Y… Yumi… -chan? – I asked with a slurred speech as I was a little drunk – w… what are you… doing… here?
I felt you needed me sweetie… - she then neared me – would you allow me to sit beside you?
O… Of course! – I pointed then to the place beside me, in which Yumi sat down, I offered to her then – hey, what about accompanying me, drink something… it is a long time… we don't do that…
Y… You are right – replied Yumi blushing slightly, after thinking some moments she replied – I want to drink the usual wine… we drink together…
Y… Your wish is an order! – I replied excited.
I stood up then and headed to grab one bottle of Caber Sauvigmeow harvest 1991, the best year for wine that Verona has ever seen; I would just open one of those when Yumi was together with me, despite all that happened lately, I appreciated her presence as this self-imposed solitude was actually making me really depressed; after opening it I poured its contents into her favorite wine glass and then I headed it to her; she appreciated the beverage's aroma, as she knew how to do that with mastery, tasting it in sequence; then she looked at me and said:
Thanks sweetie… I am glad you accepted me in this moment…
No one is… an island… as would say… our beloved… Nina… - I commented, hiccupping in the process.
Yes… - said Yumi, sipping a little more wine – I miss her so much…
And as it would always happen on those moments, we would just enjoy each other's company, which would make the solitude disappear; after she almost drank all he wine bottle, having just a little left in it, it was normal that Yumi would look at me visibly blushing and drunk and would lay her head on my shoulder, always in the same way, with her golden ear fur she would make it touch my cheek, staying like that for some moments; however that made a memory come back to my mind:
"- But Gabriel! There must be something else we might be able to do! – I protested, already crying.
Forgive me Richard… - replied Gabriel, our family doctor from since way I could remember – you know very well that if there was something else I could do, it wouldn't matter the costs and consequences… I would do it myself… - he then began crying.
I saw that doctor cry just on one another time, when all my family was killed by the earthquake; it was on that instant that I noticed that this case was irreversible, Nina had called Yumi to talk to her first, after some minutes she left the room crying a lot, just telling me that Nina also wanted to see me; it was at that moment that she said the bad things about the blonde nekomimi and how much I should avoid her.
On the following day we buried her, however we couldn't sleep, we were feeling the exact same manner we were now, drinking to wash away our sadness away, we sat the as we did that day on the very same place; however my mind tried to understand why Nina said all that to me "why?" I was thinking "you told me all those things?" I was pondering about why Nina said that Yumi was like that, seeing I loved her quite a lot; that was when I felt her standing up, putting her paw on my leg and then then began rubbing her face and ears on my face, at first it was really good; she fondled my head with her other paw, she then mounted my leg with her really soft bum right above my knee; it was going all too well when she tried kissing me…
At that exact moment, Nina's image and what she said came to my mind, which made me push her gently as to separate us, leaving her completely stunned and confused; at that time I told that I still didn't feel well to be doing that with Nina's death so near us, I also understood Yumi's behavior came from the fact she took a whole bottle of wine and be completely drunk; of course she crying in sequence, puking next, and then falling asleep right after".
This time it wasn't even a slight bit different, as it was always common on our relationship; paw on knee, rubbing her face on mine, and lastly, kissing me; in the beginning I actually reciprocated the kiss in the beginning, but then an image came to my mind and it wasn't Nina's! I cannot say exactly what happened to me at that time, I just opened my eyes when the kiss started and I imagined as if Akira would suddenly enter the room getting us red handed; looking at us with a shocked and stunned face, shouting something like "Dear! How could you! RICHARD, YOU ARE MEAN!" and would run out of the bedroom, disappearing forever; despite my drunkenness state, that delirium scared me quite a lot, making me try to push Yumi away; however I used to much strength that I actually threw her in the middle of the bedroom; after a groan of pain for falling sitting on the floor, she looked at me with somewhat an "I don't believe it" look on her face and said:
HEEEEY Rick! Why… *hic* did you do… that? – she then looked at me intently.
It is... I think… that I am not… ready for that… just yet… - I replied.
Something was dead wrong with me, I was incomprehensibly bothered with Yumi's proximity! I couldn't stop thinking, no matter how much I tried, in Akira's sad face in case she saw me doing something more intimate with the blonde nekomimi! What was even more weird was that, why was I thinking that my personal caretaker would actually be hurts by this; worse, why did that thought worried me so much? What the hell was going on with me? Why I was thinking so much about the little one lately? That didn't make any sense! Some time ago, this was all I could have dreamed of! A chance for something more intimate with her! I was pondering about that and didn't noticed that Yumi had stood up and was attacking again:
Ohhhhhh *hic* coooome oooon sweetie – she tried kissing me again, my reflexes made me push to keep her away; as I would do to Lívia – I waaaaaant to kiiiiis *hic* yoooou… let me maaaaaake ooout with yoooou… I am… like allllll hooot for you….
S… Sorry Yumi-chan! – I pushed her again, throwing her again to the ground, seeing I was feeling extremely uncomfortable – b… but I cannot… do this… I am not… ready yet… it is early… - I lied, it wasn't because of Kikuri, but because Akira.
