A/N: Hii so this is long long overdue and I'm very sorry so I hope you enjoy.

Warnings: Swearing, MalexMale, Mpreg

Disclaimer: I own nothing...

Arthur waited for a couple of weeks till he knew Merlin had moved, now all he had to do was find out what number apartment. So he collected the bag full of the things he had bought for their child and text Morgana. From Morgana: Number 9, have fun xx

He collected everything he needed, grabbed his keys and headed out. When he came to Merlins block there was a man exiting the buliding who'd gladdly held the door for him but now was when the nerves set in. Arthur was so close to them as he walked up to the board which told him what numbers were on which floor-number nine was on the third floor. He walked up the stairs his heartbeat increasing everytime he climed another staircase and then finally he came to it. Number 3. The blonde passed doors 7, 8 and infront was 9 then finally after a moments breath him lifted his hand and knocked...

Merlin had just unpacked his last box and was popping the kettle on, he'd been very busy the past couple of days. His son had began what felt like a feaus' world record for the number of kicks in a day when he decided to unpack. This is something he was still continuing and over the past few weeks he'd learnt that tea calmed him. Pulling a cup out the cupboard he placed in a tea bag but no sugar and a spoon. Then just as he was going to pour it there was an unexpected knock on the door. "Just a minute" he shouted quickly tidying odd bits on his way to the door. He glanced at the room and nodded before turning and pulling the door.

"Arthur" he gasped not entirely sure what else to say.

"Hello Merlin"

"Wha...what are you doing here?" he stammered still in a slight state of shock.

"I came to see you and give you these" Arthur smiled awkwardly handing over the bag.

"Oh..thanks. You didn't have too" Merlin shrugged.

"I wanted too" after he'd said it they began an uncomfortable silence.

"Do you to come in, the kettle just boiled" the pregnant boy asked meekly moving out the way so Arthur could come in.

"If you don't mind"

"Not at all" he smiled heading over to the counter and pulling out another cup. Arthur scanned the room and his eyes landed on a black leather sofa in the centre of the room infornt of a large TV screen. He cautiously sat on the sofa and stared at Merlin through the screen, he could see the large bump and it made him feel at home.

"Here you are" Merlin said handing him a cup before sitting beside him with a safe distance between.

"You always remember" the blonde chuckled.

"Of course. It amazes me that you'd think I could forget" when Merlin realising what way Arthur could've took that, "I didn't mean..I-"

"Calm down Merlin" Arthur assured. Merlin sighed with relief but then remembered he had to take his medication. Pulling out the bottle he uncapped it and took out two mini pills. "What are they for?" Arthur quizzed.

"It's nothing" Merlin assured with a shrug.

"It's obviously something" the blond pushed.

"Well I have this thing called PIH- Pregnancy Induced Hypertention-and these pills help me keep it under control" Merlin explained with Arthur hanging on every little word.

"What exactly can happen?"

"It can cause early labour and it has on occasion caused a stroke" As soon as the last words slipped past Merlins lips the blonds eyes went comically wide and they brimmed with tears.

"Arthur? What's wrong?"

"I wasn't here for you..through all of this" he sobbed wiping away the tears that rolled down his cheeks.

"I wasn't alone...I had Gwen, Lance and Morgana" the dark haired boy smiled leaning over and taking hold of his hand.

"But I'm his father..I should have been with you. It was my job as his father to be there for you and I wasn't. You have no idea how much I regret putting you through all this, if I had been more of a man I could've been here with you holding you hand every step of the way" Arthur cried never wanting to let Merlins hand go.

"Not now, please" he whispered to his stomach.

"What was that?" Arthur asked looking up from his and Merlins hands.

"Nothing" he said smiling at his ex-friend and rubbing his stomach. Arthur looked down and saw what Merlin was doing and could stop the need to ask. "What's wrong?"

"He's kicking. Again" he said with an eye roll.

"Can I..feel it?" he inquired tentatively. Merlin placed his mug on the table, "Feel here" he said nervously moving the had of Arthurs he was holding to the side of the bump. The blonde licked his lips as his flat palm made contact with Merlin. They waited in anticipation but when it did happen a wide grin spread across both their faces, "That's...amazing. The best thing I've ever felt"

"Why did you say those things to Morgana the night you found out I was pregnant?" Merlin asked wnting so badly to know.

"Because I didn't know how to cope and I didn't want to hurt you or the baby like my dad did me" Arthur answered honestly still not removing his hand from Merlins belly.

"You could've just said that to begin with"

"You didn't tell me to begin with" Arthur smiled back.

"True" he smirked. "Can I ask you something else?"

"I owe you so so much Merlin, you can ask anything else you want"

"When we were going to...when the others walked in..why did you.. the way you acted.."

"I know and it was inexcusable but I meant what I said" Arthur said taking both of Merlins hands in his own.

"You say that now but what if Vivian or someone see's us with our son in the streets? You going to push us into an alley so no one can see us or let go of my hand?"

"No, I don't care what anyone thinks anymore. I want you. Both of you" After a moment of silence Merlin spoke "I can't take that chance...if it was just me I had to think of I'd give you a chance but not with my baby"

"Please Merlin, I want to be there"

"I'm sorry" he sobbed pulling his hands from Arthurs. "I think you should go now. Please" Arthur nodded and walked to the door but before he left he said "I won't give up. When are you due?"

"I go for my cesarean 2 months tomorrow" Merlin smiled

"I'll be waiting for the call from you, I hope to get one" with that he left. The pregnant boy couldn't believe what he'd just done, he said no to everything he'd always wanted and he felt so horrible. Arthur had told him he wanted him and the baby to be a family. Merlin had dreamt about this but he'd said no, "Do you think that was the right thing to do baby? Me neither. What do you think I should do? Run after him? Maybe we could have a full on Bridget Jones moment" he chuckled to himself. He couldn't wait till the next two months were over...

A/N: Do you approve of Merlins choices? Let me know..? :) xoxoxo