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Tanya cupped my face in both her hands and leaned in as close as she could without actually touching me. I can feel her breath sweep over my lips as we both stare deeply into each-others' eyes. I can feel every part of Tanya that is touching me as she sits straddled on me as I lay on our bed. My hands are tangled in her hair, waiting for the moment our lips do touch.
"I want this, I always have; but if you're not ready, I will be more than happy to wait." Tanya said, giving me an out.
I know beyond a doubt that I want Tanya. I want her to be my first and my only partner. She's already seen me naked, so I shouldn't be worried about that. I have this need to touch her, to be closer to her. There's no reason that I can think of that I shouldn't take the next step right now. It's not like I have to worry about becoming pregnant or anything or even just anyone walking in on us.
Right now seems like the perfect time for us to have sex for the first time. The only thing that makes me hesitant is my lack of knowledge. I'm a virgin, I know she knows this; I'm concerned about what I if I don't do something right. What if I can't make her feel as good as she's expecting. Even more frightenedly, what if I get grossed out by something she might want me to do?
"I want this to; but…" I said trailing off, more than nervous about actually voicing my concerns.
Tanya smiled at me knowingly and gave me a kiss. Tanya bit my lower lip before pulling away to talk again.
"You'll be perfect. Trust me when I say, I can and will teach you everything you need to know. Most will be instinct either way." Tanya said.
"Okay." I said, not really knowing what else to say at this moment.
"Lesson one: clothes, although they can be nice at times, are at this time are completely not wanted." Tanya said.
She leaned in for another kiss and sat straight up, while pulling me up with her. With her in my lap, she finally released my head and I felt her hands slide their way down my chest and stomach and grab onto the hem of my shirt. When breathing became a problem, we pulled apart, but Tanya was quick to attach her lips to my neck.
With the sensation of just kissing Tanya and now the attention she's giving my neck, I could barely register the fact that she was raising my shirt. She kept her mouth attached to my neck, where I'm sure I'll find another hickey tomorrow there, until the last second.
"Up," She said as she let go of my neck.
I didn't even realize that I wasn't helping Tanya to take my shirt off by keeping my hands wrapped around her neck and tangled in her hair. I followed her directions and started to lift my arms as she told me, but I only got half way when I heard my shirt ripping in half.
"Too slow; we'll get you another one later." Tanya said distractedly as she threw my shirt over her shoulder.
With my shirt off, I decided to be bold; since I knew Tanya would eventually have to be naked also, I grabbed the hem of her shirt and lifted it off of her. Unlike me, she didn't need me to tell her to lift her arms; she was more than willing to do so.
I know I've seen her naked before; but not in this kind of setting. I also know that at this point in time, she still has her bra on so technically I can't see her breasts all that clearly; but still, it's a very nice sight. Deciding to be bold once again, I moved to take off her bra. Luckily, the clasp was in front so I didn't have to worry about not being able to unclasp her bra because I couldn't see what I was doing.
As soon as I unclasped her bra, Tanya took control back at attached her lips back onto mine. I got so distracted from her sudden kiss that I didn't even fight when she moved my hands away from her chest to take the bra off herself. I also barely registered the fact that Tanya managed to unclasp my bra and as she lowered us back to a laying position, had taken my bra off. We were both now completely topless and pressed against each other.
The feeling of her chest pressed against mine is much better than I would have ever though. I can even feel her nipples get harder… well harder than what her skin already feels like. The combination of our positions, lack of clothing, promise of what's to come and simply the fact that her body is cold, I felt my own nipples get hard as well.
Tanya let my lips go when I needed to breathe again and started to kiss my jaw line. I felt her hands rub along my stomach and just barley touching the base of my breasts, but not daring to actually touch them. My own hands seemed to be clawing at Tanya's back from the sensations she was causing in me.
Without warning I suddenly felt my entire half of my body get a blast of cold wind before an equally cold body straddled me again. It took a couple seconds for me to realize that I was no longer wearing my pants or underwear and either was Tanya. She was back in her same position, though now her kissed were starting to trail downwards and were now at my collarbone.
"I got impatient; sorry." Tanya said, not at all sounding sorry.
I opened my mouth to respond, just to tell her that I don't mind at all; but when I started to talk instead of words coming out, I ended up moaning. Tanya's mouth found my breast. Her mouth engulfed my nipple and she started sucking on it. I can feel her tongue occasionally flicking over the top. To top off what her mouth was doing, once of her hands made sure that my other breast was taken care of as well.
"Tanya." I gasped out.
I don't know why I felt the need to say her name; but for some reason I couldn't not say it. My hands decided to have a mind of their own and went from being on her back to her breasts. Tanya was more than happy to slightly adjust her position to allow room for my wandering hands. They felt so soft to me, even though I know vampire's skin is hard as rock.