Eeeeearly? – asked Yumi, making a weird face – sweeeetie… you know you waaant me… do not try to resist me… noooo…
M… My Saint Meow Yumi-chan – I replied scandalized in a way, seeing her behavior was so frivolous that reminded me of Enma – you are a… acting in a way that is seems like Enma is here…
I… am just beeeing myseeeelf… - replied Yumi, trying to get near me again – come one… silly booyyy… forget that… bitch that tried… to take you… away from me… and leeeets have… fun…
The bothering sensation suddenly changed to the same rage I felt that day when I placed her on the punishment trunk, instinctively I pushed here away again and stood up; I was really mad at that moment, my drunkenness seemed to have disappeared completely at that moment, that was why I pointed on that direction and shouted:
How dare you? How dare you talk about her with that foul mouth of yours! Shut up at this instant! – I ordered.
Whaaaaaaaat? – Yumi taunted me in a very drunk way, standing up as well – she comes with a… silly story… *hic* to foooool you… and the suckeeer… here falls right… into it! If you… wanted soooooo badly… fuuuck someone… why not… taking any other… woman?
Cretin! – I scandalized myself even further with Yumi, becoming even angrier at her – you have a lot of never to say that about me! That never went after women with that intent! What is going through your head to say that?
I just… have the… truth! – she replied, slowly recovering a bit of her sobriety – this kind of women… just hunt… for rich… innocent or dumb… people like you… hookers all of them…
Close that accursed mouth of yours right now! – instinctively I slapped her in the face with the back of my hand, making her be throw away, having to hold on Akira's dressing table, knocking down some of the things that were there; she then turned around towards me and fulminated me with a gaze full of hatred, howling.
You are disgusting! Exactly like what… Nina said! – she then spat at me, putting a cat-fu attack position – you use us and… when you get tired… throws us away! She said… that you… weren't worthy it!
Wretched! – I gripped my teeth after shouting, also preparing my cat-fu position – I shall not allow you to talk any more nonsense about my beloved Nina! She was right! That you were manipulative and decided to get betting in life and after committing a mistake, getting free from slavery at my costs! Exactly as you said Kikuri did herself!
You are despicable… Richard! – she then said attacking me – I will not allow… you to say something… of her… you abuser!
Yumi then assaulted me in close corporal combat, even when she was sober she never won a fight against me, being intoxicated made her had no chance at all; I just needed to dodge two very poorly aimed punches, to the side, then she tried clawing my face, to what I just blocked with my right hand and with a very well placed twist of her paw, I threw her violently on the ground face down, arm locking her in sequence as to make her be immobilized; I ordered to her then:
Ask for forgiveness you bitch – I had a very dense and big hatred forming inside of me and didn't know why, not even what was it, I just made the arm lock tighter and shouted again – say you are sorry!
Never! – replied Yumi, trying to break free from my hands – she was… right! You are exactly… like the other… nobles! You abuse… all! Abuse… all… of us! Abuse… abuse…
I am not an… abuser! – I replied, when something weird began happening, the word "abuse" began echoing on my mind, in instants, I remembered something I believed I had erased from my memories completely.
"- Brother, stop please! – I begged, with my arm locked in an arm lock behind my back; I didn't understand why were they doing this to me – it is hurting!
Ohhhhh do you think this hurts brat? – said my older brother, tearing my pants, followed by the sound of a zipper bring opened – you shall see what is pain! – I felt then he placing his hands on my waist and an extremely fierce pain on my rear region was felt, making me faint right afterwards."
You whore… how you dare call me that… I am not like them… I am not… not even a bit… alike them – I then began locking her arm with so much strength that if I didn't let go soon, I would surely break it; an uncontrolled feeling was blooming inside of me giving my courage, but scaring me at the same time.
Richard, stop please! – begged Yumi, to my joy – it is hurting!
Normally I would stop at this point, in our worst fights and arguments I would always stop when she would surrender or ask me to stop, as her pride was so big she wouldn't admit losing so easily; I intended to let her go at this moment, however something stopped me in that intention and suddenly, scared and in fear as a passenger in an out-of-control car, my body seemed to be moving alone; saying in sequence:
Ohhh do you think this hurts bitch? – I grabbed her tail and I pulled it along with the arm I was locking, so as to make her stand – you shall see what pain is!
As soon as Yumi stood up, despite she was still curved because of the arm lock; I dragged her to my bed and, with a strength I just used against my enemies, I threw her on the bed; as she was thrown with one of the arms locked on her back and tail, as it is an indescribable pain to nekomimis, a groan of pain was heard and she became visibly dizzy, with a quick movement I went to a nearby drawer and got two pairs of handcuffs one for the arm paws another for the legs, leaving her face down, I handcuffed her arms behind her back and the legs together on the ankle level; I waited she recover her senses completely and, as soon as she tried to move herself she noticed she was immobilized, confused she asked:
R… Richard? A… Am I chained? – she uselessly tried to move, noticing then she was immobilized – what is… going on here… sweetie?
Sweetie my ass Yumi! Shut that filthy mouth of yours bitch! – I replied smacking the back of her head, in a tone I never dreamed using, with a very low vocabulary – what is going on here? You still have the nerve to ask me that? – I then placed my hand on her ass, closing it tightly in sequence, grabbing her mini-skirt in the process – as you insist on being a false slutty nekomimi; I shall show you what is going to happen! – it was at that moment that I noticed horrified; that I was nothing more than a passenger on my own body, even against my will and using of a very strong pull, I ripped her skirt out of her.