Chapter 23
Jake's point of view:
I pulled up in the Cullens yard with Nessie half asleep and me wide awake with everything running through my head. I opened Nessie's car door open and caught her before she could fall out. "I'm up." she mumbled. She wiggled out of the car and walked. When I didn't get up quick enough for her she turned and stomped her foot at me.
"What?"
"Can we go inside, tell them your news, get an ultrasound, and go back to the cottage?" Nessie asked, her eyes pleading.
I got up, putting her hand in mine, and walked through the door. All the
Cullens looked up and smiled all except for Edward. He was rubbing his head, groaning. It made me pull Nessie closer to me just in case something went wrong like it usually does.
"How was it?" Bella asked as she smoothed her husband's shoulder. All he did was growl.
"Good." Nessie mumbled. She then turned to look at me with a smile. I guess that was my go ahead and tell them.
"So, Nessie…do you think we should move before or after Sage and Grace are born?" I joked, hoping the smartest, dead people would take a hint.
"I say before so that way we'll get settled quicker." Renesmee chirped then jumped closer to me when Edward snarled.
"Settled?" Bella asked. Then she turned to me. "You were accepted?"
"I guess so. Some university named Dartmouth accepted me." I shrugged like it was nothing.
At least the Cullens were happy for me. It wasn't like how my family were. It's sad when your girlfriend's family's happier for you than your own. It sucks actually. I'm starting to feel more like a vampire and a wolf. That's…ugh!
From then on I talked with Emmett, Jasper, and Carlisle and Alice and Rosalie swamped Nessie with dates to go over and prepare for the babies when they came and we had to move. We had time. It was short but it was still there.
"When do you start?" Esme asked, squeezing my hand.
"April tenth but I think we should move a little early so we can get use to being in a new place with two newborns." I didn't realize what I said until it was out of my mouth. Something told me to go early. I'll be able to spend time with Nessie and the twins before I'm too busy with work. But I had to find a point to where my family would always come first.
We all noticed Edward was getting worse. I was getting worse. I wanted to take Renesmee away from the danger. And all it took was for Carlisle to say take her up to his study for me to do so. I grabbed her arm, trying to do it calmly when she snatched out of my hold.
"Daddy?" she asked as she walked to Edward. He looked up at her with hate and she shrank back. It wasn't Edward. There was no way. Edward wouldn't do that to his daughter. It'll kill him just to find out that he looked at her like that. It'll be like me. The no point of return where we're not ourselves anymore.
He lunged at her but I grabbed her and turned her around. Before Edward could bite into me, Bella pushed him back. Carlisle yelled at me to get her upstairs and that's what I did. I dragged her up those stairs until she wasn't moving fast enough so I scooped her up and continued the journey. I could hear Edward yelling, swearing at anybody-especially throwing words at me-so I went into Carlisle's study and slammed the door. I knew Nessie could still hear even if we were in a padded cell. She was scared. I could tell that just by her facial expressions.
Nessie covered her mouth and flinched when we heard a crash and Edward scream. I didn't realize that I flinched too. I didn't know if it was just nerves and I was on guard or scared. I dared him or anybody else to come up here. I've never seen Edward like this. He's always controlled it because he needed to be with his daughter. Like I do when my Gracie gets here. Edward has always kept his cool in tough moments-even when he was crazed when Bella was dying. I didn't know what to think of it.
Renesmee hopped on the bed and raised up her shirt to reveal her bare stomach. She started making popping noises and humming. If there was something wrong with her then she has a funny way of showing it.
I could already feel it. The act of wanting to protect her was washing over her. Nobody was going to touch her. She was mine.
"This room really stinks." she said as if nothing was wrong. I took my place next to her, getting as close as I could get when my instincts told me to stay away. I wondered when Carlisle was coming. I need to phase. Nessie was tired. I really want to see Sage and Grace.
"You know what's stupid?" she continued. "That even when we feel like we belong we really don't."
"What do you mean?"
"None of really belong somewhere. We all stumble around but never really find where we belong. Take me for example. I'm too strong in the human world and I'm too weak in the vampire. I have to find a happy medium." Nessie said as if we were talking of normal things.
I wanted to say she was perfect but I didn't when I knew she had a point. "Or like me. "I'm too big in the human world but too small in the other." I joked. It made Nessie laugh so I actually did get somewhere.
"But these two," Nessie smiled, poking her stomach. "are going to be perfect."
I couldn't help but place my hand on Nessie's bare stomach. "They have a lot of obstacles to jump over."
Just then Carlisle came walking through the door. For the second time since I've known the vampire family, he looked old and tired. And for the many times, I did too.
There was silence between Nessie and him. Tears trailed down her face that Carlisle wiped away. I had a feeling it was about Edward. I wasn't going to ask.
Carlisle got everything ready for the ultrasound. "Let's see how my great grandchildren are doing." he said, putting the wand on Nessie's stomach.
This is the part I hate. The not knowing if I was going to see my son and daughter. Nessie's skin was getting harder. We weren't for sure if the twins were more vampire than we thought or was it Nessie's body way of protecting them. It scared me to know that something could go wrong. Something will go wrong.