Tanya gently bit down on my nipple that she had in her mouth before moving her mouth to the other one. I never imagined that getting bit there would feel so nice. Instead of the pain that I expected to feel; the small nip she took only gave me a feeling of pleasure. Taking my cue from her, I took both her nipples in between my thumb and finger and pinched.
"Harder." Tanya gasped out from around my breast as she continued to suck on it.
I blushed slightly at the almost pleading sound Tanya made. I forgot that with her strength, I can't be gentle with her like she has to be with; I have to be rougher, just for her to feel it. So as hard as I could I pinched her nipples; earning a small moan from Tanya. I couldn't help but smile in satisfaction that I made her make that noise.
With a small nip at my nipple Tanya release my breast and looked straight at me. Her hands started running up and down my sides as she gave me a smirk.
"Enjoying yourself?" Tanya asked.
Even though she had slightly sat up, I kept my hands firmly attached to her breasts; I hadn't even thought about releasing them since they felt so right in my hands. My face quickly turned red and I removed my hands from her.
"The fun is just about to begin honey." Tanya said with a wink.
She slid herself down my body. She lowered her mouth back down to my breasts and gave them each a peck from her lips and then she started trailing kisses down stomach. Her hands, seemingly not able to keep still, kept roaming all over from my breasts, to my stomach and even to my thighs. When Tanya got to my hips; she stayed there and gently bit me there. Not hard enough to draw blood, but hard enough to leave a mark.
Again, I never once thought I would enjoy it; but Tanya leaving marks on me only seemed to turn me on even more. My hands, still thinking on their own, wrapped themselves in Tanya's hair and started directing her head lower to where I want her.
Once my hands were on her head, I felt Tanya' breath in the one place no one has ever seen before. I fought as hard as I could to not let my embarrassment show about Tanya literally seeing everything, but I could still feel my face get a little hot.
"You smell and look beautiful. I bet you taste just as good." Tanya said.
My eyes widened slightly at her words. Of course, being a hormonal teenager than went to public school, I knew about people going down on people; but I never once though Tanya would do that. The only thing I could ever think about when I heard about was how awful it must taste.
I felt Tanya's tongue take a giant lick from my lower lips to my clit; making my shiver in pleasure. I heard her moan slightly from just licking me before I felt her attack my clit. She started to lick and suck at what seemed to me the same time. The pleasure caused every fear and worry in my head to completely go out the window.
The pleasure from just what she was doing now was more than anything I had ever felt before. I didn't even try to stop the noises coming out of my mouth. I moaned with no restraint and she continued to ravish me. I felt myself starting to grind against her face; looking for any kind of friction. I felt her giggle against my clit before I felt her enter me with a finger.
I instantly tightened my grip I had on her hair and did my best not to yell out Tanya's name. I felt her finger gliding in and out of me with such ease and the pleasure it was giving me once again made me think it couldn't get better. Once again, Tanya proved me wrong; I felt her add another finger and filling me up even more.
Her fingers seemed to speed up slightly with the added finger. Her mouths attention on my clit never once slowing down and seamlessly keeping pace with her fingers; it was an amazing feeling. When she added a third finger, I had to fight to keep my eyes open from all the pleasure she was giving me. With the third finger, she started pumping in and out of me even faster.
"Cum Isabella." Tanya said right before she bit down on my clit.
I don't know how I was able to at just her command; but my orgasm hit me like a train. I felt myself arch off the bed and I started seeing stars as Tanya helped me ride out my orgasm. I could no longer focus and think about what she was doing to me beyond the fact that she was still giving me apt attention as she licked up everything that came out of me.
After what seemed like forever, finally collapsed back down onto the bed in a complete daze. I felt Tanya's fingers leave me and then felt her crawl up to lay next to me. As she came within my line of vision, I saw her licking my juices off of her fingers. What surprised me though, was that there was blood on her fingers. Sensing my concern she started to explain as she cuddled up next to me.
"You were a virgin Bella; I broke your hymen. I made sure to do so when you orgasmed though so that hopefully you wouldn't feel any pain. From what it looked like, you didn't; which is good." Tanya said.
"But, my blood…" I said.
I couldn't really complete my sentence since I'm still trying to catch my breath. I'm sure Tanya knows what I mean; it's kind of obvious.
"Is delicious; but there's no way I would allow myself to lose control with you Bella. So don't worry about it." Tanya said.
If I was in trouble, I'm sure Alice would have seen a vision and would have been here already. Also, if it was a problem, I would most likely already be dead or started the process to be turned by now. Most importantly though, Tanya is my mate and if she says she's fine with my blood, then I believe her without a doubt.
