Chapter 5

Nessie's point of view

"Kid! Leave!" I heard Allistar shout. Or what was left of him.

The mutt heard Allistar and went back to destroying him, leaving me a chance to run and or be brave and save the day. Or just make things worse.

It was kind of weird how the vampires and the Children of the Moon were so close alike but also natural enemies. They both have the same hunt. Blood.

I'm screwed way beyond belief.

After taking care of the now destroyed Allistar, the were-mutt stalked over to where I was.

I'm dead.

I had no clue on what to do as fear made me freeze. I started to project my thoughts but it only seemed to make things worse. I wished I had my family with me! I wished I had my nice, half human, only phase when they please or when their angry or upset, stubborn, immature, only wearing a shirt when public, wolves with me. Both would know what to do. I hope.

It lunged but I quickly got out of the way. It took its big paw and smacked me into the wall. It then got on top of me, bearing all teeth. I couldn't move the upper half of my body but I could my legs. I moved so I could kick it in its big head.

I'm going to die, its going to bring me back to life, then its going to kill me again! I really know when to pick my battles.

"Hey!" I heard someone whisper. I noticed a dark shadow on the top of a building. Vampire.

I'll take anything I can get right now. I've faced death so many times that I'll laugh in its face. I just wasn't prepared now.

"Jump up here!" He shouted.

I had three choices. Trust someone else that could kill me. Die because of some mutt with a horrible smell. Kill it. What to choose? What to choose?

I debated over what I should do. I had no clue how to kill these creatures. Grandpa said that they were very hard to kill. Or do I jump to where the mysterious vampire was and risk it with the Volturi?

Right now, I'd say risk it.

I projected one last thought to keep it distracted and took off, running to meet the vampire.

I jumped onto the top of the building, bracing myself for another fight. "Can he get up here?" I asked starring at the werewolf who looked dumbfounded.

"Maybe; but it's going daylight soon. You shouldn't have to worry about it. It'll be walking around like a confused human in a few hours, wondering how did it let a beautiful woman out of its sights." the dirty blonde vampire said with a huge grin. Am I really that beautiful to have men just fall all over me? Literally.

I noticed the blond vampire was lanky but buff. His hair was at least chin length, being tied back. His burgundy red eyes had an easy going look to them. He reminded me of uncle Emmett.

I searched his thoughts. His name was Alexander. He was changed by his two other brothers around the time of my birth. He was curious about who and what I was.

"Thank you." I breathed.

"Anytime; but I am curious about what you are. You smell like a vampire but you have a heartbeat. I can see the blood running through you. What in the world are you?" The Alexander vampire that saved my life asked.

"I am a human-vampire hybrid." I answered.

"Interesting. We've never heard of anything like you. I'm sure my brothers would love to hear that story." Alexander said. "Oh, by the way, what's your name?"

"Renesmee Cullen. I'm from the Olympic coven." I answered again, waiting for the beast that tried to kill me magically reappear.

"A Cullen? I've heard of your clan. I'm Alexander." he stuck out his hand to shake and I did.

"Now we need to get out of here. I'm sure Ian will love to hear your story. I know I'd love to." he smirked.

I didn't know if I should tell this vampire my story. It would be nice to be able to use my gifts, and he said he's heard of my family. So curiosity got the best of me.

I followed him to a small little bungalow set off into the woods.

I hesitated. Should I go in? What if they killed me? What would my family do? What would they say? What would Jake or Kaleb do?

I could hear Jake's voice clear in my mind right now. No! Absolutely not! They could kill you! You see their eyes? Red! You're not going in there!

But I would not listen to him. I would walk in thinking he was just paranoid and stupid. He would wrap his arm around my waist and squeeze as if by doing that he would be one. Eventually when we left I would either say I told you so or I had to admit he was right.

My heart twisted at the thought. I knew we were still connected. Abby was right. He felt what I felt and vice versa. No matter how bad I tried to cut and ignore it, it was there like a steel cable. Just right now it felt stretch and wondered how far I would have to go until it broke.

I had to make a decision.

"You must be worried." Alexander said as I hesitated to follow him in.

I was worried. How have they heard of the Cullen clan? What do they know? Does my grandfather know about this coven?

"Maybe." I answered.

"Don't worry. You don't smell human so you're good. At least I hope you don't have any mouth watering smell. It took me two years to be how I am now." Alexander joked with an easy going smile. So he's a mixture of Emmett and Jasper. Maybe also a little bit of Garret too.