We saw them. Nessie gripped my hand tight while I smiled. It was a faint image like any other time but our eyes could see them. They were larger than an average baby would be at that time. They were beautiful like their mother. They will look like her. That's all I ever asked for was that my kids look like Renesmee. The size was something Carlisle was watching me but when their father's seven foot tall and their mother's close to six foot then yeah they'll be big babies. It was nothing to worry about only that by nine months Nessie will be gigantic. Literally.
She'll be fine. She'll be fine. Renesmee. Will. Be. Fine.
Carlisle was about to give us a verdict when Nessie all of a sudden started gagging and struggling to sit up. Carlisle pulled her up while I put a bin in front of her. By the second I got it in front of her she puked into it.
Nessie was practically leaning off the bed and against me once she was done. "I told you it stinks." she said into my chest.
"How are you feeling?" Carlisle asked, this time in grandfather mode.
"How are Sage and Grace?" Nessie asked instead.
Carlisle and Nessie stared at each other for a long time. I panicked. What was going on? "Somebody please talk out loud." I begged.
"Sage is in a position that could cause extreme danger to not only him but also to Nessie and his sister. Grace is trying to take up most of the room. It may cause her to miscarry. She's so close that we need to keep them in for a few more months."
"What's that suppose to mean? We already know the delivery will be tricky. Can't we induce or something?!" I shouted, making Nessie jump.
"Jake…" she trailed as she put her hand on my chest to calm me. "Let Carlisle explain."
"I could but inducing doesn't always fix everything-"
"So we put her on bed rest."
"No! Do you know how hard it is to have one, big stomach on top of you while you're lying in bed?! You're not carrying these two! I am!" Nessie shouted at me.
"I have to agree with Renesmee. Moving around will make her labor easier. Between now and in the morning everything could be okay."
"Can you at least say something good?" I asked as the choking feeling was coming back. No phasing. No phasing.
"Sage's position can always change. He can move and everything will be okay. I'll check in the morning to see if he's moved or not." Carlisle said, taking Nessie's hand.
"So I can make it to my due date?" Nessie asked with a smile. At least somebody was thinking positive.
"Knowing you, you'll make it happen." the vampire doctor answered with a smile. I was too busy ignoring the itch to phase.
Carlisle looked at me as I helped Nessie sit up and get off the table. "Congratulations, Jacob, on your acceptance. Do not worry about your school cost. Esme and I have that under control." Meaning: all you have to is worry about your school work, Nessie, and the twins. It wasn't a request. It was an have too.
"Thank you." I said. That didn't seem good enough. "For everything." Him and his family have taken me in as their own and I appreciated that.
Before stepping out, he stopped and looked at us. Then Renesmee nodded, wrapping her arms around my waist and got as close to me as she could. She then looked up at me and projected to me an image of going back to the cottage.
I wanted to take her to our meadow but how she was barely holding her eyes open I decided that it might not be best to do that. So I scooped her up and walked to the window.
"Jake, no." Renesmee voice blared in my mind when she figured out what I was about to do. She gripped me tight as if she was afraid I was going to shove her out of the window.
"Relax. We're just jumping out of a window." I soothed.
"But you could fall-"
I laughed as I flew out the window. Nessie squealed and buried her head in my neck. Once we landed on the ground I sprinted off in a fast pace run. I splashed through the water and drizzle, Nessie huddled close to me. I saw her crack a small smile. All I could do was stare at how beautiful she was.
"You're so beautiful." I whispered and she blushed.
"What's that suppose to mean?" she asked, batting her eyelashes. She was killing me. I wonder if she knew how bad her perfection was killing me?
"Nothing." I answered as I walked through the rose garden and opened the glass, sliding door. "I just don't tell you enough."
I sat her inside and kissed her cheek. I needed to phase. It was driving me insane. But the pout Nessie made was even worse. "Please stay." she begged. And that was all it took for me to give in to what she wanted.
We both washed up to get the smell off and crawled in bed. Nessie curled up to me and let out a sigh. I figured since all that's happen I wouldn't be able to sleep. I was wrong real quick.
It only seemed like I slept a good few hours before I felt Nessie jump. I was too tired to do anything but turn over and slip right back off to sleep.
"Jake, wake up." Nessie demanded. It hit me that something could be wrong.
I opened my eyes, fighting off sleep. I saw Nessie beside me raised up. One hand was on her stomach and the other on my chest. She was worried about something. She realized something.
"What's wrong?" I propped up on my elbow and rubbed my eyes to get the sleep out.
"It's us, isn't it." Nessie said, looking at me. "We have the strong connection."
I knew we already did but when Nessie projected me the exact similarities between us and what my dad explained it made sense. How were connect like magnets, how we knew what each other felt, how we were one person. It seemed at that exact moment, I could hear both our hearts beating at the same pace.
We were the chosen imprint couple. It never hit me until now. Maybe it's the reason why is the imprint/mate/true love connection. Even my father was confused about the story. That also mean Sage and Grace would be powerful. It means something bad can happen.
Why am I the one who's always in the tricky situations?
I turned to put my hand on her cheek. "Look at it this way. You can't get rid of me so easy."
"We can break it."
"I don't believe it." But I did. Could this mean something could happen? I couldn't bring myself to think about it. It can't be broken. My father was wrong there.
