did accept. I'm not sure when exactly we will start to go over everything, but I'm sure it'll be soon. I can see myself forgiving Esme fairly quickly as well also because well… she is the very epitome of all that is motherly good in this world, how can someone not forgive her?
Carlisle even had his own way to get my forgiveness; he along with Tanya talked with me about everything that has to do with becoming a vampire. Since Carlisle has turned several already and Tanya hasn't, he was a little more knowledgeable when it came to knowing if Tanya would be able to turn me and what she would need to do to do so. Tanya insisted that she wouldn't have a problem turning me, which makes me very happy. They both also went over how my newborn years would be like; that's where Jasper came into the picture.
I was very surprised that Jasper wanted to spend time with me. He couldn't spend as much time with me as the others, but he still did. He talked with me about my newborn years. He actually started teasing Emmett with me about how I'll be able to beat him in arm wrestling because I'll be a lot stronger than him. I'm looking forward to that personally. I made sure to tell Jasper again that I didn't hold anything against him; yes the paper cut was bad, but the others were able to control themselves. It was when Edward carelessly pushed me into the glass and injured me even more that caused the others, except Carlisle of course, to lose control.
Alice, my former best friend and whom I had actually looked forward to having as a sister, also tried to get me to forgive her. I understand why she did what she did and I'm grateful because she did what her visions told her was best to get me and Tanya together quickly. It's just after all the pain she let me go through for those months before we moved is very hard to get over. I can't help but think that there could have been something she could have done to get Charlie to move us faster.
I eventually learned that it was Alice that got Tanya to be a teacher; so that helped the little pixie, but not much because she also said that I still would have met Tanya it just would have taken a little longer for us to get together. When Tanya heard that it could have taken longer she thanked Alice profusely for getting to be a teacher; apparently I really tested her patience with making her wait as long as she did for us to be a couple.
Alice eventually got me to agree to let her partner with Esme and help decorate my room when it came time to remodel it. Tanya made sure thought we waited a little bit before that started, which annoys me a little because with talking with Esme I was starting to really look forward to remodeling it. I think Tanya wants to wait though because she wants a little more time to try and get me to agree to move in with her and I think she's feeling my resolve about waiting longer failing. The time I spend with her, the more I want to sleep in her room, or as she says our room. She still lies with me as I sleep; her uninterrupted cuddle time is what she claims, most nights, so it's basically like we're already in the same room.
Rosalie so far is the only Cullen, besides Edward since he hasn't come back yet, that hasn't tried to earn my forgiveness. I had let it slip at one point that I didn't hold any grudge against her because she had blatantly told me from the beginning that she didn't like and didn't want me in the family. She also made it no secret that she felt that the Cullen's should have moved away for a while; so when they actually did, I remember thinking that Rosalie finally got her way. So needless to say, I wasn't really mad at Rosalie. In retrospect, I should have kept that information to myself. Since Rosalie found out, she hasn't been nicer she still acts just as cold, but she likes to hold the fact that I'm not mad at her over the other's heads. Kate has also taken to teasing the Cullen's that still need my forgiveness that the ice queen has my forgiveness before them.
"I have a new reason for you." Tanya said as she walked down the aisle that I was shelving books around on.
Tanya and I are working from open to close today and she decided for us to move books around and put some from the back out front in the back and books that we had in the back upfront. Tanya naturally did all the heaving lifting and I just sat on the floor and shelved the books that she brought to me.
All day she has been coming up with reasons for me to move into her room. The first one was that it would be easier for us to have sex before and after I fall asleep; of course that got my face red and that didn't change my answer. Tanya also said that it would be easier for us to share cloths if the cloths are in the same closet. Apparently we are near enough to being the same size that she has already planned on wearing some of my cloths. I had thought that she didn't like my cloths since mine are more for comfort and her are more for fashion; but she said that wants to get her scent on my cloths and therefore me that way everyone knows I'm taken. I didn't have the heart to tell her that all the vampires I know that would take that into consideration already know I'm taken and the humans that I would be around that don't know wouldn't take a smell as a warning that I'm taken. She seemed too proud of her idea for me to burst her bubble.
