We then headed to her siblings house together with them, seeing they were taken out of there for so that the party preparations could be made as surprise to them we arrived around six o clock in the afternoon and after some adjustments in what was left , everything was ready so that the most magical moment of those little ones could start, a commemoration that they never had before, however thanks to the love of Kikuri for me and them that was possible I felt weirdly nostalgic I couldn t understand why though
The festivities then began; girls on Hello Kitty s side and boys on the Power Ranger s one of course everything very well served of soft drinks and snacks for the little ones, alcoholic beverages and snacks for the neighboring; we danced to the sound of the series present on the party even Kikuri, not so sensible managed to give me her paws and dance together, even her being still on her wheelchair being along her siblings and therefore my siblings-in-law ; having fun as I was made me feel among family something I never had experienced before that was a touching experience and changed me completely unfortunately to worse again
When the party ended, Momiji and Saori were the ones chosen to be responsible for the party gear withdraw on the next day, for that they were allowed to sleep on their old house they had a tired but extremely happy look upon them I took Akira and Kikuri and we headed back home it was ten to midnight when we arrived my personal caretaker was almost sleeping standing I ordered to go ahead and sleep, seeing I still wanted to spend some time with my girlfriend as soon as we were alone, I asked:
-It still is your birthday kitty - I positioned myself in front of her do you have any wish I can make come true at this moment? It can be anything don t hesitate if it is in my reach I shall do it -Anything at all? replied Kikuri, with a small smile on her face promise me won t neither get offended nor mad at me? Even if it is something really selfish?
-I swear to Nina s soul that if I become -You know sweetie - she then began, looking at the ground when I asked Akira-chan that day in which she fled she said she went to a very special place that you had shown her before just the little one, you and one more person knew about I wanted to get to know that place would you take me?
-O Of course, I will take you! I replied, partially regretting making that promise, but fulfilling my word to her.
I admit that I was a little angered for needing to show her that corner of my world it was a selected place where just those very important to me should know and get to know however Yumi wasn t even that important and even though she knew about it Kikuri was already at her level so why not? Instead of getting my nerves overexcited on doing this, I decided it was better to enjoy, the weather was great and the full moon proportioned so much illumination that it would be possible to seeing almost everything
Slowly I was pushing her wheelchair, passing though the small stone road that I ordered to be built here that would take me to where the local was the wind was already much colder at this time of the year, seeing that was sometime already since fall began the grass was already becoming yellowish on some spots, some late blooming flowers that were still resisting were already withering, I took a little longer than usual, as I wished she could look everything she was silent, but observed every detail as she moved her head around in all directions, as a kid that does not know where to look at first.
After twenty minutes we arrived at the place, Kikuri took her paws to her mouth and became astonished with the scenery, she would make a sound; I placed myself beside her and waited until she came back from being mesmerized; as soon as this happened she looked at me and asked:
-So this is the place sweetie? she smiled at me, on the verge of crying I am so happy being able to come here in this day -Yes - I replied, noticing something weird in her what is the matter kitty? Are you well, or maybe you are tired? Do you wish to come back?
-No I am alright - she cleaned with her paw a tear that rolled down her face I am just very emotive from being able to be here I think this was the only thing that was left to participate in everything that had to do with you -I understand kitty I said while I hugged her I understand completely is there something I can do for you?
-Are you tired or wishing to go sleep? asked me Kikuri with sincere concern on her voice.
-No kitty why? I fondled her face.
-It is just that if it was possible and not asking too much from you - pleaded Kikuri, while looking into my eyes I wanted to talk for a while with you here, where we won t get interrupted just me and you I wished this night to be only for us would it be too much selfishness on my behalf?
-Not at all kitty! I replied, because even if she wasn t born on this date, her birthday was commemorated today, that is why nothing would be fairer than giving her this present I am even too electric today I wouldn t be able to sleep today even if I tried.
-Right - pondered Kikuri for a bit before shooting it next can we have frank talk then? Completely honest? Even if your replies get to the point of offending me? I wanted to know the sweetie that I know is buried deep inside you -But why do you ask that fro - I began replying.
-Please! Can we or not? I It is very important to me asked Kikuri again, interrupting my previous reply.
-Yes we can have this talk you so much want I just beg for forgiveness in case I say something that might hurt you I replied warning her, as I knew it was a matter of time until she asked if I loved her ask me whatever you wish.
-Alright! said Kikuri energetically, thinking for some instants sweetie is there something in your life that, given the chance, you would change at any cost?