A tear reluctantly slid down Nessie's face and I wiped it away. "What if something happens to me or you. You'll feel it, then I'll feel, the you'll feel it and then-"
I didn't want her to think about that. If something happen to Nessie, I wouldn't be able to move. I had no clue how I'll be able to handle Nessie's delivery. Could I keep my emotions in check? I hoped so. If I didn't, Carlisle would have me as far away from her as he could get me. I wouldn't be there to watch my son and daughter's birth. I wouldn't be able to be there for Nessie when she needed me.
"Don't worry about it, okay? We'll both be okay. You, me, Sage, and Grace. What you need to worry about is how you want to decorate the house-our new house." I said, kissing away the last bit of her tears. I tried to tell myself that we would be okay, and in my half asleep state, I believed it.
We would be okay.
~~~~Forever Ours ~~~~
Nessie's point of view:
I held Jacob's hand as we walked down the beach. Today was his birthday and it was the first time I've seen him since the nigh before. I was hoping to wake up early and cook him a big birthday feast. When I woke up he wasn't there. He left a note saying he wanted to get a start on everything early. He's called every now and then but that wasn't enough. I could tell he wanted to be with me.
Jacob said we would be okay. That our strong connection wouldn't break no matter what. Then why did it worry me about our future? About Sage and Grace?
We were moving! Not just to La Push but to the other side of the United States. I was going to miss this; but I was so happy for Jacob and surprised at how he was really going forth with moving. He was doing this. Moving. He was really wanting too. I would support him with anything, but it worried me if he's taken on too much. I could handle the twins. I have my family but I would still have to learn. Jacob's got to run the tribe, his pack, his business plans, and be a father. I had the easy job where Jacob…
"Penny for your thoughts." I heard my Jacob say as we let the water on the beach lap over our feet. I was already in La Push when Jacob finally thought he would take a break. I loved this. These few minutes I have with him.
I projected that I wasn't really thinking on anything particular but I was just thinking. Jacob brought me closer to him and smiled, kissing my cheek. "About…"
I bit my lip. Should I tell him? He would assure he would be okay when his mind was off in another world that wasn't with me. There was so many things that we running around in his head that it gave me a headache. I eventually had to just ignore him.
"Oh…the house, the twins' nursery. I'm going to see if I can go with Alice, Esme, and Rosalie in a few weeks to our house." I halfway lied.
Jacob gave me a look. He thought I shouldn't be walking around much less get on a plane and help us prepare to move. Miraculously, though, Sage seems to have moved just like Grandpa told us that he might. It was still something to keep a close eye on but other than that, since this morning, my pregnancy is going good. It still sucked to be seven months pregnant with twins. The closer I get to my due date, the harder it seemed to do anything. To sleep, to relax, to move around. Was it too early to say that I was ready for these two cage fighters to come out?
"Is it weird to sat this feels like a dream?" Jake asked, pulling me closer to him. I bit inside of my cheek to hide my hurt when I felt him shift in a painful, uncomfortable way. "The getting into Dartmouth, us moving, you, the babies…"
I could understand. I wanted too. I have the most amazing boyfriend that I wanted to marry. I had the best two one quarter vampire twins-and only. We were moving into a really nice house. We were going to be successful. I had everything I wanted. Everything I needed. If I had everything then why do I feel so unsafe in this perfect world?
I stopped, feeling Sage-or Grace-move. I put Jacob's hand so he could feel them but the pain and a gust of wind blew and I moved closer to Jacob. I was so cold, which scared me because I never get cold; and I was scared of the pain. What if something happen?
"Happy Birthday." I showed him, not able to speak. I was so close to shivering and I couldn't show that.
I could sense Jacob. He wasn't going to admit it that he went to see Sarah and Rebecca's graves and shouted at the spirits why did they take them away. He wouldn't admit that he cried. Over his looses, over me and what could happen, over the worry, over the anger, and over the fact that he was scared. He wasn't going to admit that he wanted to leave.
"Sorry." he whispered, knowing that I knew. He was not sorry. He was anything but that.
"Just go." I mumbled, pushing him off of me. Who wanted to spend time with a pregnant chick anyway.
Jacob wrapped me in a bear hug. I punched him in the chest. "Let go of me!" I shouted.
"Not until you give me my present." he grumbled in my ear.
"You said you didn't want any."
"Only a kiss from the most beautiful woman on this universe. Is that too much to ask?"
"Maybe." I realized I was laughing and reached up to kiss him. If there wasn't shouts and Jacob pulling away, I could have kissed him. If I didn't hear the shouts and see Jacob's panic sprint, my curiosity wouldn't have got the best of me. I should have gotten mad but I didn't. I only cradled my stomach and tried to run. It looked silly but that's what I get for being knocked up.
When I got to the parking lot I saw an old Chevy muscle car that cut off a Ford F150. I saw two thugs kick at something so I got closer not matter how bad Jacob wished for me to leave. I could feel his worry about me being near them.
I stepped behind the truck as Sam, Quil, and Jake ran up behind the two guys. I saw a good look of the person on the ground. His face was bleeding and my stomach wanted to heave. He looked like he was taking steroids. I'm assuming this was Jordan.
"Enough!" Jacob yelled, slamming the guys on the ground. All three of my wolves were angry and me being here was only making it worse.
"We told you not to come back." Quil spat.
