A/N: Hi so here is the longest chapter so far! I'm so proud of myself but enough about me here you go! :)
Warnings: Swearing, MalexMale, Mpreg and abortion themes
Disclaimer: I own nothing..
"Gwen, I'm going to be late for my appointment" he huffed standing at the door as she rumaged for her keys.
"I'm trying to find the keys so we can get there" Over the past week Gwen and Lance had tried so hard to convince Merlin he was making a mistake but the stubborn boy wouldn't budge. They tried bribary and even blackmail but he was adament he couldn't keep the baby and today was the day of his appointment and Gwen was feeling very low, she had over a week to stop her friend and she couldn't. Gwen had agreed to go but she was only doing this because she felt obigated to as he is her best friend and she should be supportive.
"Found 'em" she smiled fakely placing them in her pocket following her friend to her fiat.
"You seen Morgana recently?" Merlin asked as they got into the car.
"Yes actually, we went for coffee yesterday" she smiled putting her seat belt on.
"Is she ok?"
"Yes fine, her and Leon miss you though" Gwen informed hoping to guilt trip her friend into calling them.
"Well I miss them too, I'll call them in a few days and we can all go out for dinner or something" Merlin answered looking out the window.
"What it's ok to talk to them because you wont be pregnant anymore?"Gwen asked snidely
"Yes, then I don't have to worry about them telling anyone" Merlin snapped back.
"That sounds good, where we going?" she sighed quickly changing the topic.
"Don't know maybe to that pub we love so much?"
"That'd be great, Kilgharrahs it is!" she beamed before they reasumed a semi-comfortable silence. Gwen was staring at the road with so much anger, not with Merlin personally but his desicion. She hated the thought of abortions, after all the baby had a heartbeat after a week and he was six weeks along. She kept sneeking glances at her friend out the corner of her eye to try and catch his with a doubtful facial expression. If she did maybe she could push further but much to her dismay the look never came and they were nearing closer and closer to the clinic. When they were stopped at the traffic lights that were quite literally round the corner from it she had to try one last time, "I'm sorry but I have to say this, your baby has a heartbeat and when you go in there and take that tablet that tiny heart will stop. Do you realise this?" she asked turning to him.
"I know" he said still gazing out the window and not shocked by his friends outburst. Actually he was expecting it before they go in the car. he was suprised she contained her upset this whole time.
"And it doesn't bother you?" she said begining to cry tears of anger.
"Of course it does!" he yelled turning to face her.
"Right this makes complete sense" she sighed wiping the tears from her eyes and continued driving when the lights turned green. Merlin didn't respond to her comment. When they did pull up Merlin wordlessly got out the car, he and Gwen had agreed she'd drive him but wait in the car. His heart sped up as he walked up the three stairs to the enterance of the clinic, he walked up to the reception and gave the pretty girl his name. She nodded and he took a seat silently. Around him there was a teenage girl and a teenage boy and like him they were all alone. Merlin kept twidling his thumbs and looking at the clock, the nerves he hadn't been feeling were suddenly on top of him. The reality of everything finally setting in, he even began to sweat. "Merlin Emrys" he heard a woman call. Shakily he stood up and walked over to were she'd called from and went into the room. It was exactly like a doctors surgery it smelt like bleach and was all white, "Take a seat, Mr. Emrys and there are a few questions I need to ask before we an proceed if that's ok?" the blonde doctor asked taking her own seat as he gingerly took his.
"That's fine" he said in a tone that could barely be classed as whisper.
"Okay. How certain are you of your conception date?" she asked looking down at the notes she had in her lap which Merlin pressumed was the information he'd given the girl over the phone just over a week back.
"One hundred percent" he nodded still looking at the floor.
"Right and have you coonsidered every single option?"
"Yes" he lied begining to twiddle his thumbs again.
"And the other father, is he not on the scene anymore?" she inquired jotting down some extra bits.
"No, he never really was" Merlin sighed biting his tongue to stop the tears from falling.
"That's all the questions I have. Now can you lay onto the bed for me?" she asked standing and walking over to the examination bench. He stood up his legs wobbling, threatening to give way beneath him. Slowly and carefully he sat on the bench before swinging his legs up so he was laid completely on the bed. "Can you please lift your shirt up so I can see you stomach?" she asked pulling over the ultrasound machine. He didn't verbally respond he just did as she asked before dropping his hands to the side of his body.
"This'll be quite cold" she informed before squeezing the gel onto his tummy. When he heard the machine turn on he closed his eyes so he couldn't see it, he squeezed them as tight as he could and a tiny tear escaped. The need to look was growing greater and greater so he resorted to clenching his hands into fists. Just as he was about to give in she clicked it off and removed the tool from his stomache before wiping away the gel.
"You were very good with your dates" the doctor smiled as she returned to her seat urging Merlin to follow.
"Well, if your completely sure about this, I will tell you how we'd usually proceed"
"I don't know what to do" Merlin replied honestly begining to sob.
"Is there anyone I can call for you? It's usually good to have someone come with you"
"My friend is in the car waiting for me. She didn't want to come in, she doesn't want me to do this" he cired.
"I can see your really don't want this" she said taking hold of his hand and giving it a reasuring rub.
"But I have to. There is not way I can take care of it alone"
"What about your friend, who came with you today?" the brown haired doctor asked not wanting the boy infront of her to do something he would later regret.