-S Something? that question actually caught me completely off-guard, I was thinking she would want to know my feelings well I know this makes you very sad but if I could change something I would make my mom either abort me or not make me at all even because some months later she wouldn t be able to get pregnant again because of some uterus illness complications -Sweetie is your life so bad to the point of not wishing to live it? asked a sad Kikuri there is just so many people that would kill without any hesitation just to be in your place -I believe - I replied, presenting my theory that those same people might just see the power and money little do they know what when you have both since you are little, it loses its meaning a hole on your soul opens and it reclaims another thing like something is missing especially when you don t get that even from your family as in my case, seeing they never bothered to do it everything loses it s meaning to be without will to live and you kitty? Is there anything you would want changed if you could?
-In my case - pondered for some moments Kikuri, replying next I believe that no -Wouldn t you change anything? I asked again, thinking the answer was a little weird even not becoming a slave?
-Not even that sweetie replied Kikuri, shaking her head as I probably wouldn t ever enter your life if I didn t even if I was observing from afar I would never be here in a moment like these -I comprehend kitty I commented, thinking how deep her love must be, considering the fact that she preferred being a slave and stay close to me than being free and away.
-Sweetie - began saying Kikuri, putting her paws together and placing them over her knee, always looking down you said that the power since you are young loses its meaning in case there is no love just for me to know do you love or loved someone in your life?
-Yes about loving someone I loved finally the question that I was aware that would be made, I tried to answer it as gently as I could just being loved by one of them Nina was the one in which I was loved back a grandmotherly love and Yumi this one was just dream an illusion as she grew together with me since she was five years old I thought that she would love me as I did her very bad mistake on my behalf and you kitty did you love someone? stupid question I knew it, but for some reason I needed to make it.
-Yes - replied Kikuri with a lot of sorrow on her voice just one person named Montecchio Richard with all my heart and soul forever and ever - she dried a small and stubborn tear that descended down her face and then continued did you have a big deception on your life?
-I had - I replied, completely sure that when I asked the same to her, I would be her deception Yumi the way she behaved before me acting like a complete bitch hurting me completely specially because she was low and sarcastic about subjects that she shouldn t ever had and you I asked preparing myself for the answer do you have anything that you were disappointed in life?
-Yes and a lot actually she replied, with more tears rolling down her face this time and even if I said that I wouldn t change anything becoming a slave was my biggest deception -W What? I asked astonished, that wasn t by far the reply I was expecting from her is that your biggest deception kitty? Mind if I asked why?
-Because - she then began crying hard, replying between sobbing as when I was a free woman I still had my dignity even being poor I could be a worthy woman now as slave what can I offer you? Not even my body is worth all that!
-What are you saying kitty? I asked completely shocked, even after hurting her like I did, that was her disillusion? but that has no importance whatsoever! Being a slave to me makes no difference at all! What matters most is inner morale and character, together with honor to be someone worthy of a relationship your social status don t influence at all in how I feel for you I like you as you are - I then kneed in front of her and took her paws on my hands.
-Sweetie - said Kikuri, looking inside my eyes with hers filled with tears can I ask a very direct question? Will you still be honest with me?
-Of course kitty - I replied kissing her paws you can ask.
-If if - she tried speaking, however it seemed that something inside her throat would make the question stay stuck, after some tries she managed to if you don t love me why do you keep the relationship going with me? Was I one substitute to Yumi? resuming then to weep quietly.
-Well kitty - I began replying, trying to understand why she hadn t asked me directly yet if I loved her one thing I assure you you didn t replace Yumi yes I checked before accepting your declaration if she wanted to be with me or not hence why I asked some time to reply to you I didn t think it was right to accept it with doubts in my heart upon realizing I wouldn t have a chance with her I let you in my life -B But - she then looked at me with pleading eyes and asked then why me a slave and not one of the several girls and women that I saw confessing to you and that you turned down?:
-That s because kitty - I thought on how I would explain it to her since something really bad happened to me when I was just a child so bad I can t even remember well what was whenever someone got closer to me trying to be more than a simple acquaintance I felt extremely uncomfortable with that, instinctively pushed myself away from them there were very few exceptions to this bothering sensation -R Really sweetie? asked Kikuri, with big and curious eyes - who would be them?
-They were just a few I replied showing my hands and fingers my friend Leandro, Yumi, Nina, L via in some aspects, Akira and - I pointed to her chest you kitty as you were the first one to confess to me and it didn t make me feel that bad sensation remember? That day back on Enmie s place as soon as you said you loved me normally I would feel bothered and gently decline your love confession towards me what made me think that maybe not loving you now I would learn in the future seeing I like you Nina told herself to me that love comes much time later than passion with the time that is why I am with you because I sincerely wish for one day have a shining, illuminated, good and beautiful life history together you and me -Sweetie sweetie oh my Saint Meow sweetie - tried talking Kikuri, to no avail.