"We just came back only to teach this little punk a lesson." one of them said. I snuck closer. None of my wolves seemed to notice.
"I'm sure he could have learned it without being kicked in the face."
"Bullcrap!" Jordan yelled, lunging at the two but Sam stopped him.
"I said enough. This is my tribe and I will not tolerate this!" my Jacob commanded, sharing glares between the three trouble makers-make that four when he glared over at me.
"Leave." he thought.
"No."
"He's lucky we're not doing that to him with his smart-" one of the guys mumbled to the other but couldn't finish when Jake dragged him up by the neck and yanked him right in his face."
I gasped when I saw Jacob's face. Hard, cold, about to loose it. "Wanna say that again? How about you rethink that decision of wanting to beat me with no cause? Or since you and your buddy over there likes playing dirty, how about you take a swing on us? Three against two seems pretty fair to me." Jacob smirked but I could hear the venom in his voice. The two thugs could only gulp.
"Ness, leave." Sam thought. I stayed still, only getting closer. The tremors were going through my wolves and I swear I saw Jordan's body shake. He was about to phase soon. Like today as in now.
"Nn-no tha-that's is alright. We-" the smart one stumbled but Jake cut him off as he yanked the poor dude a lot closer.
"I swear, if I see you two on this reservation again you will be sorry. I'll give the two of you what you truly deserve." Jacob threatened, throwing the two on the ground again.
They turned up to look at me. One cocked an eyebrow and grinned. Even Jordan noticed me between the immense pain he was in. I had no clue why everybody thought I was beautiful. I'm pregnant. Big deal.
"Why hello, beautiful." one of the guys said.
"Do not talk to her." Jacob growled. "Nessie, leave."
"Nessie, huh?" the other one mused. "Nessie, how about you wait until we're done with these three and we'll show you a good time."
Jacob seemed to have enough and crouched down low and got in the thugs' ear. He was lethal. He didn't let it show to the others but I knew him. But he also looked smart, in command and…hot.
"I'm going to only say this once so you better listen up." Jacob said in a low voice. "I will only give you ten seconds to get in your car and leave. If you do, I will forget anything that has happen since our encounter. Just, here's the catch, you don't come back." Jacob could help but laugh. "Now if you choose not to follow what I've set out then…I'm just going to have to remember. If you come back then the bets are off. Do we have an agreement?"
The two nodded, afraid of Jacob, as a strange, dingy thought popped up in my head. Jacob would be good in this life. He would be a good business man. He could do it. Now I just needed to focus.
"Also, I'm pretty sure if you don't get in your car by ten seconds these two gentlemen behind me would love to do the job of making you." Jake motioned to Quil and Sam behind him and then started to count. Before he could even get close to five the two got in their car and sped off. I guess they weren't so interested in me after all.
Jacob didn't even flinch but his face showed how much he wanted to kill me. I couldn't help but shrink back but thought latter of it and held my head up straight.
"I had them! I didn't need your help!" Jordan yelled, pushing at Quil His face was covered in blood. Oh no.
"By the look on you face you really needed it." Quil spat back. He looked so close to being where Jordan is now. All the three were.
I was going to be sick but I couldn't leave. Two thoughts caught my attention. Young, scared thoughts. But the concentration broke when I felt a strong hand grip me. Jake. Both him and Sam glared at me while Quil was arguing with Jordan. This was going to be fun.
I opened my mouth to explain about the two scared ones in the truck. "Do not say anything. Not now, not any time soon." My Jacob warned. His voice was angry, lethal, and deadly. He was so going to kill me. My connection with him now was feeling what he felt and I was proved right.
If I didn't have to puke.
Before Sam or Jacob could do anything I felt my stomach heave. Just my luck. I heard Jordan let out a scream and shouts were made. I yanked away from Jacob and wiped my face, wiggling up and opening the back truck door. There I saw two kids, the twins, Ethan and Emma. She looked about eight or nine while Ethan looked older. Blood was pouring from his nose and ears, making me sick all over again, and was gripping his sister tight.
Jacob swore loudly and ordered Sam to take Jordan away from here. All I could hear was struggling, chosen words, and punches but I ignored it. I knew Jordan was ruthless. He would blow any minute. Right now, though, I focused only on one thing.
"Hi." I said to Ethan and Emma, making my voice light.
Ethan shook and Emma seemed too scared to talk. "We're not going to hurt you." I reassured them.
"Is-is Jordan going to be okay?" Ethan asked. "Wwwe want hi-him."
"He's going to phase too." I showed Jacoband Quil even though they already knew.
"He can't be." Quil thought back. Jacob only stayed silent. We were scared. I wonder if I could ignore the connection because we're not going anywhere with this.
Jacob and Quil huddled around me to keep from puking. I needed to stay semi okay. This was hitting home for all three of us. "
He'll be okay." Quil reassured. I don't know if it was meant for Ethan or if he was trying to tell himself that Ethan would be okay.
Jake said something in Quileute to Quil. All I caught was the word Kaleb. I felt Grace jump in excitement. She wakes up now? Even Jacob could feel her through me. This was not going to end well.
Quil ran off and it was just Jake, I, Ethan, and Emma. We had to do this. What if our twins were in this predicament. What if Sage was in Ethan's shoes and Grace was in Emma's. It would kill Jake. It would kill me but I would take it a lot better than their daddy will.