"Is that suppose to be reassuring?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Stop torturing the girl, Alexander. She's probably scared. Bring her in." I heard a British voice say from inside the home.

I took a deep breath and then followed Alexander in.

As I walked into the little house I instantly felt like I was in the cottage back home. Everything felt separated from the real world and I could live in peace.

I stayed close to the door, preparing to escape if I sensed any danger from these two vampires.

"We don't mean any harm." the man that looked like an older version of Alexander told me.

"She's part human part vampire. She says she's from the Cullen clan?" Alexander whispered above the man's ear, assuming I could hear him. I could do that and then some.

The older version of Alexander nodded slightly, his face curious. He's heard of us. I guess word gets around quick that the golden eyed coven gathered up several vampires to stand up to the Volturi.

I wondered how many vampires would stand with us when the time came for the Volturi to get revenge for them running. Would they see that we are a family that sticks together because we love each other. That we stand together not because of power? Right now I am not even standing with my family so I don't have room to talk.

"Alexander says you part vampire." the vampire said with a smile.

"Yeah." I said meekly. "I guess I am."

"Go get Finn." the head vampire told Alexander. He left and I was alone.

"Before we get interested in your story, what is your name?"

"Renesmee."

"Rennezee?"

"It's pronounced Ruh-nez-may," I laughed. My name was so complicated even a full vampire couldn't say it, "but you can call me Nessie. Everybody else does."

The vampire smiled. "I'm Ian and you've met Alexander, and Finn is off somewhere." Ian said.

"How did my younger brother run into you?" he later asked as he motioned for me to sit.

"I had a run in with the Children of the Moon." I answered. Ian growled. He was thinking about relocating him and his brothers as more and more werewolves came close to London.

"I'm sure you're wondering why we know your last name." Ian said. I nodded.

"Yes. Word travels fast around the vampire world." I said, giving a weak laugh as I sat down on the edge of a very cushioned chair.

"Indeed it does." Ian laughed. He noticed my tense posture and scooted away from the chair as he could get. "You still don't trust us?"

I shook my head yes, looking down.

"We won't cause you any harm, I promise you. We're simply curious about your history. If you're still scared, you can leave. If you're curious about me any my brothers, don't be afraid to ask as many questions as you like. We simply cannot resist a beautiful creature like you." Ian joked, smiling. "And we don't want to face your coven. Or any other your other friends."

Alexander bounded into the room followed by a vampire who didn't share neither one of his brother's kind expressions.

This male vampire didn't look like Ian and Alexander. He had brown hair with natural blond highlights that was cut to the nape of his neck. He was slim but you could also tell that he worked out well in his human life. He was probably the same height as me; but he had a permanent cold look on his face. The minute he walked into the house, he had an uncomfortable look on his face as if he wanted to bolt and run.

"I'm ready." Alexander said. "I want to learn more about this mysterious stray I've picked up." I didn't know if I should take being called a stray a compliment.

I took a deep breath and focused all my attention and energy on Alexander, since he was the one who wanted to hear my story first. Just I wasn't going to tell it verbally.

I started with my parents story first, since that's where it all began. Alexander seemed lost in my projections. His face was blank and his eyes were slightly unfocused. I heard a growl from across the room and then felt myself crash into a wall. My shoulder hit the brick painfully and I cried out.

"What did you do to my brother?!" I heard Finn shout. Alexander's face was back to normal and only just looked at me.

"That's my talent." I said, choking back tears.

"By blinding people?" Ian asked.

"By showing me her story." Alexander said with awe. He smiled at me. "Is that all? I was just getting to the good part."

"No, there's more." I answered. I got up and settled back into my chair. "I have a gift for projecting my thoughts. Their extremely vivid and a person can be lost in them. I can also read minds, but I think its just a branch off of that."

When no one else spoke, I continued on with showing Alexander where I left off. I showed them my birth-which I was kind of afraid to do. When I did that Alexander had a look of hunger across his face. I quickly skimmed over that part. I showed the rest that had happen in the past three years. I even showed them about Jacob and the imprinting.

After I finished up, I breathed a sigh of relief. It felt good to use my gifts. It felt good to not put on a show on how much of a freak and monster I truly am.

"That was…vivid." Alexander said with more awe than he was before Finn pushed me.

"I know." I showed him.

Next up it was Ian's turn. I showed him the same thing.