At that moment I decided I didn t wish to let her suffer any longer, I would make her happy no matter what it cost me; I quickly advanced forward and kissed her, she was a little scared at first however right after the first few moments of surprise she began kissing back, she had a sweet breath, probably from all the sweets she ate that the party, her saliva had the power to make my inhibition disappear; I felt that both her tongue as well as mine tried to invade each other s mouth, I felt her arms enveloping my neck and her paw gently fondling my nape, all her aroma made all my senses work I directed my hand towards her chest and began lightly groping it they were so soft and fluffy the moan that came from her mouth made me wish for more but in that cold we were standing into wouldn t be a good idea that was why I stopped the kiss and asked:
-Kitty is there anything else you wanted to talk about? I made my index finger tip stay circling around her breast I ask because if you don t have I think I can give to you another birthday present - I smiled sweetly to her.
-N No sweetie replied a still breathless Kikuri, blushing deeply I would love to come back now! I would love receive that present! I felt a little bit of sadness on her voice, but I didn t pay much heed to it.
We then began coming through the return path, it was colder by the minute; I looked at the clock and it was half past one! it was so late! I thought incredible how I still don t feel tired! This is very good seeing I want to give my very best to her when we were on the middle of the way, approximately on the flattest part of the terrain, I noticed Kikuri s paws moving somewhat alike as if they were twitching, almost unnoticeable in the beginning, however the became a little stronger, intrigued I asked to her:
-Kitty, your paws are trembling I pointed to them are you cold? Are you feeling pain somewhere?
-Oh! exclaimed Kikuri upon seeing her own paws doing it don t worry about that it is normal sweetie -I understand then I replied, then resuming the way back.
-Sweetie - Kikuri then looked up and faced me before, can you fulfill one last wish of mine?
-Of course! I replied smiling, fondling her cat ears in what can I help you kitty of mine?
-Stop the wheelchair and lock its wheels.
-W Why kitty? I asked without comprehending.
-Just do that and go to that big tree over there she then pointed to the biggest tree that was near the way and wait for me there; I just ask you to do it I ask you to trust me ok?
-Alright, I trust you kitty I headed then to the place she told me to go, it was around one hundred fifty feet (around fifty meters) from where we were.
-Now she said from afar, however still audibly you will be my objective my finish line or how the sports commentators would say, you are my Goal ; promise me that even if I fall even if something happens you are not leaving an inch from where you are you have no idea how important that is to me promise under your noble name to do that for me?
-I, Montecchio Richard I swore then, for Kikuri, placing my right hand over my heart in the name of my sacred family that I shall not move from this place, no matter what happens, until you tell me I am allowed to once again!
-Very good sweetie now watch me and feel pride of your girlfriend!
The scene that began happening then was of a beauty unavailable to words, as Kikuri placed both of her paws on the sides of the wheelchair and, making extreme effort, managed to raise her body enough to place all her weight on her leg s paws; right after that happened her face contorted in a mixture of pain and overcoming oneself, she looked at me and, letting go of where she was holding onto, gave the first step towards me, tears began rolling down my cheeks, Kikuri was walking! I couldn t believe it! Right after she took another step, she lost her balance however and fell forward on her knees, but managing to stop the fall placing her arm paws on the ground I took a step forwards and even without looking at me she stopped me instantly:
-Remember what you swore on doing you are my finish line cheer for me to arrive at it
I took a step back ashamed, Kikuri managed to stand again and began a slow and sacrificing march towards me, she had slow and suffering steps, but at every conquer at every inch less between us you could notice she was more serene, complete and fulfilled the paws twitching kept going even stronger than before, but I attributed it to the effort she was making, soon after she asked me:
-Sweetie I walked over half of the course, didn t i? she asked giving one more step.
-Yes you did my dearest kitty I stretched my arms in front of me and I began clapping to her and saying, along with hand signals of come here come kitty, come to me come to the finish line!
-Sweetie can I cross the finish line? she asked with a faltering voice.
-Of course you can! I cheered her even more I am here with arm open wide waiting for you!
-C Can I r really? asked me a even more faltering Kikuri, taking another step finally I could cross the finish line? After all I went through?
-W What do you mean? asked a little more confused with her questioning.