"What's your names?" Jacob asked, surprisingly calm. He won't be once we're done here.
"Ethan."
"Emma." she then turned to me. "You're pretty."
I smiled at her. "Not as pretty as you."
She was. Brown hair, tan skin, brown eyes. A girl version of the cute little boy beside her. "I'm Nessie and this is Jacob." I pointed out.
Ethan shook all over and eventually started sobbing. My heart broke for him as I heard him scream in pain and yell for us to make it stop. We were powerless against what was about to happen. Jacob pushed passed me and reached his long arms through the door. He was calm but that was only due to the twins. He was going to deal with me later.
The wind blew, slapping me in the face with a scent of blood and Jake's scent. It was making me sick but also thirsty. I needed blood. I need blood.
Ethan gripped Jacob and cried out. Jacob was torn between me and Ethan. It pained me to heard Ethan's cries-adding along Emma's. She clawed at Jake to get her brother back. This could be our twins. Jacob taking Sage or Grace away. Ethan looked so young. Just a boy.
"Shhh, buddy. We'll get you away from here." Jacob soothed then turned to me. "Stay here with Emma until Kaleb can get here. Me and you will talk later."
Jacob gave me one last look before he took off, making Emma scream more. Jacob's heart twisted at the sound, making my pain worse. Screw the whole burning throat. I crawled up in the truck and pulled Emma close to me. She sobbed in my chest. The one time we need Kaleb, he's late. Probably sucking faces for all I care.
"Where's he taking my brothers? What's wrong with them? Can he fix them? I don't want to loose them!" Emma sobbed.
I figured it wasn't in my position to explain the tribes secrets but I was also pack so I guess it didn't matter. She was so young though. It would be hard for her to understand. Sometimes I barely understand it and I'm mentally older than her.
I soothed Emma as she cried, hoping Jacob was ignoring me because I was really feeling him. He was angry, worried, scared, understanding, tired, so many emotions running though him. I was so worried about what Jacob would so. I was scared for poor, young, Ethan. My son can easily be in his shoes.
"Can I see my mom?" she asked. I nodded and told her we need to wait for somebody first. She nodded and curled closer to me. The flame in my throat burned but I ignored it. All I could do was think about Jordan and Ethan.
"Emma? How old are you and Ethan?" My curiosity got to the best of me. I had to know. This could be my Gracie. Sage could be in Ethan's shoes…
"Eight." What! How can that be possible?
I couldn't speak. That means Ethan will be frozen at eight until he stops phasing. He looks a little bit older but he's young enough to know that he's a kid. He'll be the youngest wolf that there's ever been. I always thought there was an age limit. Teenage boys become men-warriors. Not eight year olds!
I was fine with my twins having the Quileute warrior blood. I was fine with them phasing into wolves because I know it was something we could not avoid. Even when I understood part of me prayed that there would be enough vampire in them that stopped it. Jacob didn't want it to happen for so many reasons only he could understand. I had mixed emotions. I wanted them to be like my Jake but I wanted them to have a full life. It doesn't matter. I will love them no matter who or what they take the most after. Sage Edward and Isabelle Black will be perfect no matter what.
Just then Kaleb came up. Grace seemed to leap for joy in which brought on another pain. I hid it and turned to glare at him. Emma only shrunk down next to me. She was more than terrified. She wanted her mother. She wanted her father alive. She wanted her brothers to be okay.
"You're late." I said, pressing down a growl even though I was excited to see him.
"Sorry I'm not as perfect as your boyfriend." Kaleb said with a smile but I could see something else. The pain and longing. He needed to forget that and stay away from my daughter. Jacob really needs to ignore our connection right now.
"Who are you?" Emma asked.
"A friend of your brother's." Kaleb smiled back. "We're going to take you to your mom."
Kaleb helped me out of the truck. He explained to Emma that he was taking her home and shut the truck door. "Jake wants me to take her home, have someone keep an eye on her, and he wants me to make sure that you go home right away."
"I will. After we take Emma home." I said, crossing my arms over my chest to show my determination. Grace was jumping up and down with excitement, making her brother wake up and join in. Pain flashed though me but I tried to hide it. Out of all the times Grace has kept me up all night and slept during, she picks now to be awake?
Kaleb glanced at my stomach. I had no clue if he was glaring at it or not but all he did was just look. "Jake said no negotiations." he mumbled in a monotone.
"She's only eight." I showed him.
"Well, perfect boyfriend told me that he would kill me if you didn't get back. It won't be the first time. I'd prefer if he goes ahead and does it all the way."
I snorted. "He's bluffing."
"You still need to go back."
I rolled my eyes. I'm so sick of that place! It's like a prison!"
"You'll be moving soon. You'll have too."
I couldn't help it anymore. I projected how I was so sick of being useless, of having everybody right underneath me, of being stuck in a prison, of fighting, of being pregnant, of barely holding onto my mate. That all stopped when Kaleb's lips crashed onto mine. I was so taken back by the shock that I hit against the truck. I had to stop this. He wasn't my mate. He wasn't the father of my twins. He was just some guy. He was just Kaleb.
I pushed him back and hissed, forgetting Emma. How dare he! I'm with Jacob! And if he didn't want a punch to the face then better loose that grin!