"Oh ya? What is it?" I asked, not even looking up.
"The bed in the master bedroom is bigger and a lot more comfortable; you even agreed on that." Tanya said and I'm sure she has a smile on her face because I'm sure she thinks this will get me to change my mind.
To be honest, I'm just holding back on saying no right because it amuses me to watch her try and change my mind. I'm actually thinking that either today or tomorrow I will tell her that I'll move in. Alice has already seen that I will but can't see what day; fortunately she promised not to tell Tanya. Alice did tell me that I should tell Tanya soon though because even though both families are very amused by Tanya trying to change my mind, she keeps getting visions of Tanya just destroying my room to make me move in with her. I wouldn't be mad if she did because not only is it her house, but I have no objections to moving in with her; it's just I think she's so cute trying to get me to change my mind.
"You're right, I did; but I'm not too concerned about the size of the bed and the one in my room is comfortable enough." I said as I continued to shelf books.
Tanya sat down next to me and started helping me with my task. Naturally she sat down right behind me with her legs on either side of me so that if she wasn't shelving books with me I could have just leaned back against her. She was only using one hand to do so while her other hand wrapped around me waist and pulled me into her.
"Okay, how the bathroom? The bathtub in it is big enough for both us to fit in it and the one in your room isn't. I know we can still fit both of us in yours, but I think you would be more comfortable in the one in the master bedroom." Tanya said.
"Planning on taking a bath with me?" I asked as I fought of my blush from the thoughts of us in the bath together went through my head.
"Every day I plan on it and I personally think I'm very close to doing so." Tanya said then placed a kiss on the side of my neck. "In fact I think tonight will be the night we relax together in nice soothing bath." Tanya said and then placed another kiss on the other side of my neck.
Tanya's hands started to roam at this point. They were sliding up and down my legs and up and down my ribs. Her hands movements coupled with the kisses she keeps placing on either side of my neck, is making doing my job very lucky. It's a good thing I'm dating my boss's sister/coven leader or else I'm sure Kate would love to pretend to write me up for not doing my work.
"What makes you think that?" I asked, sounding a little out of breath.
I felt Tanya's smirk as she kissed me again before answering.
"It's just a feeling. I have to go do paperwork for this place so it doesn't get closed down. Can you please move the rest of the books from the backroom upfront and then start putting them up?" Tanya asked but didn't make any move to get up.
"Ya, I can do that." I answered.
I put the book I had just lifted to place on the shelf back down and leaned back into Tanya. As I leaned back, I unexpectedly found myself lying on the floor instead of leaving against Tanya. I head Tanya laugh from just off to my side and saw her turn the corner. The little jerk; Tanya loves to tease me; I should have figured this would have happened. Fortunately she leaves before I get too worked up; but I'm sure after our first night together that will change. I wish I could say that I wish Tanya would stop doing it; but I love her teasing me.
I slowly got up and cursed her under my breath and threatened not to kiss her for the rest of day (we both know this will never happen) as I walked to the backroom, knowing she would hear every word I was saying. I'm sure if I walked closer to the office where she is I would probably hear her laughing at me.
I easily found the boxes Tanya wanted me to move and my face instantly fell. I had thought that Tanya had already moved all the larger boxes at least to the front; but apparently she moved just the smaller ones. Kate had moved all the books she was going to eventually move to the front into boxes to eventually be moved. I hadn't had a chance to see the boxes yet, so when I saw the ones Tanya carried, which to me were large, I thought she was taking care of the bigger ones. The ones she moved were about half the size of the ones I'm going to have to move.
