NCIS: LOS ANGELES

GET OUT OF MY HEAD, DEEKS!

DISCLAIMER:

NCIS: Los Angeles & characters from the show do not belong to me.

RATING: M

This is my first M rated story. I will try not to put too much detail into the M rated parts.

SUMMARY:

Kensi for the past few nights has been dreaming of...Marty Deeks. She had been waking up and having trouble going back to sleep...Everyone is beginning to notice!

CHAPTER 22: EIGHT YEARS...

FLASHBACK *

KENSI'S P.O.V.

MAY 26th...

EIGHT YEARS AGO...

Marty had gone back to work after taking two weeks off. I decided since both kids were sleeping I would try to get some sleep as well.

I had just closed my eyes when it happened...

I heard someone the sound of someone breaking in, and then Dani and D.J. were crying. I grabbed my gun and as fast as I could, since I was still recovering from the C-Section...I made my way toward their room.

A man with a ski mask covering his entire face came out of Dani and D.J.'s room with D.J. in his arms.

"Put my son down!" I demanded as I ran forward, but he was faster and by the time I caught up with him...

He was out the front door and getting in the passenger's seat of a car. Then with a squeal of tires...he was gone in a dark blue car with no plates.

I grabbed my phone and made and made my way back down the hall to Dani and D.J.'s room. I gave a sigh of relief when I saw that Dani was okay, but the question was...

Why had he only taken D.J.?

I could not think of an answer as I felt the tears in my eyes and called Marty at work.

"Ma-Marty it's D.J. some..." I couldn't say anymore as I leaned against the wall and sunk to the ground between the two cribs.

It seemed like hours, and then Marty was home and found me. Not far behind him were Sam and Callen.

"Kens what happened?" Marty asked and at first I wasn't sure that I could talk. "H-He took D.J." I managed to say at last.

I notice Marty stand up long enough to look in Dani's crib and makes sure as I had the she was okay.

"Who took D.J.?" Marty asked.

"I-I don't know. He had a ski mask. No plates...dark blue car." I said numbly. "I thought your mom was coming by today to help you." Marty said. "She was supposed to come by later. I lay down to take a nap since they were both asleep." I replied.

Then I couldn't hold back anymore and began to sob. I was afraid of what could happen to D.J. and I knew that Marty was to. *

END FLASHBACK

PRESENT...

MAY 26th...

DANI'S P.O.V.

Mom and daddy picked me up from school two hours ago. Now I could hear them yelling about something

For as long as I can remember on this day they always had the same argument. I was scared and I know that a few times they had come close to not living in the same house anymore.

I heard from everyone what they were like before they finally got married and before I was born. Maybe if I had not been born...they would still be happy.

With the tears streaming down my face I made my way out of my room and grabbed the cordless phone. I caught a little of what they were saying.

"You should have stopped him, if you had this wouldn't have happened!" Daddy yelled.

"Really Marty...it's been eight years and you're still blaming me for that? What was I supposed to do? I was still recovering from a C-Section and if I made one wrong move he could have hurt D.J. or worse...he could have killed D.J.!" Mom yelled back.

That was the last thing I heard before slamming my door. The one thing I could never figure out is...

Who was D.J.? Was he a brother they had never told me about?

Mom and daddy always seemed upset when it got near my birthday and then on this day...the argument.

I dialed a number I knew by heart, because I called him when I couldn't talk to mom or daddy about something. After a few rings he answered.

"Un-uncle G?" Was I said before I started to cry harder. "Dani...what's wrong?" Uncle G. asked me. "Th-they're fighting ag-again." I replied. "All right I'll be there soon." Uncle G. promised, but before he could hang up I stopped him with my next question.

"Uncle G.! Who is D.J.?" I asked and for a moment I just heard silence.

I knew he was trying to decide if he should answer me or not.

"I'll tell you when I get there okay?" Uncle G. questioned and I just nodded before remembering he couldn't see me through the phone. "Okay." I whispered.

KENSI'S P.O.V.

I was crying and so was Marty, every year we had the same argument.

Marty always blaming me for D.J. getting kidnapped, it was getting harder every year and I'm not sure how we stayed together as long as we have.

Eight years ago after D.J. had been kidnapped Marty had been there and understood and then the next year he had started to blame me.

I never understood why because I told him the same thing...there was nothing I could do without putting D.J.'s life at risk.

Now I don't know why I try to tell him anymore that it wasn't my fault, maybe it's time we accept the fact that we will not make it another year.

"Kensi..." Marty said and reached out but I stepped back out of his reach. "It's the same every year Marty. You always blame me and I've told you every time that there was nothing I could do without the risk of D.J. getting hurt. May-maybe it's time...that we say goodbye to each other." I told him sadly.

"Princess..." Marty pleaded in a choked voice. "I can't take another year of you blaming me Marty." I said looking into his eyes.

I could see the same pain I felt from losing our son, but now there was something else there as well...defeat, sadness and hurt.

MARTY'S P.O.V.

I couldn't believe what Kensi had just said...that she didn't want to be with me anymore.

It seemed our 'thing' had burned out. I could see the pain, sadness and defeat I knew we both felt it.

We had been trying to work through this every year, now she wanted to give up...maybe she was right.

But what about Fawn…She was never supposed to grow up in broken home.

Of course Kensi, Monty, Fawn, D.J. and I were supposed to live together...almost like the end of a fairy tale.

"Maybe your right Kens...maybe it is time for us to say goodbye." I said with sadness before grabbing my keys and walking out the door.

I heard her began to sob as I closed the door behind me and I wanted to go back, but I didn't have the strength right now.

So making sure I had my surfboard I head to the one place where I could always find peace...the beach.

DANI'S P.O.V.

It seemed like it had been hours since I called Uncle G. Just a little while ago my parents had stopped yelling and I opened the door.

"Maybe your right Kens...maybe it is time for us to say goodbye." Daddy had said.

Before I heard the front door open and close, then mom started to cry harder and I closed my door. It seems like this year my parents have fought more over the last couple of weeks than ever before and it seems like they don't think of me anymore.

I climbed on my bed and facing the wall I started to cry.

I don't know how long it's been since I called Uncle G. I wondered if he was coming at all...then as if he knew I was thinking about him I heard a knock at the front door and his voice.

KENSI'S P.O.V.

I opened the door to find Callen and Sam standing there.

"What..." I began confused. "Where's Deeks?" Callen asked. "H-he left...it's over for us. What are you doing here?" I asked. "Dani called...she heard you fighting again and it upset her." Callen explained.

I led the way with Callen and Sam behind me down the hall to Dani's room and before I even knocked on the door I heard Dani crying.

"Dani," I asked as I knocked on the door and then opened it.

When I did she was facing the wall, I walked over and sat down on her bed beside her. I put my hand on her shoulder, but did not acknowledge I was there.

"Dani..." Callen said and then Dani did roll over to look at us. "I-I don't wa-want da-daddy to l-leave." Dani said as I pulled her onto my lap. "Dani sometimes..." I began but was unsure how to continue.

"Wh-who's D.J.," Dan asked taking me by surprise and I closed my eyes trying to will the tears away that were threatening to fall again.

"I think we need your daddy here because he will want to be a part of that conversation." I explained to her. "Is...Is daddy coming home?" Dan asked looking hopeful.

"Your daddy will always be there for you and he should be home in a little while." I told her and just hoped I was right.