"You're still a good kisser." he smirked.
"I didn't kiss back."
"You know you did-or at least wanted too. I'm going to miss you when you hide away."
That made me stop and look at him. Hide away? From what? "What are you talking about?"
Kaleb looked away to hide either a smirk or a grimace. It was gone before I could fully see what it was. "He didn't tell you?"
"Tell me what?"
Kaleb shivered and backed away a little. Pain and trauma were in his cobalt blue eyes but he told me anyway. "Jake let Finn got the night I got bit."
I shook my head no. Jacob wouldn't lie to me. He wouldn't move just to hide. He would never lie to me! Kaleb was just making this up!
"No. If Finn was alive then the Volturi would be after us." I said, walking to my car. Kaleb followed me.
"Whenever Jake gets home ask him. Or if you want, you can read my mind." he said. "Thoughts don't lie."
Before I could respond Kaleb threw everything at me. I know we should be with Emma but what I saw made me frozen and numb. Jacob did lie to me! As Kaleb laid in withering pain, Jake hesitated on killing Finn. He saw the heartbreak in his eyes. Instead of killing him, he threatened that if he took another step in Washington, Jacob would kill him.
I mumbled thanks and got in my car. Kaleb hesitated by door but ran back to Jordan's truck. I was too numb to look when he pulled off. I didn't pay attention to the twins' kick. The box full of Jacob's childhood memories was like a flashing neon sign. I dropped by his house before meeting him here. I planned on doing baby book for the twins but now I wanted to know what else Jacob Black has lied to me about.
I sped off, my body on autopilot. Jacob lied to me. I kissed Kaleb I couldn't keep this away from him. Even when he lied to me, he still needed to know that Kaleb and I kissed. It was a kiss that meant nothing to me. Not now. Jacob's were the one that left and made their presence known. I needed to think about our future. I couldn't let us get back to square one. Sage and Grace were going to be here March twenty-second. We were not ready. I wanted us to focus on that more than if we could trust each other or not.
I bit my lip as I thought of all that just happen. Ethan. He was too young. Twelve was normally where Jacob tried to stop it. Jacob felt that eight was way to young and I agreed with him. That mean anybody could phase. Kierra, Channing, Will, Grace, or Sage. Billy says that the magic would awaken inside them when danger was near. What would this mean?
Finn…he was still out there. He was still hating me. He probably told the Volturi. They are probably gather up an army just to kill us. Not that they needed an army. It would probably be just for show. Just we would all die. Probably before I gave birth.
Jacob and Kaleb…Kaleb's kiss never meant anything to me. I thought he and I would be friends. Right now I just wanted him to stay away from me. It would be a total waste of time but that's how I felt right now.
And with Jacob…he still didn't trust me. It was as simple as that.
~~~~~ Forever Ours ~~~~~
I walked into the house, glaring at each member of my family. The drive home I was at least able to think maybe my family would tell me more since Jacob didn't plan on it.
"Why didn't you tell me that Jacob let Finn go?" I asked all of them. So many things hit me at once. The horrible smell, pain, shiver, and cravings. Really?
"We thought that since it was on Jacob's lands that it was his choice." Daddy said.
"And…" I pressed.
"It was his choice."
"But I'm the one Finn hates for some God awful reason. I'm Jacob's girlfriend. I'm who's carrying his twins! I'm the one who is left out on everything because everybody thinks I'm so freaking weak!" I shouted, my voice getting louder and louder.
"Renesmee, calm down. You don't need to get worked up." Grandpa soothed. That only made me angrier.
I knew I was taking my anger out on them when I shouldn't be. What I should really be worried about was me being cold and the pain I'm experiencing. I should be worried
about Jacob, the Volturi…
My stomach heaved and I ran to the nearest bathroom and threw up. When I opened my eyes I had hoped Jacob would be there. He wasn't. So to keep myself from throwing up more, I held my breath, went to grab Jacob's memories and my camera, and walked upstairs like the good little girl I am.
"Nessie…" my mother trailed as she walked beside me.
Instead of answering her, I projected how much I wanted to see the new house. How I was so sick of being stuck here doing the same thing over and over. I wished my pregnancy was something to be happy over. Not full of anger, hurt, fighting, and stress. I had two more months too go but I was already tired of being pregnant.
As I threw all the crap on the bed I rubbed my face. I still needed my printer and laptop. Momma wrapped me in a hug, expecting the tears to come out of her hormonal daughter but none came. I didn't cry even when I wanted too. I don't know why but tears will not come. I kissed Kaleb, yelled at my family, and hated but loved Jacob.
"Do you want help with this?" Momma asked. Still holding my breath, I nodded.
As she went to grab the baby albums and other stuff from the cottage, I started shuffling though pictures. I found a picture of Rachel and Rebecca when they were asleep on Billy's chest. A picture of Jacob when he was a toddler with the same mischievous grin he wears now. I came across a family portrait of the family. They were all at the beach. Billy and Sarah on one side, the kids in the middle. They all wore white and were smiling. That was probably a happy moment. I turned to look when it was dated and found that it was only two months before Sarah died.
I found letters that went unopened. They were all meant for Jacob. I wondered why he never read him but it was Jacob. He had a method to his madness. I wanted them to open them up when I got sidetracked by something. It was a dream catcher. Feathers and beads hung off the circle by a leather string. A carving of a howling wolf sat in the middle on the dream catcher. It was so beautiful.