Luckily they are all on shelves and there are only fifteen boxes. So I don't have to lift them off the ground and I had expected there to be a lot more boxes that fifteen, so I guess that's a plus. I grabbed the cart that can hold two boxes, one on the lower shelf and one on the top to start moving the boxes. I will only put one box on though because I don't think I'll be able to lift the boxes off of the bottom shelf of the cart and I'm not sure I'll be able to get the cart moving with two boxes.
What seemed like forever later, I finally had all the boxes moved and half of them unpacked. This time though I wasn't able to just put them on the lower shelves and sit while I worked, I had book cases that I had to fill from top to bottom. So by then end of my shift, or closing, my muscles were extremely sore and I didn't feel like ever moving them again. Maybe I should ask Emmett to help me work out to build up muscles? I can just picture him laughing hysterically the moment I tried to do anything and end up tripping on my face. I think I'll just wait until I'm a vampire to get strength.
"So, how did you do with moving the boxes?" Tanya asked as I entered the office.
She still had a couple things to finish real quick before we leave so I decided to sit in there and wait for her instead of waiting out front and reading. When Tanya asked her question, I instantly started to glare at her.
"I know you know how it went." I said, trying to sound angry.
She could have moved the heavy boxes instead of the lighter ones, but instead decided to let me do so, so I am a little mad at her. The only reason why I'm completely mad at her is because technically it is my job and I have to do those things anyways and also how can I be mad at Tanya? It is Tanya after all, I don't think it's possible for me to really be mad at her and she knows this.
Tanya looked up from what she was reading and gave me a very innocent look that I'm sure Kate would be jealous of.
"Of course I wouldn't hun; this is the first time we've talked since I started this paperwork." Tanya said in a very innocent tone and the small smile she gave made me want to think she was actually innocent.
I know for a fact that she heard me because I've cursed Kate several times under my breath from the opposite side of the office when she decides to pull pranks on me while I work and I could hear her answering laugh clearly. So there's no doubt in my mind that she hear me.
"You so owe me." I said while narrowing my eyes at her.
"You're right I do and I promise as soon as we get I'll make it up to you." Tanya said with her still innocent smile.
I feel like I got her to agree to easily to pay me back and I don't even know how she'll pay me back. There are several things she can do to make me happy; the best option of course would be a nice make out session. Those always make me happy.
"You have to get my muscles to stop hurting." I said, adding a condition to the debt I'm claiming she owes me.
"I promise I will do so. Kate can actually finish this up tomorrow, why don't we go home and we can get you to relax and get your muscles to calm down as well?" Tanya said as she put the papers she had into a drawer.
"Sure." I said a bit hesitantly.
If I didn't actually want to go home right now to just lie in bed and relax, I would have asked what she has planned. It was only eight in the evening, but since I had started moving the boxes and unloading them practically right after dinner, means I've been doing hard work (for me at least since I have next to no muscles) for the last couple hours.
Tanya drove us straight home in complete silence. I moved the center console out of the way and snuggled up to Tanya's side as she drove. She wrapped an arm around my shoulders as I wrapped an arm around her waist and laid my head on her shoulder. I felt her place a kiss on the top of my head as I relaxed into her body.
When we got home I went straight to my room, I didn't see anyone on my way up, but I didn't have to pass the living room to get to the stairs and I'm sure they're all either in the living room or in their own rooms. Tanya followed up behind me saying out loud for the others that we were both staying up stairs for the rest of the night.
As I started looking for a pair of pajamas to wear, Tanya spoke up from the doorway where she had stayed since we got to my room.
"So, I know the perfect way to get your muscles to calm down." Tanya said with a smirk.
"How so?" I asked.
"Take a bath with me in my bathtub. The hot water will help you to instantly relax and I made sure a while ago that the tub is heated, so the water won't get cold; even with me in it." Tanya said.
I had actually thought of taking a bath, in my own bathtub of course, to relax before going to bed. I've done that a few times and I know for a fact that the water doesn't stay hot nearly as long as I would like it to. At least now I know why Tanya left me the heavy boxes and told me she knew I was going to take a bath with her tonight.
