Chapter 17
What went wrong?
Inuyasha's POV
It had been a week now, since the death of Kagome. Nothing was the same anymore. Everything had this grayness to it. It was as if Kagome brought all the color to the world, only
for it to disappear with her. It was hard coming back to the village, each step I took towards it brought the emptiness feeling. I withdrew myself from the group, keeping Kovin close.
I would gaze at him for hours seeing the features of Kagome in him, only to break down crying in the end. I had tried to go to the well to bring the news of Kagome to her family. It
took me a while before I could summon up enough courage and to stop the water works to jump through the well. I closed my eyes as I jumped in.
I landed on the bottom all too quickly. I slowly opened my eyes. Looking up I noticed the blue sky of my side. I dropped to my knees and held my face in my hands. No, no, no I kept
thinking over and over. Why is this happening? What went wrong? Why did Kagome have to die? She was the most wonderful person in the world; she cared for everyone, putting
everyone first before herself. She brought sunshine where ever she went. Now all of that was gone. I slowly got to my feet then hopped out of the well. I walked back to Miroku and
Sango's hut, my head bent down. I dropped Kovin off there before I headed off to the well. I feared that something would happen and I would back up in my time without Kovin.
Kovin was the last thing I had that reminded me of Kagome. Kovin was her baby, my son. I got to Sango and Miroku's hut and lifted the hanging door aside. Sango looked up as I
entered. I went straight over to Kovin and gently lifted him into my arms. "No luck?" Miroku asked? I shook my head. I went and sat down, cradling Kovin in my arms. "What are you
going to do?" Sango asked. I looked over to Sango, her voice was all scratchy and her eyes were bloodshot. Sango was still mourning over the loss of her best friend. I shrugged my
shoulders. "I don't know anymore." I told them. I sighed and looked down to Kovin.
"I had one goal in mind to get Kagome to come back, for all of us to be a family. Then this whole thing with Kikyo happened. It's just… I want to know what went wrong." I started to
cry again. I couldn't help it anymore, I tried to stay tough, but that did not work. I was an emotional wreck. Miroku sighed then spoke. "We all want to know what went wrong and
why Lady Kagome was taken away from us. Though it seems no answers will come to us." My gaze went over to him. He was right; there was no way for us to get answers. With
Kagome's body gone we had build a shrine like Kikyo's for her, to honor the memory of her. I had decided for it to be close to the sacred tree, where we first met. Kovin stated to get
fussy, so I tried bouncing him up and done. That did not work since he started screaming.
I looked up to Sango my eyes pleading for help. "He is probably hungry." Sango said. She must of known what I was asking when I looked to her. "So what do I do then?" I asked I
was a little panicked at the moment. I had no idea how to care for a baby. "I'll take him to a wet nurse. She will help with the feedings." Sango said then came over grabbed Kovin
from me then left. I must have a confused look on my face, because Miroku started laughing. I glared at him, which shut him up. "What are you going to do with Kovin?" Miroku asked
as he came to sit beside me. I sighed. I knew sooner or later that question was going to come up. "I can't leave him. He's my son. I've decided that I'm going to try my damn hardest
to raise him." I told him.
Miroku placed a hand on my shoulder. "Sango and I are here to help." Miroku said. I nodded. "Thanks." I whispered. I wanted so bad to raise Kovin, along with Kohana, Izayoi and
mini Inuyasha with Kagome. Now I have only Kovin left. "I'm going to go for a walk. I'll be back to grab Kovin soon." I said then headed out the door. I walked towards the sacred
tree. I found I always thought the best when I was there. I spotted Kagome's shrine off to the right, I made my way over there. I kneeled down in front of it. "I'm going to raise him
to be the best Kagome. I won't let our son be abandoned; he will know what it feels like to be loved. I will try my hardest to get the other three. I promise."
Someone's POV
The mist floated around me, always going around in circles. Either going up or going down, from side to side. No matter where I went the mist followed. I would gaze at it for hours,
trying to figure it out. At times I would catch a glimpse of something in the mist. I would always try to look closer but the image would disappear. I gave up after a while. I decided to
walk around. Even though it look like the same. I walked around aimlessly. I ransacked my mind, trying to get a grasp of where I am, of who I am? Nothing came though. It was as if
my mind was empty, that I had no memories. No life. I sat down, bored of just walking around. I looked to the swirling mist. Inside flashes of red could be seen. As soon as I peered
closer it disappeared. I sat back defeated.
I wanted to know what those flashes were. I ran my hand through my hair, it was frustrating. I wanted to know if those contained the answers I need. For the corner of my eyes, I
noticed that the red patch had grown bigger. I peered closer expecting the image to vanish. To my surprise it didn't. It stayed and grew bigger. I could see a grown man with a red
outfit on, what struck me as odd was that this man had silver hair and two dog ears on the top of his head. I could tell that this man was not human, but something else. What he is,
I have no clue. He was kneeling in front of a shrine. I leaned in closer to try to get in for of the image. When I leaned in I heard him speak.
"I'm going to raise him to be the best Kagome. I won't let our son be abandoned; he will know what it feels like to be loved. I will try my hardest to get the other three. I promise."
This man, he looked so familiar to me, yet I could not place him. He looked so sad, the look he had played at my heart. My heart started to beat faster as I continued to look at this
man. I placed my hand over it and tried to steady my breathing, it continued to beat in faster rhythms. Why is this man making my heart race as such? Who is he? Why does he make
me feel this way? This man in the image got up and headed back towards a village. I watched him as he went into the village and into a hut.
I cursed him since my image did not follow him. I looked away for a moment, when I turned back I noticed that the image had went inside the hut. Inside the hut were two other
people, another man and a female. I could see in the arms of the woman was a baby. It looked like the other man, the one with the ears. I looked closer to the baby; it had the most
wonderful eyes. A mix between the gold of the other mans eyes and brown, with black hair and ears but with a strip of silver in them. He was beautiful, seeing him made me longing
for a family of my own.
The man with the ears went and picked up the baby from the woman. "You look so much like Kagome, Kovin." The man said to the baby. There was that name again, Kagome. Did
they lose her? Was that the shrine that man went to? For Kagome? The image zoomed in on an object in the room, it was a circular object. It had this wired reflective thing on it. The
images zoomed in closer on the object. I peered in closer, wanting to see what it would show. I looked into the object and could make out the image of a woman. With black raven
hair, and big brown eyes, the woman did the same thing I need. Mimicked every move I made.
As I looked at the image longer it dawned on me. The woman in the image was me. I am a female. What was my name? The image then changed to this piece of paper sitting in the
corner. I peered closer. It was a picture of a woman, me to be exact. Below the picture was a name. I read the name. It was Kagome. My eyes winded in recognition. I'm Kagome. I'm
the one those people lost. I'm the mother of that baby. Yet the names of those people did not come to me. I fell back wards. What was going on? Where am I? All of a sudden the
memories that were locked away came flooding back, images flashed in front of my eyes. Inuyasha, Shippo, Sango, Miroku. My friends, my family. Tears slid down my face. The images
soon became too much, making me dizzy, causing me to fall into the dark… I opened my eyes, looking around I was in a pink bedroom. My bedroom. I was home.