Momma came back with all our needed items. "What's that?" she asked, sitting next to me.
"A dream catcher." I mused. I found myself rubbing the wolf charm that Jacob me. I clasped it to my bracelet when the chain was long past gone. My hand grazed my stomach when I finally felt the twins settle down.
As my mother went through the pictures I picked out I ran my hands over the monogrammed names. We made two copies of all our pictures so it could be put in both books. The long hour process only seemed to take several minutes. We had pictures of Jacob, his family, his childhood, and all of mine. My small family and what little childhood I had. Having my mother here was nice but I also wished Jacob was here too. Despite my inner argument I wished Kaleb was here too. I just wished everybody was here with me and we would be one big, happy family.
I looked at the window, hoping Jacob was close by. I hoped everybody was okay. I hoped Jordan can control his anger so he could go back to living his life. I hoped Ethan can just handle the change long enough to wear he can go back to being just an innocent boy. I hoped Finn calmed down and went back to the vampire, bachelor, bungalow. I hoped the Volturi would hold off so Sage and Grace could live. I hoped I could find a way to protect them in this crazy jumble we're in.
My face must have revealed my worries because my mother wrapped me in another hug. "Nessie, it's going to be okay. Jacob just wants to protect you." she murmured, still expecting tears.
"Kaleb kissed me, Jake lied to me, my life's in danger. What else is okay? Everything's just…perfection" I said with mock cheeriness.
Momma put her hand on my stomach. "Are you going to tell Jacob?"
The part of me that was so angry at him told me not to tell him. You want to know the funny thing, though? Even when I said I hated Jacob I still loved him. In his mind he was protecting me. Maybe he was and I just could not see it yet. Jake had a funny way of doing things. Hence the unopened letters. I could be mean and hide it from him. That meant giving Kaleb the satisfaction of my relationship crumbling. Jacob and I had to stay strong.
"I should." I answered, running my hands over the dream catcher. Something settled deep inside my stomach and I looked away. "I will the next time he decides to see me."
Momma gave me a tight smile. It was hard being the imprint of the Alpha. He was never fully mine. Because he always will be his pack and tribe's too. I wanted him but also knew he should be out there. He loved it. He let his wolf out along with the stress of the day. The woods called to him like blood called to a vampire.
"I want to go see our house." I showed my mother.
"We'll see." she thought back. "Carlisle will give you the heads up if you can travel or not. I'll see if I can get Jacob." she walked out the room and I was finally alone.
I glanced at the window again. Jacob or Kaleb. Jacob. Do I act stupid and go hunt him down? Not the best idea. Am I bored out of my mind? I'll let you be the judge of that. I thought it would be a good idea to stay here and not by myself to earn brownie points with Jacob.
I brought out the letters. I wanted to read them but they were Jacob's. At first I thought they were long lost love letters but I knew Jacob wouldn't do that. They were meant for him. As I looked closer I learned that they were from his mother. Now I knew why he didn't read them. I don't know how it feels to loose a mother and I hoped to never find out; but why did Jacob never open up about it? Fully. He's given me bits and pieces but that wasn't enough. He knew everything about me but he won't let me in so I can know him. Can't he trust me?
Oh, that's right! He lied to me about Finn. I guess I have my answer.
"Nessie." Speak of the devil.
I got out of bed, walking to the gigantic wall. When I got there I saw my russet wolf-and Kaleb not far from the tree line. But what I also saw was a dark gray wolf that looked angry and a small, gangly cream colored wolf. Jordan and Ethan.
Jordan saw me and started yelling ever profanity he could think of. Several wolves tackled him to the ground and bit him but Jacob just turned to glare at him. I was shocked at how calm he was but figured it was probably due to me and Ethan.
"She's mine. One hair out of place with her and I won't regret killing you." Jacob threatened calmly.
"No private conversation?" I asked.
He wanted to be alone but was too afraid to leave Ethan alone with his brother. Ethan was too scared to phase back and Jordan was too angry. It seemed Jacob's fears came true.
"I'll come up there." my wolf thought.
"I'll come down there."
"Don't you even think about it you-" Jordan yelled but was cut off by Jake's threats. Ethan shrank back. My heart twisted for all of them.
"No." Jacob though, looking at me. "It's not safe and we need to talk."
"But I miss my russet wolf-"
"RENESMEE!" Jacob's voice blared in my mind. I jumped back. It was okay. Jacob was just stressed. Well, he was already mad at me and I knew he already found out about the kiss so maybe this was just minor.
As my tense, angry wolf made his way to mine Ethan followed and got right under Jake's legs, making them both tangle and fall to the ground. Jacob was about to growl when he saw Ethan's thoughts.
"I won't be gone long, kid. Let me just check on Nessie." Jake soothed to Ethan, nudging the young wolf away. Ethan whined again as Jacob made his way closer to the house.
Despite myself, I ran out the room and down the stairs. I had no clue why I was so excited when I knew he was going to kill me. I had no clue why part of me wanted Kaleb when he was trying to ruin my relationship with the father of my children. Part of me wanted Jacob while the other wanted Kaleb. It was stupid. I would always choose Jacob. I would always want him. Jacob imprinted on me. Kaleb didn't. He just wanted something he couldn't have. I was just stressed out and my moods never stay the same. Kaleb was getting married. There was no reason why I would want him.