"You win." I said then started to move towards the door and followed her to her room.
Before she turned around to lead me to her room, I saw a huge grin on her face. I could have sworn that I heard Kate yell 'step one done' but her shout wasn't loud enough for me make out the words clearly enough.
Tanya went straight to her bathroom and started getting the bath ready. I've seen it before and I'll admit I would love to have this bathroom. It's insanely large; easily twice as large as mine and when I first saw mine I thought it was big. Not only does Tanya have a bathtub that has more than enough room for us both, but she also has a separate shower that she's stated can fit us both as well; which it can. Overall the bathroom is large and made for two people.
Once the bathtub was full Tanya moved back towards the door; which was just behind me since I have yet to really move into the room and closed it. She put both one hand on my shoulder and her other hand grabbed the cloths I had in my hand and tossed them onto the sink. She then started pushing me closer to the tub.
When we got there she made sure to get as close to me as possible to that I could feel her breasts on my back. She leaned in close to my ear and placed a kiss just below it before speaking.
"If you would like I can undress you." Tanya said, making my face grow red.
For a second I started to have doubts about doing this; but only for a second. Tanya is my girlfriend, my mate; I'm going to be with her forever. I'm going to eventually see her naked and vice-versa, so I can't be shy forever.
"This is just a bath right?" I asked, ignoring her question.
"Just a bath, nothing else; I refuse to make you do anything you don't want to do." Tanya said as she placed another kiss on my neck.
Her hands started playing with the hem of my shirt and every so often her fingertips would graze my skin. Her actions alone make me think she wants more than just a bath; but I know for a fact that what she just told me is true.
"Good." I said quietly, relishing the feeling of having Tanya this close and from the attention she's giving me.
She slowly started to raise my shirt up, slow enough to allow me object, but fast enough to make her intentions clear. My response was to simply raise my hands up. Once my hands were up she then quickly pulled off my shirt. With my shirt off, her hands instantly when to my stomach and started feeling around it. Her hands went as high up my bra and as low as my pants. Everywhere her hands touched on my skin it felt like she was leaving a trail of fire on my body.
Her mouth then attached itself to the side of my neck and started to slowly suck on it. The suction in combination of her tongue that would occasionally lick the spot was making my mind fog over. I vaguely felt her hands leave contact with my skin and start unbuttoning the jeans I had on. I could also just barely hear the zipper of my jeans being slid down. Tanya slowly lowered my jeans, making sure her fingers had as much contact with my legs at the same time. She seemed to refuse to allow her mouth to leave my neck so she simply allowed my jeans to fall to the ground.
A few seconds later I felt her finally pull away from my neck, then after placing a quick kiss to her creation, she slowly turned me around. Tanya made eye contact with me as soon as I turned around. Instead of looking over me, which is what I thought she would do first, she started to undress herself. Unlike with me, she quickly got rid of her shirt and her pants so we were now both in just our underwear.
Unexpectedly I couldn't find myself to blush in embarrassment of being practically naked in front of Tanya. Tanya held eye contact with me for a few more seconds before lowering her eyes to take in my body; I quickly followed suite.
As expected, Tanya's body that I've never seen before is just as pale as the part I have seen. Her stomach is perfectly flat and toned; I actually had to fight the urge to just run my hands over her stomach like she had previously done to me.
My eyes continued their journey back towards her face, but got caught once again on her breasts. I would say they are definitely bigger than mine, but not overly so. Just a few months ago I never would have thought that I would ever have an urge to just touch someone's breasts, but looking at Tanya's, I find myself really wanting to remove her bra and see what it is hiding from me.
Finally pulling away from her chest, I looked back up and locked eyes with Tanya's amused looking ones.