"So you have a lot of qualities of a human and a vampire. You have the mental qualities of a vampire, along with most physical, but you sleep and eat human food just like a human." Ian said astonished. "Alexander, if you would have controlled yourself better, we would know all about this." he added, smacking Alex upside the head.

I was about to project to Finn when he all of a sudden let out a mincing growl and went into a defensive crouch as if he were trying to kill me.

"Ian! Are you crazy! She was wanted by the Italian coven! She could cause trouble for us! She was the one who were with the mutts! They said the Olympic coven was no good! We're better off just killing her!" Finn snarled. I think this was the time Jacob would say "I told you so."

"Her story is amazing though. I've never seen somebody bounce through what's she's been through."

"Yeah but she looks like her! You know what I said. Get rid of her!"

"Finn, just listen. Her projection is one of a kind. It makes you feel as if your there. You actually feel what the memory was." Alexander pleaded.

How do I look like her! Who was Finn talking about?

"I know with my being a threat to the Volturi might bring danger to your coven. Believe me, I've already almost everybody through the mud with my screw ups. I don't want to bring harm to any of you. Alexander was only trying to help me. If he didn't I would be dead right now. I have a family I have to protect too. If you don't want to see, that's your choice." I told Finn.

"It doesn't matter." he scowled.

I've only been scared of a few vampires in my life. Finn's on my list now.

He plopped down on the couch in front of me, sending death glares in my direction. I was uncomfortable the whole time. When Alexander or Ian would ask me a question, I would project my answer. I was afraid my voice would let them know I was afraid of their brother growling at me. By Finn's thoughts, he only had several reasons to hate me. I looked like some mystery girl he kept hidden and because he just hated me. I made him uncomfortable.

"So your mate's a wolf?" Alexander asked.

I didn't know what to say. Could I consider Jacob my mate? Even though I broke up with him?

"Yes." I answered.

"Your mate is a werewolf!" Finn shouted. He grabbed me by the neck and slung me against the wall as if I was a rag doll, not part vampire. He looked like her was straining to do something but couldn't. "YOU'RE A MONSTER! YOU'R LYING TO US! YOU DESERVE NOTHING BUT DEATH! YOU KILLED HER! YOUR HALF BREED KIND KILLED MY KATHERINE!"

I can see why he was so strong. I could smell the human blood on his breath. It made me sick. I was scared when I shouldn't be. Jasper taught me better than this and I was backing out.

"H-he's a shape-shifter. He changes into a wolf when he wants to or when he's angry or upset. He's the Chief of the Quileute tribe in La Push, Washington. He's the Alpha of-of a wolf pack. He-he's different." I showed Finn.

"It doesn't matter! Your stupid half breed kind killed the love of my life!" Finn shouted, his hands crushing my esophagus.

I tried to push him off of me but couldn't. Eventually I found the strength to fight him off. Finn had no right to do this to me!

But Jacob did.

I kicked Finn's legs out from under him and slung him away from me. He flew, bringing along Alexander and Ian, who was trying to get the vampire off of me.

I think it was pretty obvious that despite Finn's size he was the strongest out of the three of them.

Ian was having trouble with holding Finn down while Alexander helped me off the ground. I held my breath because it hurt to breathe. My throat ached.

"Alex! Get her out of here quick!" Ian ordered.

"How fast can you go?" Alexander asked, dragging me out of the house as quick as he could. I was thankful for that.

"Fast." I answered. We took off then.

The sun was just now coming up. Alexander's skin sparkled like tiny little diamonds as my skin lightly glowed.

"Whoa! I would have never imagined you to do at least something in the sun." Alex said as we never broke stride. "And you're faster than me!"

I laughed then winced. "Yeah. Instead of sparkling, I glow. I can still go out in public with the sun out. And my father's the fastest in my coven so I guess I get it from him. My mother's the spider monkey though." I joked then flew into the trees.

I speedily jumped from to tree to tree, getting ahead of the vampire who called me a "stray."

"You know, your coven sounds unique. I would like to meet them someday."

I stopped as a new pain shot through me. I talk like I speak to my family every chance I get.

"Yeah." I said in a strangled voice, choking back tears, as I slid to the ground.

"I'm sorry about Finn. He had a horrible past."

"Why does he hate me so much. Does he have something against people you try to help?" I asked.

"He was in love once and it ended badly. I would love to tell you more about my brother's soap opera, but he'd kill me the second time if he found out I told you." Alexander said. "Are you going to come back tomorrow? Do you have a place to stay?"