-A After suffering so much - continued Kikuri, with a sad smile on her face being a orphan then a poor childhood but a happy one with all my siblings to become older be saved by the person I loved for my whole life being arrested and made slave for an injustice wind up on the house of the person that stole my heart for a coincidence manage to become his girlfriend - she then took another step and in the peak of my happiness to become one with him having accomplished everything I always dreamed in my life is it alright... to get to my objective the goal ?
-Kitty where do you want too get with thi - that was when, after a violent shiver and knot on my stomach I realized don t tell me you were feeling great pain until this very moment?
-Sorry sweetie I didn t had any intention of hiding I just wanted to enjoy every second with you without you worrying about me the Enmie s power must be on the verge of fini - she hadn t got enough time to finish, seeing her face contorted again in pain, she shook like tree branches on a storm and howled in sequence !
-KITTY! I shouted and almost ran towards her.
-DON T YOU DARE MONTECCHIO RICHARD! shouted also Kikuri, still shaking and visibly in pain, however still standing and taking another step I WILL ARRIVE THERE TO YOU, NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES!
-But kitty! Don t overdo yourself! I said while tears began racing across my cheeks if we call Enmie we might have a -No sweetie it won t do any good I already knew it would be like this - she replied taking another step, now just a few feet from me let me just cross the finish line in your arms -But kitty! Now that you know what I feel you cannot - I began crying harder.
-I am almost arriving sweetie I am almost arriving - she then took her semi-last step, trembling almost uncontrollably from the pain, smiling look at my sweetie for you I am crossing the line I will arrive to you if this was a marathon we would hear the sports commentator say -Don t kitty don t do this to me - I begged while Kikuri took her last step, throwing herself on my arms, looking then to my wet eyes and saying.
- Goal! losing then all her strength and almost falling to the ground.
At that exact instant I help Kikuri, kneeing and holding her head and body in my arms, the unstoppable tears washed my face without me being able to comprehend what was going on in me I already lost people in my life and not even Nina let me so touched as this small, sweet, brave, with an iron will and beautiful nekomimi we looked at each other s eyes for an instant and then I said:
-Kitty, forgive me -Why? I d don t have anything that I need to forgive - she replied, still smiling.
-Because it was my fault that I got you mixed up with all this - I replied, kissing her forehead.
-It doesn t matter thanks to this I could see and get to know better my sweetie - she then looked deep into my eyes, asking next what matters to me is that even not loving me the time you have been with me I just bothered you or I manage to make you happy as much as it was p possible she than began fighting to breath.
-Of course you did! I replied, nodding I told you were one of the few that didn t make me uncomfortable I even lost my virginity with you! You make me really happy kitty and you are going to overcome this -T that is great she smiled again can I ask one l last selfish thing for m me?
-Of course you can my sun shine! I swear to Saint Meow I began panicking at that moment with my stomach upsetting.
-W W Would you please smile for me? I would l like that - she then coughed fiercely, it was noticeable she had trouble talking the last thing I will t take from my sweetie were to be his p pretty s s smile.
-Your wish is an order pretty kitty of mine - I smiled, although I wasn t able to make my tears stop flowing.
-S So beautiful M Monte cchio Ric hard - said Kikuri, making an ungodly effort, putting her paw on my cheek I I w was s s so ha ppy w with y y yo u - she then smiled the most beautiful I would see on her face t t t tha nk y ou slowly her pretty blue eyes closed, her paw fell to the ground and right after she gave out her last breath.
-Kikuri? called her name.
-Kikuri? I called her name again, without receiving a reply.
-Kikuri ? I called once more, smiling, shaking her slowly and saying kitty don t do this please answer me please your sweetie is calling you -Kikuri! I called her for the last time and a bit louder, gently hugging her next.
-! I shouted, just receiving the echo as reply.
I cannot precise how much time I spent hugging her, actually I had not much of a notion about what was going on inside of me, just an indescribable pain hurt my heart, I took her in my arms and I walked towards my house, taking extreme care with her as if I carried a sleeping child; I entered and went directly at to the nursery, where I gently placed her body in the same bed I laid myself a on the previous day, I let her in a way that when the rigor mortis arrived, it would be easy to deal with her.
Then I think my inexperienced mind in dealing with emotions short-circuited, as I just began running around the mansion, hunting Enmie down, cursing cuss words like Enmie you whore or You stinking bitch, appear wherever you are! I then looked for her wherever I remembered she could be in my mind as a rabid dog in search of someone or something to bite; when I arrived at the backyard I heard sobbing and a low crying I found the slut! and then raced to where the sounds came from, upon turning around one of the corners of my home, all my rage disappeared instantly considering what I saw in the bandstand where we would have tea who was that child sat on one of the chairs and that didn t look older than six years old?