"Are you ready?" She asked, thankfully not teasing me about staring at her. Though I guess she can't do that since she was just doing the same thing; plus I'm sure at the very least Kate will tease me tomorrow.
Without actually answering, Tanya removed her bra and then quickly removed her underwear. I felt my mouth open slightly at her perfect breasts. I mentally shook my head after realizing that Tanya was probably waiting for me to do the same, so moved my hands to unclasp my bra in the back, but I stopped half way when she spoke up.
"Stop, I want to finish what I started." Tanya said; her voice a little deeper than what it was two seconds ago.
Looking back into her eyes I saw they had also darkened slightly as well. Usually with vampires, you should be wary if their eyes get darker, but with Tanya, I know without a doubt that if she had any concerns about not being able to control herself around me she wouldn't be here. I also know that she hunts while I sleep to make sure that we can do stuff like this and she won't lose control. So I'm not one bit afraid that she'll lose control.
Tanya took the necessary steps closer to me so that she was as close to me as she could without actually touching me. She placed her hands on my lower back then slid them up to my bra. She easily unclasped it but held it in place. She then leaned in closer to me and gave me a quick kiss as she pulled the bra off. The quick kiss grew into a heated and I so badly wanted to wrap my hands around Tanya, but with her taking her time pulling off my bra, I couldn't.
Eventually she pulled away from me when I had to breathe and dropped the bra to the floor. This time she broke eye contact quickly and took in my breasts. Her hands when to my stomach and moved upwards, but stopped before they touched my breasts. Her hands then slid down to underwear and she quickly pulled those off. Instead of just allowing those to drop, she pulled them all the way down and ended up kneeling on the ground directly in front of me as I stepped out of the last piece of clothing I had on.
"You are perfect my love." Tanya said as she stared at my most intimate place.
She quickly stood back up and turned me around to face the tub once more. She moved from behind me and climbed into the bath herself and sat down and leaned against the edge. The bubbles she had placed in there kept what I shamelessly was hoping to see from view.
"I really don't mind you standing there for me to look at all night; but these bubbles aren't going to dissolve for you anytime soon and I made this bath for you to relax your muscles. So why don't you join me?" Tanya asked when I just continued to stare at her covered chest for a couple seconds.
Even though I had managed to not blush while we both got undressed and as we both stared at each other; her one comment got me to blush.
"Sorry." I muttered as I climbed into the bath.
I lowered myself into the tub in front of her and sat in between her legs. As soon as I sat down, Tanya had her arms wrapped around me and pulled me as close as possible to her.
"No need to apologize Bella; I love that you want to look at me. I'll admit I was worried that you may not have liked what you saw; but clearly you love my body as I absolutely love yours." Tanya said into my ear.
The rest of the bath was spent in silence. I had my eyes closed and fully leaned against Tanya with my head on her chest. Because of how relaxing it was I actually ended up falling asleep in the tub. I only know this because I woke up as Tanya carried me to her bed. I thought about asking to have her take me to my own bed; but I decided enough is enough and to just give in to what we both want.
"You win." I sleepily mumbled; knowing Tanya would know what I mean.
"I know." Tanya said from behind me as she cuddled into my body.
I barely registered the smugness she had in her voice before I fell asleep.
A/N: Okay, so hopefully the bath scene is good. I've said earlier that I've never actually written scenes like this; meaning I've never really written any type of intimate scene. So hopefully this turned out all right. This is rated 'M' for a reason, so eventually I will wright the scene with them having sex for the first time. So a scene like this is just practice for me for the big scene that hopefully I won't screw up too badly.
I don't think there will be too many more chapters for this story. I already have planned out Victoria will come in and how she'll die as well how Bella will become a vampire and live happily ever after; so I'm pretty sure there aren't that many chapters left. That being said, I will most likely within the next couple days probably, post the story I had the poll up. Kate wins (this story will have nothing to do with the song fic one I have up right now, that one will be updated slowly) and after that one I'll probably do an Esme one.