|"Unhealthy sense of possessiveness."| |Chapter 4.|
PREVIOUSLY…
Dean thinks that maybe he made Sam learn to be too quiet, to be too obedient. Because in no longer actively seeking to rebel, no longer even instinctively trying to escape the pain, Sam has managed to pull of his greatest act of rebellion yet, he has managed to escape to a place where no pain can reach him, he has managed to abandon Dean, yet again, and this time, Dean knows he'll never get Sam back. And now all he's left with is an empty shell that has no mind of its own, that has no traces of his brother left within it.
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It's been fifteen days since Hannah 'dropped' him in Bangor, Maine , he had wondered WHY Bangor, Maine at first, especially when he knows he had specifically asked her to drop him as close to Lebanon Kansas as possible, but as he tracks through Niles, Michigan and realizes that he has a ten day journey still ahead of him unless he can get a ride, it hits him, that Hannah had dropped him off so far away on purpose so by the time he got to Lebanon, it would be too late to use what was left of his Grace to bring Dean back.
He knew his fondness for his charge was somewhat of an affront to his brethren, but he quite frankly didn't think it was any of THEIR business what he might choose to do with the last of his Grace and he most assuredly knew that it had not been any of Hannah's business to meddle with keeping him from saving Dean, no matter what balance his CHOICE might affect.
He only wishes he had caught on sooner, and now he once again curses his own foolish naïvete as he always found himself regretting allowing himself to trust anyone who wasn't Dean or Sam.
He knows that he doesn't have much Grace left, but he also knows that there is not a lot of time. He knows that Sam would not have burned Dean's body, but without the full power of his Grace, if he doesn't get to Dean's body SOON, then the amount of Grace won't be enough to bring Dean back.
BUT… Despite all that, for once, it's actually SAM who he's concerned about as the younger Winchester has been alone for more than two weeks and while he knows that Sam has not made a deal, YET, he knows that the longer Sam has to go without a way to save Dean on his own, the more the temptation to make yet another, possibly, apocalypse bringing, deal, would grow and he can't have Sam selling his soul only to end up shedding blood in Hell, thus bringing about the breaking of another set of Seals and potentially re-starting the apocalypse in all its glory should Michael and Lucifer get free of The Cage.
So, he decides to risk the last of his Grace, flying to Lebanon and hopes that since he's slightly closer than he was when he was still in Maine, that when he gets there he will still have enough time AND Grace to bring Dean back.
And, if he doesn't, well, he hopes that he will get to the bunker in time to keep Sam from possibly making a mistake of apocalyptic proportions…
TBC…