After a minute of catching my breath and just basking in what just happened, I decided it's time I returned the favor. Hesitantly I moved slightly away from Tanya and straddled her lap like she had done to me not so long ago. Looking down at her and seeing her pitch black eyes filled with lust, I couldn't help but lick my lips and allow my excitement about what I'm about to do show on my face.
"Do you want something Bella?" Tanya asked in a husky voice.
"I want you." I said before I attacked her lips and started to do everything she did to me to her.
It was mid-day the next day that I woke up entwined with Tanya. I had my legs tangled with hers, my arms were very loosely wrapped around her waist and my head was once again using her breasts as a pillow. As I woke up I tightened my grip around her waist and snuggled my head more into the best pillow I've ever had.
"I'm all for going again; but I should probably tell you that the family is here and they would hear everything. Not that I would mind of course; but I think you would." Tanya said after chuckling at me and as she tightened her own grip on my waist.
"I'd rather not." I mumbled into her chest.
Tanya's only response was a kiss on the top of my head. We stayed in this position for a few minutes; not talking but just enjoying each-other's company. After a few minutes though, Carmen, through the door since both Tanya and I were still naked and didn't have anything covering us, told me to come downstairs to eat something since I hadn't eaten anything since yesterday at lunch. I all for just laying on Tanya like I was for the rest of the day; but Tanya thought it best I get food. So when I made no move to get off her, she took matters into her own hands.
She carried me into the bathroom where she proceeded to help me get clean in the shower. We didn't do anything, even though Tanya valiantly tried, because I don't want to deal with Kate's teasing right now. Give me a few months, or years, to get used to being this intimate with Tanya before Kate starts teasing me about it.
With all of Tanya's advances while we were both taking a shower; we eventually made it downstairs an hour later. I never thought it would be that hard to get her to calm down. I guess that would be the mating bond at work with Tanya wanting to constantly be with me… or in my pants, which ever works I guess. I personally liked her attempts so I was in nowhere close to being mad with her being so persistent; she only stopped trying, when I told her I don't want to put up with Kate's teasing.
Tanya walked downstairs with a glare on her face that even frightened me a little. I knew she was looking for Kate. Tanya had growled something out along the lines of 'if Kate ruined this for me I'm going to kill her myself' as we finally finished our shower. Walking downstairs, Irina was quick to point out that Kate had just left for her store and wouldn't come back until after Tanya cooled down.
Tanya pouted at that and continued to pout all throughout my meal. It wasn't until we settled onto the loveseat, cuddling of course, that her pout finally disappeared. I had intended to watch T.V. when I went in there, but the family decided to instead fill me in on the fight. I'm not used to actually being involved in what all they did, since Edward never wanted me to know, so it was a pleasant surprise when they told me literally everything that happened.
The conversation went from how they killed Victoria to when I wanted to be changed. After a long conversation about every factor we could all think of and after Kate had decided to come home (Tanya only growled at her and Kate offered a sincere apology), I finally came to a decision about when I wanted to get turned.
I know I don't want to wait long, so being turned at the same age of when Tanya was is out of the question. I also want to make sure that I have plenty of time to respectfully lose my parents. I only say lose them because that's exactly what will happen. I can't continue to be in their lives until they die because how weird would that be if I showed up at their funeral looking the same as I do now? Or, imagine how much it would hurt them that I always talk with them over the phone or send letters, but never visit. I can't imagine how much that would hurt them or even just give them suspicions about something not being right and they might try to find me.
So I decided that I would wait until I turn twenty-one, make sure I'm at least legal drinking age even though I won't ever be able to drink when I'm a vampire, to be turned. That gives me about three years or so to distance myself enough from my family and then to be turned.
Once I told decided when to be turned, the first thing Tanya said was 'Thank god it won't be that long. I can't wait until your newborn years with unrestrained, unrestricted and unlimited sex. It will be wonderful'. That ended that conversation since Tanya officially embarrassed me and I changed the topic to something else: the Cullen's.
The Cullen's, my now cousins, were still in town but just giving us some space. Apparently Tanya had called earlier, before I woke up and said that she doesn't want any of the Cullen's around me. Carmen told me, since Tanya refused to say anything about it, she did that because her instincts, after being so intimate, were probably screaming at her to keep all threats to her relationship away; hence why Kate left for a bit. Carmen explained that because they are the family of my ex-boyfriend and my ex himself, Tanya wants to be safe that I'm all hers.
I tried to reassure her that she doesn't have to worry about me leaving her for the Cullen's but I guess her instincts still won out and the Cullen's didn't come to visit until the next day. Rosalie even made sure to point out that she could barely smell me over all of Tanya's scent that Tanya made sure to leave on me.
I can now officially say that I now have a family that I truly love and loves me back. Not that I didn't have before with Renee and Charlie or even the Cullen's, but now it's eternal. I'm looking forward to starting my new life as a vampire in a couple years.