"I'll probably be leaving the first chance I get." I said, wrapping my arms around myself as if I was cold.

"You can stay with us. I mean, you'll be living with three bachelors, and you'll have to cook because we have no clue how too. Anyway, you're welcome to stay."

I was flattered but I didn't want too. Finn scared.

"I don't think that's a good idea. Your brother hates me as it is; and my diets different than yours."

"Yes, we know your diet is blood and food."

"No. I mean yes, it is that. But I drink animal blood. My family believes that we can live with humans without killing them." I said.

Alexander shrugged, thinking this through. "If you do leave, you'll come back right?"

I shook my head yes; and honestly, I did want to come back. I did like the British coven.

"Where would you go?"

"I've got friends all over the world. I'll probably visit some of them then…I don't know."

We walked in silence until we got to the edge of town.

"This is as far as I can go. I'll make sure Finn doesn't come after you, Nessie. If you decide to stay, I hope to see you soon. If you don't, I hope you come back soon." Alexander said with a smile.

"I'll you soon." I said as I shared his smile.

I rushed back to my apartment, terrified I'd have a meltdown on the side of the street. I'd definitely be branded as crazy then.

I rushed through the door, tears streaming down my face and shaking all over.

I stumbled to the couch, collapsing onto it. Everything seemed to crash on top of me like weights and I couldn't get up.

My phone blinked on the coffee table, signaling that I either had a voicemail or a message.

I grabbed it with a shaky hand. God, I need to stop shaking. I've been through enough near death experiences. I could handle a run in with a creature that if the Volturi found out about, I'd be dead. I could handle a vampire hating me. Finn wouldn't be the first.

I opened the first voicemail first.

"Renesmee, no matter what either of us say and do, I love you. No matter what. I'm sorry about the last time I called. It was harsh and wrong. If you're happy with being with Kaleb, I'll be happy for you. But I know you. You're not happy. You're running because you're scared. I know you left because you said you didn't want a fight between us. Choose whatever you want, Nessie. I don't care. I'll be here for you. Call me."

Why does Jacob have to do this? I'm the bad guy here and he's acting like I did nothing wrong? I did everything wrong! I broke my Jacob's heart. I was with another man when I should have been with him. He hates Kaleb but he doesn't hate me. He should hate me. Jake should tell me that he doesn't want to see my face ever again. He should yell at me those same words I said to him and then worse. I deserve worse. I deserve more than any horrible thing that could ever happen to me.

Onto the next message.

"Hey, it's Kabe, call me. We need to talk." By the tone of Kaleb's voice it was dreaded with guilt. It kind of scared me.

I didn't call neither of them back. I didn't want too. Could I trust them enough to believe what they were saying? Or are they just saying this to win me over?

I thought of everything that was happening and about the two wolves who said they loved me. I knew one did when he shouldn't. I have always been horrible to him and he thinks I'm some golden, precious jewel when I was really just a hideous coal. Then the other guy I knew he didn't really love me. He loved me. He loved me but he wasn't in love with me. I wasn't in love with him. I knew that much at least.

I'm tired of crying over myself. I am tired of being the weak one. I want rest. I want relaxation. But I also wanted stupid and reckless. I wanted crazy. I wanted…to not make anymore mistakes that ruin the ones around me.

I knew I had to leave. There was no way I could stay here any longer. I have had to many dangers in one night than I have had in a week. There was no way I could stay when I hit a human, was almost made out of dog chow, and Finn hated me.

I brought my knees up to my chest. I wasn't just scared. I was terrified.

I wondered why Finn hated me so much. What did I even do to him? What did my kind do to him? He said-well shouted was the right word-that my half breed kind killed his Katherine. That I looked like her.

Ian said I could ask them anything. I wish I thought of these questions then. I probably wouldn't get the answers I needed since Alexander wouldn't even answer.

I wanted to take his offer on staying with them. I had more than enough money to take care of the food. Or I could live off of animal blood. But…I'll be in a room full of bachelor make vampires who hunt human blood. I'll be under the same roof with the one vampire that hates me. Not such a good idea.

I could visit the Amazons. It's time I see Zafrina I missed her and we were real close friends. Just I didn't know where she was at.

Or do I just grow up and go home. Grow up and face the wolf I've hurt. The one that would love me unconditionally even though I didn't deserve it.

I knew my birthday was going to be painful for everybody. If I don't go back and rebuild the bridges I've burned, this will be the first time my family and Jacob wouldn't be with me on my birthday.

