Thanks be to EBT.
"All I ever wanted to do was love her and make her happy. I was never this guy. I was never this... asshole."
And you're right.
You never were.
And that's my fault.
"I'm sorry."
You turn to look at me with confusion on your face.
"I let what I felt for you take priority over my friendship and your relationship with Bella. I should never have let it get this far. I shouldn't have started it in the first place. If I hadn't," I look down and wring my hands together, "Bella would be happy. She'd still be here."