I stopped outside, seeing my Jacob in human form. I was disappointed. I missed my russet wolf. Jacob spent more time human around me now that I was pregnant. I'm guessing he doesn't want others in his head while he talks to his son and daughter. He didn't want others to feel his doubt and worry that right at the last minute my pregnancy would change for the worst.
Jacob saw my face and walked slowly up to me. He knows I know. He knows about the kiss that meant nothing because I'm so madly in love with him. He feels that I'm hurt about him lying to me. He feels my longing for him but also for Kaleb.
As Jacob's feeling became mine, my grip on his arm tightened. I looked away. He put his hand on my cheek to turn my face back on his. I could only avoid his eyes even when they were my safety blanket. I guess I'm still paying my consequences.
I pressed close to Jacob like a magnet. It scared me that I felt so cold. "Why did you lie to me?" I asked.
"I…" he tried to say.
"The Volturi, Jacob! They're going to come after us!" I shouted
"I know!' Jake shouted back. "Ness, I think I can understand what he's going through. Hard for me to say about a leech I hate, and I have no clue how I can understand. I just…have this gut feeling."
"I don't care about why you didn't kill him! I care about the fact you lied right to my face! Everybody has! Don't you know that I had to find out about you lying to me right after Kaleb kissed me! Did you hear that? Kaleb kissed me! Today. You complain how I don't trust you but you're the one with the trust issues!"
"Do you blame me? I mean, looking at how bad you've kept things from me. I'm sure I can name a few. You not telling me about Hailey, when Nahuel kissed you, you wanting to leave without me, you loving Kaleb, you cheating on me with Kaleb, you saying you didn't love me even when you did, and let's not forget the real reason we're here. You not telling me you were pregnant. I had to find out for myself."
"Stop throwing that up in my face!"
"Well… It'd be a lot easier if you answered my question." Jacob pressed.
I looked down. "No." I muttered. "But I may be pregnant but I'm not some porcelain doll that can break." I wanted Jacob to trust me. He needed too.
"I can argue with that." Jacob laughed. I slapped him.
He picked me up and gave me a chaste peck on the lips. "Is my kissing better than Kaleb's?" he thought.
"You have no clue." I smiled.
I was still hurt over the fact that he lied to me but I'll forgive him and Jacob knows it. So instead of just opening another argument door I was able to press onto another subject, knowing I had little time with my wolf.
"How's Ethan and Jacob?"
Jacob huffed. "They're not adjusting well. I'm going stay out there until they can handle it. I'll try to see you as much as I can but I can't make any promises."
I knew this would eventually happen so I just nodded. I wanted to know how long it would take but Jake didn't know. Every wolf was different. Some take hours to adjust to think life while others take days, weeks, maybe even months to adjust. Jacob could be gone for the rest of my pregnancy.
I realized I still held the dream catcher in my hand. "Look what I found." I chirped, holding it up. Jacob smiled and gently took it from my hand.
He ran his fingers over the wolf. "Dad made Becca and Rachel one when they were born and then he made me one too. The wolf's suppose to be for good luck. It's kinda a tradition in Dad's side of the family."
"I think it's beautiful…and ironic" I laughed, hoping Jacob would relax but he never did.
I felt his hand rub my stomach. "Where does this put Sage and Grace now, Ness? If they phase this young then where does it put them? Or any other kid that has the gene?"
"I don't know but I'm scared like you." I whispered. "What are you going to do about Ethan?"
Jacob reached up and rubbed his eyes. "I'll have to figure that out. I can call a Council meeting and talk to the Elders, or let him decide what he wants to do."
Despite my lack of time with my Jacob I wanted him to be out there with his brothers. He was born to lead. That's why I didn't bring up our move or his college. That will be all left up to him.
My Jacob sucked in a deep breath when he heard a bark from Brady. He looked at me, begging for me to say yes on going so he wouldn't have to feel the guilt. I wanted to say yes despite how I never got to spend time with him on his birthday. That was what I had to handle with being the Alpha's imprint. He'll always be halfway mine.
"Happy Birthday, my Jacob." I said, wrapping my arms around his neck and hugging him.
He pulled away and kissed me one good time. He might not be able to do it in a while. "I'm sorry. I'll try and see you as often" Jacob said, kissing me again. "And I'm sorry I never told you sooner about Finn. But I promise you, Renesmee, that you will be safe."
I nodded and watched Jacob to bend down to his knees. He placed both hands on my stomach and whispered something in Quileute to them. The then spoke in English, "Take care of your mommy, okay? Don't give her a hard time, you two. Daddy's so sorry and I love the both of you so much." he then kissed my stomach twice then got up, squeezing my hand.
"Come back to me." I said, already seeing the tradition.
"Forever." he smiled.
"Always?"
"You figure that out."
Jacob ran off and I saw my Jacob become my wolf. He then turned to look at me with those big, dark eyes and I smiled. He was my Jacob. I had to love him no matter what.
Right now we had no clue what our future will hold. I guess thing that happen today will change the game. I was ready to play. I would fight for the things I've wanted for so long.