Okay. I'll go see Zafrina then I'll visit Nahuel, and then I will go back to La Push and make amends with Jacob. Maybe Kaleb. Or if I chicken out, I'll visit my family first and they'll make me go see them.

I quickly packed my belongings. My family bought this apartment for me so if I decide to come back, I'll have a place to stay.

Now onto hunting down Zafrina…

~~~~~ Forever Ours ~~~~~

I rested my head against the air plane seat exhausted. My trip from the apartment to the airport was horrible. I felt sick the whole way there.

I closed my eyes, praying for a dreamless sleep. I needed one of those.

My body was relaxing but my mind wouldn't. I kept thinking how I could find the Amazon coven. I hope that once I would find her scent I would find her coven.

I also thought about my connection with my russet wolf and my silverish black wolf. This was a weird love triangle. No other pack member has had a romantic feelings for me. Only Kaleb. I was marked as Imprint. If I was harmed anyway, Jake would have to kill the wolf that did it.

If I had the opportunity to tell them both how I feel, what would I say? I don't want neither of them to fight over me. I want them to shake hands and men however their friendship was ruined. I can't have them hating each other. I would feel guilty and that would make me run again.

Jacob basically said that if I was happy he would be too. If I had a smile on my face he would smile too. He told me that he loved me. He deserves more than I could give him. He needed more. He needed somebody who would love him whole heartedly. But I was cruel and selfish. I couldn't let him go.

He knew by telling me this he would win. He knew me since the day I was born. He knew what it would take to win.

If only Kaleb was that easy. I wish it was easy to say good-bye.

I knew Jake and Kaleb would argue over who I loved more. They didn't know my heart, and right now neither of them had it. Jacob would fight even when I didn't want him too.

I thought about his last two voicemails. One sounded like he hated me, like he was wanting to die. But on the last one he sounded determined. He sounded like he was prepared to fight. But saying and doing things is two different things. He always said if I left he would follow. He didn't follow. He always said even after I would tell him to stay he would follow me. I told him to stay and he did. He gave me what I wanted.

Men are so confusing. Grandma was right when she said men love to compete.

I started to wonder about Romeo and Paris' fight before they all declared their fate. Romeo was wanting to fight for his true love even though she thought she was dead. I wonder why though Paris fought Romeo? Did he hate Romeo as much as the Capulets did? Did he just want a good fight? Was it because Juliet was young and pretty and Romeo had her and Paris didn't?

I tried to picture myself in Juliet's shoes. My parents are making me marry…who would Paris be? I guess since this is my dream version it could be Kaleb.

I meet Jacob and we instantly fall in love together. We know deep down that we were meant for each other. Sounds like us, huh? My mother and father demand that I marry Kaleb but I'd say I would rather die than marry him. I drink poison to make me appear dead. My love has gotten word that I have died and he's devastated. He would rather die himself than be without me. I wake up to find my Jacob cold and lifeless. I'm heartbroken that he chose to take his life. I choose to not live without him. Turns out William Shakespeare's story and ours is almost exactly the same.

I then put Juliet in my shoes. She has grown up with Romeo as her best friend her whole life. All of a sudden they kiss and then BOOM, their in love. They have a pretty fast track relationship, but Juliet starts to have doubts. She's stressed because she's tired of doing what her family wants to do. She then becomes in danger and then is faced with the decision to either live with her Romeo or die.

Then Paris comes into the picture and Romeo thinks Juliet would leave him for Paris. Despite Juliet's attempts that she would never leave Romeo, he still chose not to believer her, causing a lot more strain on their relationship.

Romeo and Juliet's relationship become's more strained as danger, secrets, and Mercutio professing his love for someone he can't have, tries to rip them apart.

Then all of a sudden Juliet know something terrible has happen to her Romeo. He is near death and Juliet tries everything to save him. She does but then admits her true feelings to Mercutio. The thing is Romeo doesn't know about all of this until he orders his friend to tell him all.

Juliet decides to leave. She didn't want the two men to destroy their friendship. Plus she's now admitting that she is a lot like her father and she doesn't want any harm done to her Romeo. And that she's scared and trying to figure out…well, everything.

I wonder if Juliet could really handle being put in my shoes. At least my story isn't like hers. Yet.

I tried to get more comfortable but was unsuccessful. My brain kept running. I felt like it was running a marathon over and over.

I wonder who would win? Juliet? Romeo? Paris? Mercutio? The Capulets? The Montegues? No one?