"She offered help but I can't ask that of her"
"Your not asking. She's offering"
"I'm sorry to have wasted your time" Merlin said wiping his tears
"I'm glad you didn't do this, I could see you wanting to look when I was scanning your belly. I have a feeling your going to be an amazing father" she smiled warmly. Merlin stood and gave the doctor a hug before whispering thank you in her ear. He left with no feelings of regret or dred but of happiness and glee. When he got to the car, he could see Gwen had been crying and he felt slightly guilty for putting her through all this instead of listening to her from the very begining. Merlin opened the car door, climbed in and put his seat belt on.
"When is your next appointment?" Gwen asked as if she didn't want to know as she put the keys in the ignition and woke up the car.
"I don't have one"
"What? I thought you we in there for a while but-"
"I didn't do it" he whispered cutting the girl off mid sentence.
"What?" Gwen gasped not sure she heard him properly.
"I could do it, it's my baby and I'm keeping it" he smiled meeting his friends equally pleased face for the first time since he got in the car.
"Oh god I'm so happy" she beamed wrapping her arms around him and pulling him to a loving embrace. She pulled back ever so slightly and kissed him on the cheek.
"If you ever want to talk about it or anything you know where I am" Gwen informed him happily pulling away from the hug and reversing out the car parking space.
"If you wanted to go for coffee and talk about it now, that would be ok"
"Of course" They drove in a comfortable silence all the way into town where their favourite coffee shop was. Arriving at the coffee shop they did their usual routine, Gwen ordered their usual drinks while Merlin went to there booth in the corner by the window.
"There we are" she smiled placing to beverage infront of him and taking her own seat.
"What did you want to talk about?"
"You and Lance offered to help and if your still offering I'll except it but after the baby is born and I have a job I'll pay back ever penny"
"Alright" she nodded with a serious expression urging her friend to continue.
"And as for Leon, Morgana and Arthur. I still want to go out with Leon and Morgana but I never want Arthur to know" he insisted making the last part very clear.
"Okay, so are we calling them tonight?" she asked
"Yes but I don't want them to know..yet"
"How are you going to keep this from them?" Gwen asked cocking her eyebrow in confusion.
"I'm not sure but I'll find away" he said sipping his warm drink.
"Well I'll help in anyway I can, we'll have to book a doctors appointment tomorrow and then there is what you can and can't do while your pregnant"
"I think your going to have more fun with this than me" he chuckled at her enthusiasm.
"Oh you have no idea how much I actually am going to love doing all this" she giggled back. They finished their drinks discussing little thing and making general small talk. When they left and headed for home Gwen knew how happy Lance was going to be. He didn't want Merlin to get rid of it either because he loved babies, Lance had a niece and two nephews who he adored and Merlin was like a brother to him so he would be gaining another in some respect. They chatted and giggled as they walked up the stairs and when they opened the door Lance was sat watching repeats of 'the apprentice'. He was rather angry because he knew what Merlin had left to do and he just heard them giggling on the way up the stairs.
"Lance? Merlin has something to tell you" Gwen said happily and Lance just turned to look at Merlin as a sign to continue.
"I didn't do it, I'm keeping my baby" the big eared boy smiled. Lance just sat there in silence for a moment before going over and hugging his friend. "I'm glad, you'll be a great dad"
"Thank you"
"I'll put the kettle on" Gwen said heading into the kitchen.
"You know we still want to help in anyway we can" Lance smiled patting Merlin on the back.
"I know, thank you. She's already taken over" Merlin whispered with a chuckle
"It'll get worse the closer you get" Lance assured
"I'm just going to call Leon and Morgana"
"She convinced you?"
"No, I want to" he smiled walking into the bathroom and pulling out his mobile. He searched for his friends number and dialled it. She answered after three rings, "Hello? Merlin?"
"Hi, Morgana. How are you?"
"I'm good. We've missed you"
"I know, I'm sorry. I'll explain..eventually but we were wondering if you and Leon fancied going to dinner at Kilgharrahs tomorrow night?" he asked in a happy tone.
"Yes! That would be amazing, we need a catch up" she answered her tone full of delight
"Great, can you make the reservation? Your name does wonders"
"Of course. I still haven't spoke to him...you know. I love you more"
"I love you too and I'm so sorry I've been avoiding you"
"It's fine, you can make it up to me by telling me why tomorrow and I'll buy dinner but you have to buy coffee the day after?" she said cheekily and Merlin could practically hear the smirk on her face.
"You drive a hard bargin, Miss. Pendragon"
"You love me for it"
"Alright, so I'll see you tomorrow"
"I'll text you the time" Morgana said before hanging up. Merlin smirked at his phone before he went back into the bedroom/living room/kitchen. "So? What'd she say?" Gwen asked looking away from the TV.
"She said yes, she's going to make a reservation and text me the time" Merlin smiled as he sat on Lances bed and sofa in one next to his friends. As they began getting into the televison Merlins phone buzzed. It was form Morgana. "She says seven" he said before turning his attention back to the 42" screen. "You seem more chipper" Lance observed his friend.
"I am and I have a strange feeling everything is going to work out great" Merlin beamed placing his hand onto his tummy and begining to rub it lovingly...
A/N: I don't know how abortions work so if I got anything wrong, I'm sorry. But what'd you all think? xoxoxo