Thanks be to EBT.
And yet, I keep going back to you.
I don't know why I keep going back to you.
I can say it's because I love you, but I'm not stupid.
Despite my actions over the past year, I'm really not.
I know love isn't supposed to feel like this.
Love's supposed to look like how Bella's face lights up when she sees you.
How she still giggles every time you call her.
How she misses you when you've only been apart for a few hours.
I want to feel that.
But I know I'll never have that with you.
Because you'll never feel that for me.